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Tsukasa was really surprised to see the door to her 'prison' opened. She saw Reborn, Mukuro and Hibari enter. "You're allowed to go out now, Dame-Tsuna" Reborn informed her. Tsukasa just continued looking at the floor like it was the most interesting thing in the world. Never once did her eyes left the floor to look up just once to the three's faces. She can't help it. She doesn't know what to do. She still can't decide. Mukuro raised an eyebrow because of her actions. Even though he's not showing it on the outside, he's really worried.
"Oya, Is something troubling you?" Mukuro asked. Tsukasa just shook her head, afraid that her feelings might show if she talked.
"Tsuna…" Hibari said or you could say whisper since no normal people will be able to say it.
"Don't… Don't call me Tsuna. I'm Tsukasa for the moment. If someone heard us, we'll get in trouble." Tsukasa said, finally looking up, forcing a smile. "I'm not feeling well for the moment. Sorry for worrying all of you." she told them.
"We'll be going now. We have to go to the other meeting with another family with the Millefiore. Make sure you've got enough rest because if you don't, I'll not be able to train you." Reborn told her. The three left knowing that Tsukasa is telling a lie and she have to be alone for the moment. After they left, Tsukasa lay down and closed her eyes thinking of her recent discoveries. She really wants to know who her brother is even if he's dead or not.
'Why can't I see his face clearly? Why?' she thought sadly. She fell asleep without even knowing but her sleep was never the same dreamless, peaceful or happy sleep as it was before. It was filled of nightmares of her past now. She decided to go to Nana. She doesn't have to hide now since she's free to go wherever she wants now. She knocked the door before she walked in to alert whoever is inside. Nana opened the door, smile plastered on her face. Somehow, it lessen the horrible feeling she's feeling right now. She entered inside the room. Nana motioned for her to sit down. They always talk with each other since she accidentally entered there. "Nee, mama. You told me you daughter was killed by someone you trusted. If… If you ever met that person again, would you forgive that person?" Tsukasa asked, saying the word mama awkwardly but at the same time with the feeling like its right, since Nana insisted that she call her mama. She also wants to ask Nana about her opinion.
"What do you think you should do? Do you really hate that person? Is it really your last decision? What did that person do? Does that person deserve it?… You must answer those questions. If you manage to find the answers to those questions inside your heart, then you'll know what you do. Life… Life isn't a drama or movie that has a script for it so the one acting as the character will know what to do without even thinking. Were not characters created to do what people want, expect or told us to. We should always do what we want without caring for what people expect us to because life isn't as sweet as what most of people believe to be. There's choices that we have to choose from that will either make us move according to what people wants us to and what we want to. It's not good to be selfish but doing something for yourself sometimes is not called selfishness. There are times when you really have to do something for yourself so don't do what normal people would do because it's other people's opinion. You are you and only you. They don't know what kind of hardship you're going through. Even if the circumstances are the same, you're two different people. I don't know what kind of problems you have but the answer is always inside your heart." she said with her eyes close. When she opened her eyes, she looked at Tsukasa. Somehow, even though she looks the same with the same smile and all but Nana feels different. When she first saw her, she thought that Nana is oblivious and kind of ditzy but understanding, kind and warm like a mother but now she know that she's wrong. She's not oblivious nor ditzy. Sure, she's like a mother but she's also a respectable woman with knowledge that most of the people wouldn't possess. Something that only a people who got through the hardship that none can imagine will have. Her gaze feels like it can penetrate to her very soul. She giggled. Nana turned back to her usual self. Nana blinked. "Ara, is something wrong with what I said?" Nana asked. Tsukasa shook her head.
"I just heard something similar to what you said from someone." Tsukasa answered. "Thank you. I'll be going now." With that said, she left. She went to her bedroom. Suddenly, a maid came running in as if her life depends on it.
"The meeting somehow turns up to be an ambush. Only the Vongola guardians were there. The Byakuran and the others will hurry to go there but they might take time." the maid said in between her pants. Tsukasa now have to make a decision fast. She has to decide whether to help the family that took away her real family or not. Tsukasa remembered what Nana told her earlier.
"What did they do?... Nothing. They just happened to be part of Vongola. Do I hate them?... I can never hate them. Do they deserve it?... I guess they don't. They don't even know about it. Besides, there must be a reason behind it and by blood or not, they're also my real family. Those bonds we have are not a lie. She smiled. "I'll go help them." She told the maid and rushed to the place where the meeting should have been held.
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Author's note: Thanks for those who reviewed and for those who wants to know about Tsukasa's past, it won't be long. I guess just another chapter and I'll make Tsukasa remember all or at least insert a character who knows it all and have him or her tell it. Sorry for the long wait and please review.