THAT'S NO WAY TO SAY GOODBYE.

Konnichiwa minna!My 3rd fic. Haven't completed da 2nd…yet. M kinda suffering writers block.. all I do nowdays is stare blankly at iris(my lappy) . Hope u like it.

CHAPTER 1: THIS PAIN IS JUST TOO REAL

Naruto waited under his blankets pretending to be still asleep. He heard Sasuke,his roommate coming out of the shower. He waited with bated breath for the raven to leave the room. He couldn't bear it anymore .He squeezed his eyes painfully as he remembered his confession a month back.

*FLASHBACK*

Naruto paced around the room nervously. He stopped in the middle of the room he and Sasuke shared. All the memories of him and Sasuke that he prized so much came flooding back. He clutched his chest from the overwhelming emotions that took over him.

He should have seen it coming. All the long stares he gave to Sasuke. How he knew each and every piece of clothing of the raven. The painful pangs of jealousy he felt whenever he saw the raven even talking with someone. He even flirted with the raven unknowingly. It didn't need a rocket scientist to know what was going on.

Actually it didn't take long for him to realize that he was falling for Sasuke. Just that he was in denial..uptil now. If he kept it within him any longer he was sure he would burst from so much strain to his heart and brain.

There were to roads he could take now. either keep his feelings a secret or tell him the truth. He had so much to lose from the second option- a best friend. But then he hated hiding things from Sasuke and there was also the slightest chance of the raven reciprocating his feelings . He didn't want to spend the rest of his life keeping mum and asking-"if only…"

"Konnichiwa..KONNIICHIWAA…"wailed the cute Japanese voice from his mobile.

Naruto shook himself away from his thoughts as he picked up his ringing phone.

"Hello"

"It's me Sasuke." His breath hitched up his cursed himself as to how He let Sasuke's mere voice do that to him. Turn him into a bundle of nerves.

"Hmm-teme?"

"Well? I got ur msg. Is something wrong? What do u want me there for?"

"Ahh..Sasuke. It's better if I talked with u face to face in our room." He smiled at the concerned filled voice of Sasuke before continuing "Can u make it here fast? It's kind of urgent. Nothing serious though."

"Tch..Annoying dobe..Okay...I'll be there in ten minutes. And hope you've changed your ringtone. If I hear it once again u can kiss your phone goodbye."

"Why you! bas-…." Naruto managed to say before he heard the click of the mob as the raven hung up. He sighed as he flopped down on his bed. Ten minutes and his life would either begin or come to an end. Just ten minutes.
.KNO-

"Coming teme!" Naruto shouted as he opened the door just to receive a light knock in his forehead. "Ouch!What was that for?"

"Making me wait "replied the raven as he threw his bag in his bed and opened their fridge for a drink.

"Naruto. Where did my last bottle of appy-fizz disappear?"

"Uh...he..he well it was a sunny day and I was dehydrated.."Naruto began his explanation while scratching his head guiltily.

"Whatever dobe."The raven just picked up the bottle of mineral water and plopped himself on the couch. His domain actually, where even Naruto wasn't allowed to sit except for the few times they were utterly drunk.

"So what was so serious that I had to be interrupted in the middle of my project work?"

"With shikamaru? The lie detector circuit or something? I thought it was already finished?"

"It is finished dobe. Just doing finishing touches to the project report."

Naruto who was shuffling around trying to delay the moment as long as possible sighed as he sat himself down on a chair facing sasuke. The raven was staring cooly at him with a perfect eyebrow raised.

It was now or never. Ignoring the thud thud of his frantically beating heart he began.

"Uh Sasuke..what do u think about us?.. I mean I know we are best friends and all..but have you seen me as something more than that?"

"You mean more than as a dobe?" said the raven with a smrik.

"Sasuke quit joking. M serious man. Answer me!"

"Naruto I still don't get what are you trying to say or ask me"

'For a genius he seems quite lacking on the proposal dept' thought naruto. Now how was he going to tell this smug bastard that he literally worshiped the ground beneath his feet without being killed or humilated. Well here goes nothing.

"I think im falling for you."Naruto blurted out.

The room went 5 minutes or so he heard the raven say "um..naruto..you..i..its a mistake,right?"

Naruto had heard enough. It felt like the whole world came crashing down. It was over. Pushing back angry tears he bent his head and spoke through gritted teeth to stop the pain from showing in his voice "yeah that must be a mistake.a mistake ive been making for the past 3 years. I'll get over it. It's only a phase Sasuke. It's all a bloody mistake. I think im starting to hate you already"

He spat the word 'hate' with such venom that it startled even him.

"Im glad to know that." came the cold reply from the Uchiha as he stood up and opened the door.

"I'll keep in mind that you..HATE me Uzumaki. " And closing the door with a bang the ravan disappeared into the night leaving Naruto slumped on the floor. This is what dying must feel like.

~END FLASHBACK~

The door slammed announcing the ravens departure and bringing him back to the present. He felt his cheeks stained wet.

DAMN!DAMN IT ALL! He angrily heaved the blanket off him and walked into the bathroom smelling of sasuke's shampoo. Not again! Almost a month and he still felt the wounds of rejection cutting his heart as fresh as ever.

He saw his reflection in the mirror and saw his blotched face. 'Pathetic ugly stupid Naruto!what were you thinking? Now you've lost him as a friend and maybe he thinks u as the pathetic fag that you are.' He fell onto the bathroom floor again tears streaming down his face again. 'This is wrong. So wrong. It wasn't supposed to end like this. 'his brain screamed as he struggled to breathe through the huge sobs racking his body.

With difficulty he searched for his anti-depression pills in the medical cabinet. his hand stopped cold upon finding it empty. It was too much for him to bear it now. He was sick of his fucked up life. He punched the bathroom mirror with all the pain and anger he could muster.

A sharp pain shot up his hand and he felt his warm blood fill up the air with a heavy stench. It was oddly satisfying. The sight of his own blood made him feel like all the pain in his heart was being washed away.

Sitting down on the floor he took a piece of broken mirror. Closing his eyes he swiftly made short sharp cuts along the length of his hands. The relief he felt along with the pain surprised him. The feeling of calmness sweeping through his body as his blood flowed freely lulled him to sleep again . This time he hoped he wouldn't wake up. He didn't even hear someone open the bathroom door nor heard the person scream "NARUTO!"

Well that's chapter one. Its only a 2 chapter story. My lappy is . m using my roommates lappy. Anway b4 I start blabbing again plz review and make me happy.