2. Love
If someone had told her a year ago that she'd be in love with a terrorist, she'd laugh at them in their face.
But yet, here he was. Right in front of her. In that Knightmare.
Lelouch… Lelou… is Zero!
She wanted to deny that she was seeing him; that maybe that was some other Black haired Britannian. But she couldn't.
He killed her father! If she killed him… then her father would be avenged.
But as Shirley held the gun in her hand, she couldn't bring herself to pull the trigger. Inside her, an internal battle was raging war in her mind.
Do it now! He's a sinner! He killed so many innocent people, and here you have the perfect opportunity to avenge all those people! Shoot!
N-no… it's Lelou! I-I can't….
But think about your father; you wouldn't want to let him down, would you?
No! But Lelouch is so… he couldn't… ever…. NO!
Shirley bit her lip as tears ran down her face. She closed her eyes, and squeezed the trigger. She opened her eyes, and she realized that she had missed. Her heart instantly lightened. Then, Lelouch's eyes started fluttering awake.
"Urgh..." he groaned.
"L-Lelou!" she stammered, dropping the gun.
"Shirley…?" He got up slowly, climbing out of the cockpit. "Shirley… is that you?"
"Lelou… why…?" she asked, her voice cracking. She wanted to faint, but willed herself to stay awake.
"Shirley… I… this… I'm sorry." He hung his head in shame.
"No… this doesn't make sense…" Shirley moaned in despair, "Why would you want to kill my father?"
"Your father?" Then, Lelouch's eyes widened in shock.
"He was killed at Narita… the same day the Black Knights attacked there," she explained lowly, not looking at her beloved.
"Shirley… I…" he raised a tentative hand at her, but she quickly swat it away.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" she screamed, backing away from Lelouch.
"He was buried alive… he couldn't breathe…" she said, collapsing onto her knees. Each word and each memory seemed to weigh her down lower.
"Shirley… I didn't know… I'm so sorry." Lelouch went over, and wrapped his arms around her. To her surprise, and his too; she didn't resist.
"You're going to kill me now, aren't you?" Shirley muttered.
After a heavy silence, she got up, and started walking away.
Lelou…
"NO! Wait! Shirley!" she heard footsteps coming closer to her, but she continued walking until his hand caught her shoulder.
"Shirley… I'm sorry about your father. I didn't know… I never meant to hurt you. If I could be reborn in a new life… I would."
"DON'T SPOUT THAT CRAP AT ME!" Shirley shouted, backing away slightly. Then, before her lips could betray her, she ran, covering her mouth to muffle the sobs.
Lelou… I love you. I love you so much, so why…? I don't know if I can forgive you…
A/N: URGH. MY WRITING. WHY IS IT SO AWKWARD? D: I don't know, writing Lelouch's dialog was just WERID. Like, insanely weird. Urggghhhhhh. This is NOT turning out well D: FRAGMENTS WAS SOOOO MUCH BETTER D: