I walked in on Thursday morning, I was more than excited for tomorrow. At my locker, I was grabbing my books when Mr. Shue came up to me.
'Katie, I just wanted to make sure you were ready for today?."
"Oh, I am more than ready Mr. Shue." I smiled
"Alright I like the attitude, now remember auditorium at 3pm. It's going to be Krista first, than you."
"Alright."
I walked into the caf when Krista stood up on a table.
"Okay so as you all know, I am in Glee, and the teacher in charge of Glee, put me up against Katie over there." She pointed to me. "Now, I am performing a Britney spears song." All of the guys heads immediately shot up, they all looked excited, well I mean, Brittney spears, does have some "interesting" dance moves. 'So," she continued. "If you would like to come watch go to the auditorium tomorrow at 3, I go on after Katie." She smiled and got off of the table.
What? She's supposed to go on before me! And I, I can't perform in front of all those people! At least if she went first, they would leave by the time I performed. I mean singing in front of the Glee kids is one thing, but all those people. I looked around the lunch room.
"She looks really pale." I heard Kurt say.
"Katie? Katie?" I heard Mercedes say and wave a hand in front of my face.
I looked at all the kids at the glee table and ran out of the room. I went straight to Mr. Shues office.
"Mr. Shue! Mr. Shue!" I started franticly knocking on the door.
"Come in!" a voice rang. I walked in to see Krista already beat me there.
"Hey Katie, I was just going to talk to you, Krista is going to go second instead of you. She also told me how many people she got to come."
He looked all excited.
"I know Mr. Shue that's-" I tried but he interrupted me again
"Great job Krista, hopefully this will get us some new members! I have to go get things ready." He rushed out of the room leaving me and the bitch.
"Hope you have fun tomorrow." She smirked at me walking out of the room. Leaving me by myself. Ugh! I hate her with a passion!
I walked out of the room. When my phone rang, I looked at it and ignored the number that called me yesterday and the day before that.
"You really have to stop, I'm not going to answer." I mumbled
My dad left early for work, leaving only Lisa, who said I could stay home, if I don't feel well. It was almost to easy, well key world, ALMOST.
"Get up!" I heard puck say and walked over to the bed.
"No, I don't feel good."
"Stop with the BS, you feel fine!"
"Go away Puck!"
"Then get up."
"No!I covered myself with the sheets."
"Look I agreed to this stupid I hate boys, girl empowerment song crap, so you're getting up!"
"Puck just go!"
"Why are you so difficult, why are all girls so difficult, first you're excited and can't wait, now you put on a fake sick shit, and don't want to perform!"
I came out from under the covers.
"Because there is no way I can do it, I can't go out there in front of all those people and perform! I'm not Krista Karofsky, I can't just slut up the stage and have everyone like me!"
"What did you think you were going to do when sectionals came around?" he questioned.
"That's different, I'd be in the background, singing and dancing, with a partner probably. With this, I am center stage, eyes on me. What if I screw up, do something embarrassing?"
He ran his hand over his head and sighed, "Okay look Katie, you're an amazing singer, you have talent, you can do this. You won't screw up or embarrass yourself, and if you do, you have Finn, Artie, and," he paused and stumbled over his next words, "y-you have them to back you up" He was actually being nice to me. And even though he didn't say it, I knew I had him too. "Okay?"
I nodded when he threatened "And tell anyone I said any of this, and your dead." He added and walked out of the room.
I just smiled. He actually can be sweet.
As I walked down the halls of McKinnley high all I could think about was 3:00. What Puck said helped, but I was still as nervous as hell. I felt like my stomach was going to pop out of my mouth any second. Walking into gym, I went directly over to Nat.
"So, how is everything at home?" I asked her.
"I just want to forget it right now, which is why I am coming to watch you kick ass today after school." She smiled.
"That's if I don't barf and embarrass myself in front of the whole school."
"Will you stop! You are going to do amazing! You can't keep worrying."
"I know it's just, your right, but I have never performed in front of an audience, where all eyes were on me." I looked down to my feet, trying to not think about it.
Natalie grabbed my shoulders and pulled me towards her "Katie, you'll be fine." What will I do if she moves away?
Lunch rolled around and I didn't eat anything, my stomach was in knots and I wasn't in the mood to eat anything.
"You have to eat something, it will make it worse if you don't." Rachel said concerned while holding out an apple towards me.
"I'm fine, just not hungry." I rejected the apple, and continued to play with the food in front of me. I have no idea why I wasted money buying lunch, I knew I wasn't going to eat it. I mentally sighed, and watched everyone else in their conversations. Mercedes and Kurt talking fashion, Finn goofing around making Rachel laugh, Tina and Artie talking about anything and everything, and Quinn and Puck, just being completely quiet, and once and while sneaking glances of each other. I mentally sighed again, and rested my head on my hand when something hit me, it was cold and wet. You've got to be kidding me. I looked up to see Karofsky.
"Really?" I stood up and wiped the slushy that was dripping into my eye. He just laughed.
"Good luck today, geek." Walking away, he high fived his buddies. I just cursed him under my breath and walked to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror.
"Just what I needed." I didn't even know where to start.
"Need some help?" I turned to see Quinn standing there, with and extra set of clothes.
I sat down and she started washing my hair.
"I don't get it. He picks on me for being in glee but his sister s in glee."
"it's just the way it works. It sucks but that's it." After she got the slushy out of my hair and I cleaned up my body a bit, I changed into the clothes she had given me. I looked in the mirror and didn't look that bad luckily. Reaching into my bad, I reapplied some make up, and brushed my hair. It was wet t I decided to just scrunch it, so when it started to dry, it would go crazy. Satisfied, Quinn and I exited the bathroom. Thanking Quinn I made it just in time to my next class.
Sitting there fiddling with my thumbs, looking from the clock to my hands, I felt like all I could hear was the ticking of the clock. This was it, when the bell rings, that's it. I've been dreading the sound all day, and in 1 minute it would be here.
"And when it becomes acidic-" Mr. Carsen was interrupted by the sound of the bell. No. I slowly got out of my seat, and a slowly as I could without looking stupid, made my way to my locker.
"Would you stop procrastinating!" Natalie spoke annoyed as she saw the pace I was moving as I put my books in my locker.
"What are you talking about? I am moving at a perfectly normal pace, thank you very much.' I insisted and continued putting my books away.
"Are you kidding, my grandma probably is moving faster than you, and it takes the women an hour and half to eat a bowl of soup!" Crossing her arm she looked at me and sighed. "The quicker you get to the auditorium the faster you perform, which means the faster you can book it out of there."
"I know." She gave me an encouraging smile and hug. This is it.
I looked from Artie, to Puck, to Finn. Artie smiled, Finn mouthed good luck, and Puck just looked and nodded. I took a deep breath, and from behind the curtain I heard Mr. Shue
"Thank you all for coming.." I tuned his voice out and let my last thoughts settle in. I can do this, I am going to be fine. This is for one person, and one person only. You need to get this out. Show him what he did.
Suddenly the fabric in front of me was gone and I was now staring into a sea of people, mostly horny boys waiting for Krista's performance. In the front row though, I could see the Glee kids and at the end, I could see Nat. I have to do this.
Puck started and it was now my cue.
I took grip of the mic that was still on it stand and started, looking anywhere but the audience
What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
As I sang the lyrics, it felt as of I was telling my side of the story, what nobody was able to hear. I felt myself loosen up
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care
Getting really into it, I spotted Jason and sang this right to him, telling him everything I couldn't get out before
You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
Taking the mic off the stand I walked around the stage.
Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
I added more power to my voice, thinking of guys, boyfriends or not, that have hurt me in my life.
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today
Putting the mic back to the stand, I held it with one hand out the other one up and started jumping up and down to the music, watching as I saw the glee kids, plus Nat rise to there feet, along with some others, and I also saw Mr. Shue enjoying himself.
You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
Starting the bridge I took the mic off the stand and walked over to the side of the stage where Jason was into the audience, and looked right into his eyes, I could see he was uncomfortable as he kept shifting in his seat, this made me smile with achievement.
There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hit and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone
What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get
You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
Taking the mic to the stand I finished up the song.
I'm already gone
Oh, I'm already gone, gone, gone, gone
Already gone
I'm gone
Right after those words, I took a breath and walked off the stage. I smiled to myself, and received a harmony of good jobs, and way to gos, and way to show hims. I couldn't get over that I just did that. I couldn't help but smile at the thought for the rest of the say.