Miko of My Desire
By: Aurora Collins
Disclaimers: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters associated with it. I'm only borrowing the characters to amuse myself and hopefully others. ^_^
Ch. 11 Heartbeat
"I'm telling you the jewel shards were not on her! I looked! I swear I did!" Itsuko cried out as she was confronted by Naraku. Naraku glared at her and said, "Swearing is meaningless from you Itsuko. Now explain everything to me again." Itsuko blew out a huff of air and said, "I thoroughly checked the wench named Kagome. I looked everywhere on her person and they weren't there. You told me that she keeps them on her at all times." Naraku slapped her across the face, sprawling her out on the floor. Her low cut kimono fell off her shoulder, exposing a large portion of her milky white breast, the nipple just barley cresting at the top. "Don't tell me what I told you. I know exactly what I said. You're useless. I should take back the gift I gave you," Naraku said as he towered over her.
If Itsuko had a heart it would have been beating rapidly, but instead her eyes just got large at the thought of facing death, thus hell, once more. "Please my lord, I know I can make this up to you," Itsuko begged as she stayed on the floor. Naraku swiftly grabbed the back of her head and forced her to look up at him at an extremely uncomfortable angle. Her throat was exposed as he trailed his clawed finger up to her chin. "Can you really make this up to me?" Naraku asked. She wanted to nod but her head was immobile in his grip. Instead she said, "I know I can. I know someone who resides at the castle and knows all the secret corridors. He could get in and get what you desire most." Naraku smiled, "I think you just made this up to me Itsuko, if you speak truth that is."
Itsuko gulped as he bent down and gave her a forceful kiss bruising her already tender lips. He released her causing her hair to be released from its pins. "Keep your hair down Itsuko. Now go and get this person, and don't fail me again," Naraku said this as he saw a blush go over Itsuko's face. Itsuko bowed to him and left the room to go do his bidding.
Would this really be like that tale Kagome told Rin? It was certain that she wouldn't be turned into sea foam, but it still felt like she would be lost forever. Three days in a coma like state was never a good sign and it was like she was depleting before him. Her body looked so frail and pale that if it wasn't for her shallow breathing Sesshomaru would think her dead. He tried to wake her several times but it was like she didn't want to wake up. The wound was almost healed as he gave her his blood once everyday, just for extra measure. She didn't even mumble in her sleep like she used to. He missed it.
On his travels when he was trying to get the Tetsuiga from Inuyasha he would go days without sleeping. This was how it was with him now. He hadn't slept a wink since the incident in the garden and he had a deep gut wrenching feeling that Naraku was behind this because of the miasma and because Itsuko just rose from the dead when she used to be nothing more then a corpse. Sesshomaru had no interest in the affairs of the demon Naraku, but now this was personal. Sesshomaru didn't consider himself stupid, but apparently this Naraku thought otherwise. It made Sesshomaru pissed off whenever he thought about it but at the moment there was nothing that could be done.
Sometimes it felt like he couldn't get anything under control lately, ever since Kagome came into his life. But with all the confusions and problems, he was glad that she came to him. Even if it was for the purpose of getting back at his brother, but now it was something more than that. This was something deeper and he didn't know if he could allow Kagome to go now, after what they've been through. He couldn't call it love because he never had the chance to experience it, but then again, how would he know if he was experiencing it? Sesshomaru had been mulling these thoughts in his head since Kagome fell in the garden.
He was literally driving himself crazy with worry for her and he never reacted this way. He paced the room, skipped on a bath, not sleeping or eating. He wanted to suffer like she was because he felt responsible for her. Sesshomaru nearly blamed himself because he should have never allowed Kagome to wander on her own, but he never would have believed that any enemy could breach his castle walls. He recalled the morning that they had an argument, and it had been enough to make her want to be alone. Maybe he shouldn't have pushed her so far but when he heard her speak the previous night, it just made him want her all the more.
He recalled her tossing and turning in the bed, making the sheets twist around her. At first it irritated him to be woken up in the middle of the night, but then he heard the secret words that passed her lips. When her arousing scent caught wind of his nostrils he could tell that she was having more then just a good dream. He heard her heated words as she panted in her sleep, whimpering like she was being tortured in the best sense. Maybe she was torturing herself with those passionate dreams but it was driving him wild with desire. He couldn't touch her and hence, he removed himself from the bed. As he walked to the bathroom he heard her mumble, "Sesshomaru, please take me…" It trailed off and he recalled having a smirk on his face.
Sesshomaru wished that she would be that honest with him when she was awake. He would love to turn right around and march up to that bed and those vivid dreams into sweet reality. He sighed as he went back to the side of the bed. He took her small hand within his much larger one like he had done so many times before and stroked the soft skin of her wrist. Sesshomaru would demand at moments that she get up, but she never did his bidding. She was still the stubborn woman he had come to like very much, maybe a little too much.
Rin wasn't allowed in the room because Sesshomaru didn't want the little girl to see the miko like this. He felt bad for his ward but the little girl understood why. Just when he thought that another day would pass without the miko waking up she began to stir. Her eyes fluttered open and a painful grimace crossed her face. A whimper escaped her lungs and she felt tears at the edge of her eyes. Sesshomaru immediately hovered over her and said, "Kagome? Kagome are you alright? Talk to me." "It hurts," she bemoaned absently. "It's going to hurt Kagome. You're healing and it will take some time," Sesshomaru cautioned as he examined her face.
It was pale but she was awake and alive. "I thought I was dead," she said still lying down. "No, you're not dead," he remarked. Kagome was about to close her eyes once more, but Sesshomaru got her attention, "Are you hungry?" He didn't want her to fall asleep again. She nodded, "Yeah I am. How long was I out? It feels like years." "You've been out for three days," he uttered quietly. Kagome allowed her self a small sigh, "Three days? I guess I really needed the sleep I take it." "This is no time for jokes. You were seriously injured," Sesshomaru said with worry streaking his voice. Kagome thought she was hearing things but she realized that he had been worrying about her this whole time.
"I know that Sesshomaru. I remember Itsuko slicing my chest and asking…" Kagome cut herself off as she grabbed at her chest and let out a gasp. She held back a scream as she panted from the pain that inflicted itself on her. Sesshomaru examined her chest and saw that the wound was still scabbing over. This was taking longer to heal but he had to remember that she was still a human. Sesshomaru took a vial out and held it to Kagome's lips, "Drink this. It will make the pain stop." Kagome drank it and the taste reminded her of copper, almost like blood. She swallowed it until it was gone. She immediately felt better as the pain subsided. "What was that?" she asked.
Sesshomaru stared at her for a long time before he answered her question, "You drank my blood." "What?" Kagome asked in a weakened voice. "I gave you my blood because it was the next best thing I could have done to save your life. Since you're a miko you could handle demon blood, but a normal human would have died from its poisonous properties. The blood has been healing you for days and I don't know what other side effects it could have," Sesshomaru went on to explain. "It could extend your life to equal mine, give you more powers; but I know that this blood connects you to me. I'm bound to you."
"In what ways are we talking about Sesshomaru?" Kagome questioned. Sesshomaru waivered for a moment as he tried to find the right words to explain this, "There is a custom in the demon world that two mates share their blood to make them one. It is called 'bonding'. It is only half completed so it doesn't have any lasting effects, but if you were to share your blood with me then we would be mates and consummate the ritual. On the other hand, even if you weren't to be my mate I'm equally sure that you would live a longer life then a normal human." Sesshomaru conveyed. "I get that, but what do you mean by you're bound to me?" Kagome just had to ask, her curiosity getting the best of her.
Sesshomaru really didn't want to answer that question. He just didn't think he could. "How about you get some food in you first?" Sesshomaru said, trying to distract her. Kagome forced herself to sit up and retorted, "Not until you tell me." "Alright, just lay back down before you hurt yourself," he demanded to her. Kagome did as she was bid with a wicked smile splaying on her face. Sesshomaru stated, "I'm bound to you means just that. I gave you my blood but you didn't do that in return. I can't mate with anyone for the rest of my life." Kagome gasped, "You couldn't even have sex? Why would you do that for me?" Sesshomaru raked his hand through his hair and grunted out, "I could have sex if I wanted to, but being mated is different. It's a demon thing….I don't know. I wanted to save you from death and it was a sacrifice that had to be made."
"You could have let me die and brought me back with the Tensuiga," Kagome expressed with disbelief. "There is only a slim chance that I couldn't have brought you back and I wasn't willing to leave that to chance. I did what I had to do because I didn't want you to die," he explained this with such tenacity that it shocked Kagome. "And now it's time for you to be quiet and let me take care of you. You need to eat and get your strength up." Before Kagome could protest he was already out the door to get someone to bring her food. His voice bellowed down the hall for the servants to prepare a meal fit for royalty.
Kagome looked down at her chest and saw the long scab that she knew would eventually fade as if it was never there. He did all that for her and she didn't even ask him to. He must have some feelings for her, maybe even love to sacrifice something like that for her. His chance at having a mate he wanted was lost because her life was in danger. Kagome wondered if this were a bad thing, or if he even wanted this union. She was willing to finish the bonding if it meant she would be with him for ever and always. Kagome felt the blush creep in on her just like old times. Here she was thinking about him and now being completely honest with herself.
She wondered if she could ever be this honest with the demon lord Sesshomaru. Would he laugh at her face for loving him? She was unsure to tell him because she still wanted to know how he felt. In the middle of her thoughts she realized that Sesshomaru was staring at her. "You seem healthy enough to me," Sesshomaru walked back to the bed and looked down at her face. "I missed those blushes," he said affectionately. As they were waiting for the food to arrive Sesshomaru sat on her bed. "What did Itsuko want?' Sesshomaru questioned. Kagome bit her lip and gazed at him with her ocean blue eyes, "She wanted the jewel shard that you possess. She thought that I still held it. I don't even know how she knew about it."
"She's in cahoots with Naraku. I know this because she faded in a mist of miasma. I think there is something big that is going to happen," Sesshomaru explained. Kagome shivered because she recalled the few times she and her group fought against the greater demon. He was strong and it usually wasn't even him, but the puppets he called forward. Naraku was a true psychotic bastard. "What do you suggest we do?" Kagome asked. Sesshomaru smirked and said, "I'll take care of it. After all, the jewel shard is with me and I'm responsible for it now." "Why haven't you used it?" Kagome questioned. "I have no interest in tainted power such as this. Yes, you purified it but it would taint me if I were to use it to my advantage."
Kagome approved of that answer as she got comfortable in her bed. "There was one more thing I wanted to know Sesshomaru," Kagome went on to say. "Hnn? What would that be?" Sesshomaru conveyed. Kagome crinkled her nose as she smiled, "Well I still want to know what I said that night." Sesshomaru groaned, "After everything you've been through you want to know that?" "I get curious. So tell me," she said with a pout. "I said don't worry about it," Sesshomaru said. Kagome huffed, "They're my words. I should know what I said." "Then think about your dream that night and that should tell you what you want to know," Sesshomaru countered to her. Kagome thought about it for a moment, remembering the dream of that night that seemed so long ago. She had to concentrate and she thought for sure that no memories would surface.
Then it hit her like a tidal wave of shame. It was 'that' dream she had. She recalled how she was in the room, alone in the dark; sitting on the bed. She couldn't see the floor or the walls that made the room. She was too scared to leave the bed that held such protection over her. Then a figure appeared under the sheets and Kagome was about to rip at them to see who was beneath. When Kagome reached her goal she saw that it was Sesshomaru. He was asleep on the bed and he was as naked as could be. Every muscle on his body rippled with a distinct masculine air that it sent a shiver down her back. He opened his eyes, revealing corn flowers that dispersed in golden valor. It was like looking into heaven.
He rolled to his side and pulled her head down to his; their lips meeting in the middle. He tasted so sweet that she wanted to nibble on his lips like a candy treat. The kiss dove deeper and their tongues met one another in a game of war. Soon Kagome was on her back, the bed sinking at their combined weight. Sesshomaru hovered over her, his hands on her hips trailing up to her ribcage. He began to kiss on her neck and nip at her collar bone as he easily tore the night dress from her body; revealing all of her soft feminine curves. She was exposed to him, her breasts peaking at the sudden cold brushed over her body. Her nipples hardened as he played with them. He sucked the rosy buds and blew cold air onto them making her cry out in passion. "More," she panted out.
Sesshomaru smiled as he fallowed her command. It was like they reversed roles and he was the slave, she was the master. His hands played such fine games with her that she couldn't help but moan out his name as it echoed in the empty room. "Sesshomaru," Kagome continued as his hands found their way to the inside of her thigh. She gasped in shock and pleasure at the same time. His hands progressed to her woman's fold finding her hot and slick with need. Sesshomaru forced her legs to open wider so he could have better access to her desire. Kagome whimpered as she felt how close he was to her center. The demon knew what she wanted and he was willing to tease her to get the point across. His finger toyed with her swollen clit, causing cries to erupt fro her semi abused throat. His hands were those of an expert and she wanted to damn him for it.
Instead she thanked him for bringing her further and further up without stopping. Sesshomaru's finger dove inside of her and his lips were close to her ear, "You're already wet for me. Tell me what you want." Kagome didn't think she could talk as his finger slowly went in and out of her in a practiced rhythm. Kagome moaned as his paced quickened. "Tell me what you want Kagome," Sesshomaru repeated himself. "Sesshomaru please take me…" then the dream ended.
Yes, she wanted him to take her right now, even though she was still healing. Her arousal said so as she noticed his nostrils flare. "So you do remember," Sesshomaru stated. Kagome nodded and said, "Yeah, I guess I do." Sesshomaru smirked at her and bent down to her face. He pushed her hair back and felt for a fever that was no longer there. Sesshomaru was glad that she was slowly getting better. Kagome's cheeks heated as he checked her temperature. She was about to say something when he lightly brushed his lips with hers. It was a light kiss but it held so much meaning to her. "What was that for?" she whispered. "For luck, so that you can get better faster," he said as he left to make sure her food was coming. Kagome knew that she would need luck to deal with the demon who stole her heart.
Another three days passed until the scab wore away and nothing was left but a light red mark that would become a scar, and then even that would fade with time. Sesshomaru had told her as much as she looked at herself in the mirror. She lifted her night dress to see the place where she was attacked at. It was healing nicely for being such a big wound, but it was hard to believe that it wouldn't turn into a scar. Before she had a chance to put her night dress down the door opened and Sesshomaru walked in to see her breasts fully exposed through the mirror. Kagome's face got beet red as she quickly got the thing down to make herself more appropriate for Sesshomaru. "What were you doing and why are you out of bed?" Sesshomaru demanded.
Kagome wanted to run and hide under something, but she knew that wouldn't do her any good. "Well I wanted to see how my wound was fairing. I mean I'm not used to healing so fast, and I'm out of bed because I'm tired of laying in it. You've been feeding me like you want me ready for the slaughter and I just need some exercise." "If that was all then you should have said so," Sesshomaru said as he walked up to Kagome and forced her to sit in a seat. She was about to protest when she saw that he was about to brush out her hair. "I remember when you did this for me one time. I think it's my turn," Sesshomaru said as he ran the brush through her raven locks. They were a tangled mess as he carefully glided his way through it. Kagome saw Sesshomaru's reflection cast in the mirror, seeing his eyes diverted to his task. He brushed her hair so lovingly and with a tenderness that made her wonder if he was only acting at being the demon with the ice heart.
"When can I go outside?" Kagome asked, staring at Sesshomaru through the mirror. Sesshomaru grunted, "Not for a little while at least. I want to make sure that you're going to be alright." Kagome glared at him, "You're worse then my mother your know that?" "I think your mother would thank me for taking such good care of you," Sesshomaru countered. Kagome retorted, "She might say something about a few things you did, but overall she would approve. Sometimes I wish I could see my family." This perked Sesshomaru's interest, "Tell me about your family."
Kagome smiled, "I have my grandpa, my mom, and my little brother Souta." "What about a father?" Sesshomaru asked. Kagome shrugged her shoulders, "I don't know. He died when I was very young and I don't remember much about him. My mom talks about him sometimes." Kagome left out the part that her father died in a car accident and that she had pictures of him to remind her of what he looked like. "Does your family live close by?" Sesshomaru questioned as he finished with her hair. Kagome shook her head, "No, they live by the forest where Inuyasha was pinned to the tree. My families are shrine holders." "I don't recall a shrine out there, except the one that got burned down a long time ago," Sesshomaru stated. Kagome gulped down and said, "Well they could have built a new one you know."
"Is that where you learned about being a miko?" he kept going. Kagome wanted him to stop with the twenty questions game now. "Not exactly. It's complicated really. I just found out by accident. Look, you might not believe this but my family has no history of being mikos or priests, but I know that I'm the reincarnation of Inuyasha's previous lover; Kikyo," Kagome explained. Sesshomaru's eyes widened, "Usually people don't remember their past lives." "That's it though, I didn't. I stumbled on Inuyasha pinned to the tree and I saved him. When he awoke he thought I was Kikyo and then tried to kill me because of one big misunderstanding. I learned about Kikyo and her past life from other people, and I happen to have some of her powers of purifying the jewel shard and having miko powers that I can't seem to control. It's just one big mess."
"Sounds complicated," Sesshomaru said as he laid the brush down on the dresser. Kagome got up and he led her back to the bed, "Do I have to go to bed again?" Sesshomaru nodded, "Of course." "And how long do I have to keep drinking your blood?" Kagome asked. "Until I say otherwise. I want to make sure that there is no more internal damage trying to heal, "Sesshomaru said as he handed her another vile with blood inside it. Kagome huffed out as she took the vile and swigged it down in one gulp. She handed the vial back and plopped down on the bed.
When they had their conversation she wanted to just tell him everything about herself and she had no idea why she was holding back. She wanted to tell him that she was from the future, that she lived in a time of technology and that the world was so different, yet the same. Kagome just didn't know how she could explain the power of being thrust back in time 500 years into the feudal era. Sesshomaru put the covers on Kagome and looked down at her. "Something is bothering you," Sesshomaru stated through observation. "I just got to thinking about my family," Kagome didn't technically lie, but she did hold back some truth. Sesshomaru grunted, knowing that there was more to this. He would let it lie for now because he didn't want to push her away again. He had no idea why he felt this attachment to her. It was driving him mad.
Sesshomaru noticed that it was getting dark outside and it was time for bed for them both. Recently Sesshomaru made a pallet on the floor because he didn't want to hurt Kagome while she was healing. He was about to do the same routine until he felt a tug at his kimono sleeve. He saw the slender hand of the woman in the bed and saw those pleading eyes. "Please don't go," Kagome whispered. "I'm only sleeping on the floor," Sesshomaru explained, like it was the most obvious thing. Kagome shook her head, "That's not what I meant. I miss you in this bed and I want you back in it."
"I don't think that's a good idea Kagome. You're still healing," he said this with finality. "Please. I feel better when you're closer to me. I feel fine. Don't treat me like I would break. You never have before and it should be no different now," Kagome switched so quickly that Sesshomaru had a hard time following. "Don't pull away from me," Kagome demanded now. Sesshomaru sighed, "Fine. Scoot over." He got onto the bed and under the covers with Kagome. This time she rolled over to where she was facing him. Her hands curled up to his abdomen as her nose nuzzled to his chest. She took in a deep breathe and felt like she was safe again from the horrors of the world. Sesshomaru in turn draped his arm over her hips, allowing his hand to glide over her curves. Kagome closed her eyes and said, "Thank you." Sesshomaru just nodded as he drew her closer to him, making her his 'pillow' once more.
It was in the middle of the night when Sesshomaru was jolted awake by Kagome tossing and turning in the bed. At first he thought that it was because she was feeling pain again, but he was wrong. He could smell her arousal at the peak of orgasmic bliss. Sesshomaru was never caught with a wave this strong and he noticed that she was moaning in her sleep once more. Her hair was splayed over a pillow as he saw beads of sweat lace her face. Kagome's mouth gaped open and she panted out, "More… more…. Just take me…" Sesshomaru couldn't handle it anymore. He had waited long enough and he knew how much she wanted him.
It was plain as the moans that escaped her that very moment. She called his name and had that sweet ecstasy in her dreams without him. Sesshomaru wanted his fair share and he wouldn't want to experience this moment with anyone else but Kagome. Sesshomaru brushed his hand along Kagome's jaw his thumb lingering by her lower lip. He couldn't stop his next actions with all the will power in the world. His lips glided across the rosy fullness of her slightly parted lips, tasting her sweet essence. Kagome moaned in her sleep and Sesshomaru could tell she was mere moments from completion in a dream that would soon become her reality. His hands trailed down her stomach and found it's self underneath her gown. His hands raked the gown upward, exposing her luscious thighs of milky white skin. Her skin was so smooth that his hands couldn't help but glide across them, parting her legs to support his waist between them.
Sesshomaru's hands touched her inner thigh and he saw her quake and tremble beneath him. It made him want her all the more. Kagome finally let out a pleasured filled cry, jerking her out of her fevered sleep. She looked up to see Sesshomaru hovering over her, his eyes glowing like two suns in the darkness. She shook under him with repressed emotion, abandoning all reason. Kagome raised herself up to meet him with a passionate kiss that told him that she wanted him. His lips melded with hers as he released a feral growl. He maneuvered himself between her legs as he pulled the night shift over her head exposing her in all her feminine glory. "Sesshomaru," She moaned arching her back, trying to get closer to him.
Her breasts were exposed to him in such a wanton fashion that he couldn't help but take one of her nipples and glaze over it with his experienced tongue. When he released it he saw the pink bud harden to a conclusive clamor of desire. Sesshomaru kneaded her breasts so thoroughly that Kagome squirmed further into the mattress. That is when Sesshomaru looked down at her and said, "You know this isn't a dream anymore, don't you?" Kagome's eyes were glazed over with passion, a smile splaying over her well played lips. She grabbed at Sesshomaru and dragged him down once more to kiss her then said, "I know this isn't a dream Sesshomaru. All I know is that I want you." The demon lord's heart soared as he heard her say the words he had wanted to hear for such a long time. She wanted him and she was admitting to it. Now he knew he could continue with Kagome and not allow her any regrets of the night.
"More…" She whispered to her lover while pushing her hands into his silky tresses. Sesshomaru would give her more and she would only think of him for the rest of her days. He wanted it to last longer, he really did but he could take no more. He pushed his pants down his legs releasing an impressive manhood. Sesshomaru's hands played with her woman's fold to the point where she was crying for him to enter her. He wanted it to last longer and make her feel all the pleasure in the world, because he knew that a woman's first time was always the most painful.
Sesshomaru didn't want her to feel the pain, but in the end it was inevitable. His mouth came close to her ear as she whimpered his name. "This is going to hurt Kagome. I promise I will do my best to make this quick," Sesshomaru said as he quickly found her entrance and slowly sunk into the pleasure filled abyss. He had, had his fair share in women but this was the most erotic experience of his life. There was something there that had never existed with any of the others. Sesshomaru heard her gasp as she raked her nails across his back, leaving red trails behind. He kissed on her neck and earlobe to try and tempt her out of the pain. She acclimated to him and adjusted to his size. Once Sesshomaru was sure that she was ready to proceed he thrust heavily into her until the hilt vanished. He pushed into her over and over again until they both yelled out in passion, their pleasure never wavering.
Sesshomaru collapsed onto Kagome, both of them panting. The great lord held Kagome close as he heard her chest hammering in satisfaction. He could tell that she was smiling from the pleasure he gave her but he would not be the one to tease her about it. Instead he cuddled her close to him and hugged her dearly to his heart, where she would remain the rest of the night.