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Chapter 6

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Hanabusa sat down as soon as he made it off the dance floor. He knew he was blushing the whole time, him and Akatsuki were dancing together. He hated the looks Akatsuki was giving Ruka but then he expected them. Hana realized one look he hated more; concern, Akatsuki's expression of concern. Sure he was happy to be looked at but those types of looks only made him feel as though he was being more of a nuisance than normal. Hanabusa sighed before he slowly walked his way over to the tables set up for snacks and the like.

Hana grabbed a drink of cranberry juice and sipped at it slowly.

After spending time cooped up in a room with Zero long enough, Hana had asked Zero about his family's certain blood trait. Although Zero was reluctant to give up any information for the first few hours Hanabusa was able to convince him that he wanted to know purely for research. Well, that was till Zero asked if Aidou wanted to be able to have children, which was basically him asking if Hanabusa was gay or he wanted to be a female.

Hanabusa sighed as he thought about it, the first person he's told about his sexuality wasn't even what one could call a friend. Him and Zero had never really gotten along but after some research and a few forced hours of niceness, they could at least say each one of them could trust the other not to blab. Not many even told others secrets that they hide but from experience Hana knew Zero was a good person, he just does well to cover it or goes about it in around the bout way.

Hana's juice was gone before he knew it. Leaving him either decided to get back up to get another one or to stare at Kain, which he somehow was already unconsciously doing. Although his and Zero's conversation was short, Hana gained tones of insight upon a hunter's view of things. He preferred their options than the one vampires had. Then again hunter's had spells to switch their gender to procreate while not many vampires could or were willing to learn such a thing. With them stuck in their council created ways Aidou knew he was never going to be happy as long as there was a council.

Akatsuki, the only creature Hana could say he truly loved, sure he had his family but they didn't care for him unless he was either making them look good or getting money for them. Sure his father was well known to be kind and caring but against the rest of the family and the Kain's, his father couldn't do much but support him. His mother, Hana disliked his mother's side of the family with a passion. So greedy they were and half of them could be instigators for most problems that happen in their vampire society.

Hana sighed.

"You've been doing that a lot lately Aidou," Ruka said as she sat down beside him. Of course Kain wasn't that far behind her. He felt like he needed to do it again, sigh or either say something utterly stupid so they'd leave him alone. Normally he would but after having a day of not wearing some type of false face, Hana just wasn't up for it.

One more thing to sigh about, having some freedom only makes you want it even more once it's taken away again. Ruka watched as Hana weakly smiled at her before excusing himself to get more juice. She could fathom what was wrong with her friend but if she had to guess, she could only think of a love that will never be. Ruka turned to glance at Kain who was once again watching her, he had been doing that a lot lately. That or she never noticed before, which was a bit unnerving. She could only hope that Kain's stare with nothing more than that of a friend or sibling.

Aidou made his way back to the table where both Ruka and Kain were sitting. There was an awkward silence that hung about in the air between them. Hana noticed Ruka slight glances at Kain, he could see the expression of dread when she seen the longing look Akatsuki sent her. She glanced at Aidou with an expression of relief. Hanabusa's brow's creased together he would kill an army of thousands just to be in her shoes. Didn't she realized how much Kain loves her, no one loves him like that. No, everyone pretends to love him but they don't even really notice him.

"Aidou can I talk to you for a moment?" Ruka asked getting up from her seat. Hana snapped out of his thoughts when Ruka linked her arm to his before walking a bit from the table. Kain stared after the two of them, normally they wouldn't be so close to each other unless arguing so Kain knew it was a serious topic. Kain watched as Hanabusa struggled away from Ruka's grip with an expression on his face that Kain had never quite seen before.

"Hanabusa, um is something wrong? You've been quite distant lately, has someone said or done something … anything to-"

"What the hell are you talking about?" Aidou asked as he tugged his arm away from Ruka's.

"I know those signs, you like someone and it's hurting you!" Ruka said angrily. "It's the same way I looked when after Kaname."

"So what?" Hana hissed at his friend.

"If you need to talk Hana, you know you can talk to me about these types of things." She stated hoping that what she said would get through to him. She and Aidou had never truly been good friends to each other but they always were there for each other when it came to their crushes. She could only hoped he still remembered those times.

He fucking hated her, the bitch had everything he wanted. Unquestionable love from another, a family who was proud of her even though she had accomplished nothing with her life. Mean while his family barely accepted the fact that he was alive and sold him to whoever they thought they could benefit from. Although his father tried to keep him out of harms way, he gave in soon enough. Him or his sisters, of course his only son means nothing compared to females able to tie themselves to high ranking vampires through marriage.

Noble male these days could truly only marry down instead of up. There weren't many high ranked female nobles these days. Female vampires where becoming a rarity, of course there was many D's and C's but no noble would even glance that way for it would bring dishonour to their families. Then to make matters even worst only pure bloods had the right to mate another of the same sex for they could easily change genders if they wanted to. Not like there wasn't spells to do so, only pure blooded hunter's and pure blooded vampires had that knowledge.

Hanabusa hated society and Ruka just had to be the one to show him how biased the world was to a gay male. He really couldn't take it anymore. After years of no freedom to be who he really was, then to get a little taste, He was willing to fuck everything over if it meant just a little more leeway.

"What do you want me to say? That my own family thinks I'm disgusting and that they only put up with me because I make them money and give them standing with Kaname." Aidou cursed out, "Do you want me to tell you how fucking fed up I am with acting like a child in order to keep those around me happy, or would you like me to state all the dates I've tried to fucking kill myself only to have woken up sometime later perfectly fucking healed."

Ruka's shoulders shook from shock as she processed what he said, she wasn't sure if she was angry or saddened by it. She knew Hanabusa wasn't going to tell her details that would help her understand.

"Did you know that if your not a fucking pure blood, dating a relative, someone of lower status or even someone of the same sex is frown upon?" Hanabusa sneered at her, "Of course you wouldn't, you like the opposite sex, you haven't been used all your life … well that would also be thanks to me but hey fuck head, how you suppose to know if there's a fucking problem when you ignore everything around you."

Kain watched as Ruka wrapped her arms around herself. What they where talking about was something bad. He could tell by the way she held herself, he had been watching her for so long that he knew her mood swings better than his own. Kain slowly made his way over to the two of them. He wasn't sure who they were talking about but he knew the woman of his dreams was on the verge of tears.

"Have fun staying in your perfect fucking bubble." Hanabusa said venomously, "Just keep me the fuck out of it."

Aidou glanced behind him to see Kain staring him down as though he had physically struck Ruka. He glance back at Ruka and smile sweetly as she trembled from whatever emotion she was keeping in.

"Hana-"

"Fuck off, you fucking biased bodyguard?" Hana asked. He had officially lost whatever composer he had. That freedom was just another cell with twice as much space, space that just seemed to get smaller and smaller with every word he spoke. Aidou couldn't even remember what set him off. Was it Ruka? No … Kain? No, just the stress, the combination of false kindness and care from the two of them and the knowledge on which house he was staying at during the break.

"Hanabusa is something wrong?" Akatsuki asked, never had Aidou spoke to him spitefully. Hana grabbed at some of his hair and slumped down into an almost kneeing position as he counted. Ruka watched her friend … no her brother huddle to suppress the pain. She had done it many times herself but always Aidou or Kain was there to help her. For once she was at a loss, now that she thought of it Aidou had never once said or done anything to her that she wouldn't get over or be fine with in the next hour. Their arguments were always a way of losing stress, at least that's what she thought.

Aidou finished counting and stood up. Still holding his head with one hand he glanced at the two of them.

"You know what, I think I'm just going to go back to my room, I'm not feeling to hot." Hanabusa said in a controlled voice. Ruka had never noticed how much Aidou controlled himself in order to speak with them. Kain almost brought what Hana said if it wasn't for the way his cousins' eyes screamed at them with controlled rage.

What had they done? He watched as Hana left the same way he had entered. Everything Ruka ever thought was Hana was apparently wrong.

"What was that about? I know you guys normally argue through things but, who was that?" Kain said he didn't know how to get what he wanted to say out properly. Today was supposed to be a day of joy and play. How?

"T-That was t-the real H-Hana," Ruka stuttered out. "I-I... who... how did he get to that conclusion?"

"What conclusion?"

"That's he's disgusting?" Ruka stated, "Who would tell him something like that?"

Kain stared at Ruka for a moment before grabbing her arm and dragging her after Hanabusa who already left. They were going to get answers even if they had to search Aidou's memories by force.

Hana paced in his and Kain's room as he thought of possible ways to make them think what said was the result of a potion or something. Not finding any sure solutions Aidou threw a chair at the wall, at that exact moment Kain and Ruka stormed through the door. Aidou heard the click of the lock and visibly flinched before them.

They had never hurt him but Hana wasn't so sure they wouldn't do so now. Ruka had gotten over her shock and slightly fuming while squinting in his direction. Kain had his arms crossed over his chest but Hana could feel his aura of displeasure whipping his senses around.

"Aidou Hanabusa, I believe you have some explaining to do." Akatsuki stated as he stood next to Ruka watching his cousin. They could see the broken chair and a dent in the wall behind Hanabusa, who looked as though nothing was out of place. When just a moment ago he was panting and throwing a fit as they walked in.

"I have nothing to say," Hana calmly said before walking over to his bed and sitting down.

"You will either tell us or we will see." Akatsuki said just as calmly, making sure to observe his cousin's every move. He noticed Aidou cringe slightly as an almost unnoticeable scent of fear swam through the air. Kain stepped forward with Ruka in tow. Hanabusa slid from his one bed side to the other putting some distance between them. The scent of fear that Kain had almost missed now hung heavily in the air, they were scaring him.

Aidou's eyes were slightly red and his fangs could be seen between his lips, he was getting ready to attack or defend himself. Ruka and Kain didn't know what he was trying to hide but they both knew it was something they wouldn't like. Ruka and Kain glanced at each other before they stopped moving.

Aidou could feel the blood pumping in his veins. It was going to fast, he was beginning to hyperventilate. He could feel his pupils turning into slits, the beast in him was appearing, they were threatening him with every movement they made.

"Hanabusa calm down, please, we just want to talk." Ruka reassured but with Kain still glaring at him, he couldn't believe a word. He trusted them, yes, but that was only to the point of them not actually wanting to know him.

"No, j-just go away!" Aidou shouted at them as he grabbed a pillow and threw it at Kain. He ran for the bathroom, somehow Akatsuki knew what he was trying to do and caught hold of him by the waist. Hanabusa struggled for dear life till Kain used one of Aidou's own spells against him.

Hana went limp in his arms, he used a body suppressing spell. His cousin could still speak but he wouldn't be able to move his limbs for the next two hours. Akatsuki carried his cousin over to one of the chairs in the room. Hana was already crying when Kain arrange his body so he would be sitting properly. Kain was at a loss, he didn't know what Hana was hiding, and he ended up scaring his cousin to the point of tears.

Kain took his cousin's cheeks in his hands and wiped tears away as they continued to fall. Hanabusa didn't make a sound, Kain knew it took practice in order to cry like that. It was like his cousin was nothing more than a doll tired of trying to feel things he no longer thought necessary.

"Hana," Kain whispered, "I just really want to know what's going on."

"You never cared before so don't start now." Aidou hissed slightly, the spell made him almost talk completely monotone.