Title: Permission Ch 12: Perfect Future
Main characters: Logan Mitchell,James Diamond
Side characters: Carlos, Jennifer, Kendall, Emily, Camille, Steve, and the children (Some are only mentioned)
Summary: Logan loved kids. But James didn't know his way with them.
A/N: I had writer's block, then I saw this story, then I thought of a cute continuation! The POV seems to change somewhere in the middle, from James to Logan, a result of pending this story so long. It suits that way, I can't fix it, sorry.
So I should tell you that this story was written before I really comprehended all episodes of BTR. So there are a lot of mistakes, like the place where James auditioned, the name Hortense Logan Mitchell, their ages, James's parents' divorce, and many others, perhaps. Well, just go with it, if you've read the previous chapters. I'm so sorry and it's just too messy to correct everything.
What a long author note! Omg. Anyway, thank you for everyone who's been reading this first BTR fanfic of mine. It's like terrible so if you've reached here, I can't be happier. Love you all!
James chuckled at the adorable sight of his husband curling up with kids. He was soundly asleep, five-year-old Ronald on his right and three-year-old Daphne on his chest. Books and pencils were scattered around the mattress, informing him that they had been studying before. Of course, James smiled, offered a sincere help to tidy the mess up. Since Carlos, Jennifer, Camille, and Steve left their babies for their second honeymoons, the little apartment wasn't so peaceful anymore. Toys could be found anywhere. Laughter and cries filled the air. Honestly, James minded it. He never dealt well with kids.
However Logan loved children, as much as how tiring babysitting them could be. James knew Logan would be terribly disappointed if he turned down the request and gave the burden to Kendall and Emily instead. So he let the two hyperactive kids livened their lives, for a while.
James had expected it though, that when the pairs came back to pick their sweethearts, Logan would feel lonely. The doctor didn't have to explicitly say it; James already knew that Logan had long wanted children. Maybe it was the time.
Logan once mentioned about finding a willing 'mother' or stuffs James actually had not truly understood about. All he knew was that Logan would donor his sperm and those smart doctors would put it somehow so that 'mother' would be pregnant and later give the baby back to Logan and James. Deep inside, James felt tiny bit of disapproval. It felt like the kid belonged to Logan and that woman, not him. Of course James would love the kid like his biological son, but what if the kid grew up and asking questions? He was going to know the truth and what if he didn't accept James?
Maybe it was the time. James shouldn't care about his worry. Logan's happiness always had to come out as priority.
One night, James was already in bed when Logan came home. The good thing of working in a company was you went home in time, except you got extra work to do. But being a doctor was different. Sometimes Logan could leave early or much later, more frequently the latter. Judging his expression, James decided to bring the topic now so those lips could form a smile again. "Rough day?"
"Very tiring. Barely had time to relax yet more patients showed up." Logan removed his clothing, ready to take warm bath. "I'm really sorry, James. I seem to be a bad husband to you. I left home early and came home late, as if I didn't care about you…"
James's eyes widened, not expecting that. "What? No, Logan. You work hard because it's your job. I'm proud of you, you know?"
The other smiled in relief. "Well… You look down yourself. And the way you stare, it's like you want to tell me something. I thought you were gonna complain about me being super busy like this."
"I do have something to tell you but it's not it. Just take a bath and come here and we're gonna cuddle while we talk. Okay?"
Logan nodded, looking a bit nervous. But the cuddling promise gave him reassurance that everything was alright. About ten minutes later, he came out from the bathroom, hair wet and looking fresh, which was still sexy in James's opinion. But tonight wasn't about his lust. Logan was tired and they had a matter to talk about.
The doctor climbed the bed and settled himself next to his husband, inside the comforter. He rested his head on James's shoulder, snuggling to his arm. "So, what do you want to talk about?"
The taller smiled slightly as he pulled the others body closer, placing him in between his legs so the boy's back was resting on his chest. His arms wrapped around him like he was a big fluffy teddy bear. "It's about Ronald and Daphne…"
"What about them? Are they okay? James, Carlos and Camille didn't just call to tell bad news, right?" Logan suddenly turned, looking panicked.
"They're safe and happy in their parents' embrace, Logan," said James, a little annoyed though he didn't mean to sound like that.
Logan quickly noticed it. "James, I can't help it, okay? Please stop being jealous towards them. I love kids and I care about them also because they're children of our best friends. Eventhough I love you more than anything else in the world, you need to allow me worry about them."
James buried his face on Logan's hair. "I'm not jealous. I just don't do well with kids."
"You don't. But you so are."
"…honestly I'm afraid I will lose you again."
"Six years and my heart is still with you. We have agreed we were idiots for thinking for once we were able to stop loving each other."
The words brought smile to James's lips. "Love you so much."
"Love you too." Logan stretched to peck his lover's lips sweetly. "So what about Ronald and Daphne?"
James turned Logan so the boy couldn't see his face. "Umm… I was thinking. Their presence last holiday made us busier, well, made you busier, and caused me headache. But you're happy taking care of them. And I'm happy when you're happy. So I think–"
Logan frowned. "You make it sound jealous again, James. Like the kids make me happy while you can't."
"…I didn't sound that way."
"Fine you didn't. But please know you make me happy all the time. When I'm all tired, knowing you'll be there in the home I'm heading to, things become bearable." Logan wanted to face James and kissed him again, however James's strong arms kept him there.
"I'll continue. No interruption until I finish what I have to say. Well, so I think… we should get kids too for us. They will keep you happy while I–"
"See? You say that yourself," Logan pointed out.
"No interruption, Logaaaan." James playfully pinched his husband's side, earning a fit of giggle. "Okay, okay. I do make you happy. But without a doubt the presence of kids makes you even happier. And that's what I'd do."
"I won't be happy because they'll trouble you. They will be our kids, James. You'll be their father too, so it's not okay if you aren't as excited having them around."
"I'll try to love them?"
"You tried to love Katie and you failed."
James's expression changed. "Why do you have to remind me about things in the past? I don't want to through the feeling again. Logan, I don't want to lose you ever again."
Logan knew mentioning them would hurt his lover, especially when it was about Katie. James and Katie still weren't on speaking terms right now. It wasn't about forgiveness, they were never mad at the beginning. It was just awkwardness they didn't know how to solve. Logan had been convinced enough that they had no feelings for each other that he should be jealous over, so he wanted more than anything for things to work out at the end. He thought by mentioning her once a while would finally get James's reaction different.
Apparently not. Now James stopped hugging him and his eyes looked lost. The sight tore Logan's heart. The boy was desperate to light him up again. He regretted making the situation all serious like this. "I'm sorry. James, look at me. You'll never have to lose me again. We're married, remember?" Logan was now free to turn and gaze into the sad blank eyes.
It took few seconds for James to finally gaze back. "Logan…"
"I'm here."
"Let me try, Logan? I'll love the kids."
"Of course. We go to adopt some cute babies tomorrow."
"Adopt them? But you said–"
"You disliked the idea. James, we'll do what we both agree, alright? We adopt the kids, raise them together." Logan buried his face on the crook of James's neck, kissing the skin below. "When they grow up, they won't question about us or about their real parents. Because we're amazing fathers. They'll be very grateful that we adopted them. They'll kiss our cheeks on father's day. They'll introduce their future lovers to us so we can give them permission for their marriage."
The images flowed freely on James's mind. He closed his eyes, smiling as he actually enjoyed it. The sadness from earlier soon forgotten as James pulled Logan to grin at him. He even added more scenes of their cute little dream. Logan was so much relieved when he succeeded bringing the sparkles back into James's hazel eyes. Until the night stroke, they kept discussing about their future children, and then they fell asleep on each other's embrace with smiles on their lips.
It was a small world. Circumstances and destiny would work somehow to determine your life, like whom you were gonna end up being in love with. James and Logan adopted a baby boy who looked almost alike with them. Pale perfect skin, hazel eyes, brunette hair, smart brain, and tall; named Oliver. Emily gave birth to a baby boy too a year after, named Leon. In the same year Ronald got a sister named Karen.
Despite not being in the same age, Ronald, Karen, Daphne, Oliver, and Leon were very close. Ronald always hung with his younger friends, being a reliable guardian. Perhaps it had something to do with their parents' closeness, but they certainly got along.
Eighteen years passed before the sweet random dream Logan suggested came true. Oliver came with a bright smile, kissing James's and Logan's cheeks in turn. "I'm going to propose Leon, Dads."
James and Logan knew better than to deny what their sweetheart's desire. They used the moment to tell the grown up boy about their angsty love story, how a denied permission gave them heartbreak and how they got together again. Oliver was shocked, as he thought his parents were always happy and loving like they had been in love since before they were born. At the end, the three men used the night to play 'truth or truth', meant they had to admit everything. It was fun and the family bonded even tighter.
Kendall and Emily did the same, though she asked this sentence for umpteenth time: "Why are handsome boys are either taken or gay?" She was joking though. They both supported their son's love big time.
On their marriage, Katie and James shared a smile. Logan and Kendall felt so happy. Finally, they thought. It was a good start. A very good start.
Later, Ronald married Daphne. Karen chose not to marry, as she decided to devote herself to her career as an actress, following his parents' majority.
Everything was just perfect.
-End of Chapter 12-