( Hidan's P.O.V.)
I look as Shini walks back in Yumi's Hospital room. The doctors said her system went into shock because of an emotional trauma. Since she was able to talk now, all she did though was cry and beg for Shini. It seemed like those words and cut her so deep that she couldn't even function. I sigh and look back and forth my two sisters. One question going through my mind ''How in hell did we end up like this?'
Shini only sat still, not even bothering to listen to her sister crying for her. The broken toy, as Itachi would say. I sigh and look at Itachi pretty much begging for help with this. I mean Yumi was crying for Shini and not able to see anyone else, her emotions stunned by the one person she thought would all ways love her walk away, and Shini didn't seem to hear her at all. Basically that ment we were screwed, and I was hoping just maybe the psycho-babble guy could help. Itachi only shook his head.
"They need to work this out themselves." He whispered in my ear.
"Alright can you atleast give them both some drugs to calm down? I mean Shini's look like she's dead and all Yumi can do is cry. I mean you can see its about send Sasuke and Dei over the edge, and to be honest I'm not much better." I whisper back sighing.
"I can do nothing about Shini without a few sessions and a PERSCRIBED drug, but I can give Yumi a bit of tranquilizer. Not enough to knock her out, just enough to get her to shut up."
"Alright." I sighed. " I guess I can deal with Shini I mean I know you have like a N.P. degree so I thought you could prescribe something but I understand and thanks. I mean even getting Yumi to clam up and calm down for a few hours would be great for her and for the rest of us." I say quietly and quickly. After getting Yumi to quiet down, he pulled me aside.
"I would like you to send Shini to me every so often at my office. I think a few counseling sessions would be good for her. Free of charge."
"Thanks a lot Itachi that means a lot…. But I am not a miracle working and seriously there is no way in hell Shini would be willing to go. I mean I can try to do it. And I will I mean I just kinda doubt it." I say sighing.
"Tell her it's court ordered. She needs help, whether she likes it or not."
I sigh and nod. "Your right, and she's not the only one. I mean… Yumi and Dei also need it. I'll definitely tell her that. I'll say it's needed to re-asses her guardian ship of Yumi and that it's about Yumi not her. I was wonder if you know what's wrong with both of them? And if you could maybe get them to talk to each other? I mean Yumi and Shini both look broken." I hate sounding desperate but I'm facing facts and the facts are: I am desperate. Very desperate.
"One of the problems that they share is denial. They both deny their problems. Yumi her addiction, and Shini her over-protectiveness. Shini is depressed, she thinks she is an inadequate Guardian to Yumi, and thinks Deidara can do so much better for her. Yumi is suffering from posttraumatic Stress, among other things. She is still reeling about what happened years ago. She needs to let go. I do not think we will be able to get those two to talk to each other. Yumi would beg, and Shini would stay silent as the grave." I sigh and nod. I look up as the nurse walked in and made us all leave so she could give Yumi a shot.
(Shini P.O.V.)
The next day, we were all gathered in Yumi's room at the hospital. I then saw a familiar head of red. I thought it was my Sasori, but the person, who it really was, was not my dear Sasori.
I watch as he walked over and my sister actually smiled saying. "hey babe. I missed you." Then he hugged Yumi tightly and they kissed.
"Hello, Yumi. Are you okay?" Gaara said to my sister softly. I clenched my throat, to keep from screaming.
I remember.
Us smiling.
Us laughing.
His teal eyes sparkling with tears of happiness.
Our child growing in my belly.
My happiness.
His anguish.
His back as he walked out of the door, leaving me behind.
With only the money for the dreaded deed.
My sadness.
The door, six months later.
Crushing the innocent baby in my stomach.
He doesn't even notice me. All he sees is Yumi. I remember when we use to be like that. Yumi smiled and nodded softly in reply. "Yeah..it was just an allergic reaction ,,,I was having coffee at Itachi's and forgot to remind him that I can't have a kind of sugar." I tried not to remember the pain in my belly then. I wrapped my arms around my stomach, pretending the little one was still there.
I would've called it Rin, whether it was a boy or a girl. He noticed me then. But he just smiled and went back to quietly talking with Yumi. I want to scream as I see him kiss Yumi again. "That's good you should be out of here soon…and then we can hang out again." Gaara said to Yumi. Sasori walked over to me, not knowing what was wrong. "Shini Whats wrong?" he asked quietly as Yumi and Gaara kissed again. I hug my knees close to me, smiling a little at him, "It's nothing, really. I have a stomachache, that's all." "Liar./ There's a tear running down your face. So just tell me the truth ok? What did that bastard do now?" Sasori said sighing. He and I look up as Yumi laughed and smiled Gaara sitting next to her holding her tightly. I jump up.
"It's none of your fucking business, Sasori!" I yell, running out of the room and to my house, completely ignoring my car. I'm surprised, when I feel arm's wrap around me and realize that Sasori followed me all the way here. He hold's me close and tightly, but not enough to hurt. "Look,. I like you…" He sighed. "I really REALLY like you ok? I don't like seeing you in any pain.. And this is killing me." I break free of his hold, turning to face him.
"Get the fuck away from me, 'Sori! Just go away!"
Sasori just looked at me and smiled ever so angelic. "no. You cut yourself I can tell the signs like the one on your wrist, you're in pain. I'm not gonna let you go on suffering like this. I can't do it…. I can't let you get hurt anymore. You might hate me but you know what? I'm fucking use to it. What do you think Dei does every time I stop him from doing something stupid or going down a bad road? Well that's where you're going now but I plan to stop you." His voice was calm and cool.
"No! I don't need your help! I can handle things on my own!"
"No you can't Shini. I know you can't and you know you can't. You are going down a very bad road. And the sad part is that you don't think anyone can stop you and it's ok. Now please awnser what did Gaara do?"
"Did I ever tell you I was supposed to have a baby, 'Sori?" I growl.
Sasori's eyes widened. "Ah I heard Temari talk about you. She said Gaara knocked some girl up then left her, but she had a miscarriage. I'm really sorry Shini… That fate shouldn't of happened to anyone much less someone as special and kind as you."
"It was on purpose, did Tamari tell you that?"
"no she didn't but Gaara's an ass anyway. Shini trust me things are better now because of that.. I know it's not a road you would of picked but it lead you here. I'm so sorry and I can't believe something that bad would happen, and you have my condolences Shini you do. But I seriously can't let you ruin your life over that. You are strong, smart and beautiful and deserve so much better." He said, kissing my forehead. I pull away, slapping him in the face.
"God Dammit! Cant you even listen to me for once? Gaara came for some of his things six months after he dumped me. we got into an argument. I was foolish enough to stand behind the door when he threw it open and left. He heard my screams, but he did nothing." Sasori eyes looked wide and shocked but he quickly recovered. "well I'm sorry. He deserves to rot in hell and I'll make sure he gets his, I swear I will Shini. This is just another reason. I'm sorry that it had to be you. I'm sorry he left you there I am. I'm sorry, That is horrible and should never of happened. You had ever right to act the way you did." Sasori said, but was still holding me. "But I can't let you hurt yourself anymore Shini."
"Why do you automatically assume I'm cutting myself? I slipped, idiot. I was holding one of my craft tools, and I slipped on some oil in the garage, heading to my studio. I nicked myself, that's all."
"bullshit. How fucking stupid do you think I am? Please do not insult me. Because that lies pathetic, if it was just a slip' why wrap up your whole entire arm to hide a little 'nick?" Do you think I'm that dumb? That's a sure sing of cutting. And Hidan told me that there was blood in room. I heard him telling Itachi who is actually very worried about you and Yumi. Do you realize that I know what to look for with cutting because I use to cut? Did that ever cross your fucking mind? That I wasn't stereotypical saying it, but from experience." For the last past Sasori sounded insulted that I had thought he had just assumed. "I don't assume shit. That's Deidara's job not mine." Sasori said.
"Look, asshole!" I yell, tearing the entire bandage wrap off, exposing the clean dark crimson line, "I slipped, idiot. The supposed blood in the room was my red water, meant to look like blood. Before all this madness, I was planning on making it look like some serial killer had turned me into a human pin cushion."
Sasori looked at me. "Uh-uh. Sure." Sasori said sarcastically. "Did you know blood smells? You've been sleeping on the couch. Your fake blood can't smell like Iron Shini. I don't even want to know but Hidan even tasted it, he said it was really blood. Because he wanted to make sure before he went and told Itachi about it. Oh come the fuck on. Dude, that cut is A way to clean for having to go threw clothing and other things, but if you 'fell' then why did Hidan find a knife stained with blood under your mattress? See I use to cut so I know all those fucking tricks. sorry they don't work on me." Sasori stated.
I turn away from him. he grabs my wrist, trying to tug me to him.
"Maybe its best we don't see each other for a while, 'Sori." He is so shocked he lets go of my wrist. I continue walking.
Maybe it's best I shouldn't be seeing anyone else, either. I thought, walking down the street.
A/N: Hi again! Note that I am posting this without Jazz-Chan's permission, so if I suddenly disappear, that means I'm dead. Oh well, you'll just have to check out my favey authors and see what they wrote. DO IT, THEY ARE PURE AWESOMNESS! Especially Jazz-Chan, Vicky, and Sammy-Dee.