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Previously:

"NOOOOOO! TYLER!" was all I could scream.

Now:

10 years ago:

Bella's POV:

I ran across the street to the familiar house. Tyler lives there of course. The house is white with a beautiful garden in front of it. Esme usually worked there. She wasn't outside today. That's weird. She's probably at work. I walked to the house and rang the doorbell. I waited a minute or two and then Tyler opened the door.

"BELLA!" he screamed happily. I had to laugh.

"Hey Ty," I replied. "Wanna go out?"

"Uh..." He looked down. "I'm not supposed to go out," he mumbled.

"Uh-oh. Tyler what did you do?" I asked shaking my head a little.

"Nothing..."Liar. His parents never grounded him for nothing. But he is a trouble maker so...

"Tyler?" I said in a warning voice. He looked up at me with a guilty expression.

"I uh... broke the windows?" he said though it sounded like a question- wait... windows? Plural?

"Windows? How many windows did you break?" I asked him confused.

He sighed and shrugged a little. "Three. All in my room." I started laughing like crazy. He did that for the second time!"It's not funny! Well... it was pretty funny until mom and dad saw it." I bet they were thrilled. To have a child who almost destroys a house everyday... must be fun.

"Okay. I'll go then," I said when I calmed down. "See you when you get out of jail." I turned around to walk away when he called me back.

"Bella!" he yelled. I turned around to look at him. "Are we still friends?"

"How can you even ask me that? Of course we are," I told him.

"Thanks."

I smiled and walked back to my house. Our house was lightly pink with trees in front of it. Tyler and me always climbed on them. Utill I fell down that is. Which wasn't very long. I walked into the house when my mom stopped me.

"Won't you play with Tyler?" she asked me.

"He broke the windows. He's grounded," I explained and ran up into my room.

~*°(Beautiful) Nightmare°*~

Now (10 years later)

I couldn't believe my eyes. What did just happen? Tyler was lying on the floor not moving. I ran to him ass the driver quickly drove away. I didn't know what to do. My whole body was shaking and tears were streaming down my cheeks. "Tyler?" I said. "Tyler wake up!" I started shaking his body a little. "TYLER WAKE UP! OPEN YOUR EYES! Please just open your eyes!" I started crying harder as I realized he wasn't breathing. There was a puddle of blood around him and I was kneeling into in. The rain was falling heavily on us. Don't leave me in all this pain. Don't leave me out in the rain.

"HELP! SOMEONE HELP ME!" I started screaming. A guy ran toward me dialing a number into his cell phone. He called the ambulance as I buried my face into Tyler's chest and cried into it. I wrapped my arms around him. "Don't leave me. Please don't leave me," I cried. I lifted my head and caressed his cheek. "Please don't leave me..." My voice broke several times.

"The ambulance will be here in a minute." The guy kneel next to me. "But I think that we lost him," he said sympathetically.

No, no, no! "NO!" I screamed and started hitting him violently on his chest. "He's not dead! NO!" Denial.

"Shh. Calm down. Shh. It's okay. It's okay," he said and pulled me into a hug. "Everything will be okay."

I pulled away and hugged Tyler again. He was so still. It hurt me see him like this. He always was full of life and now... he didn't even breathe. I was so scared. I kept crying until I heard a siren. Louder and louder. A few men ran to me and Tyler and pulled me away I fought back.

"Miss calm down. We're going to help him." a red haired guy said as he tried to drag me away from Tyler.

"Let me go! Tyler! No! Let me go!" I screamed. A doctor kneel next to Tyler and checked his pulse. I froze as he froze. I shut up. The doctor stood up and hinted to another man to come there. He came with a wheeled stretcher and a big black bad on it. I watched them as the put Tyler's body in it and zipped up the zipper on the bad. My mouth fell open as more tears ran down my cheeks. The red haired man was still holding me back.

Doctor walked to me and looked at me. I was just staring at them in disbelief. "I'm sorry. He died instantly. There was nothing we could do." He gave me a sad look and walked into the van. I fell down on my knees as my body shook violently. "NO! I screamed and cried harder. The red haired guy lifted me up and carried me into the van with him. I was still screaming and fighting him. I couldn't take the pain that I felt inside.

"It's your falut! YOU KILLED HIM!" I yelled at doctor and fought against the red haired man again. "You made him go away! It's your fault! NO! TYLER! You made him leave..."

"Get the tranquilizer!" he shouted. I felt a little shot in my arm, but then I just fell. I didn't move anymore. I didn't make a sound. I didn't fight anymore. I was completely still just tears were still running out of my eyes.

"Better get her to the hospital. And call her family," one of the men said as the van driver started driving. "Miss? Can you tell me what happened?" he asked me. I just kept sobbing. What was I supposed to say? I watched my boyfriend die, though I could help him? If I wasn't just so damn stupid I could warn his before that would happen. It's all my fault.

"Miss? Can you please tell me your name? So I can call your parents?" he tried again.

"I-Isabella Swan..."I mumbled not sure if he understood me. And to be honest I didn't care. I wanted to die with Tyler. My heart was broken and I wanted to make it stop beating. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

Here comes goodbye. Here comes the last time. Here comes the start of every sleepless night, the first of every tear I'm gonna cry. Here comes the pain. Here comes me wishing things had never changed and he was right here in my arms alive...

~*°(Beautiful) Nightmare°*~

I woke up in the hospital. White wall, white sheets... I blinked a couple of times so the picture I saw got clear. I rolled my head on the side hoping that nothing of what I remember wasn't true. I saw my mom sitting on the chair next to my bed. She was crying. Oh God. Everything was true? NO please no. It can't be. I can't imagine my life without Tyler. I felt new tears building in my eyes.

"Did it really happen?" I asked my mom in weak voice. She looked at me sadly.

"He's gone," she said and tears started running down my cheeks.

"No..." I said quietly. "He can't! He promised he would never leave me! No! Why are you lying? He's alive! Tell me he's alive!" I yelled at her and got out of the bed. My mom stood up as well. "Please tell me you're lying," I begged. "Please?" I felt my mom's arms wrap around me as she hugged me tightly.

"I'm so sorry Bella," she whispered.

Love, life, meaning... over

After a while I pulled away and walked into the corridor. Alice was waiting there. "Bella..." she whispered when she saw me. I ran to her and hugged her. "I'm so sorry Bella," she told me. We sat on the chairs behind us. I looked down in my hands. I couldn't stop the tears from falling. "Bella... did you and Tyler...?" she asked.

I took a deep breath. "We slept together. That's why he was there. We just started dating..." My voice broke a few times. "This shouldn't end like this..." I cried.

"I know Bella. I know," she agreed.

~*°(Beautiful) Nightmare°*~

The funeral was beautiful, though I didn't see much of it. The things I heard about Tyler... They were beautiful. But the time passed. Things became... different. The absence of him is everywhere I look. It's like a huge hole has been punched through my chest...

I've been alone with him inside my mind. And in my dreams I've kissed his lips a thousand times. Sometimes I still see him walk past my door, but then he disappears. It's just him I'm looking for. He's all I've ever wanted, and my arms are open wide, 'cause he knew just what to say, and he know just what to do. And I want to tell him so much, I love him ... I long to see the sunlight in his hair and tell him time and time again how much I care. Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow. I've just got to let him know 'Cause I wonder where he is. And I wonder what he does. Is he somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving him? But I love him...

My Tyler

I sneaked out of the house and walked to the cemetery. I saw everything differently since that day. I forgot how to fucking smile. And it's been seven years. Things became... harder. It's funny how love gave someone the power to break you. But yes, I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain - the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head - but it was manageable. I could live through it. It didn't feel like the pain had weakened through time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it. Though it was still like my heart was gone... like I was hollow. Like I'd left everything that was inside me with him. Why did it had to go from good to gone?

I sighed and continued my way to the cemetery. The last grave in 15th row. It always had flowers on it and candles. I usually came here every day, but lately not so often anymore. Last time I was here four months ago. It was his birth day today. I didn't want to go with my parents in the afternoon. It was around midnight now. I never went anywhere with my parents anymore. They always said something to upset me. We didn't talk much anymore. My life just went down. I kept falling... and I couldn't stop.

I sat next to the grave. "Hey Tyler," I said. "Happy 23rd birth day." Tears started rolling down my cheeks. "I'm sorry I haven't been here in a while. I just... I couldn't prepare myself on coming here again. It's been seven years and still it seems like it was yesterday. I miss you, miss you so bad. I don't forget you, it's so sad. I hope you can hear me. I remember it clearly. The day you slipped away was the day I found it won't be the same. That I won't be the same. I didn't get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand. I wish that I could see you again. I know that I can't. Now you're gone, there you go somewhere I can't bring you back... and you're not coming back..." I covered my face with my hands. I sat like that for a couple of minutes just crying in my palms. "Every day's fucking the same. I fight to find my way. I hurt, I break, I hide. I wonder why? Why you?"

I looked in the sky. It was a clear night. A full moon. And I was sitting in a cemetery. It was like in a horror movie. But I wasn't scared. I only felt safe beside Tyler. "I'm so tired of being here. And if you had to leave I wish that you would just leave. 'Cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. You used to captivate me by your resonating life. Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me. Tyler, these wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time I can't erase." I pulled up my long sleeves and uncover my wrists. They were full of scars. "Maybe making me bleed would be the answer that could wash the slit clean."

I lied down next to Tyler's grave and looked up in the sky. "Remember when we were kids... when you drag us here?" I laughed a little. "When our moms found out... they were freaking out so much." I sighed. "I was so mad at you. And you just kept looking at me with your big innocent blue eyes. I couldn't even stay mad at you. But now... I'm so full of resentment. Resent you because you left." I took a deep breath. "No matter how many breaths that I take I still can't breathe," I said. I rolled on my side and turned to the grave. I closed my eyes and put my left hand on it and pretend that I'm holding Tyler's hand. Pretending that he is lying next to me. I opened my eyes again and I could clearly see his face. Smiling. "Tyler who told you life isn't worth a fight? I didn't think that you of all the people I know will give up so easily." New tears started rolling down my cheeks. "Come back and bring back my smile, come and take this tears away. I need your arms to hold me now. The nights are so unkind. Bring back those nights when I held you beside me. Un-break my heart. Say you'll love me again. Un-do this hurt you caused when you walked out the door and walked outta my life. Un-cry these tears I cried so many nights. Take back that sad word good-bye. Bring back the joy to my life. Don't leave me here with these tears, come and kiss this pain away. I can't forget the day you left time is so unkind. And life is so cruel without you here beside me."

It started raining again. But only lightly. I almost didn't feel it. Tears and rain drops mixed on my face. "Alice moved away last week. So did Ally. Well they're sister so of course they moved away together." I sighed. "I'll miss them, but we weren't together as much as we used to be. The neighbourhood keeps getting more and more empty. It gets kinda scary." I closed my eyes for a few seconds and then opened them again. "The nights are the hardest. I don't have no one else to climb my window in the middle of the night and scare the hell out of me." I laughed for a second. Though my voice was shaky. "I really miss that."

"Hey remember the time when... when... I can't do this..." I lied closer to the grave stone and wrapped my arms around it. "I miss you... I miss you so much..."

I lied like that in silence. It could be for hours or just minutes. I didn't know and I didn't care. I lied like that until I felt something hit my feet. I sat up quickly and wiped my tears away. A man was lying on the floor on his stomach. He rolled over and sat down.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry!" I quickly apologized.

"I-it's okay." He looked up and the moon shined his face. Impossible...

"Tyler?" I asked in shock.

"How do you know my name?" he asked confused.

I just stared at him in disbelief... speechless...

To be continued...

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