Chapter Fourteen
Dinner was a success, they were both full and sated with what they'd ordered and agreed on ordering desert to take back to Jack's. Ianto carried the box with the tiramisu and held Jack's hand with the other. They walked hand in hand towards Jack's car that was parked round the corner
"You don't mind coming back to mine?"
"Not at all. It's what I want... will Owen be okay with you being at home" inquired Ianto, he'd grown to like hearing Jack telling him about the Londoner and hoped that some day they would be close friends
"Gwen and Rhys are staying over this weekend, Owen wanted to get in some practice looking after Gethin" explained Jack as they drove home. The past few weeks with Ianto had been the best few weeks of his life and he was more than tempted to ask if his Welsh boyfriend would make love to him.
Jack unlocked the door, flicking the hall light on as he went. Ianto brushed past him toeing off his shoes near the door before he padded into the dark kitchen to put the desert in the fridge; he was hungry but it wasn't for coffee flavoured sweetness. Shutting the fridge door he felt Jack's big strong arms wrapping around his chest
"Jack" Ianto couldn't help but whisper his lover's name
"Do you know what I want, Ianto?" Jack replied talking quietly as his cheek brushed against the outer shell of Ianto's ear
"W-What" gasped the rugby player
"I want you to take me to bed, I want you to make love to me" Ianto's eyes fluttered shut, Jack's voice was doing wicked things to his body and he couldn't help but respond. Ianto turned in Jack's arms their eyes meeting "I want you Ianto. I need you" there was so much desperation in his lover's voice
"Yeah" nodded Ianto as he fingered the buttons of Jack's shirt. Shirt undone Jack held out his hand for Ianto then lead him out of the kitchen and up the stairs to the bedroom.
Jack turned on the lights before turning them down low, Ianto was loosing his nerve in the low light but as soon as the American pressed close the shirt falling from his shoulders he knew that he wanted to make love to Jack. Nothing else mattered. The first kiss was slow and sweet, so chaste it was hardly a kiss at all. The second kiss deepened until they were both breathless
"Can I undress you?" Jack whispered his fingers inching, hovering close to the buttons of Ianto's dark purple shirt
"You don't have to ask" said Ianto as he brought Jack's hands to his buttons while he made short work of his trousers. He couldn't help but press a kiss to Jack's bent head, mouth pressing against the older man's hair "How did you do this to me?"
"Do what?" Jack looked up nervously, he hoped he hadn't done soemthing wrong
"I feel so strange" he replied, his hands dancing over Jack's waistband. The planes of his lover's stomach quivered as he ran his hands over them "I want you Jack. You make me want you"
Tonight was big, so much was hanging in the balance. A first was to be had and this was different for the both of them.
"It's okay, you can have me" Jack told him as they moved to the bed. Socks and shoes were toed off, unfastened trousers pooled on the floor before Jack climbed on moving back pushing the quilt out of the way. Ianto climbed on next to him and cupped his hip before he faltered
"I... w-what do I do... I..." he knew what men did together but knowing and doing were two different things.
"Shh, it's okay. You need to prepare me, baby... it's been a while since I bottomed" he explained, Ianto's eyes went wide
"And... I... how..." stammered Ianto feeling his face flame red, he turned away ashamed at his embarrassment. Jack pressed something into his hand before tipping his chin so their eyes met
"You'll need to use this, on your fingers and then touch me here" he stated as he moved Ianto's hand down between his legs
"God!" gasped Ianto almost desperately as his finger felt Jack's entrance. Ianto's hands shook as he squeezed the lubricant over his fingers; he was terrified but he'd never been so turned on in his entire life. Every time with Jack was different but it was so God damn important to him, he could feel himself falling; every time he looked at Jack he could feel it. Ianto could feel himself falling and it felt like the easiest thing in the world.
Slicked up, Ianto brought his fingers back down to where Jack wanted them. The first slipped in easily into Jack's tight heat making the American whimper and toss his head back "G-Good?"
"Yeah" grunted Jack bordering on desperate "More"
It seemed mad to think that he'd get more of his fingers in there let alone his cock but he wasn't going to deny Jack anything, not with this. Astounded, Ianto began thrusting two fingers in and out of Jack watching the play of emotions and hunger over his lover's face
"So beautiful" murmured Ianto looking him over from head to foot. Jack's erection was heavy against his hip and a fine sheen of sweat was breaking out across the planes of his stomach, still fingering Ianto leaned down and licked a path from Jack's belly button up to his sternum. Ianto twisted his wrist hoping to get deeper when he nudged a small bump inside Jack
"Ahhh" groaned Jack arching up, nearly dislodging Ianto from the bed. Ianto stopped moving pressed in tight afraid he'd hurt Jack
"What? Did I hurt you? Do you want me to stop?"
"No!" shouted Jack grabbing his arm "Don't you fucking stop! So good! Keep doing that"
"This, here?" he asked brushing his fingers over the bump. Jack arched once more mewling loudly as he nodded wildly
"Yes there!" Jack yelled making Ianto chuckle loudly relieved that he'd done something right. He continued teasing Jack with his fingers until Jack grabbed his arm once more "Spread your fingers, like this" Jack demonstrated and Ianto apprehensively copied him. Ianto hadn't thought once about his own erection until he felt Jack palming it; he'd snagged the lube and was rubbing it over Ianto's cock.
"Jack" moaned Ianto, his hips snapping forward against the American's palm
"I'm ready Ianto, I want to feel you"
"C-condoms?" he mumbled, feeling stupid and inexperienced for only thinking of them now. Jack pulled a little foil packet from his bedside cabinet and handed it to Ianto. He ripped it open and sheathed his erection in the rubber, Jack happily assisting in stroking it on then dribbled more lubricant over "You keep doing that and it'll be all over"
"Then we'll do it in different positions. I want this to last, I want tonight to last" announced Jack before he rolled over as he tugged one of his many pillows under his hips "It'll be easier this way, first. Go slow"
"Slow is the only way I can go tonight, I don't want to hurt you" Ianto replied as he moved behind him kneeling between Jack's spread thighs. It wasn't difficult to get past that ring of muscle but Ianto could feel the resistance as he pressed inside and he could feel the heat, it felt so much hotter than it had on his fingers.
Ianto kept pressing forward, listening to every sigh, gasp and whimper that fell from Jack's mouth, until his hips were flushing against Jack's skin. He'd bottomed out completely and it briefly occurred to him that he hadn't thought about crossing a line with this; Ianto hadn't had his usual homophobic fears about doing this. He'd wanted to do it and being afraid hadn't even crossed his mind.
"Ianto, Ianto, oh Ianto" moaned Jack keening desperately, Ianto looked down to see Jack's shivering back and tanned hands twirling tightly against the sheets "Move, please God... fuck me"
He pulled out ever so slowly, doing his best to fight against his shaking body. Why have I never done this before, thought Ianto as he braced his hands on Jack's hips angling him so when he pushed back in he hit Jack's prostrate.
"You feel so good, Jack" he was moving now, Ianto was setting a rhythm and Jack was riding back against him meeting him thrust for thrust
"This feels good" Jack agreed as he moved up onto his hands for leverage. Ianto grasped his shoulder pulling him up so they were back to chest "Ahh, big... slow... easy, easy! Yes! There! Like this" moving had thrown off their rhythm but it didn't take them long to find it again. Jack was sitting fully in Ianto's lap riding his erection with a slack jawed euphoric expresson
"I love fucking you" whispered Ianto tightening his fingers over Jack's hips hard enough to leave bruises. He nibbled the outer shell of Jack's ear before dipping down to mouth across that strong jaw "Can't believe I waited so long"
"We're doing this again!" breathed Jack, before he slowed "Have to move round or I'm gonna come"
"Where do you want me to fuck you now?" inquired Ianto as Jack pulled off and flopped down on the bed to catch his breathe
"Downstairs" grinned Jack before he struggled to his feet. He leaned close to Ianto, who was still kneeling on the bed "Want you to fuck me on the couch"
"Why the couch?" Ianto asked, brushing some of the sweat off his body as he followed Jack back downstairs "Is this some kinky fetish?"
"No" Jack answered pressing Ianto against the living room door "Whenever I'm in a boring meeting with the publishers and they're sitting on that couch I want to know that I've been fucked there by the man I love"
"Y-you love me?"
"I guess I do. Never felt like this before and if this isn't love I don't think I could handle the real thing if it happened" he explained. Ianto swallowed hard, Jack could see even in the dark that Ianto's eyes darkened until the pupils were almost blown
"Sit on the couch and spread your legs" Ianto ordered him. Jack nodded then did as he was told, he sat down and spread his legs falling quiet to wait for more orders.
Ianto grabbed Jack's spread legs and turned him so one ankle rested on the back of the couch, he pressed those tanned thighs back before sliding home again "Might need another condom soon"
"I left them upstairs" Jack answered mentally cursing himself then he remembered he had some in one of his coats "Stop, I'll be right back" Jack rolled off and ran from the room only to appear a few seconds later with a box of three. Jack climbed back onto the couch resuming his position while Ianto changed condoms and slowly slid back inside Jack
"Fuck, you're so tight Jack. I love fucking you" Jack wrapped his left thigh around Ianto's hip pulling him closer. Ianto fell down onto all fours over his lover and the moment got slow and intense "Love..." Ianto stroked Jack's cheek before leaning down to kiss him. They kissed until they run out of breathe, mouths tangling echoing their emotions.
Ianto breaks for air then remembers he's still deep inside his lover, with a slow sweet smile spreading across his face he leaned back wrapping his fingers around Jack's shin for leverage and started thrusting again.
"Ianto" rasped Jack, his voice thick and gutteral. Jack tipped his head back, his eyes rolling wildly before they land on the window and the half open blinds and he thinks briefly thank god they didn't put the lights on or the neighbours would see. Another thrust and he's not even thinking about having neighbours! As he lay there he was pleased at Ianto being such a quick study, you'd never think it was his first time with a man!
"Jack, can't hold on... I'm gonna come" Ianto bowed his head, sweat was dripping off him and his breathing was coming in heavy gasps
"M-Me too" Jack cried before he came hard, against his stomach, Ianto had forgot to touch his cock during their lovemaking. That lack of stimulation had made his orgasm even better.
Their lovemaking lasted all night; once they recovered from their fun on the couch they moved through Jack's house doing it on a chair in the kitchen, Ianto went down on Jack on the stairs before they finally made it back to Jack's bed. Ianto glanced at the clock and saw it was three seventeen in the morning telling him they'd been at it for nearly five and a half hours. Both of them fell down onto the bed curling up, cuddling close under the thick quilt
"That was brilliant" Ianto told him quietly from the spot on Jack's shoulder. Jack grunted sleepily in reply before rolling over pulling Ianto closer
"Tell me more about you, Ianto, I want to know everything" he mumbled, Jack ducked his nose under Ianto's chin mouthing the skin he found there softly
"Like what?"
"Tell me about your father, would he have liked me?" Ianto wrapped his arms around Jack, his slender fingers pulled the blanket tight around them to keep in the warmth
"He would have thought you were a very smart, funny and caring guy who's loyal to his friends and family but as my boyfriend he would have hated you"
"I didn't realise it was that hard with them. Are all your family like that?" Jack asked, Ianto scoffed
"It's only mam and Rhiannon left now; yeah there's a handful of cousins but they all live too far away"
"Oh" Jack said then he smiled "At least your family know about us. How did they take it when you told them?"
"I told Rhi, I sort of told mam but nowadays she hears what she wants to. Half the time I don't know if she's even knows who I am when I visit!"
"You must be really worried about her" he mused, the idea popped into his head and before he really thought about he, Jack blurted it out "Next time you go to see her, can I come with you?"
"Why would you want to do that?" Ianto didn't mean to snap but he was feeling a little defensive about his parentage; all this talk of families and what his knew was making him uncomfortable
"I thought it'd be nice. Sorry I asked" he snapped moodily
"No, I'm sorry. It's just my mam is a sore subject... she's never been the most all there person and she's gotten worse since tad died"
"Okay... when you see your sister then?" Jack lifted his head to look down at Ianto with a hopeful look in his eyes
"Um, yeah... sure" answered Ianto looking away. Jack scowled, his brow furrowing with concern
"Ianto? Your sister does know about me, right?" when Ianto still refused to look at him, Jack began to panic "Ianto?!"
"She knows about you. I told her about you a few weeks ago" Jack sat up now not really convinced
"Yeah and what exactly did you say? Did you tell her I was your boyfriend?"
"Why does it matter so much what I said? Why are you so bothered about it?" Ianto was pulling away now, too, he sat up and ran a hand through his messy hair
"I'm bothered about it because I just let you make love to me. I did something I've never done before and now I found out what? You probably didn't tell your sister about me. Come to think about it the only person who probably knows about us is Toshiko! Your ex-girlfriend! Oh god... please, please tell me that she is your ex-girlfriend. Please tell me that you haven't lied about that too" Jack went pale, hunching over like he was about to be sick
"Of course she is. She dumped me, remember!" Ianto snapped, he tossed back the covers and climbed out of the bed reaching for his pants
"What are you doing? Where are you going?" shouted Jack
"I'm not staying here while you're like this!"
"Like what?! All I want is for you to be honest with me! What did you tell your sister about me?!"
"I told her you were my girlfriend!" shouted Ianto turning round sharply. As soon as the words were out Ianto felt relief but it was overcome with all the grief and guilt that was welling up inside; the look on Jack's face wasn't helping. Jack felt his heart breaking, he'd put himself out there trusting and believing that this was it and now... now... Ianto watched all the emotion on Jack's face disappear to be replaced with blank control
"Get out" said Jack, his voice low but radiating anger
"Jack..." Ianto held out his hand but Jack slapped it away. He climbed out of the bed pulling on his boxer shorts then picked up Ianto's shirt from the floor and threw it at him
"I said get out"
"Please Jack, I'm sorr-"
"No you're not. You don't get to apologise for this... you lied to me!" he hissed before shaking his head "You're not welcome here. I want you to leave"
"Jack, it's nearly four in the morning!" Ianto pointed out. Jack scowled then turned to gather up Ianto's clothes that were still scattered about the floor, he opened the window then threw them out
"If I could get you through that window I'd throw you out as well" he stated. Ianto's face fell knowing how much he'd screwed this up
"Please, you don't mean that. Let me make it up to you..."
"Nothing you can do can fix this. I want you to leave! God, I can't even look at you! Didn't you hear me? Don't just stand there! Get Out!" Jack marched forward pushing him out of the bedroom and manhandled him down the stairs. Ianto was surprised at how forceful Jack was behing, the American opened the door and shoved him out. Ianto lost his balance on the step and fell down cutting his elbows open on the pebbled path "I never, ever want to see you again!"
Jack slammed the door shut before leaning back against it, he sank down to the floor as he started to cry. Ianto scowled at the now shut door to Jack's house before he got up to gather his clothes from Jack's front garden and got dressed. He could hear Jack crying and knew that he'd fucked it all up beyond belief and worse... he didn't know how to fix it.
TBC...