It's been a few days since they don't talk to each other. Her friends look at her worriedly but she tells them that she's on her period right now so she doesn't have moods to talk much. She relieves that they didn't ask about Natsume because they hardly talk in school. The fanboys also ask if she's okay. They give her encouragement and gifts which makes her forget her problem for a short time.
But the main problem here is Natsume Hyuuga. Every day there will be a rumor about him breaking up with his yesterday's girlfriend and in the afternoon, he'll have another girlfriend whom he shares the make out session in the rooftop.
She never know that Natsume would do that. She knows Natsume likes to date girls, but he never kiss them or even do something unappropriate. She lets the rain pouring her body as if it'll wash out all her problem away. In the park alone after school, this it the first time when she feels most lonely.
Natsume looks at her figure from the second floor of his house secretly. She's finally home, that what he thought. She enters her house with her damped body from the previous hard rain. Usually, he'll come to pay her a visit and ask if she's feeling weird, like she's going to have flu, or something. Even though she's hardly sick, but it often made him worry. But today, he decides to only look at her coldly from inside his bedroom.
He walks pass her class to check if she's coming today. The thing yesterday was starting to tick him off. So today, he decided to apologize to her. "Where is Mikan?" he asks a girl from her class.
"She's absent today. I don't know the reason but lately I've seen her easily tired, so maybe she's sick,"
He moves the mechanic pencil on his grip while the teacher blabbing about the lesson. From the very first sight of seeing him, almost everyone realizes that he's worrying something. Little did they know that he's worrying his Mikan right now.
Is she really sick? Should I buy her fruits or something she likes? How can I apologize to her?
In the other place, a little brunette is trying hard to reach the glass above her head. She's passed out so many times since last night. So mostly, she laid sleeping on the cold floor without the strength to carry her own weight. She even can't reach the medicine box to take some fever plaster or tablets. She doesn't eat since last night either because right after she came home and changed clothes, her body fell to her bed while shivering.
She really regrets her stupid decision to bath under the cold rain yesterday. She never thought either that she'll be sick, dying even, despite the fact that she's hardly sick. A small tears formed at the corner of her amber eyes. She really wants to apologize to Natsume right now. Not because she needs help, but she just thinks that the illness caused by karma. This is the first time they didn't talk for a long time and now she can feel how weak and useless she is.
DING DONG!
Her eyes snap open. The cold sweat tickles down her whole body. What if it's her friends? What if it's Natsume? They'll be worrying me and bring me to the hospital! She gulps despite her dry lips. She really hates the smell of hospital. So, with all her will, she reach the table next to her to help her up, but unfortunately, it falls together with the glass full of water that she wanted to reach a moment ago. Producing some noisy sound.
"Mikan, open up! What's going on inside?"
Natsume! Her eyes couldn't get any bigger right now. Her numb body suddenly feels so painful. Her breath hitches, gasping for air. All of the sudden, it feels too hard just to take a breath.
"Mikan, if you don't open, I'll break the door."
W-wait! Don't do it!
But all her voice's gone somewhere she didn't know. Her vision blurs again like the previous moment when she's going to pass out.
"Mikan!"
Miraculously, she looks at someone's feet covered with white school socks. She can't raise her head to see the owner of it. But, she's already known it, familiar to it. To the smell. To the voice. Everything.
She misses him a lot.
He turns her body so she'll face the ceiling "What's happened to you? I didn't know that you didn't lock your door!" he brings her up so she'll be further from the mess, checks all her body just to see if the broken glass has made her bleed too. Her skin and lips are so pale like the color of paper. She realizes his worried all over his voice "Natsume?" she finally manages to say.
"I should've came here yesterday. I never thought that you'll be this sick," he hugs her whole body with the sickest expression he's ever shown anyone "It's all my fault. My fault," She wants to comfort him. Saying that she's okay. But now, just saying her best friend's name makes her lips more dry. Her voice hoarse.
"I'll bring you to the hospital,"
"No!" she looks at him in the eyes. Begging with all her might that's still left. Small hands try its hard to grip on his shirt. And the next thing happened, her sight blacked out for the umpteenth times today.
His eyes bulge like seeing ghost in the middle of the day when suddenly the person in his embrace passes out. His whole body went cold. Scared.
This is the first time he's scared of losing someone. "M-mikan," he slightly moves her body. He relieves that she still groans or do anything alive by his action. He immediately carries her to her bed.
What should I do? He thinks panicly looking at his dying best friend. She's breathing heavily but she refuses to go to the hospital. If he wants, he can carry her there. But, he knows so well how she hates the hospital. It might making her sicker if he brings her there.
Pant. Pant. Pant.
Her hoarse breath is the voice that dominates her whole house. Recovered from his panic state, he reaches for the medicine box and take a fever plaster. He places it after drying her sweating forehead. Then he takes the paracetamol "Have you eaten?" she replies him with a weak shake head. "God, Mikan! S-since when?" he kneels next to her bed.
"Last night," she answers while breathing heavily.
"Just wait here and don't do anything. I'll make you some porridge," he rushes to her kitchen. She laughes inwardly imagining Natsume Hyuuga to cook. He hardly ever do something girly like that. But being Natsume, he can do something shocking. Something like modeling itself is one that he hates before, then one day he decides to be a model just like his parents.
The empty bowl's already washed by Natsume. After she eats, and throw up for a couple time, she manages to eat her medicine and sleeps peacefully under her blanket. He holds her hands to give his warmth to her. He can tell how severe her illness is just by the looking of the cold sweat all over her body. She has used fever plaster and even medicine, but it still tickles down her forehead. Her breath's also quite fast. He thinks fast to turn off his cellphone so no job will be done today. He can't think straight if it's about her. About Mikan. About his best friend that he thinks of as his precious little sister.
Little sister? Is that it?
"Nat.." she moans in her sleep, almost making the raven haired boy jumped from his seat. He quickly moves his face nearer to check her. Still completely asleep. He touches her forehead then put the thermometer on her mouth to check for her temperature. Still in the high temperature, 39ºC.
"Nat," she calls him again, but now with her eyes slightly open.
"Yes?" he tries his best not to look worried, because she'll be more worried if she sees him like that.
"I'm sorry for the words I've told you. I was...disappointed because you broke our promise," he sees a slight tears formed in the corner of her eyes.
"No, I'm sorry too. I was the one who broke our promise. I didn't remember it. I'm so sorry," he holds her hands again after wiping away her tears. She smiles at him. His most favorites smile in the whole universe.
"I can't imagine the world without you. I'm just a useless pathetic woman who always needs help from other. Weak creature," she looks empty which worried him more.
"Don't talk like that. I can't live without you either. We are human. We are weak creatures. So we need each other to live,"
She smiles then replies his warm grip "I swear if I can find someone like you, I'll stop bothering you,"
Someone like me? Is she going to replace me with someone? With another guy? The thought of it is making him crazy. He wants to tell her that she doesn't need anybody else other than him. He's willing to follow her even to the deepest hell.
"I love you, Natsume. I really do." she smiles as they hold each other hands until she falls back to sleep. His ears couldn't believe what he's just heard. Mikan. His Mikan Sakura says that he loves him. Automatically, his smile lit up after she's asleep.
God, can I pray to you
for making her has the same feeling with me?
Can I expect more?
So this is the fourth chapter. Quite long I guess. Is that okay?
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For those who's reviewing the last chapter (woah, a lot more than before!):
AnimeYellowGirl, thanks for reading :) Maybe you didn't feel the angst because my writing's still, you know, average. I'll try my best next time :DD
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