Complicated.
Chapter Sixteen.
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"Don't you just love December?" Miley asked as she stepped into the snow, Nick at her tail. There was a huge family dinner at the Jonas' family household. Denise insisted that there was one every 1st December so that they'd get in the Christmas spirit. Denise loved Christmas. She had her decorations up the last week of November every year.
"Yeah, it's special." Nick said, his teeth chattering.
Miley turned around and looked at him, "You look cute." She giggled patting his head; his hair was covered in a white woolly hat. She remembered that Danielle had knitted that hat when she went on the 'old woman' theory while pregnant with Joey.
"Perfect." Nick muttered sarcastically.
"You're not the least bit excited? It's the annual family din-din." Miley said as Nick opened the car door for her. "Thank you." She muttered stepping in as Nick walked around to the driver's side of the car and got in.
"Have you been feeling better?" Nick suddenly asked causing Miley to sit up in shock.
"What?" She asked turning to face him.
"The side effects – vomiting, changes in your diet, has it stopped?" Nick asked.
"… I'm sure it will soon enough." Miley said biting her lip.
"Good, I was getting worried." Nick replied.
"Don't worry about me, worry about yourself and Chris." Miley said looking down at her fingers.
"His finished his first session of chemo therapy." Nick said smiling lightly. "He wasn't feeling too great so he stayed, but he'll be home and out by next week." He explained.
"That's great." Miley said returning the smile. "Looks like we're the last people here." She said as Nick parked on the lane outside the house.
"Looks like it." He said taking off the engine.
"Do you reckon Joe bought Taylor, I really want to see her again?" Miley said excitedly.
"Yeah, maybe." Nick said opening her door for her.
"Thanks, you're too kind." Miley teased stepping out.
"Only the best for you." Nick said taking her hand.
Miley rang the doorbell, smiling at Nick who looked impatient. The door swung open slowly, Miley smiled kneeling down when she saw who answered the door.
"Joey!" She said picking up the small boy who she treated as her own; after all she was his godmother.
"Mimi!" Joey said wrapping his arms around her neck.
"Who was it?" Kevin asked walking in. "Hey! You guys are finally here." He said pulling Nick into a hug.
"Joey, how have you been?" Miley asked as the two brothers walked away.
"Good, Grandma's making spaghetti!" Joey said.
"You love spaghetti!" Miley giggled as Joey smiled at her.
"Come see the Christmas tree." Joey said jumping free of her arms and running into the living room, Miley at his tail.
Miley smiled as she saw the homey environment in the living room. The lights were dim but the Christmas tree in the centre of the room had so many lights that it made the room look so bright.
"It's beautiful, Denise." Miley said turning to the older lady who hugged her.
"Honey, how have you been?" Denise asked.
"Great, thank you. I hope Paul hasn't been stressing you out too much!" Miley teased saying it loud enough for the man himself to hear her.
"You're a charmer, ay?" He said hugging her. "You look gorgeous, Miley."
"As always, I'm hoping." Miley said smiling cheekily.
She loved Paul, he was like a second father to her, she just hated the fact that he and Nick weren't closer.
"As always." Paul said taking a seat next to his wife.
Miley took off her jacket, she was wearing a red jumper that went down to her knees and was at least two sizes too big. She found it at the back of Nick's closet and very conscious of her growing baby bump that had developed over the last weeks, she was cautious to keep it hidden. Black leggings sheltered her legs from the cold and white socks with red stilettos covered her feet. She turned around when she heard a familiar laugh.
"No way!" She screeched. "I thought Joe was just teasing me. Taylor!" She said wrapping her arms around the blonde girl who returned the hug. "You look so cute." Miley said pulling away.
Taylor had grown since the last time Miley had seen her last summer. She was taller, and not as – skinny but she still had a good figure. Her smile was brighter and her eyes were lighter. She had tamed her mass of curly curls and somehow managed to find the strength to cut her long, long, long hair to a reasonable length, she even had bangs. She was wearing more make up now, as appose to the make up free look she had the year before and her wardrobe was a lot less… country.
"You too." Taylor said giggling. "It's been way to long." She said sitting down in the armchair next to the Christmas tree. Miley nodded agreeing, she kicked off her shoes and sat on the floor next to the tree and beside Taylor.
"What's changed?" Taylor asked.
"Nothing really…" Miley said smiling.
Taylor's stare was beginning to make Miley uncomfortable as her eyes fell to Miley's stomach.
"You still have your to die for figure." Taylor said smiling.
Miley let out a breath she wasn't aware she was holding. "So, tell me, how did you and Joe get back together?" Miley asked folding her arms.
"Well, we sort of just bumped into each other and he suggested we catch up. I was eager to say yes, I mean he looked so different – and I, obviously, have changed a lot too. I just thought, it didn't work out last time, but hey… we're both older now, more mature. And he really made me happy last year when we were together." Taylor said looking across the room at Joe who was talking to Kevin and Nick.
"I'm happy. It's been way too quiet without you." Miley said laughing.
"Really? No Vanessa or Demi bugging the heck out of you?" Taylor asked.
"Yeah, they're still… like that. But Vanessa's gone to Florida for these next couple weeks to visit her grandmother and Demi has done one of her magic tricks again." Miley said smiling.
"That girl is so mysterious. Honestly, does she even know what's going on in her life?" Taylor asked giggling. "So, you and Nick, huh?" Taylor asked excitedly.
"I'm staying with him – big accident and…" Miley said.
"It's complicated?" Taylor asked.
"Story of my life." Miley muttered.
"Totally." Taylor agreed.
"Tay, Mi… dinner." Nick said helping Miley up.
Miley walked beside him quietly, into the dining room and sat around the table next to him. The Grey's had a huge family dining room as Denise loved to host parties and dinners. Nick pulled out Miley's chair, Miley smiled at him as he sat beside her.
"See Kevin, that's how you treat a lady." Danielle said putting Joey down in a high chair and sitting beside him.
"Yes, Nick does know how to treat ladies – but he'll never use that quality because his-"
"Paul." Denise said glaring at her husband as she walked into the room and placed the meal in the centre of the table.
Paul sighed and waited as everyone held hands, waiting for him to say grace. He couldn't help but notice how Miley smiled at Nick when he squeezed her hand. He smiled a little to himself.
"Amen." Chorused within the room.
"Can I get a puppy?" Joey asked turning to face Kevin, talking with his mouth full.
"Don't talk with your mouth full." Danielle said rubbing the corners of his lip.
"A puppy. I have a cat." Taylor spoke up.
"Really? Cats are girly though, puppies are manly." Joey said winking at Taylor.
"You're so adorable." Taylor cooed.
"Yeah, until his eating your wallet." Joe said jokingly.
"Agreed." Kevin said.
Miley laughed lightly, she frowned as she smelt the strong smell of the garlic that clung to the garlic bread. She felt sick. She couldn't. Not here. Nick saw the look on her face.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"Yeah, fine." Miley said biting her lip. "Can I go to the bathroom?" She asked Denise.
"Go on honey." Denise said smiling.
Miley got up gracefully, walking up the grand staircase of the large house. She opened the door to the bathroom, turning on the bright light. She opened the toilet seat and poured out the content of her stomach.
"I knew it, Miley… if you're not feeling well – we can head out." Nick said rubbing her back.
Miley wiped her mouth feeling tears well up in her eyes. "Nick, no. this is the one time of the year you get to spend with all of your family, lets stay." Miley said grimacing at the horrible taste that the vomit left in her mouth. Nick still looked unsure. She sighed, "Honestly, I think it's just… me feeling a little under the weather." Miley said flushing the toilet.
She was doing it. She was telling him. Now or never. She bit her lip.
"Oh, and Nick?" Miley said taking a deep breath.
"Yeah?" Nick asked.
"… Do you have a mint?" She bit her lip closing her eyes.
Nick chuckled lightly, searching in his pocket. "Sure." He said handing her a packet of gum.
She sighed guiltily as she followed him down the stairs and back to the dinner time. She could've told him. There and then she could've told him she was pregnant. She was scared though, and she had every right to be… right?
"Her names Meredith if you want to come play with her." Taylor said to Joey.
"Her? I thought cats were boys… like Garfred." Joey asked confused.
"Garfieldis a character." Kevin said.
"A boy?" Joey asked.
"Yes." Danielle said giving him his last spoon full of spaghetti.
Dinner ended soon enough, and now the family was sat in the living room watching reruns of an old tv show. Miley noticed that Nick kept refilling his drink. She frowned nervously. He never really drank much, but when he did, he could get really… unlike himself.
"You know what? I'm kind of tired, can we go?" Miley whispered to Nic.
"Sure." He muttered. He wasn't slurring his words or staggering as he grabbed both of their jackets, but he was tipsy. Miley was sure of it.
"Bye guys." Miley said, Danielle pulled her into a hug.
"Call me okay?" The dark haired woman asked her friend.
"Yeah." Miley said pulling away.
Miley smiled as Nick pulled up at his house, she opened her own door stepping out. Nick smiled opened the door of the house. Miley stepped in after him, closing the door behind her. Nick turned on the lights, to a dim setting. Undoing the top buttons of his dress shirt. He turned to Miley smiling at her.
"You look beautiful by the way." He said.
"Thank you." Miley said pushing her hair behind her ear.
"Still tired?" Nick asked as Miley closed her eyes lightly.
"Yeah." Miley whispered lazily.
"Here." Nick said pushing her jacket of her shoulders slowly; Miley held her breath as his hands moved over her shoulder blade. He hugged her close, surprising her. What was he doing? He took her hand, leading her to his bedroom. The lights were off but the moonlight was coming in, she could see his face and he could see hers.
He made her lift her arms up slowly, lifting her jumper over her head and throwing it behind him. She was only in a shirt then, a plain white shirts with a Christmas tree on it. His hands met the waist line of her leggings, pushing them down slowly. Miley held her breath, was he stripping her? She gulped. He let her leggings fall to the ground as she kicked them off along with her shoes and pushed her socks down and off her feet.
He pushed her back onto the bed. Climbing over the top of her, hovering her body. He looked down at her.
"You're so beautiful." He whispered.
Miley closed her eyes as she felt him warm breath hit her face. He had her in a trance. She licked her lips slowly.
"You're tempting me, and you don't even know it." He said leaning in and burying his face into her neck.
"N-" Miley tried to speak.
"Wait. Just stay." Nick said holding her beneath him. "It feels right, don't it?" He whispered.
"No, because it's wrong." Miley felt like her words were betraying her. But it was the truth. She couldn't do this, not with him. Not now.
"Miley, I love you." Nick said kissing her neck lightly.
"Nick please." Miley whimpered.
"Goodnight Miley." Nick said leaving a small kiss on her lips and walking out of the bedroom. Miley took a moment to catch her breath.
"I love you too." She whispered. "But I can't, not now." She said curling into his side of the bed and falling asleep slowly.
She'd been saying that a lot lately, huh? Notnow.Not now means later. And later can be anytime. Later was sooner then she thought, she was just about to find out.
2,215 words.
It's been a while. I'm sorry, but I've been writing on my phone and not my computer. I needed to type this up, but I feel like typing on my phone first gives me better ideas. Because as soon as I feel like this is perfect, I can just type it up quickly and then edit it while I type it up on my computer, right? 143 reviews please. VOTEEE!
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