A.N: YAY another chapter! Now warning! This chapter involves Rape and stuff… So I'm feeling like a horrible person but the reason I wrote what you're about to read is because it's a crucial point to the story.
I hope you all enjoy this chapter! I most likely won't post for a few days since I'm working Halloween Horror Nights for the next three nights till like 4 in the morning… even though we close at 2... Sigh… I don't know why they just can't stick me in Harry Potter again so I can be happy!
Anyways enjoy!
/~~~~~ Chapter 18: Just Think About It~~~~~~~~\\
Two weeks went by since Jinx's mother showed up with the survivors and it was beginning to piss her off how much her mother stalked her.
Walking to work she noticed her following from a distance, or watching from outside the class. Once she went home and noticed her make rounds to her house. During dinner on some nights she would show up with a bowl of soup and knock for almost an hour. Wally would come out and ask her to leave but she was persistent.
Slade gave her the job of secretary to his office and that's how Jinx figured she found out where she lived. Katarou was moved to the same place Wally was to train with everyone, while Jonny was moved to the shop to help come up with vehicles that run on solar power. Malchior took to the old library they had and organized all the books in one day.
Jinx had enough of this woman following her and trying to get her to become her best friend. Fuck her and fuck what she's trying to do.
Jinx entered the library to get some new books to read the kids when she ran into Malchior and apologized. He watched her as she browsed the shelf's and it bothered her.
"Any reason why you're staring at me?" Jinx pulled out a blue book with dragons on it.
"You have you're mothers nose" He smiled fondly and Jinx felt her grip on the book tighten and her jaw set.
"She's not my mother… Just a womb donor… My real mother was an old woman by the name of Carol" Jinx winced and realized she hadn't thought of Carol in months… Guild filled her gut and she turned to look the shelf's again.
"You're mother may have abandoned you but she still loved you" Malchior leaned against his desk.
"Loved me? I wish I could remember anything positive about that woman! But alas… I was only 4 when she tossed me aside. That's a pretty young age to remember but I still remember the drunken men she brought home, I didn't know what drunk was but I remember watching her fuck them on the couch or crawl up next to her after she shot herself up with drugs… She fucking named me Jinx…. She doesn't know who my father was… but constantly called me Satan's daughter… Like I said I don't remember much but what I do will haunt me." Jinx threw three books in front of him and crossed her arms.
"Now check these out, I need to get back to the class" She huffed and turned to look at the opposite wall.
"I know she's had a tough life… but she's clean now… There aren't any drugs to be taken anymore… she's a new woman…" He wrote down some stuff in a notebook and she snatched them up and began to walk out.
"Just think about it" He called and she slammed the door.
Jinx walked into class and saw all the kids playing in the snow and Kole bouncing the baby on her knee. Jinx sat next to her with a sigh.
"I ran into Malchior at the library.. He lectured me on how I should give Lauren a chance" Jinx fiddled with her blue scarf and noticed Kole biting her lip.
"You mean you're mom?" Kole asked.
"She's not my mom and I won't call her that!" Jinx growled out.
"I won't lecture you Jinx… but I would give anything to have my mom alive… Maybe you could-" Jinx cut her off.
"Don't say it." She gave a hard look to her.
Kole sighed and shook her head.
"Just think about it please" Kole offered a smile and Jinx raised an eyebrow.
Later that day Wally was out with Garfield to check the walls near the field to keep the animals safe and catch up since they didn't get to hang out much. Jinx had Raven over to make dinner with her for the guys when they got done.
"So Jinx how's the whole Lauren situation?" Raven asked and Jinx sighed.
"Thank you for not using the M word" She smiled.
"Well I know how a horrible parent can be and not wanting to call them by the title that society gives them as a parental figure." Raven chopped some salad.
"To answer you're question it's so exhausting! She follow's me around and she's putting on an act so everyone thinks I'm the bad guy! She's getting on my nerves and I don't know what to do! I just want to continue life here and go on with neither of us acknowledging each other." Jinx broke a carrot in half and Raven gave her a smile.
Suddenly the doorbell rang and both looked to each other.
"I'll get it" Raven left and walked to the door. She looked threw the peep hole to see Lauren standing there with a bright smile and a glass dish of soup.
"Uhhh Jinx it's Lauren" Raven said and Jinx growled from the kitchen.
"Tell her to go away" Jinx called.
Raven opened the door a bit and Lauren's smile faltered when she saw it was Raven.
"Oh Raven! Are you over for dinner? I have some chicken noodle that you'll love!" She tried to take a step forward but Raven blocked her.
"Uh listen tonight's kind of a private night with just some friends…" Raven explained.
"Oh well I'm sure Jinx would like for her friends to meet her mother" Lauren smiled and Raven narrowed her eyes.
"Actually no we wouldn't… Jinx will talk to you when and if she is ever ready but until then you have no right to show up here unannounced and expect her to take you in and become Gilmore Girls or something." Raven crossed her arms.
Lauren took on a sad look and sighed, "What if you're mother survived the infection… and Jinx wouldn't let you see her? It's not fair you wont let me see her"
"For your information my mother died when I was little so don't you dare talk about an actual good mother that had a legitimate reason for not being there to watch her child grow." Raven was getting pissed.
"Listen here! I'm going to see my daughter tonight and you-" Lauren was cut off when someone cleared there throat and both looked behind Lauren to see Cheshire and Speedy standing there with annoyed looked to Lauren.
"Is there a problem here?" Speedy asked but not looking away from Lauren.
"Not at all.. Lauren was just leaving" Raven said and smiled to Lauren with a hard look.
"Yes… leaving… Tell Jinx I'll talk to her soon" Lauren did a fake smile and walked down the porch to her house down the street.
"Thanks for the rescue guys" Raven said and invited them in for dinner.
Terra poured Blackfire some water as she watched her eat. Tonight was her first night back at her home and both were doing so well. When Blackfire woke up Terra apologized and Blackfire and her made up. Blackfire could really see a change in her lover. She wore less revealing clothes, and didn't ogle people with sexual looks and way by her side day and night. Once they got home Terra made pasta for them and made sure Blackfire stayed off her feet for long periods of time.
"Need anymore pasta honey?" Terra asked and Blackfire shook her head.
"No I'm fine" Both looked to each other with so much love and finished there dinner.
Blackfire stood and began to walk to the living room.
"Where are you going?" Terra jumped up.
"I need to stop by Slades and pick up my backpack with my equipment in it. If I'm going to be sentenced to bed rest I should at least have my gun's and equipment to clean and fix." Blackfire also had the charge in the bag that she needed to retrieve.
"I'll go get it" Terra rushed by her and slipped on her jacket and shoes.
"I don't think that's wise… you said you haven't seen Slade since you broke it off with him." Blackfire bit her lip.
"I need to see him sometime and it's not like he can do anything. You know Slade, he wouldn't hurt me" She said and Blackfire gave her an 'are-you-serious' look.
"Well he wouldn't hurt me out of sex… And trust me love… You're the only one I plan on having sex with from now on" Terra winked and Blackfire smiled to her and kissed her softly. Terra gave her the pain killers Kori gave them and Blackfire went to bed instantly.
Terra made her way to Slade's and hummed a song. Once at the building she noticed Lauren walking by it with a sad look and a glass bowl, but she ignored her and made her way inside. Once outside Slade's office she took a deep breath and knocked.
"Come in" His voice came and she opened it and shut it behind her.
"Terra?… I wasn't expecting you here" Slade glared a bit and turned back to his work.
"Slade… I came for Blackfires bag… I know you may still be sore at me for elbowing you in the face… but… I had my reasons" Terra felt empowered.
"Reasons? You said you loved me… and then you hit me… If you didn't want to be my lover anymore all you had to do was tell me" He stood and Terra actually felt a little guilt until she crossed her arms and jutted out her hip.
"Don't pull that crap with me! You just used me for my body! There was never a time where you actually did something for me that showed you loved me!" She accused.
"I didn't throw you in lock up after you killed my most brightest professor" He said and she winced.
"He raped me… and he was going to do it again to a child" Terra growled.
"You have no way of proving any of that at the time… I could have let the people have you and lock you up, maybe even kill you… but I rescued you… Gave you purpose" He walked around the desk and leaned on it.
"You did… help me… but… then you took advantage of me! I was a scared girl with no idea what I was doing with myself." She felt tears come to her eyes.
"Scared girl? I recall the first night we had sex… You came to me while I was signing papers and stripped in front of my desk. You propped yourself up onto my lap and began to hump me. I'm a man that can take so much before I snap and need to vent myself." He fought back.
"Sex is one thing but you told me you loved me! Don't tell me that if you didn't mean it! I did everything for you! I fucked people for you as rewards! I'm your secretary and you just basically lied to me and fucked my life up even more! Does secretary mean prostitute in you're language?" She was breaking up into anger and sadness.
"If I recall correctly… it was you that fucked someone in the waiting room while I was having a meeting… After that word got around how easy you were and you made your own title!" Slade yelled and she winced. He was right but she had more Ammo up her sleeve.
"But that was my decision to fuck someone… you took it and began to make meetings for me to fuck people… You're title of mayor should be changed to Pimp!" She smirked to him and he clenched his fist.
"You know Lauren Tom is now my secretary" He turned away from her to straighten papers on his desk.
"Ya… so what? You going to make her do you're sexual favors now?" Terra felt a bit of jealousy that she was replaced so fast but ignored it.
"No… unlike you she is a good secretary. She organizes my schedule and cleans my office, entertains my guests in a non sexual manor. She is the perfect secretary…" He smiled with pride.
"So what?" Terra had no idea where this was going.
"You don't seem to have a job now…" He raised an eyebrow and Terra gave him a confused look.
"What?…." She had a bad feeling.
"Everyone here must have a job to fit in… I decide the jobs that best suit people… and Terra… You're application seems fit for one thing." Slade raised a hand and ran it threw his hair.
"What?" She repeated.
"To keep bed's warm" He chuckled and Terra felt tears come to her eyes.
"Shut up! I'm good for other things! I can teach! I went to the same university you taught at! I had acceptance letters from Yale and Harvard!" Terra cried out.
"Do you actually think anyone would let you near a child? Everyone here doesn't know you as the scholar… you're the slut…" He straightened his jacket.
"I can work in the science department we have! You only have two scientists! I studied-" She was cut off again by Slade.
"Like I said… no one want's you as a work associate… And if you don't do a job… you have no place here at the compound." Slade narrowed his eyes.
"But… you won't give me a job… that's not fair…" She whispered.
"That is a lie.. I did give you a job… And if you can not follow orders… get out… fend for yourself out there…" He smirked and saw the look of the broken girl that he found the day the infection hit the campus.
"Actually you can start now… Orientation…" Slade undid his tie and took off his jacket and patted the desk.
"Come on" He smirked.
Terra looked to the ground and felt tears come to her eyes. She slowly walked forward and Slade took her clothes off and pushed her back on the desk.
"Now let's begin… First we need to get you… wet since you seem to be having some difficulties." Slade proceeded to play with her body and she hated how her body responded to his touch. Her body betrayed her… just like life had betrayed her…
"Slade please… don't do this… I want to change… I want to start new and be someone new" Terra cried as she felt him at her entrance.
"Oh Terra… I'm sorry… You can actually be someone new…" He said in a caring tone and Terra looked up to him with a small bit of hope.
Slade leaned down next to her ear and whispered, "How about tonight you be Raven" He chuckled when he heard her whimper and slammed into her.
"Oh Raven" He moaned and Terra choked on a sob and turned away from him.
Neither noticed Richard watching from the now cracked door with shock and disgust. Richard felt so sick with himself when he witnessed what just happened. Terra was raped in school… that's why she changed… Slade… he was actually the one using her. Richard thought back to the times when he mocked her and talked about her old life… Now he knew…
The only right thing to do would be to bust in and save her and make Slade give her a fair job. But he had a wife to look after and if he got on Slade's bad side… he would tell Kori things… things that she never needed to know…
Richard felt his stomach churn when he heard another sob and turned away. As he walked down the hall he heard the sounds of weak sobs and the dull sound of the desk being rocked on the floor. He entered the elevator and pressed down. As the doors closed he heard Slade grunt out in pleasure as Terra gave one final whimper.
The next day Richard left home early and walked to the dojo to get some practice when he noticed Terra walking down the street in a big winter coat and jogged to catch up to her.
Terra noticed him and rolled her eyes, "Not in the mood Richard" She bit out.
"I wasn't going to say anything except good morning Terra" He smiled to her and Terra froze, he hadn't smiled at her like that since college… when she was kind of his friend.
"Um… good morning Richard…" She felt awkward almost being civil with him.
"So I hear blackfire is doing well… I stopped by and got her backpack from the office today. Figured she wanted it back." Richard smiled and Terra flinched when she realized she forgot the backpack last night. Good thin Blackfire was so up on those pain killers she was either asleep or half awake.
"Thanks… where is it?" She asked and fiddled with the inside of her pocket.
"It's at my and Kori's place… How about tonight I bring it over? I actually wanted to thank Blackfire for the blueprints she got. She is an amazing fighter… You two are lucky to have each other" He smiled at her.
"Oh… thank you, that sounds nice" She blushed a bit but not enough to think it wasn't from the cold air.
"Well I should go… see you later" Richard jogged off and Terra bit her lip.
"Why was he being so nice to her today?" She turned and headed back home but with a small smile on her face.
"Maybe things can't be so bad…" Terra thought. She could start making actual friends and let people see she's not just some slut. She was a smart person, and maybe she could move up and show Slade he was wrong, she is smart, and clever, and she can survive!
With blackfire by her side she can accomplish anything. She froze when she looked up and saw Blackfire on the porch talking to Mr. Light who had a perverted smile on his face. Blackfire looked annoyed and she held her side with on hand and leaned on the post.
He said something and Blackfires face went blank and she cocked her head. Terra rushed to her side and Mr. Light looked to her and bit his lip as he rubbed his hands together.
"Oh sweetie! I'm glad you're back! I was just asking you're lovely friend if she would like to join me and you in another session of love making" He smiled to her and she felt sick just by looking at him.
"Get the fuck out of here old man! That was the old Terra! And it wasn't love making I just had sex with you because I was bored… Now Get out of here before I kick you where it hurts pervert!" She shouted and he looked like a puppy that was kicked and then smiled softly.
"Oh honey, I've always wanted a girlfriend that didn't want just sex… Even though you do it so well… How about tonight you come to my place for dinner… I'll make soup and salad! After all you need to watch you're amazing figure! Be by at 7... But if you want to stop by before hand.. I won't complain…" He smiled dreamily.
"Get the fuck off my porch before I drop kick you're face!" Blackfire screamed with murder in her eyes and Mr. Light ran down the steps and down the street.
"Wow thanks for getting rid of him… He has such a crush on me its sickening" Terra chuckled.
"Terra… while I was gone… did you have sex in my bed with him?" She turned to her with a half asleep look now.
Terra froze and felt her blood run cold.
~~~~~~ End Chapter 18~~~~~~~~~~~~
A.N: I was a bit worried writing this chapter because I think with each chapter I write I take it a bit to far… But that's what this website is for I guess… Letting out creativity and pushing the limits on a persons writing skills.
I hope you enjoyed this and once again I'm not picking on Terra… none of you have been saying it but I feel like at some point a reader will think I'm raping her because I hate her… I don't wish rape on anyone! Not even my worst enemies! It just goes with my plot.
So reviews are welcomed and I love my loyal reviewers like Dancetilldawn3, Soulkeeper123, and lonerinluv! You guys reviewed fast and that is part of the reason I jumped on posting this one and made it a bit longer! You guys rock!
Peace :3