TORI'S SHADOW 2
"Bye!" I yelled. I slammed the door before I can hear them talk about my other flaws. I know I'm not perfect, but I always feel so small. So fragile, whenever I hear the names they call me. I pretend I don't care even though deep down I want to cry. I always hold the tears back in. Pretending I'm strong even though the slightest word will make me crumble. No one knows how I feel. I hide it so well. It just hurts whenever Tori steal my spotlight. Whenever this happens, I just build this amour; this amour will protect me from the real world and makes me believe all this fantasies that I'm going to be a star. The amour protects me from those false smiles, the disgusted faces. It makes me feel like I'm on top of the world when I'm actually drowning in a poisonous sea full of pain. But I don't care what they think; I hold my head up high...
As if the day couldn't get any worse. I had Robbie following me like a puppy. Sure he isn't a bad person, but he is the most irritating person ever.
"WHAT!" I yell as we walk into the school entrance. I didn't want anyone to see me with...that.
"Please Trina. Please give me another chance. I'll be the perfect boyfriend. I'll..."
"Look Robbie. I don't like you in that way. You're not my type," I say in the nicest way possible. Heads begin to stare in our direction. People were going to think I know him. How embarrassing.
"Come on Trina, you know you want a little bit of this Rex. You've got a nice a..." Rex said while staring at my bum. It gets worse and worse. What a creep. Bringing a puppet to school is lame.
"Trina I love you. I..."
"Look Robbie. I've had it with here with your annoying pestering. I'll never go out with you ever Robbie. YOU'RE A CREEP! YOU BRING A PUPPET WITH YOU! A PUPPET IS YOUR BEST FRIEND! YOU'RE A LOSER ROBBIE! CAN'T YOU AT LEAST SEE THAT NO GIRL WILL EVER GO OUT WITH YOU?" I scream at him.
Whispers seem to hurt more than people think. Everyone is staring at Robbie and me. I feel so stupid. How can I let my anger get the best of me? Robbie stares at me in hurt.
"Robbie I didn't..." he leaves, making me look like the bad person.
It hurts me to see Robbie that upset, but I'm relieved that he isn't stalking me anymore. It feels like a weight has been lifted. My shoulders are now free from the pain. I can now think straight with the fact that Robbie is no more pestering over me. The problem is now gone with the wind. Far out of reach and I want it to stay away. Like always my happiness fades away...
"How could you Trina?" Tori questioned me the next morning. A wave full of guilt washed over me.
"I don't know what you're talking about," I say casually. I walked over to the fridge before Tori grabbed hold of me.
"Trina, I know you can be a really mean person, but this time you took it too far," Tori confront me.
"I was telling him the truth plus he was annoying me by asking him out. His stupid puppet is annoying." I reply without a care. "You don't treat him any better?"
"I know Robbie is a creep, but you embarrassed him in front of school in front of everyone. How do you think he feels? People say you're untalented all the time; I always stick up for you. But they're right. You're untalented and you're a mean person. How could you do such a thing? At least Robbie has talent and friends, you don't," Tori yelled.
"Mum! Dad! You're not going to let her talk to me like that are you?" I ask my parents. They had an uncertain expression on their faces. Like always, they agreed with Tori. I'll always be Tori's shadow.
School was even worse. The constant stares the students gave me stared right into my soul. The guilt in my stomach stirred, making me sigh heavily. I couldn't face anyone. Nobody wanted to come near me at all.
"Hey!" I say cheerfully at the popular group. They were talking about me, like always.
"Trina. We heard you bullied some dork in your sister's year," Lindsay said.
"Yeah I did, I..."
"Trina, bullying a guy in that year is too far," Lindsay said. All the others agree and I get kicked off the table. No one wants me on their table so I'm forced to eat in the toilet.
The odour in the girls' toilet is horrible. Urine smell surrounded the room, wee was all over the floor, and bloody pads surrounded the cubicle, un-flushed toilets made the odour even worse and faeces covered the toilet bowl. I've already lost my appetite and I think I'm going to be sick on the vomit covered walls. Making sure I didn't touch anything, I leave the horror of a room.
Putting the memory of the room beside me, I encounter something even worse...