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Sorry it took me so long to update. Been a busy week!
This the final chapter or this story & I am in the process of writing another that should appear in the next week or so.
So please enjoy & thanks to those who took the time to read, review & those who added it their alerts.
Lottie
'Kens, lay down, just stay still.' Deeks pleaded as Kensi continued to try sit up.
'Deeks, Sam is down, we need to help Sam' Kensi mumbled, fighting against Deeks restraints.
'Sam is fine, Callen is with him' Deeks reminded her.
'Nate, what about Nate? He can't be alone. He was made, Deeks where's Nate' Kensi asked looking around.
'I'm right here Kens, just do what you are told for once.' Nate joked helping Deeks restrain Kensi.
Hearing the sound of Nate's voice Kensi relaxed and stopped struggling against the two men.
Nate and Deeks shared a look.
'Thanks for saving my butt' Nate smiled appreciatively
'Not completely saved yet." Deeks replied meekly. 'We need to move, too much open space behind us' Deeks observed taking in the surroundings once again.
'Can we move her?' Nate asked examining Kensi who was lying on the ground still.
'Nate, I'm fine' Kensi objected successfully sitting up this time.
'You're the one they are after.' Kensi continued as Deeks and Nate help to raise Kensi to a standing position.
'Indeed he is' Came an unfamiliar voice.
All three turned suddenly, caught unaware and now face to face with a gun and a mad-man behind it.
'KENSI'
The crashing sound of thunder, which felt as though it was emanating from inside the very room, awoke Kensi with a start. She sat up her breath ragged and heart beating heavily in her chest. Another loud crack sounded, this time accompanied with lightening, that lit up the dark room. Rain continued to fall heavily and the wind was howling relentlessly.
Kensi reached for her mobile that was once again signalling an un-read message was waiting in silence for her.
Hey Kens,
I just heard, I know how close you two were.
I'm sorry for your loss.
I'm here for you, if you ever just want to talk.
- Mike.
Reading these words, brought Kensi crashing back down to reality once again. It was naive of her to think that it was all just a dream and that the events had had occurred earlier that day had been a figment of her imagination, why'd she imagine such things she didn't know.
It suddenly hit her that she truly had lost a friend and there was nothing she could do change it. Scenarios began appearing in her head, images and alternatives that Kensi would normally block out, but the emotions that she had now let inside her had overwhelmed her ability to compartmentalise.
Why did she get to live whilst he died? She was the one who was meant to be protecting him, not the other way around.
Why did Deeks do what he did? Why didn't any one see the guy sooner?
These were questions she continued to ask herself and she had no answers for.
Kensi sat in the darkness, her cheeks now wet from the silent tears she had shed unknowingly.
The room was once again illuminated by fierce lightening and Kensi continued to sit alone in the dark waiting for answers to questions that would never come.
Deeks awoke to the sound of a booming crash outside that was definitely not caused by the raging storm. He had fallen asleep on the couch pondering the events of the day and the room was now illuminated by the glowing of the large television.
Grabbing his weapon, Deeks quickly and silently made his way across to the door of his apartment. He cracked the door minutely and observed what he could. On guard like always, Deeks checked the surroundings of the front porch that surrounded Deeks second story apartment, it was here Deeks discovered the source of the noise.
"Shit" Deeks mumbled under his breath. The howling wind had caused his two surfboards to become unstable in the racks and they had now both crashed unceremoniously on the ground.
Deeks tucked his weapon in the back of his shorts and used one hand to deflect as much on the pouring rain off his face.
It wasn't until after he had placed both surfboards back on their respective shelves and secured them tightly, did Deeks realise that he was being watched.
Deeks instinctively pulled his weapon out and aimed it at the dark figure that stood on the driveway leading into the apartment complex.
The dark individual didn't even flinch at the notion of having a gun pointed at them and this concerned Deeks.
Another deafening clap of thunder and bright strike of lightening, shocked Deeks but allowed him to see more clearly, who the hooded figure was, that stood in the drive way exposed to the elements being soaked through by the relenting rain, Kensi.
Deeks hurried down the slick steps careful not to lose his footing and made his way across to Kensi in record time.
"Kensi what are you doing?" Deeks yelled loudly above the storm.
Kensi made to move and didn't even indicate a reply.
"KENSI" Deeks yelled loudly again, grasping at Kensi by the shoulders.
Kensi broke from her trance and looked directly into Deeks eyes.
"He's gone!" Kensi barely got out.
"C'mon we have to get you inside" Deeks said wrapping an arm around Kensi. God knows how long she had been standing outside for, Deeks thought to
himself.
It was when he entered the apartment with Kensi that he realised how wet and cold she was.
She was soaked through and her lips were slightly blue. He himself was soaked through and was leaving a puddle on the wooden floor boards.
"Kensi what were you doing?" Deeks asked as he quickly wrapped her up in the blanket that had been rested on the back of his couch.
"I... I... He's gone Deeks" Kensi said looking intently at Deeks. Deeks had never seen Kensi so vulnerable before nor had he seen her express this much
emotion in one day. It was like she was on an emotional rollercoaster ride that she had no control over.
Deeks sighed and pulled Kensi into a hug. "Shh Kens" Deeks cooed as he kissed her on the top of her head.
Kensi pressed herself closer to Deeks and shivered. Deeks had been caught off guard; this was not the reaction from Kensi he had prepared for.
He had half expected Kensi to act as though nothing had changed and that she was indeed perfectly fine, maybe the different circumstances had change
things.
The two stood rooted on the spot neither making any attempts to break the embrace. Deeks continued to rub his hand up and down Kensi's back in feign attempts to sooth and comfort her.
"Kens, I wish it had of been different, I'm sorry" Deeks whispered softly.
Kensi didn't reply but instead sniffled.
"Kens?" Deeks whispered pulling her back to see her face.
"Deeks please, just don't" Kensi pleaded shutting her eyes, not wanting to see the scrutiny of Deeks blue eyes.
"I mean it Kens, I'm sorry, if only..." Deeks started sincerely.
"If only what Deeks? You'd taken the bullet? How would that be any better?" Kensi fired back suddenly filled with anger.
"KENSI" Deeks yelled as he made a move to cover her.
It was now that the world appeared to slow down. The time continuum halted and all events played out in slow motion.
Deeks instinctively leaped forward, enveloping his partner in his arms pulling her down with him and hopefully out of the firing line.
Deeks yell was mirrored by another, but instead it was Kensi's screaming for Nate, who with shorter reaction times was yet to be fully covered.
It wasn't until the shot rang out in the warehouse did time speed return and the events occurred so quickly, many hadn't realised what had happened.
"NATE" Kensi cried out from the safety of Deeks arms.
Nate looked at Kensi and crumpled to the floor. Blood began flowing at will from the now gaping hole in the chest of Nate.
"Why didn't you protect him?" Kensi suddenly asked stepping out of Deeks arms. Deeks looked taken aback by the sudden outburst of Kensi. Whilst he hadn't prepared for emotionally upset Kensi, he definitely wasn't prepared for emotionally hostile Kensi either.
"I was protecting my partner" Deeks calmly replied, still unsure as to what to say.
"I can protect myself" Kensi defiantly objected.
"Kens..." Deeks started.
"No why me? He was the one who needed it? Why didn't you protect him?" Kensi accusingly questioned, growing increasingly angry.
"Kens, you're my partner" Deeks answered softly "I saw the danger and I reacted instinctively. You were in the firing line and I... I... had to protect you." Deeks replied.
"Why did he have to die so you could protect me?" Kensi harshly inquired.
Almost instantaneously a secondary shot rang out, this time emanating from Callen, who now stood shocked and pale from his position next to Sam.
"Deeks what's your status?" Callen yelled frantically through his comms.
Deeks didn't reply as he and Kensi hurried the short distance to where Nate now lay bleeding out on the floor.
"Deeks? Kensi? Your status?" Callen repeated.
"Nate's been shot! We need the EMT's now!" Kensi hurriedly replied sounding urgent.
"Two minutes out" Eric provided from Ops, who were all in just as much shock.
Kensi removed her button down shirt, and quickly used it to plug Nate's gaping wound.
"C'mon Nate stay with me" Kensi pleaded applying as much pressure as possible.
"Kensi..." Nate whispered softly.
"No Nate, you don't get to do this." Kensi begged as the blood began to trickle through her fingers.
"Eric where are these god damn EMTs?" Deeks yelled through his comms.
"They'll be there any second" Eric replied still in a shocked state.
Deeks moved beside Kensi and placed his hand over hers.
"Kens..." Deeks started.
"No, you can't die Nate c'mon, we only just got you back. Nate please" Kensi continued trying to fight back tears.
"Be strong Kens... It's my time" Nate drawled out gasping for air with each breath.
"No don't say things like that, you are going to be fine." Kensi stubbornly objected.
"Goodbye Kens" Nate finally said as his eyes rolled into the back of his head and his chest heaved for one last time.
"Nate? NATE?" Kensi yelled now pumping his chest trying to restore a heartbeat.
"Kensi, he's gone" Deeks whispered tightening his hand that was on top of Kensi's
"He can't be gone" Kensi objected.
"Kensi" Deeks said quietly pulling her back to lean against him.
"He can't be gone" Kensi whispered as she leaned against the protection of Deeks chest.
"Kens you aren't seriously asking me that?" Deeks asked slightly shocked.
"We were there to help Nate to prevent this from happening but we only seemed to the catalyst to it all. One mistake and he's gone Deeks, he's gone"
"Kensi he knew the risks, we all knew the risks." Deeks tried.
"He wasn't even an agent what he even doing there?" Kensi asked no one in particular. "Why?" Kensi asked again her eyes once again brimming with
tears.
Deeks noticed this and pulled Kensi into another hug which she tried to fight.
"Don't fight it Kens, let it all out." Deeks soothed.
"Deeks, he's really gone" Kensi whispered no longer immensely angry, her mood changing almost instantly.
Kensi's reaction was peculiar at that. Whilst Deeks had heard stories of how close Nate and Kensi had been, he hadn't realised how much Kensi had really cared about Nate and he wasn't sure that the others had realised this either.
Deeks sighed as he felt Kensi shiver against him once again.
"C'mon we need to warm you up" Deeks insisted as he walked her towards his bathroom, Kensi not objecting at all.
Deeks turned on his shower, hot water pouring from the shower head, steaming up the bathroom almost immediately.
"C'mon" Deeks coaxed as he pulled Kensi towards the shower.
He pulled the now wet blanket off her shoulders and pulled her fully clothed into the shower with him.
Deeks pulled her close to his chest and he wrapped his arms around her.
"He's really gone" Kensi whispered again and let more tears fall from her eyes.
"Shh, I know Kens, I know" Deeks said as he continued to sooth her, hoping that his calm words would provide some comfort.
Deeks eventually left Kensi to shower by herself whilst he looked for some dry clothes that were most likely to fit her.
Placing an old worn hoodie and a pair of shrunken track suit pants on the end of his bed, Deeks walked over to his conjoining bathroom door.
"Kens are you okay?" Deeks asked sincerely.
"I'll be out in a minute" Kensi replied softly.
"I left some dry clothes for you on the bed." Deeks replied exiting the room and entering the kitchen.
Several minutes later Kensi entered the kitchen dressed in what Deeks had left out for her.
Deeks stood drinking a cold glass of water watching her every move.
Kensi fiddled with the bottom of the hoodie before looking up into Deeks eyes.
"Deeks I'm sorry..." Kensi started.
"Kensi, don't... c'mon" Deeks interrupted as walked over to Kensi kissing her softly on the head.
"No apologises just let it all out now or you never will" Deeks coaxed.
"I can't say anymore. I don't think I have any tears left to cry." Kensi honestly admitted.
"Then sleep is what you need." Deeks promptly decided leading Kensi to his bedroom.
"Here you take the bed." Deeks said pulling back the covers for Kensi "And I'll take the couch"
"Deeks, stay with me, I don't want to be alone." Kensi asked sounding slightly embarrassed.
Deeks took in Kensi that sat before him on the bed. She looked like a lost little girl who needed to be comforted.
Deeks nodded his acceptance and climbed into bed next to Kensi, pulling her in close to his body.
Kensi rested her head above his heart and her hand flat on his chest.
The two lay silent in the dark, listening to the raging storm that was beginning to ease off in intensity.
"Deeks" Kensi whispered after a while.
"Yeah Kens?"
"Thanks for everything"
"Anytime" Deeks honestly replied, placing another soft kiss on Kensi's forehead, before drifting off to sleep with Kensi in his arms.
The End
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And there you have it the end.
What did you think?
Again apologises if the characters seem a little OOC espeically Kensi, but I kind of just went with my idea.
Hope you enjoyed.