Chapter 5:

A/N: I haven't updated in like forever! i really need to more often, but if you're reading this you know the effects losing their grandma had on Gerard and Mikey, well sadly i now know how they feel, so i was busy doing that. But don't think you've seen the last of Sedative's random flashbacks, shes got a whole past that she doesn't want to remember, but is constantly revealing itself to her. Thanks for all the reviews and enjoy! :D

Sedative's POV:

I had never been much of a good sleeper, so I woke up like fifty times in the night, but every time I woke up, I woke up with Ghoul's arms wrapped tight around me. It was almost a little sad to look at. The way he clung to me, was the way you cling to that stuffed bear you've had since you were little that your parents want to throw away, like he had had enough things taken from him and he wouldn't let me be one of them.

I looked around for a clock and found one that said it was 7:30 in the morning. We would need to leave soon. I shook Ghoul to try to get him awake.

"RAPEEEEE!" He screamed, until he saw it was me then he blushed and got up off the bed.

I giggled and asked him "So when are we leaving?"

"Ummmm." He looked around until his gaze found the clock. "7:30…. Um let's get you dressed up like a BLI employee then leave."

So that's what we did. I pulled my hair back, spiffed up my prison clothes, and we were ready to go. We said our goodbyes and we were off.

I walked into the BLI grocery store as nonchalantly as possible. I knew Ghoul was counting on me, waiting outside in the alley. Shoplifting was not an option here, the security was top-notch, so we were back with the plan of forcing them to give it to an assistant of Korse

Aisles after Aisles went on for centuries. Ghoul told me to get things that 1) wouldn't expire and 2) had nutritional value, because you don't find too many nutrients in the desert.

I turned into the coffee aisle, figuring this was one exception he wouldn't mind.

Dollar after dollar rang up at the register and with each one I became more aware of the lack of money in my pocket.

"Your total is $1,000.86" the lady at the register said with a smile.

I gave the best non-freaking out smile I could and responded, "Oh. It'll go on Korse's tab. I'm his assistant."

"ok. I'll just need Korse's employee number, but of course you know that." The lady said.

Employee number? Shoot. And that's when I thanked the Lord for my photographic memory.

The picture suddenly became clear in my mind. Korse pinned against the wall and on his chest an employee ID reading the numbers 8473-2991-0457 and as the numbers became clear in my mind, I read them aloud.

"Well. Thank you very much, Ma'am. I must say your friend in the parking lot looked familiar. Have I seen him somewhere before?"

Oh. Shoot Right across from where I was standing I could see the bright and smiling wanted pictures of The Fabulous Killjoys. One of them being my…. Uh…. Guyfriend, but I faked a smile and responded, "Oh. Him? You've probably seen him around town with me. We're together, but he needed to take a smoke break, but I better be going now, I don't want to keep Korse waiting. Bye now!"

And right in plain sight I walked through the doors with half a year's worth of groceries. I walked around the alley to where Frank sat smoking a cigarette.

"You're gonna die, if you don't stop smoking that crap!" I shouted. I hated cigarettes.

He laughed and nodded. "I know." He said.

I glared at him, but seeing as I didn't scare him, I showed him all of the groceries I got.

"Sweet!" He beamed and took my hand and led me around the corner to a gorgeous trans-am hotwired and ready to bring us back to what would now be my home.

I leaned over and kissed him big on the cheek. I was taking things slow. Well, I was taking things slow for as long as my self-control lasted. Otherwise, I would probably be all over that hot stuff.

He turned bright red like an apple and we both got in the car. I prepared myself for the best car ride of my life.

We drove through the silent desert night blaring our heavy metal music, as if that wouldn't attract attention, but we didn't care. If BLI wanted to mess with us, then they could just go ahead and try, there was nothing that could scare me now, except for spiders, but come on, those are just creepy!

We drank lots and lots of coffee, because there was no stopping. We were driving straight to Zone six, so I sat behind the wheel with directions fresh in my mind from a now sleeping Ghoul. I took out the Smashing Pumpkins cd and decided just to listen to the radio, Dr. Death's of course. A song came on called Helena and for the first time I thought about all the people I lost because of BLI. I guess it didn't occur to me earlier that they killed my parents, my bestfriend, and even my baby sister, so why was I so special? Why on earth did they decide that I should live? I was nothing compared to the other extraordinary people in my life.

I wasn't an emotional person, heck, the last time I cried was probably Bridge To Teribithia, you think it's a sweet movie and then BOOM the girl dies, but I couldn't help the warm, salty, tears falling from my eyes. BLI needed to pay for their deaths, I just don't quite know how yet, but trust me for the next few days it would be all I would think about.

Extra Author's note! :D

Contro, be excited and Corrupt be patient XD

Oh and i hope you guys appreciated the Gerard Bridge To Terribithia quote XD