My parents had never got to meet her. They never got to look into her piercing blue eyes, Jack's eyes, of course they were. I had so many plans for her. I wanted her to grow up, work with us at Torchwood, even marry and have a family of her own. I always wondered if she'd end up marrying one of the twins. Two competitive boys, and if she was anything like Jack then they would be all over her. At least I'd know those boys would look after her. And maybe even one day she'd travel with The Doctor, seeing the stars. I wanted her to have a brilliant life.
Jack managed to organize some stuff and the funeral was the next day. Ha. My daughter's funeral. She wasnt even a week old. It was unnatural causes how she died, nothing the hospital could work out anyway. I didnt expect Owen or Martha to do a autopsy, it would scar them, and I dont think I would be able to bear it. They found her in her basket, in a ditch about 50 metres from Canary Whalf. Whoever had taken her, the police reckoned they were taking her there. We held a small service at the local church, us lot with Amy, Rory and Andy too. I said nothing throught the whole thing, just staring blankly. Jack said nothing to me. The last thing I'd said to him was that I'd lost my baby. Our baby. We hadn't said a word to eachother. Barely even looked. I wanted this to be over, I wanted to lay her to rest and forget about it. I wanted to forget everything. I wanted to be dead. After the short serivce we went outside to the graveyard, and started to lower the coffin into the ground. We all stood around silently, everyone crying except me. Andy was next to me, with his arm around my shoulder. Jack had stayed well away from me, on the other side of the burial, watching his little girl being taken into the ground slowly.
"I'm so sorry Gwen." Said Andy, squeezing my shoulder. I looked up to him, into his tearful eyes.
"It's ok." I said blanky.
"ITS OK?" Jack shouted from across the grave, turning everyone to stare at him. "If you didnt watch her, SHE WOULDNT BE DEAD!"
"It wasnt her fault!" Andy growled at him.
"Shut the fuck up PC Plod!" He stared angrily at me. "She's dead cause of you." Everyone gave him cold icy glares, and Martha tutted in disgust.
"You wanna know something Jack?" I screamed at him, crying. "You are just like Rhys." I whispered. I knew that last comment had hit him like a ton of bricks. I ran off, followed by Martha, River and Tosh.
"Maybe she should have given her to this Doctor bloke, she would have had a nice caring father instead of a fucking bitter Dad like you." Andy barked, and followed us leaving Rory, Amy, Owen, Ianto, The Doctor and Jack. The Doctor and sighed, just staring at Jack, not knowing what to say.
We all sat quietly in the hub. Jack, Rory, Amy, Owen, The Doctor and Ianto soon came in through the door, Jack storming ahead, marching up the stairs to his office.
"Wanna make much more noise?" I mumbled to myself. He stopped, looked at me and stomped his foot harder before turning back and carried on to his office.
"We better be getting back." Piped up Rory.
"We'll drop you off." River sighed. Amy came over and gave me a half hearted hug, before saying goodbye to the others.
"Why dont we all come for the ride?" Martha piped up, trying to hint to everyone we should be alone. They all piled into The TARDIS and it dissapeared within a matter of seconds.
I sighed and got up. I made my way slowly to Jack's office, quietly opening the door, he was sitting at his desk, his head in his hands.
"I should've kept a closer eye on her." I whispered still crying, standing next to him. He looked up at me, tears in his eyes. I took the glass of whiskey from his desk and drunk it, full of grief.
"No Gwen!" He gasped. I froze, glass still to my mouth.
"It had retcon in it didnt it?" I asked, slowly putting it down.
"Your not gonna remember us getting married or having Rivaella, everything just as normal, just without us. Your gonna think you've been staying with me at the hub for a very long time. Gwen, you shouldnt have drunk that, it was for me!"
I started to collapse and Jack pulled me into his arms, The TARDIS' engines could be heard from the main part of the hub, he carried me to the others as they came out of The TARDIS.
"I need a reverse procedure for retcon now!"
Everyone just stared at us, they knew there was no reverse, he slumped to the floor, me laying in his lap.
"I love you so much Jack." I whispered. Tears rolled down our faces as time started to slow down.
I blacked out.
I woke up with a startle, and a bloody banging headache. I got out of Jack's bed and hopped into the shower, got dressed and headed down to the hub. Everyone was already there, and it was nice to see Owen and Tosh back, it was lovely of them to come home early. The Doctor and River had left the night before so it was just us again, the old team.
"Morning!" I called down the stairs to everyone, walked over and picked up Maxwell, then Tyler giving them kisses and cuddles as they gurgled. Everyone was watching me, and everytime I made eye contact with them, they just gave me a sympathetic smile, I just shrugged it off. I sat down at my desk, landing with a sigh, and started looking through some paper work. "Nothing interesting yet then this morning?" I asked, looking round.
"Er, we wern't planning on doing anything today to be honest..." Said Tosh, who was still looking at me.
"Ok come on, is there something on my face or something?" I asked, looking at them all. They shook their heads and I rolled my eyes, looking round the hub. "Where's Jack?" I asked.
"Vaults." Ianto said, putting a coffee on mine and everyone elses desks.
I got up and headed down to the vaults. Jack was staring, lost in thought, looking into Janet's cell. I placed a hand on his shoulder.
"Everything ok?" I asked as I moved my hand and placed it within his.
"Mmm." He mumbled, looking into space. I felt something cold and metal against his finger, I took his hand and brought it closer to my face. He turned and looked at me, as if he was going to cry.
"What's this?" I asked, looking into his eyes, before dropping his hand.
"Something to remember, to remind me of something that once was." He sighed and brought his hand to his eye. He quickly wiped away a tear and walked off to the door, stopping in the doorway. "Something that isnt anymore."
I made my way back upstairs and sat back down at my desk, Jack nowhere to be seen.
"Guys?" I asked turning to them, Martha and Ianto with the twins on the sofa and Owen and Tosh at their desks. "Jack isnt married is he?"
They all stayed silent but kept their gazes at me.
"God what is up with you lot today?" I snapped and walked up to Jack's office, I knocked and walked in, but Jack was nowhere to be found, I walked over to the desk and something caught my eye. A joint photo frame with three pictures in. One of Toshiko and Owen holding a new born baby, and The Doctor and River holding the same baby, then again Martha and Ianto, with the same baby! I looked over to the last photo, a picture of me in the autopsy bay with Jack. I was holding a baby, probably only minutes old. I looked at me, holding the tiny child, and noticed a gold glimmer on my finger. It was similair to the one Jack was wearing. I slowly put the picture down, and looked at my own hand. The light shined against it, as I turned my hand over, on the bottom half of the ring it was engraved Jack.
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