I'm still alive! Yeah, sure I haven't updated anything in like FOREVER, but I just started my first real job, seeing as I finished my school this year and it's really tiring. So please have some patience, eventually I will update on my other stories. I promise :D.

Anywho~ Please enjoy this little piece of mine...;P.

I always told myself that I would live this life with no regrets. Every decision I make, every path I chose…I would never regret any of it.

So why was I crying now? Why does my chest feel so tight and heavy, so full of pain and sadness? You once told me to believe in myself, that one who is not afraid to tell the truth will always find the right words to convey their feelings. As it turns out, all of your sweet words of comfort and encouragement had been a part of your deceit. But the worst of it all is that I believed them. Every word you whispered in my ear, so alluring, so full of affection and care…was nothing more than a decoy to get close to me.

You liar. You pitiful, pitiful liar!

''He doesn't mean anything to me!''

It doesn't hurt; no, I won't let you get this satisfaction of seeing the pain of betrayal in my eyes. It doesn't hurt, I am alright. As long as I told myself these things, I was going to be just fine.

''He isn't even a friend. You are more important to me, than he could ever be! I-I don't even know him that well; we just met recently and I spend a few hours with him. That is all!''

Shut up! I don't want to hear it! It doesn't hurt; I'm alright! I have to say it over and over again, and then I can convince myself. It doesn't hurt.

''I was just fooling around with him. And you know what? He was actually so stupid as to believe me! Haha, as if someone of my status could ever like scum like him. I could never like someone as worthless and disgusting as him. What a freak!''

It doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt…

''I was only using him for my own enjoyment and pleasure. The one I want is you, my love. I love you.''

'I love you' you say? You always told me that you didn't believe in love. When you offer someone your heart, you allow them to hurt you…didn't you whisper those words into my ear, while embracing me? And now you use those three words so lightly, like you used them a thousand times before.

My throat is dry, my eyes sting…it doesn't hurt. You won't hurt me.

''Let's forget this silly boy; he was just one out of million. I would tell him all these sweet nothings just to see him cry and plead for my love. How foolish of him to fall for my charms, wouldn't you agree? I despise people like that! Now let's go my love, don't bother with that freak anymore.''

I saw you walk away, your arm tightly wrapped around his slender waist. And you were smiling, your charming, beautiful smile.

I stood there, still, willing my heart to calm down. I was trying to breathe evenly; this really wasn't supposed to bother me. It doesn't hurt, remember?

But when I heard you two laughing so happily, probably at my own expanse, I couldn't prevent the tears to fall down from my cheeks.

I fisted my shirt over my heart, my shoulders were shaking.

It doesn't hurt.

But the truth was…

It does.

K, that was it. Hopefully you liked it. See ya around*gives out cookies* (no, it's not persuation xD).