Chapter Four
Seven Months Later…
Andy and I had stopped talking. I had lost my will to stand up for myself. Jessie had moved to California. My grades were slipping. I was a mess and my world was just crashing into a thousand pieces. If my parents could see me now then maybe they would see their mistake.
I sit in the window seal in the living room watching the snow fall, a fluffy blanket around me as I sip at a coke. James was out getting something's from the market for dinner so it was just me and my new kitten that I had named Carolyn. She was white and fluffy with big blue eyes. James got her for me so I could have something to take care and something to keep me company. At this point I would've accepted a rock. Anything to get me out of the darkness I was in now.
Smiled as I heard the ring of the small bell that was around her neck jingle my way. She jumped on my lap and nuzzled my cheek purring. Almost like she knew I was hurting. Maybe she did. I scratched behind her small ears and smiled sadly. ''Do you think Andy still loves me/'' I whispered. She just stared at me blankly before walking away. ''I guess not'' I sighed.
That night I just lay in bed starring at the ceiling. I tried texting Andy but of course no response. I gave up and smashed my phone against the wall. What's the use when you have no one to talk to? So I destroyed one problem at its source. Now if only the others would fix themselves then I would be happy. Well, as happy as it gets. I was giving up on myself now since everyone else had given up on me.
Not even a song or writing would help me like it used to. I was just going to let things take their course and see where this was going to take me. If it was driving me off a cliff then so be it. But if it was taking me to safety then that's even better. I was just waiting for one of them to happen so I could at least get on with this tragedy I call my life.
Maybe things would get better but how could they when I had lost my savior?