Miko of My Desire

By: Aurora Collins

Disclaimers: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters associated with it. I'm only borrowing the characters to amuse myself and hopefully others. ^_^

Ch. 3 Living in a Hell!

Kagome's heart raced inside her chest as she kneeled on the floor before the youkai that tried to kill her and Inuyasha on more than one occasion. She felt her blood pump and she could swear that Sesshomaru could hear her veins rupturing into a spiraled frenzy. Her ears felt clogged and she could barely think as her breathing increased. Kagome tried to remain calm but she already knew Sesshomaru sensed her fear and anxiety. Kagome looked up at him and he just hovered over her with that glaring stare tearing deep into the core of her soul. She didn't know if she should move or say something but Sesshomaru answered that for her within seconds.

"Don't fear me wench. I won't try to kill you, yet. I think I can use you to my advantage," Sesshomaru said in his all too familiar monotone voice. Kagome tried to compose herself, "W-What do you mean to your advantage? Do you mean getting the Tetsuiga from Inuyasha because I thought you gave that up?" "Indeed I did. No, I have something else in mind for you wench," Sesshomaru went on to say. "If you don't need me for the Tetsuiga then why keep me around? Can't you just send me back to Inuyasha?" Kagome looked up with a hopeful glance of her blue eyes. Sesshomaru scoffed, "No. I paid for you. I own you and I'll use you in any way that I see fit. Until I can find a way for you to pay your debt off to me I won't allow you to leave this castle." Kagome stood up from the floor and nearly screeched, "That is completely absurd Sesshomaru. You know as well as I do that Inuyasha won't allow this. He would come into your palace and take me back like the good friend I know he is." Sesshomaru glared at Kagome and said, "Kneel back down until I say otherwise." His tone was filled with such ice that she had to obey. "There's only one flaw to your level of thinking wench. Inuyasha doesn't know where you are and he won't ever find out until I'm ready to let you go," Sesshomaru said as he sat back on his bed, still looking at her.

"What's the point of all this?"

"You're Inuyasha's wench."

"And...?"

"It should be quite simple."

"To get back at him?"

"Yes."

"So this is all about sibling rivalry."

"You could categorize it as that."

"There has to be something more to this."

"Nothing more then what I've said now. It would make me happy to see that whelp of a half brother suffer," Sesshomaru finished. "I thought you despised humans," Kagome went on to say. "Hnn... point taken human. Your species does disgust me to a point but if I will something to happen then it will. If I want you in my bed then it will be so. Enough; go back to the harem until I can figure out what to do with you," he said and easily dismissed her like she never even existed. It was fine with her because after talking to Sesshomaru and living to tell about it was a feat on its own. Kagome quickly got up from the floor and nearly ran for the door and the whole time she felt the eyes of the demon Lord at her backside.

Kagome reached her room in the harem and sat down at her vanity. She stared at herself for a long moment and tried to slow down her heart so that she wouldn't faint from exerting herself into an anxiety attack. Before Kagome could have a few minutes to herself Lady Itsuko appeared in the room and expressed her thoughts, "I see you have failed to please the Lord. I could have sworn that he would be taken with you because of how different you are. I guess he just can't stand humans either way." Kagome looked at Lady Itsuko from the mirror and said, "That's not true! He has a little human girl with him all the time named Rin and she is the cutest eight year old I have ever seen. I suppose she is his vassal, but there's something more between them. There is something special like a father and daughter relationship." "Preposterous indeed! I've never heard of this girl or have seen her myself. I think you don't know what you're talking about," Lady Itsuko bashed out with an angry tone.

Kagome stood up to the demoness and finally retaliated, "I know exactly what I'm talking about. I've seen her and I've known Sesshomaru for a long time now. I've even fought him before so it's you who doesn't know anything." Kagome got face to face with Lady Itsuko and continued, "You just don't know because you're stuck in here all the time. You need to leave this harem and live your life because you don't even know your own Lord anymore. He has compassion for that girl and I'll admit that he does. In fact he shows more love for that little girl than he does for his own brother. His half brother Inuyasha has been his enemy throughout their whole lives. So don't you dare say that I know nothing because it's you who doesn't know crap and you're jealous because I do." "You bitch! I'll rip that tongue out of your skull and feed it to my hounds!" Lady Itsuko yelled out as she grabbed Kagome by her raven hair and threw her to the ground. Lady Itsuko grappled on top of Kagome and began slamming her head onto the floor.

Kagome lost herself for a moment and when she realized that her life was in danger and she was being attacked something sparked deep inside her. She felt an overwhelming power ignite and at first she thought it was the brain damage she was gaining but it developed within her core. Lady Itsuko was about to bash in Kagome's skull once more but Kagome knocked her off and Kagome was able to dodge from another attack. Kagome was able to get her footing and stand up from the floor she was laid into. "I'm gonna kill you!" Itsuko yelled out as she lunged at Kagome to fight her once more. Kagome felt that same force and was able to get out of Lady Itsuko's grasp and before Kagome knew it she saw a bright pink light surround her. It was her miko powers seeping out from her body and empowering the whole room. Kagome felt faint and she knew she would pass out at any moment and before she did she felt that wave of energy release itself away from her body. She heard Lady Itsuko wail in agony before the darkness over took her into another world.

It felt like several days had passed before she awoke. Kagome was encompassed by the darkness for so long that she thought herself to be dead to the world and she wanted to wake up now. When she did wake up she regretted it because her head throbbed, like her brains turned to Jell-O. Her body ached from the exertion she endured. Kagome groaned as she tried to sit up in a bed that wasn't from the harem. She knew this because the sheets that covered her were made of silk and the room was filled with more things that weren't so gaudy. The bed was softer with cotton stuffed deeply into the mattress. It was so soft and comfortable that she could have fallen asleep again if she wanted to. "Don't try to sit up wench. Just lay there," Kagome heard the familiar voice ring throughout the room. It was soft but full of authority as it was directed to her. Kagome wondered if he was trying to be nice because of what happened to her but she knew that 'nice' was not in his vocabulary. She did as she was told for the moment and laid back down on the cushions. "What happened?" Kagome managed to say with a rasp. "Hnn? Apparently you're scared of me but not some jealous female demon, which in some cases could be even more dangerous," Sesshomaru went on to say. Kagome sat up immediately and looked at Sesshomaru and she instantly regretted it as a wave of nausea set in. She tried to steady herself and said, "What happened to Lady Itsuko? I heard her scream before I passed out."

Sesshomaru walked up to the bed and answered, "You almost killed her Miko. You purified her arm and shoulder off and scorched half her face. It'll take her about a year to heal back to her original form. Now lay back down before I make you." Kagome allowed the dizziness to take over as she plopped back down on her back. She looked away from Sesshomaru and tried to hold back the tears she knew were about to surface, "I almost killed her. I didn't mean to." "She attacked you first and your powers happened to come to your rescue. She'll be fine once she gets some rest. It's very interesting for a weak human like you to have anything like those powers though," Sesshomaru said as he walked to the door to the room. "I knew I had them but... I don't know how to control them. I'm a miko," Kagome muttered out.

Sesshomaru gave her that same look he had been plastering on her the whole time she had been there, "A miko? Interesting. Considering that you were out for two days says that it took a lot of energy out of you, but no matter." He reached for the door and slid it open to leave the room without wanting to talk any longer. Kagome realized this and shot out, "Where is Lady Itsuko now?" Without looking back Sesshomaru said, "I banished her." "B-But why?" Kagome cried out. "She tried to kill my merchandise; simple," Sesshomaru said. He silently left the room and left Kagome to her own thoughts.

Not even a moment later Kagome busted down her walls and allowed the tears to come to her. She didn't mean to hurt the woman at all but she just didn't realize what powers she held. Kagome wished that Lady Kaeda would have been there to tell her it would be alright and that there were certain ways to control these powers that were growing inside her. Kagome could honestly say that she was scared of these powers but she also knew that Kikyo had them before her, and that woman controlled them at one point and time in her short life. Kagome closed her eyes and when she did she heard the door open once more. When she opened them back up she recognized the demon that was bringing in a tray of food for her. He was a little green toad and he was a vassal to Sesshomaru. The vassal was known as Jaken and he was the most annoying creep she had ever met in her time in the Feudal Era.

Kagome tried to suppress an agitated groan but she failed miserably, "What do you want Jaken?" Jaken shot her a look and said, "Lord Sesshomaru insisted that you be fed you lowly human. I don't know why he keeps you when it would be easier to throw you out on the street now, but then I ask myself that whenever Rin is around." Jaken set the tray of food next to Kagome before she asked diligently, "Rin is here at the castle now?" "Stupid human! Of course she is. I'm the one that has to watch her all the time and do a hundred other duties that I feel are more important than babysitting," Jaken squawked out. "You don't like Rin," Kagome said, already knowing the answer. Jaken huffed, "Of course I don't! She's a human and Sesshomaru spoils her to the point that she won't even listen to poor old Jaken. She'll be his ruin."

Kagome just laid there and heard him berate on and on about how Rin was this horrible child who never listened to him. Jaken went on to say that she ruins the garden by picking all the flowers and she never pays attention to her studies that Sesshomaru paid a fortune for Supposedly Rin also didn't like to take her baths and she was picky with her food. Rin was a child after all and children tended to be a little difficult from time to time. Kagome thought that Rin was a sweet girl, but did Rin have the right care in a situation that her keeper didn't even like her? Was that proper protection for a young girl? Soon enough Jaken realized that Kagome wasn't even listening to him and went on to say how humans should listen to the superior species of demons and mind their manners, or something to that effect. He just kept that annoying squawking up until he left the room and it was silent once more.

Kagome looked at the food and felt the nausea come back and she knew that she wasn't hungry in the least but if she wanted to regain her strength she would eat some bite fulls of food. She sat up, even though Sesshomaru told her not to and she ate what she could on the tray, which was mainly fruit. She finished the last bite of an apple before she attempted the next step and that was to stand up from the comfortable silk bed. She thought that she would feel dizzy or nauseated again but she was wrong. She felt better and so she took a walk around the room until she came to a large window. When she looked down, to her surprise, she saw a magnificent garden.

It was in full bloom with blossoms from the littering the cobble stone pathways. Patches of flower beds were randomly put in all kinds of assortments, and right in the middle of the garden was a giant pond. The pathway that led to it was also grace with an arched bridge, which was built over the pond to get to the other side. Kagome wondered if she could ever walk through something as enchanting as the garden that Sesshomaru owned. When Kagome thought that she caught a wisp of an orange and yellow kimono. It was attached to a young girl with dark brown hair tied in a side ponytail. Kagome instantly recognized her as the little girl Rin that was always following Sesshomaru around.

Kagome than had to wonder that if Sesshomaru hated humans so much than why keep an eight year old by his side all the time. Sesshomaru must care for her just a little to drag her half way across Japan because to take care of a child took a lot of responsibility. You had to feed them, bathe them, and most importantly, pay attention to them. Kagome thought for a moment and wondered also if Rin might miss having contact with humans at all. When Kagome glanced back down from the window she witnessed that Jaken was already down with Rin. He was flailing his arms about as he caught Rin picking flowers from the gardens. Kagome opened her window so she could listen in.

"You stupid human girl! Stop picking Lord Sesshomaru's flowers!"

"But Rin wants to pick flowers for Lord Sesshomaru so he can keep them inside."

"That's stupid! They'll just die!"

"Lord Sesshomaru will love them."

'No he won't! He just allows it because you're just a little girl."

"So. Rin likes being a little girl and making Lord Sesshomaru happy."

"You're impossible!"

Kagome frowned as she heard the way Jaken spoke to the young ward and she finally was struck with a brilliant idea. If Sesshomaru really wanted to keep her until her debt was paid then why not do something that she would actually enjoy. Kagome figured that it wouldn't take too long to pay off her debt and be able to go back to Inuyasha and the group. Kagome decided that she would be the one to care for Rin but how would she go about talking to Sesshomaru about it? She didn't even know if she could find him in the palace because she was sure it was big. Kagome tore herself away from the window and checked the door, which to her dismay was locked. She wasn't to be trusted after all. Kagome sighed to herself and began to pace the room. She would do it. She would be Rin's keeper. Now if only she could get out of the room.

It had been hours since Kagome was last checked on and she was beginning to feel more then agitated with the fact that she was being ignored. If Sesshomaru wanted to keep her so badly then why not assign her a task. Anything would do as long as it kept her from going crazy with boredom. The sun was setting over the hill and the room was starting to get dark. Kagome had to remind herself that in that time and age electricity had not been discovered. She wish it had been because she would have just flipped on the switch, but no she had to wait as it got darker and darker until the room would eventually get pitch black. Just when she thought she was about to go through the night without any light the door to her room unlatched and Sesshomaru walked in. "Why are you standing in the dark wench?" He said as if she were some arrogant human. "Well if I were given a means to provide light I would have done it already," Kagome bit out. Sesshomaru walked over to a lamp on the table and turned the knob and a fire lit under the glass. "These are special lamps and all you have to do is turn the knob, but I suppose that demon devices are beyond your comprehension," Sesshomaru went on to say. Kagome crossed her arms over her chest and huffed out with being called more then just simple. Maybe it was the demons who invented electricity and it just took humans even longer to figure it out. It could be a possibility.

"So have you decided what to do with me yet Sesshomaru?" Kagome asked, now wondering what he wanted her to do. She would be eternally grateful if she could watch Rin but she couldn't win every situation; but lately it seemed that her luck had been running out. It's not like he wanted to keep her in the harem or he would of done that already. "I'm not going back to the harem either," She added. After Kagome said that she could of sworn she heard Sesshomaru chuckle slightly. "No, you're not going back to the harem because I'm tearing it down," He explained. "Why?" Kagome questioned. "Because I don't even use the women in it. The harem used to be my father's until he married," Sesshomaru said. Kagome walked up to Sesshomaru and she realized that he was quite a bit taller then her. She craned her neck up and asked, "So what are going to happen to the women?"

"They'll be placed in homes in my kingdom and taken care of financially."

"What made you decide this all of a sudden?"
"Lady Itsuko."

"Was it because she and I got into a fight?"

"No. I realized that the women have special needs and I'm not willing to give it to them."

"Simple..."

"Yes, simple."

"I think I know how to pay you back Sesshomaru, since you say I owe you for this ridiculous debt, even though you didn't even give the consent for me to be purchased," Kagome said with renewed enthusiasm. Sesshomaru grunted, "Ridiculous is an understatement. The price my vassal paid for you was ridiculous and I want my moneys worth from you. What do you have in mind?" "Well your servant Jaken came into my room earlier today and began talking badly about Rin," Kagome said blatantly. "Doesn't surprise me,"He said blatantly.

"Well I figure that since Jaken doesn't like the duty of caring for Rin, I would like to take that responsibility upon myself. I want to be Rin's keeper," Kagome shot out as she made her opinion known. Sesshomaru looked down at her and said, "What makes you think you're any good with Rin?" "Last time I met Rin she seemed to like me and she needs human company once in a while. Not to mention Jaken is rude and vicious with her. She needs love and proper care from someone who could love her," Kagome explained. "You don't think this Sesshomaru can take care of her?" "I'm not saying that. I'm talking about Jaken. He'll ruin her and if you heard how he talks to her all the time I'm sure you would be more than furious," Kagome said, now staring at him into his golden eyes. Sesshomaru thought for a moment and came up with an answer to her request, "I can't trust you. You might try to turn her against me and at that age a child is very impressionable. No, you will have another task cast upon you before I will give you custody of Rin. You will be my personal servant and do what I bid you to do and when I feel you have met my standards I may allow you to take over Jaken's responsibilities as her keeper. Understood wench?"

"Actually it's Kagome..."

"Excuse me?"

"My name is Kagome."

"I'll call you what I please wench."

"It's not wench or Miko... its Kagome... K-A-G-O-M-E!"

"You insolent human."

"I call you by your name. I just want the same courtesy."

"Hnn..."

Sesshomaru glared down at her and gave off that rare smirk that she saw maybe once in her life in knowing him. "Don't hold your breath wench. I'm not about to change my habits on your account. Since you're my slave you get no courtesy from me. For now on you will be calling me master. Does that suit your pallet?" He said as his smirk faded. Kagome shuddered as she remembered the demon whip that hit her on the backside. She never wanted to experience that again. Kagome nodded and said, "I understand and it suits me just fine." "I can tell by the sound of your voice that you're not thrilled in the least but I find this to be a great opportunity for myself. Rin will be fine under my guidance and if you bring it up again I'll be sure to never allow the clemency of even seeing her wench," Sesshomaru finished as he stared at her.

Kagome shot a look at him and knew that he wasn't kidding, but what was the harm in caring about someone; especially if that person were a little girl. If there was something wrong then she would bring it to his attention, whether he liked it or not. "If I feel Rin is not under the proper care then I will let you know because I care for Rin. At least I would be letting you know instead of dealing with it on my own. Don't drag me down because I have emotions," Kagome stated this with such precision that she even shocked Sesshomaru. He stood taller and said, "Yes, humans and their emotions make me sick. Like I said before, just leave it alone and I will take care of the problem. You just need to focus on me and what I want from you wench. And call me master when you address me because next time I will not be so lenient." Kagome's skin prickled with distaste. "Tomorrow I will summon you and I will let you know what you will be doing. Until then…" Sesshomaru finished and abruptly left the room with a resounding lock that ticked at the door. She would be going no where for the duration of the night and she was stuck in the same old situation as before; except this time she thought it was worse. Kagome stamped her foot onto the floor and ground her teeth together. She growled out her frustrations and nearly threw a vase, but she caught herself before she owed the bastard even more money. She knew that being saddled with the mighty Lord of the West was going to be like living in a hell.