Title: Permission Ch 4

Main characters: Logan Mitchell, James Diamond, Hortence Mitchell (OC)

Side characters: Joanna, Camille, Steve (Some are only mentioned)

Warning: Slash Jagan

Summary: James and Logan are getting married. They're trying to get permission from Logan's parents. Told in no one's POV.

A/N: In a universe where Logan was named after his father (Hortence Mitchell), the audition was in L.A. not Minnesota with Logan driving to there (I just re-watched Big Time Audition and realized my mistake, so sorry), and James can drive (I don't know if he could though). Another angsty chapter. Thank you so much for people who have been reading and reviewing my stories, especially this one. You made me want to continue this again~!

"James..."

"Yes, Logie Bear?" The smile on James face hadn't faltered any bit ever since his mother approved their marriage.

"I'm afraid that getting my father's permission won't be as easy as your mother's."

James used his left hand that's not driving to lift his lover's face. "What's with that gloomy face? We'll face this together, again."

"But Jamie, your mother is scary and all we need to do is gathering all bravery we've got. We talk to her, then it's done, problem's finished. But my father! He may be silent. Or he may agree. But deep inside he'll feel sad and disappointed and that is the least I want..." Logan turned away and dropped his face to his hand.

"I'll be the one who talks to him."

Logan looked up in instant. He stared at James with incredulous expression. "Are you crazy? He hates you!"

"Which is why I will talk to him. I'll make him start liking me."

"Really?" Hope flickered in Logan's eyes as James nodded. "How?"

"...I don't know." Logan's face dropped back to his still opened palm. He should have known that if he didn't know, James couldn't possiblyknow. "I'll find a way. Just like suddenly you became brave enough to face my mother, I'll get your father's permission, Logie. I'm no coward."

"Jamie... Don't hurt him, okay? Don't hurt his feelings."

James nodded again, firmly. "Of course. I understand how dear he is to you. I haven't forgotten how you called for his name for weeks when we first moved to L.A. At that time I really regretted separating you from your father." Hearing that, the shorter boy blushed, slightly embarrassed being such a daddy boy.

After a few moment of silence, James spoke again, "You know... I said earlier if my mother refused to accept us, I would never stop loving you and seeing you anytime I want. But I don't want you to do that for me."

That earned a frown on his lover's face. "Huh? Why?"

"I've taken you from your father when I asked you to join Big Time Rush. I don't want to do that again, because I've just promised you not to hurt his feelings. And I don't want him to hate me more." James sighed when Logan gave him a sad look. Logan had just cried and James had cheered him, now that the tears were gone James didn't wish them to fill those chocolate eyes again. "Logan..."

"You said we'd never be apart. Not even in an 'if'. James I don't want to lose you!"

"Choose. Hurting your father or losing me?"

Logan gaped in shock. How can James ask him to make such choice? "James!"

As they arrived, James parked the car in front of Logan's house. He gave his lover a smile. "Sorry, Logie Baby. No, don't choose. It's not your choice to make." James leaned to kiss Logan, sharing comfort and fears. "I don't want to lose you either, Logan. That leaves me no choice. I must get your father's permission. Even if it takes million years."

James knew it was not enough to calm his panicking boyfriend. He himself was not calm either.

Hortence Mitchell couldn't accept it. Not at all. He thought Logan's feeling for James was just little crush, and as the time went on, as the boy grew up, he'd learn that eventhough he was into men, it was women whom he should marry. Hortence thought Logan was smart enough to understand that his parents wanted a daughter in law and grandchildren from him.

And of all guys in the world, it had to be James Diamond. The son of the woman that he was now awkward to. The kid who made Logan realized he's gay. The person who diverted Logan's dream from being a doctor into a member of famous boyband. The James whom Logan chose over his own father.

"What's with that Camille girl? You once told Dad about her."

"I'm close to her but we're not going out, Dad. She's now with a guy named Steve. They have made acting career together," Logan explained.

"Hh, honestly Hortence. I can accept the fact that you're gay, but a marriage? I don't know how it turns serious between you and James." Hortence Mitchell turned his vision to James. "I'll say this just to the point so you understand. As he grows up, I've always thought, if he's gay then fine, he could fuck a guy every now and then but at the end, it has to be a girl he should marry."

Logan's heart broke as he heard what his father said. He didn't believe his father could be that straight forward, that he actually never really supported his sexual orientation. A single drop of tear fell down his cheek, followed by million of others forming a stream.

James was in shock, even more. He was rejected, simply because he was a man. James couldn't accept that reasoning either. If he could, he would turn into a woman as long as it meant he didn't lose his Logan. But how was that possible? "Mr. Mitchell, isn't there anything I could do to change your mind?"

"I'm afraid not." Hortence Mitchell stood up, his face still as cold as earlier, so James didn't hope that he would hug him like what his mother did Logan. "You two might leave now, ignore me, and get married. But I'm not going to call you son in law, ever." His eyes were sharp on James. With that, Hortence left the two alone.

Joanna Mitchell, who had been watching them from the kitchen, also cried seeing her miserable son. Unfortunately she could do nothing to change her husband's mind. She had been trying, all these years, to soften his heart but it was to no avail.

"Logan, Logan, hear me out." James with his also teary eyes cupped his lover's face gently. "You're going to stay here with your family. I'm going back to L.A. to bring our belongings back then going back to my house too."

"No! You said you'd never leave me! James!"

"I don't have any intention of leaving you, Logie. Please, just listen to me. I love you and always do. But we'll marry only if both our parents agree. For him to change his mind, I'd wait forever." James wiped his lover's tears with his thumbs. "I've promised not to hurt your father's feelings, remember? So you should be his darling son. You're the only one who can change his decision. Not by force, Logie. But with love... and time. You're his son. You love him more than anything. He loves you more than anything. He wants you to be happy. But for him to realize that you're the happiest with me, he needs time. He needs his son's love. His feelings have already been hurt when you left for BTR so you're going to heal him back because you're the only one who can."

James knew Logan understood his point when the boy's tears stopped flowing. "You sure?"

"One hundred percent sure."

"What if―" His voice was cut by a brief kiss his boyfriend planted on his lips. The look on James's eyes told Logan that he hated the word 'if' when it was used for conditioning them being broken up. "James... Fine, I'm going to trust you..." They both smiled through tears were still wet on their face. "By the way, how did you get so smart? I feel like I'm no longer the genius in our band."

That earned a giggle. "Just how exactly you got bravery to face my mother." Logan managed to grin too.

"I love you, Jamie. I'll miss you."

"Do I still need to tell you that I love you too? I've said it like million times already."

"Yes, you do. You haven't reached a billion yet."

"Fine. I love you too, Logie. I'll miss you more. Tell your parents I'm leaving."

James wiped his own face clean from any tear trails. They hugged one more time before James walked out the house and drove to L.A. As soon as Logan heard the sound of the car leaving, he broke down into tears again. James would come back to deliver his belongings later, but after that they were going to part for who knew how long. Logan himself wasn't so sure that he could ever change his father's decision.

His father loved him more than anything? Logan doubted it. If he did then why did he so oppose the fact that his son liked the same sex and wanted to marry someone he loved with all his heart?

But Logan wanted to trust his lover.

Everything's going to be alright.

Wasn't it?

The sight tore Hortence's heart. Logan was curling on the couch he previously sat on with James. The boy was asleep with face wet of tears. He normally looked calm and peaceful (if not exhausted) when sleeping, but now even the stranger could tell that he's having burdens in his mind.

"You heard what that James kid say, didn't you Hortence? Seriously, how can you not fall for that?" The mother decided it was best to show up now. She had dried her tears since before.

"Shut it, Joanna."

"Is that a proper way to talk to your wife?" Joanna came to his husband's side, also watching their sleeping son with equally pained expression. "Your son's going to hate you if you keep on being like this."

"I've always been aware of that, no need to remind me."

Joanna let out a heavy sigh. Really, her husband's stubbornness would just hinder Logan's, James's, and even his own happiness. Just what could possibly be able to knock the sense into his head? She wished she knew.

-End of Chapter 4-