Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, or any of the associated characters. Frankly, I don't want to own Stephanie Meyer's idea of Imprinting. It's just creepy.
Summary: Finding your soul-mate in the daughter of the girl you've been obsessed with for two years. Because that won't cause psychological issues AT ALL.
RENESME
Though he knew that they would have the conversation sooner or later, Jacob couldn't help but wish for the time to be 'never'.
He loved Renesme, but knew that the upcoming conversation was going to be awkward and painful. He could admit now that Bella's attraction to him had been the desperation for someone who would care for and stay by her no matter what, later feeling that she somehow owed him for being a rock when she floundered in a sea of heartbreak. Sometimes, he wondered if his sincere, deep friendship for Bella had not been simply that, but escalated to be mistaken for love, because of the potential that waited in her genes.
Jacob looked back at how those thoughts sounded, and decided that it had to be Rosalie's influence. She might not look it, but the kick-ass female vampire still retained part of the New York Debutante she had once been, and it manifested itself in a love of poetry. Emmett and Jacob were probably the only ones who knew, and Rosalie had threatened his life if he told anyone.
None of this changed the problem, however.
He was going to have to tell the girl who was the centre of his world that he had once thought himself in love with her mother. That he had tried to convince Bella to choose him over Renesme's father. That fear for Bella's life had once caused him to advocate for killing Renesme before she was born.
Ignorance was not an excuse. Everyone knew how Jared's Imprint, Kim, had reacted upon finding out that it was the Imprint, rather than Kim herself, that had caused him to first notice her. The worst part would be if Renesme asked if Jacob would have killed her if he hadn't Imprinted, because Jacob honestly didn't know the answer.
The conversation didn't go as badly as Jacob had expected.
It was worse.
Every question that Jacob hoped wouldn't come up, like originally wanting to kill her, the contest for Bella's love, whether the Imprint forced the wolves to love someone, or was just Mother Nature's version of dropping hints, and everything else.
There was something very attractive about intelligent women, and Jacob had always loved being able to answer most of Renesme's questions, but right now, he wished that she wasn't so inquisitive. The conversation hurt Renesme at least as much as it hurt him, if not more, and Jacob hated anything that brought his Imprint pain.
After he had finished explaining, Renesme asked him to leave her alone for a while, at least until after she came back from hunting. Jacob didn't need to be told that she wanted to hunt so that she could take her rage out on the wildlife, rather than him. He supposed that he should be grateful that she cared that much, but he couldn't help but worry about her.
He couldn't help but worry if she would come back, or if hunting was just an excuse to get a head start.
His worry only grew worse when he found out that Leah had offered to go with Renesme, just in case. Leah's views on Imprinting, plus an already-conflicted Renesme?
Jacob was doomed.
Was this what a broken heart felt like?
Leah, who had been on the wrong end of an Imprint relationship herself, was trying to be supportive (read: calling Jacob names and saying that she shouldn't feel pressured into a decision, no matter what she eventually chose to do), but not doing very well.
Renesme appreciated it, really, but Leah wasn't in a position to address the things that were really bothering her. Jacob, an essential part of her life since she was born, had been in love with her mother. Was she second-best to him? A consolation prize since he couldn't have the real thing?
When he discovered that her mother was pregnant, he had thought her an abomination and sided with those who thought she should be aborted or killed as soon as she was born. Was the Imprint the only thing that had changed his mind? Did it force him to love her, or was it something that would have happened anyway?
The Quileute legends only mentioned Imprinting as finding the one you would love forever. Taha Aki's Imprint was named as his Third Wife, his soul-mate, but that didn't really tell you anything. What was Imprinting, in the first place? Was it some mystical occurrence that forced two people to be together, regardless of personal feelings? If Sam and Emily Uley had been given a choice, Emily would have been the bridesmaid, not the bride, and maybe gone on to marry someone else.
Jacob loved her, Renesme knew that much, but was it real, or just a foregone conclusion? She loved him, but was it enough to get past the distrust she was feeling?
She didn't know, and she was scared to find out.
A/N: You had to know this chapter was coming. Jacob spends most of three books in obsessive affection over Bella, then imprints on her daughter, despite previously wanting to kill her. Renesme is going to have the doubt that Jacob is biding his time since he failed to kill her initially, or might be using her as a way to be close to her mother, and that is not going to be easy to get over.
I still don't get how Edward and Bella were so calm about it.
This chapter isn't as conclusive as the first one, because this pairing always felt wrong to me, and I couldn't figure out how to resolve it. Besides, if Renesme is anything like Bella, she'll avoid dealing with the problem like the plague and try to pretend it never happened.
If anyone feels like writing an alternate version where it actually gets resolved, feel free and let me know.
As always, I would love to hear what people think, positive or negative. Even if you think it sucked to hell and back, I would love to know why you thought it was so bad.
Thanks, Nat.
