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When i woke up, my headache was just.. Horrible! I wasn't feeling to good either. I slowly got up, and then stretched, looking at the time. It was about 8 am. Pony usually wakes up around now, and so does Johnny. Unfortunaly, i would have to wait for Dal to wake up, he is a heavy sleeper, and he can sleep forever.

"Ow.." I mumbled to myself hearing my back pop pretty loud, i heard Pony get up and stretch as well.

"Morning..." He muttered tiredly, i smiled a little at him.

"Morning." I said quietly as we both walked into the kitchen and sat at the table to keep the sun out of our eyes. I mean, i was a morning person, i just don't like the sun in my eyes when i wake up, it hurts.

"So..." Pony uawned tiredly before getting up. "Whattya want for breakfast?" He asked me, he was looking at me as he got out a pan and the eggs.

"I'm no-" I said quietly before Dal walked in rubbing his eyes.

I was just about as confused as Pony, we both knew how hard it was to wake up Dal at 8 am. "Hey." Pony said quietly.

Dal nodded and sat next to me and glanced at me, i was looking at the table, studying the wood design on them.

"Morning." Dal smiled at me, i glanced at him and gave him a small smile.

"Morning Sleeping Beauty." I replied quietly, he glared at me, then chuckled slightly.

"You were out before me." He said before Pony poured three glasses or Orange Juice and sat two of them on the table.

"Oh, so.. Why are you up? You got a date or something?" I smirked still talking pretty quietly, he laughed a little.

"No, i just woke up." He shrugged looking at me as i nodded. I got up and walked over to Pony who was struggling to mix the Pancake batter.

"Here, i'll make Breakfast, go wake up everyone." I said quietly to Pony, he looked at me as if i was nuts.

"But-" He said as Darry walked in putting on a shirt, yawning, making me and Pony yawn in unison.

"Hey Dar." Dal said looking up at him from drinking his Orange juice, i was suprised he was, he's been getting smashed at the bar lately, Sylvia was cheating on him when he went to jail.

"Oh, Hey Dal. Your awake at this time?" Darry asked looking at the clock, Dally nodded.

"Or do i need to wake up everyone?" I mumbled to Pony, Pony gave me a small smile, i rolled my eyes and walked into the living room, i started kicking Two-Bits face softly with my foot. He woke up.

"Unicorns!" He yelled randomly, Waking up Soda and Steve. Johnny i guess was already up. Easier than i thought.

I heard Soda and Steve laughing along with Two-Bit, Johnny had gotten up and went into the kitchen after i did. I felt Dal's eyes on me, it was kind of weird, but i got used to it.

"Morning, Wifey." Smiled Two-Bit as he rested his elbow on my head as i started making the pancakes.

"Morning." I said quietly as he chuckled.

"What kind of Pancakes are ya' makin'?" He asked looking at them.

"Chocolate Chip." I smiled a little as he smirked.

"Good Girl." He patted my head as i glared at him the way Dally always glares at him.

"I'm not a girl, i'm a teenager." I said, and gave him a shy smiled.

"And i'm an Adult." He smiled, i rolled my eyes.

"Pfft." I muttered as i heard him laugh as he walked into the living room where Soda and Steve were watching Mickey Mouse.

I quickly finished making everybody food, it looked good but i wasn't feeling good, and i didn't feel hungry even though its been a few days since i last ate. Dally pulled me down on his lap making me blush red.

"W-W-" I said trying to talk, he glared at me as i looked down.

"You should eat something." He said into my ear, i shook my head. "Why not? Your looking paler than normal." He said looking at me.

"I-I'm not hun-hungry." I said quietly to him, he looked pretty pist at the glare he gave me.

"Not hungry? Just eat, please?" He said quietly to me, "Here," He handed me his plate as he got up after picking me off his lap and getting up and setting me back on the chair. I ate it, i really didn't like him being mad at me, anad hey, he said please.

After i finished one pancake, i was finished, then quickly washed all the dishes. By then, it was around 9.

"Hey, Rene." Said Johnny as i sat next to him, i glanced at him and gave him a small smile.

"Hey, Johnny." I replied.

"So, you said that dad hurt you yesterday?" He said quietly as i nodded, everyone was doing something else.

"Yea." I whispered quietly, i lifted up my shirt, it was a large, purple bruise, it was painful. Aside from being mad skinny, it was scary to see my ribs pop out like that, i hated it.

johnny looked at it before mumbling a 'Sorry'. I sighed before pulled back down my shirt. "Hey, Dar, Would you mind if i took a shower?" I asked Darry quietly.

He looked down at me, he looked worried for a moment. "Uh, Yea." He nodded before i walked over into the bathroom and closed the door, then locked it. I looked at myself in the mirror, i did look really pale even though i was a around Johnny's tan skin range. I looked at my large dark circles and sighed. I decided to take a bath and started the water. Making sure it was really hot water, well not to hot. So many things were running though my mind, and i didn't even know why. It was just random.

I got undressed and set my blade on the toilet lid, and i kept glancing at it. I huffed as i closed my eyes and stopped the water one the tub was full. I got in and relaxed closing my eyes.

I heard the boys rough housing outside, and alot of laughing going on, i just blocked them out of my head and listened to my thoughts. They weren't really pleasent. They were negative.

'What if no one loves you? What if its all fake, they don't care for you, they would never care for you, getting beat is one thing, but they're never there when you need them to be...' I thought to myself. Thats nonsense! They did love me, and they try to be there, and sometimes they are when i need them.

'People think your weird, its because your weird, different from others, they look at you weirdly, they insult you, you've been beaten at school, they call you hurtful things and let that pass..' I scrunched my eyebrows opening my eyes. I am weird.. I am.

'So whats the point of living, your mother doesn't love your, your father doesn't love you, Johnny was doing fine without you, Dallas was doing fine without you, everyone was doing fine without you, your a burden..' My thoughts were eating my up inside. And i was letting them, i glanced back at my switch blade, then stretched far enough to grab it..

~Dallas's POV~

I sighed, i guess Johnny had noticed cause he was looking at me, i looked at the bathroom door.

"Whats wrong, Dal?" He asked quietly, i looked back at him and shrugged.

"Just going through stuff, hey, uh.. Whens the last time your sister ate, other than today?" I asked, it was bugging me, i mean, i cared for her, she was so important to me, i loved her, i loved her more than Johnny, she was my other half. And i didn't like the feeling, but it makes me feel.. Happy inside. She gives me hope when i have none, she makes me smile, laugh, and feel emotion.

"Uh..." He said looking at the ceiling, making his usual thinking face, it was kind of scary when he had been thinking for a minute before answering. "Like a week ago." He sighed looking at me as i nodded.

She needs to take better care of herself, i hated seeing her this skinny, i hated seeing her sick, i hated seeing her cry, or anything. I wish i could protect her from everything, but i can't. She just.. I don't know, she should know that we love her, and that we care, and that she can talk about anything with me, even about boyfriends. I sound weird.. I sighed running my hand over my face, And yawned to cover a sigh.

~Rene's POV~

What the hell did i do to myself! I groaned looking at the blood dripping from my arm into the water, i washed my blade and put it on the ground as i looked at my bleeding arms. Your a retard! What did you do to yourself! I got out and grabbed the darkest towel and wrapped it around myself quickly, then drained the rub, washing any blood away, then i quickly grabbed the first aid kit, and wrapped my arms. Retard! Retard! They're going to notice! When i finishe, i put it away and put my hair in the towel and got dressed in my old cloths and put on my jacket to cover up the bandage's. I took the towel off my head, then put it back on the towel holder, then looked at myself in the mirror. I rubbed at my dark circles, then walked out, everyone looked at me.

I looked at everyone awkwardly as Soda smiled brightly at me. "Uh.. Hi." I said quickly, and awkwardly. I went and sat next to Pony, my wrists were itching, i hesitarted at scratching them, knowing Pony he would notice.

"Hey, lets go and hang out at the park!" Two-Bit yelled loudly.

"Its freezing outside, Shulock!" Dally said back at him, everyone laughed a little. Except for me and Johnny.

"Thats why theres a things called jackets. Duh." He said before grabbing his leather jacket and putting it on. It was snowing outside, it was really, really snowy accually. It was late December, i think it was the 21st. Everyone put on their jackets, and walked out, i fallowed in the back, keeping my head down and my hands in my pockets. Dal wrapped his arm around my shoulders as i looked up at him.

"Whats wrong?" He asked as i shook my head. Everything is what i wanted to say. But i didn't. He gave me a soft look before he took his arm off my shoulders, making it colder than ever. Johnny slowed down a little so he could walk next to me. Dal had walked ahead, he knew something was wrong, he knew that i acted lie him when something was wrong, and he always got mad when i lied to him. It hurts me to lie to him. It does.

Basically we were out in the snow at the park all day, then we went and hung out at a few random stores and watched at Two-Bit took things, then later came back home and warmed up as they played poker, i just sat in a corner for a while.

~FASTFOWARD/Around 9pm! ~

I sighed walking down the street, it was dark but the moon gave a perfect lighting for me to see. Dally had went of over to Bucks cause he got mad at me, i wanted to say sorry when he tried talking to me again, but i said that nothing was wrong, he accually yelled at me for the first time, and his eyes were full of hurt. I sighed as i walked up a few sairs and knocked on the door to Buck's place, he was throwing another one of those mad crazy parties. Buck answered and looked down at me, i looked at him.

"Yes?" He asked as i shivered. Everything about Buck kind of creaped me out.

"Can i come in?" I asked quickly as he looked at me for a moment before letting me. He usually wouldn't let 16 year olds in, but i guess i was wrong.

I looked down, feeling a few guys look at me weirdly. Until i felt someones arms snake around my waist.

I turned around to look at a Soc, Not just a Soc, Bob Sheldon. Eww!

I pushed him off me as he glared at me, "Oh come on, Baby.." He said touching me again pulling me to him, i just tried pushing him, but he was to strong, he started pulling my towards the stair case, he smelled like wine, Vodka, and bear. Before he could get to the staircase, he stopped when he was decked in the face, i looked at the guy who had done that to him, and there stood Dally. I was shaking slightly, i blinked a few times as he glared down at Bob, then he looked at me.

"You alright?" He asked, he looked ... Sad?

"Y-Yea." I said nodding slowly. He sighed noticing my shaking.

"Why are you here? If i wasn't here to save you, who knows what would have happened!" He was getting mad as he always did, i looked at the ground.

"I-" I said as i paused my a moment. He was looking down at me, "I-I-I'm S-sorry.." He looked away for a moment, but then back at me.

"Its alright, i just over reacted." He said before giving me a hug and kissing my forehead softly, i blushed as he looked down at me. "Do you and Johnny have a place to stay at tonight?" He asked.

"Um, i think Johnny's staying at The Curtis' house, i don't know where i'm going tonight." I shrugged, he nodded before grabbing my hand.

"You can stay the night tonight with me." He said, i blushed. "I won't do anything to you, promise." He said as i nodded slowly.

We walked upstairs into his 'room.'. He let me wear on of his shirts, i hesitated and kept my wrists behind my back, he was wearing his boxers only, i slept cuddled against him as he wrapped his arm around me, i felt safe for once, and i love it.

I hope you liked it ! I think it was alright ...3