What She Needs to Love by LynnTheWonderful
Disclaimer: I do not own KWMS!
A/N: Sorry if should there be any grammar mistakes or typos. I suck at grammar, no need to point that out.
Chapter 2
= Misaki's POV =
"Urgh! Why he asked me that?" I mumbled to myself, nearly being choked by the toothpaste inside my mouth – I was brushing my teeth in the bathroom.
He said he had an important thing to tell me, to ask me, so he told me to meet up with him at 5p.m., after the graduation ceremony, just to ask me that?
I don't understand. Why "Fiancé" is so important for him?
Wasn't loving each other like this is more than enough?
Why he wanted to ask me that sort of stuff?
Wasn't my love for him and staying by his side enough?
Why?
Why I replied to him like that just now?
He asked me for what I want gently, afraid I will get mad; but me, I replied him… sounds like I didn't care much about his feelings…
I should be replying him more gently and calm…
I spitted out the toothpaste in my mouth. The sink was filled with white bubbles. I turned on the tap and washed away the bubbles and rinsed my mouth with the cold, freezing water.
It's so refreshing!
I walked out from the bathroom and took a change into my favourite white bluish pyjamas.
"Click!" my index finger pressed on the switch to switch off the light that lighten my room.
I crawled into my blanket and tried to close my eyes to fall asleep.
But unfortunately, my eyes can't shut at all.
I kept thinking to the scene happened just now, the conversation between Usui and I.
"What you need to accept my request as my fiancé? Friends? Money? Care? Or…More Love?..."
Those words that Usui asked me kept on repeating and repeating in my head.
I can feel his pain through what he said.
I had hurt his feelings.
Why I said such words to him?
I felt so bad about this…
I can't felt asleep, I looked at my cell phone and it was already 12 midnight. It had been so late, but I still can't sleep, so I walked out of my room and to the living room.
As usual, Suzuna was sitting on the old pink sofa watching dramas.
I sat beside Suzuna and ask her, "Suzuna, what drama was playing now?"
"My favourite drama, 'The Symphony'," she replied but her eyes still can't take off the television. "Ehh, sis, you're not sleeping yet?" she turned to me.
"Emm, no, I can't sleep. You won't mind right if I watch with you?"
"Sure," she turned back looking at the old television again.
"Alice… Will you marry me?" a guy holding a bouquet of roses in his right arms, holding a small box containing a small round ring, kneeling to the ground asking the girl he loves that was standing in front of him to marry him – which I think she's his "girlfriend".
The girl stepped backward and pushed the bouquet of roses and box of ring back to his arms and replies, "Drake, I am so sorry. I can't," – the girl actions were so similar to me.
"Why? Wasn't you love me, and I love you too, but why, what do you waiting for?" the guy asked his lover – and he, he sounds so like Usui…
I looked back on Suzuna. "Nee, Suzuna, this is your favourite drama, so I guess you had watched it before, right?" she nodded to my question, but she's still facing to the television screen.
"Why did the girl declined his offer?" I asked her another question.
No answer.
So I asked her again.
Still no answer from her, I think I need to wait till commercials.
Finally, she answered my question. "E—Because she wants 'someone to have him first'."
"Huh? What do you mean by that, Suzuna?" I questioned her with confusion in my eyes.
"Haha! Just kidding… because she wants to fulfill her dreams first… But about the girl, it will appear another girl to snatch her away… Haha!" she laughed out loud. "he's a rich man, and yet she still wants to declined his offer! Such a stupid girl, am I right? But I still love to watch the drama. Hehe- -"
"Yea, indeed, indeed," I agreed to her statement.
But somehow, I don't know why, I felt like that girl in the drama, it's me…
She declined her boyfriend's proposal, just like me.
I declined my boyfriend to be his fiancé to fulfill my dreams, just like her.
How could I be so selfish?
For the sake of my dreams, I refuse to be Usui's fiancé; Usui's always helped me a lot when I am in trouble, he's also would try to understand me, how can I be so selfish?
This is so unfair for him.
If I accept his offer to be his fiancé, I may not fulfill my dream to further my studies at my dream college.
But, if I refused, Usui may will be snatch by other girl one day, just like in the drama. Moreover, Usui's a very popular guy in school and almost every girl in our school was in love with him…
Should I accept or refused his offer?
Ahh! It was so difficult for me to make a decision when it comes to LOVE!
Wait, wait, I know.
I know how I should choose now!
"Suzuna, what the girl's decision in the end?" I asked Suzuna.
"She, first she refused, then accept, but because of something happened between them before they get married, she declined it, but at last, when all things were cleared up again, she accept it, and the two of them lived happily ever after!"
"Thank you, its sure is complicated," I thanked her with smile on my face; she smiled back, nodded twice.
Now, I know what to do!
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