Hey Guys Manderszx3 - got a few reviews and that made me happy. keep em comin :]
Here we go:
That recording session went well.
I was back in my bed scribbling down more lyrics, but not finding anything worthy enough of adding to my song. Some would call this writers block... I call it I'm falling for someone quicker than I thought I would, someone I shouldn't even be falling for, for obvious reasons and I can't get him out of my mind. GO ME!
My mind just wanders. I needed to distract myself. I picked up my cell phone and saw a missed call from Tommy.
"I wonder what he could want" Seeing as how there was no voicemail and no other missed calls, I decided to not call him back. I was already thinking about him too much today.
I scrolled through my contacts and called my best friend, Kat. She would know what to do.
I listened to the phone ring.
"Hello"?
"Hey Kat. What are you doing? Are you up for a bite and some shopping? I need some major distraction time right now; I have so much to tell you!"
"Sure, Jude! We haven't hung out in a while what with you being the newest Instant Star and all! I'll be over in a bit."
She hung up.
That gave me just enough time to get ready and shower up a bit. I decided to just throw on jeans and an old AC/DC top with my black converse and call it a day. I wasn't trying to impress anyone anyway.
My phone rang again. It was Kat. I looked at the phone puzzled.
"Hello?"
"Hey... Jude, listen. I'm so sorry I don't mean to do this because I love you and I want to see you, but my mom and I got into a huge fight and now she won't let me out .. I'll explain later okay? I'm sorry."
".. It's okay, I understand. Good luck with that battle." I chucked a bit and hung up.
"Great" I thought out loud.
I decided to go shopping anyway, I had gotten ready - so why put this to waste? I needed that distraction – Kat or no Kat.
I got to the mall and sat down at the food court with my favorite Subway sandwich in front of me. Foot long Honey Oat with Turkey, double American cheese, lettuce, cucumbers, green peppers, banana peppers, mayonnaise, oil & vinegar and black pepper. I got to be a fatass without gaining much weight. SCORE!
Doing what I did when I always ate I began to scribble more lyrics.
"I'm not so trustful with my friends
I'm on the road alone again
I guess I'm tired of giving in
I'm sick of wishing you were near
You've gone your way, you've made it clear
Why do I feel you everywhere?
Why do I feel this everywhere?
I can't have anything I want
They say I'm just too young
But it's not my fault
I'll find my own way home if I gotta
I'll make it all alone if I gotta
Don't wanna spend my time
Watching the world go by
I think I'd rather die
And I dont got a plan
Don't wanna justify
To stay where I stand
Something I won't deny
I can't have anything I want
They say I'm just too young
But it's not my fault
I'll find my own way home if I gotta
I'll make it all alone if I gotta
[Chorus]
I can't have anything I want
They say I'm just too young
But it's not my fault
I'll find my own way home if I gotta
I'll make it all alone
24 hours
24 hours
24 hours
24 hours
24 hours"
I must have lost track of time, because before I knew it I was done and something caught the corner of my eye. I turned my head and saw a familiar person across the food court with another familiar person.
"Oh. My. God." I thought out loud. Across the food court I saw Tommy with my sister. I'm not going to lie, I was hurt. But technically I don't really have a right to be. I gathered all my things and left un noticed. I'm not going to intrude on his life, like I've mentioned before I'm only fifteen. As soon as I thought I was in the clear I was forced to stop dead in my tracks.
"JUDE!" I heard Sadie call my name.
Fuck. Now I have to face these two. I really don't want to face these two. What am I going to say anyway? Hey Sadie you're on a date with someone I'm falling for? Yeah, that'll work perfectly.
I walked towards them. "Hey Guys! What's up? Interesting seeing you two here." I chuckled.
"Yeah ... we're just getting to know eachother." Sadie smirked.
"So what brings you here?" Tommy asked.
He was staring straight at me.
"Just needed to get out a bit... a distraction from music, I wasn't able to really finish the song at home, but apparently Subway is my good luck charm cause I just finished it and I can't wait for you to hear it."
"I called you before."
It seemed like we were the only two in the room.
"Yeah, I'm sorry I didn't call back I didn't see the call, but when I finally did I saw the call I saw no voicemail and no other missed calls so I didn't think it was so important." I responded.
"Yeah, it was nothing."
"Okay I see you two have to catch up ... I'm going to run to the little girls room." And Sadie excused herself.
"Why are you even here with her?" I asked before I caught my words.
He looked at me like I had three heads.
"I ... I'm sorry. I am not even supposed to ask that. I'm just going to go. Forget I asked. See you at the studio." And I was gone.
"Where is she running off to?" Sadie asked.
"Oh, you know your sister. A new idea for a song sparks and she's running home."
I can't believe I asked that! I must look like some jealous girlfriend or something. I'm going to get questioned for this later I bet.
I heard Sadie come in. "Hey Jude! Sorry I missed you when you left. How's that song coming?"
"I didn't like where I was going with it I scrapped it. But my first one is done so that's good."
"Good to hear. I'm heading to sleep; I'll see you in the morning."
"Goodnight Sades."
"Night sis."
I needed a walk to anywhere. Wherever my two feet would take me. I made my way to a bench in the park. No one really knows to find me here, so I was free right? Wrong.
Who's sitting in the same park? Tommy. And he's walking up to me, just like he did that day at school, just less angry and more confused this time.
I sighed. "How did you find me?"
"I wasn't really looking, you came to me."
I really didn't want to have this conversation right now.