Random House Chapter 3, a naruto fanfic

(Deidara's P.O.V.)

I paced the floor in the hospital waiting room. The wait was driving me insane. Why was Yumi here? Why was Itachi not here? But the most important question; what the hell happened?

Shini was like stone. How the hell could she be so cool when her sister sat in the EW, possibly dying? Sasori was sitting next to her, holding her hand, as if it was perfectly normal to be with the ice princess. Fucking bitch. Hidan was pulling out his hair, eyes wide with worry. Then the doctor came.

"It was just an allergic reaction to a type of sugar." The doctor said. "She's in room 666 and recovering. You can go see her." He said and walked away. Sasori sighed. "Well that's good." He said quietly. At this point I wasn't sure if he was trying to calm the damn Ice princess or me down. If it for my benefit it was epic fail. I quickly grabbed my jacket and walked into Yumi's room where she lay her eyes closed, breathing even and shallow, silver hair spewed out about her other wise the picture of beauty and health.

Shini followed soon after, with the same blank expression on her face.

"Is…she okay?" She whispered. It made my blood boil.

"'Is she okay?' Of course she's not fucking okay! Yumi's sitting here in the damn hospital, and it's all your fault!" a single tear ran down her cheek.

"Maybe if I wasn't so hard on her…I'm so sorry, Yu." And she was gone. Sasori was angry, even though he kept a straight face.

"what the hell was that for?"

"That fucking bitch! Yumi would have been with me if it weren't for her! She wouldn't be in a near-death damn coma! She'd be watching stupid movies and laughing! How dare you blame me. You just met her and I've been your friends for fucking years!" I yelled angrily. I realized then that I was crying, and probably had been the whole time. "YU-Yu's so special.. And Shini ruins it." I said my voice cracking.

"I'm not taking sides, Deidara. I'm just saying that Shini has been working hard to make Yumi's life better, and you giving the kid heroine isn't going to help."

"That's a load of bullshit. Yumi's life was great. She raced. That was her life. She told me so." I took her hand, trying not to cry again. She said something.

"No…don't send…to rehab…" Itachi and Sasuke stood in the doorway. I clenched my fists. If anyone would want to send me away, it would be the weasel.

"Itachi, anything you need to tell me? about sending someone to rehab?" I growled through clenched teeth. He shrugged and walked into the room, Sasuke trailing after him. Sasuke looked broken. His eyes were wide, and his pupils dilated.

"I have nothing to say. You probably already know."

Yumi was clenching my hand tightly. I squeezed back gently trying to be gentle with the girl who looked so delicate. "No. Dei-chan…Please don't take him away Itachi-kun…." She said her voice weak and raw. "If you wanted to send me to rehab you bastard then you talk to me! You don't go and talk to Yumi about it. All you fucking accomplished is that you hurt her and badly." I said through clenched teeth my eyes closed. Sasori sighed lightly when he saw my hand that wasn't her clenched in a fist and shaking with rage. "Yumi needs me here with her. Not of in some damn rehab center. She needs me next to her." My voice was clear crisp and not an ounce of emotion in it. I sure sing I was pissed. I couldn't believe he'd do that. Yumi was mine, I had to protect her. I was the very first one she turned to. I couldn't just skip out.

"But would she be able to have you when the drugs eat the rest of the way through your stomach?"

"That doctors was lying! It's not true! I'm perfectly fine. I can't leave her! I cant…Ever. I promised her." I said quietly my hands shaking. I was crying again. Itachi shook his head in disgust.

"You sicken me."

then they were gone.

Sasori sighed. "Look I know you think the docs lying and maybe he over exaggerated and tons of other stuff. I'll agree. But what if Yumi stayed with me? I'd watch her and be careful." Sasori said.

"That's fine with me."

(Hidan's P.O.V.)

I ran through the streets. I just can't take it anymore. I end up at the park, my flask in hand. I try to ignore all of the parents who stare at my booze with a disgusted look in their eyes, only one person seemed to not care about the rum. He even came over to offer me a cigarette in exchange for some alcohol. I take the cig though I don't usually smoke. I light up easily. "Im Kakuzu." He said. "Hidan." I reply. "Hm.. Whats the symbol around your neck?" He asked. "Fucking Jashin." I said smirking. "My religion." "Hm that's cool." He said after taking a drink. "Of course it fucking is." "Zealot." He said. "And damn proud." I said. The man laughed, causing me to turn my smirk into a smile. Kakuzu had a beautiful laugh. Kakuzu looked at the time and sighed. "I'm sorry but I have to go back to work." He took my hand and wrote a number on it. "call me." HE said and walked off as I watched. The man left me nothing but a cigarette, his name, and a very confusing memory.

Kakuzu…

(Yumi P.O.V)

I slowly open my eyes to see crowded hospital room. A quick glance shows me Itachi, Sasuke, Shini, Hidan, and Sasori were all there I didn't see Deidara anywhere and that was alittle disconcerting.. Shini was slapping my cheek lightly, "Wakey wakey, 'lil sis. Wakey wakey or DIE!" she then slapped me really hard, leaving my cheek red and stinging. I had tears in my eyes. "ow….big sis why did you hit me? I was just sleeping…" I whined. "I'm really tired..." I said quietly and looked around. Sasuke by far was the worse off looking completely broken. Shini only grinned, striking a Grell pose.

"You have been 'sleeping' for about a week. Your sister was just about to lose it. The doctor said that slapping you softly wouldn't hurt. Shini, notice when I said SOFT." Sasori added, shaking his head. Yumi smiled and hugged her sister tightly. "Thank you sis…that means you still care…"She was squeezing Shini tightly tears in her eyes. "I love you big sis."

"Meh, you owe me money, dude. Couldn't let you nod off without getting my pay." Shini said in a harsh tone. I looked up to see her smiling. She was only teasing. I smile at her and then let go and turn to Sasori. "Hey Sasori I just thought that I would say thanks. I'm pretty sure you were the only thing that kept Dei and Shi-nii-sama sane while I was sleeping. So thanks."

Sasori shrugged, "I think in my mission to keep THEM sane, I lost a bit of my OWN sanity. I. Can't. Take. It. ANYMORE! Stay awake, DAMNIT!" I laughed heartily smiling happily. "I understand trust me I will." I said as Dei walked back in I was wrapped in a very tight bear hug. It was tight but I could tell Dei was trying not to hurt me at all. I smiled leaning into the embrace happily.

"Blondie has a baby-" Shini was about to yell, but Sasori covered her mouth. "let them have their moment alright? He's been worried about her so just let them be." He whispered in her ear. And yes I can read lips. (Sasori turns to the readers, "What Shini was about to say would've made you want to kill 7-chan and Jazz-chan, so we kinda bleeped it out.")

I just then realize that Sasori can break through the fourth wall. I smiled as Deidara let me go. I glared and made him and Shini stand in front of me. " Now listen Dei I know you were upset but that's no reason to make my sister cry! You have absolutely no right to do anything like that. What she was doing was looking out for me and you will apologize. This wasn't your fault Dei but it also wasn't Shini's or Itachi's so stop acting like it is." My voice was stern but gentle. "And Shini, did you even bother to ask me why I did drugs? No you didn't! All did was just assume and assume."I growl and sigh. "And you can't blame Dei for my issues. I chose to take the drugs and it's my choice. Overall you both acted like immature asses and complete idiots. It's completely fucked up and you know it." I stated. "see I woke about 40 minutes ago when it was just Itachi here. He told me everything." Deidara looked guilty. But Shini only looked pissed. "No! Neither of you listened or even cared about who you hurt. All you did was snap at everything." I said harshly. "So you can glare all you want Shi-nii-sama but you know I'm right."

"No! It was not my fault! It was all that damned blonde! You were such a sweet girl before you met him! Now look at you! You're a fucking drug addict and you always will be as long as he is your friend!" Shini screamed. I look at her calmly. "THE first time I did drugs was with Hidan 2 weeks after I left mom's house. And you know what I found? They make it better! They make the pain of Akugami of mom of all the bullshit in my life go away. They make me feel NORMAL again something I haven't felt in years. I'm not scared of ever single person I fucking meet and I don't have to really on Deidara. I've gone 3 months without drugs. I'm not addicted or drug addled. What I am when I'm on them is happy and you may not see it, but Hidan does Dei does and even Sasori fucking sees it!" I said strictly but calmly.

"And don't make excuses for Hidan. He gave me the meds when we were at a party and he was trying to impress this guy he liked. He watched me carefully and made sure I didn't OD but I was fucking stressed out and he thought it would help and it did!" I said angrily.

"Yes, I know. He already got his ass kicked for that. I have to lock away his medical marijuana now, and only give it to him when he is in pain." Shini crossed her arms, "And also, have you ever stopped to think that Sasori-kun tried to stop Blondie? He hates the smell and he hates how it ruins people's lives. Sorry I talked for you, Red." Sasori just took steps back wanting to stay out of the argument. "Look ok so forget everything else. What about the part where I'm not a completely nervous fucking wreck without you or something watching over me? That the only way I can race now a days is if I take drugs first? That I almost lost the one thing I care about because between my mother and my boyfriend I was terrified. Oh no you wouldn't because you were mommy's little angel. She never tried to burn you alive. I'm sorry but I'm still living with the scars of shit you couldn't ever understand.." I say. It was the truth to, Shini had never been hurt by their mother it had always always been Yumi.

"Yumi, you do realize that I tried to save you from the fire? In fact, I almost died. You wanna see?" Shini pulled up her tank top up to just below her chest to reveal a rather large scar, covering the entirety of her back and stomach. " I never said you didn't Shini. I' m saying that I was in a coma for 3 weeks while you were out of the hospital in 10 days. You got candy and presents and when you got home, I got beat to almost death. So to cope with my memories I take drugs. They help and do something hardly nothing else I can."

"Is that what she told you? Is that what you really believe?"

"Well why wouldn't I after all you were always Mom's princess."

"I should've known. You never got to see me, so of course you wouldn't know the difference."

"Well of course, Because mommy wouldn't want me to soil her princess. My point is Shini that I went threw hell while mom protected you. She never once hit you. I hav - had an abusive boyfriend and I'm always on the edge of a breakdown so if the drugs make it so I can look at myself in the mirror and not think I'd be happier dead then I'm ok with that."

"Mom lied to you, kid."

"Yeah right. Even if she did, you're always the princess while I got hurt for everything you did." I say. As I'm talking I realize what she said.

"I was in a coma for three months, kid. Check my medical records."

" Wow..Sis I'm sorry and I thank you because no one would of came after me if you hadn't. And I love you for that and so much more But you're ignoring the point. We were arguing about how you don't listen! You automatically blame Dei or Hidan. Your doing just what mom did. I can do no wrong and everything is someone's else's fault." I say.

"You don't think I know that? I know im a shitty sister, and im an even shittier guardian. Go live with Blondie. I just don't care anymore. I just cant take it." Suddenly My eyes fall closed.

( Sasori's P.O.V.)

I see Yumi's eyes close and her heart monitor started to freak out like she was going in to shock. She looked like she was having a seizure and breaking down. Her eyes rolled in the back of her head and the nurses and several doctors immediately rushed in. Shini looked ahead of her with dead eyes. A few moments later, she walked out of the room. No one noticed, they were too worried about Yumi. Yumi looked like she was dying and a few minutes later we were all rushed out. In the hall Sasuke broke down crying and quietly talking to Itachi who was trying to calm him down. Deidara was sitting in a chair head in his hands shacking and crying his eyes out. I sigh and realized Shini had left wanted to follow her, but I knew that Dei was pretty unstable, and with what had just happened could do something horrible and reckless and probably life altering and Shini has a good head on her shoulders, while Dei didn't and was most likely going to do something horrible, either to himself or someone else.

I let her go, which was probably the worst mistake I could've ever made in my entire life.

(Shini's POV)

I am nothing.

I walked out of that cursed area.

She doesn't love me anymore.

I am in my room.

I am exactly like her, that blasted woman.

I shouldn't be here.

I shouldn't even exist.

I am filthy.

I see a blade. One shiny, little blue blade. I pick it up and hold it lovingly in my hands.

"Hello, my little friend. Im Shini, death to all positive emotion sent my way. I am a graveyard. But you understand that, don't you, my little friend? You end people in a sea of blood, don't you? Will you help me, little one? Will you set me free? One day?" I looked to the blade, taking its silence as a agreement. I press the blade to my skin.

Thank you, sweetie.