Chapter 4: Haunted By Dreams of the Past.

Summary: What if Chuck and Blair had both got married to different people and had kids? What if after being divorced years later they met again? How would things be?

A/N: Here goes another chapter. Sorry it took so long but I couldn't think of anything and this came to me just before I drifted off to the land of dreams so I started writing it down and I got so excited I was completely awake. By the way please tell me if you loved this bit with Drew and Chuck because I loved writing it. Enjoy.

Chuck was standing at the top of the Empire state building. Something about this seemed oddly familiar. He looked to his left hand to see a bunch of pink peonies. He walked to the edge and stood there, just waiting. Not knowing what for yet. He checked his watch a few times.

Then it clicked … this was the day he had waited for Blair on the top of the Empire state building. It was coming closer to the set time limit and Chuck kept looking at his watch and to the door that lead to the top. Minutes left and he could feel himself growing more anxious. More time passed and it was 7:01. She was thinking maybe she was caught in traffic. Maybe she'd come through the door any second.

Soon Chuck realised he wasn't going through this again but watching himself go through it. He seen himself put the peonies in the bin after a few more minutes and leave. Chuck tried to tell himself to turn back… that she was going to show. Next thing he knew he was falling into this dark hole that he knew from experience had no end and he would just keep falling and falling and…

Chuck jumped into a sitting position in his bed. He had been dreaming. He remembered the day it happened… When he realised Blair wasn't going to show it broke his heart into tiny pieces. That day he did fall into a dark hole with no bottom. He had been in that hole lots of times and Blair had been the only one to bring him out of it. She saved him every time. But that day destroyed him. He went home and drank until he couldn't even remember his name. But he could remember her. He thought he would never stop falling. When he heard Blair was marring Nate the hole had got bigger if that was possible and it was darker. When he married Jenny it still didn't help. But he was eventually dragged out of that hole. The one other person who could save him. The only person who he knew was always his. Drew.

The day his son was born and he looked into his sons deep brown eyes he was dragged out of that never ending dark hole. His son had saved him; he loved his son more than he had loved anyone in his entire life. His son was the only thing that kept him going. He promised the day Drew was born he would never be the same as his father. Drew would be loved properly not by material things, just because he was Chuck's son. He was still spoilt but his son wasn't going to be raised by nannies and maids. They would do all the things he never got to do with his father. Chuck promised he was going to be there for every milestone of his son's life no matter how big or small he would be there.

Chuck heard a knock on his bedroom door before he seen it open and a small blonde boy standing there.

"What's wrong Drew?" Chuck asked patting the spot on his bed for his son to come sit beside him.

Drew walked over and climbed onto the bed he crawled over to his father and sat on his knee making Chuck smile.

"I had a nightmare" Drew said and hid his face in his father's chest.

Chuck sighed this had become a regular thing since Chuck explained the divorce properly "What was it about this time?" He asked while pushing some of Drew's hair back

"I was lost and then I saw you but you were walking to fast to catch up and when I tried to shout to you nothing came out but then you turned around and it wasn't you it was…" Drew went quiet and Chuck could tell he was crying because his pyjama top started to get wet patches on it.

"Who was it Drew?" Chuck asked calmly. He could almost tell who it was though. He kept having these dreams were Chuck would leave him and when he turned around it would be…

"Mom" Drew sniffed "Don't leave me daddy… please" Drew cried and wrapped his arms around his father as much as his little arms could.

"I won't Drew, I'm not going anywhere. You know I would never do that" Chuck promised and wrapped his arms protectively around his son. He hated Jenny for doing this to Drew. These dreams about his father leaving him too kept bothering him. Chuck had tried everything to get it to stop. Now all he could do was reassure Drew he was never going to leave.

"I love you daddy" Drew said quietly.

"I love you too. Now why don't we go back to sleep you can stay in here with me?" Chuck asked and dried his son's tears when he looked up and nodded. Drew lay tucked into his father's chest and Chuck had his arm protectively around Drew. They both drifted of into slumber before they had to get up for another day ahead of them.

Blair had got up the next morning and checked on Tiffany before going into the kitchen and starting the coffee machine for her morning caffeine drink. She opened the box of porridge oats to start making her and Tiffany's breakfast before she had to go get her up. She hadn't gotten much sleep last night thinking about how much things had changed and she kept thinking about Chuck and Drew. She never imagined Chuck Bass to be the paternal type, but she hadn't seen him in years so he had probably changed a lot. She was also looking to see him again though. She kept telling herself it was because she hadn't seen him in a long time but she didn't know the real reason why.

Blair was day dreaming when she heard the sound of soft footsteps come into the kitchen. She immediately looked up and smiled at her 5 year old daughter who smiled back at her sleepily. It was one of the cutest things she had ever seen. Her daughter got up on the seat and reached out for her drink that normally sat there. Since she was still half sleeping she didn't realise it wasn't there. Blair poured out a glass of milk and put a nestle milkshake straw in it. Tiffany drank a bit and rubbed her eyes so she would wake up from her sleepy state.

"Good morning sleepy head, I was going to wake you up when breakfast was ready" Blair put her arms on the table and lay her head down in them looking at her daughter lovingly.

Tiffany copied her movements and giggled "I heard the coffee machine and woke up" She smiled her perfect smile that showed all her lovely white teeth.

"Well then what do you want to do before Serena and Molly gets here?" Blair asked her daughter.

"I don't know… I had a dream last night!" Tiffany smiled.

Blair turned to her and smiled "Oh yeah, what was it about?" Blair asked.

Tiffany looked confused "I'm not sure. You were there with Drew's dad and me and Drew were playing a game. But there was a baby as well, smaller than me. You and Drew's dad were playing with it" Tiffany nodded and then shrugged her shoulders "Nobody spoke so I don't know what was really going on but we were all smiling".

"Probably just about the park yesterday with a few new characters" Blair told her daughter.

Tiffany shrugged again "I don't know. I'll keep you posted if I find out anything more".

This made Blair laugh "OK then, you do that" Blair then turned back to make her coffee "Go to your closet and see what you want to wear today, breakfast will be ready soon" Blair told her before she heard her daughter run off towards her room.

After Blair and Tiffany had their breakfast and got changed Blair went to her room before Serena came to rest. She rested on her bed and suddenly her eyes closed and she fell asleep.

She heard a knock on the door and got up to answer it. Standing at the door was Chuck.

"What are you doing here?" She asked before continuing "I thought I made it clear when I didn't show up".

She notice the hurt in his eyes when she had said that "You also made it clear when you married Nate" he give a short laugh and continued "I'm here to tell you I'm not going to bother you anymore".

Something about that line caught her breath in her throat before forcing out her next sentence "Good because I can't have the stress anymore. It isn't good for t…" She didn't say anymore because she knew it must have hurt him when she didn't show up.

"The baby…?" Chuck smiled sadly "Don't worry Nathaniel made sure I knew about it" he told her.

"He should have said anything. It wasn't his place" Blair said, she didn't want to see Chuck hurt. Even if it did hurt when she found out about what Chuck had planed to do to get the Empire back. She knew Chuck could be reckless when he was hurt.

"Nathaniel just wanted to make things clear about you and him being serious I guess" Chuck told her "Look I know I didn't give up when I said I would. I know I continued to cause problems for you even when you got married. But I need to let you go. You're starting your own family now with Nate and I've caused you enough bother. For years even when we were dating. I came to apologise for everything I've ever done. And I'm going to leave you alone. The last thing I would want is for us not to be able to speak to each other" Chuck said. His face was stone cold but she could tell every word he spoke hurt him.

Blair's eyes were glazed with tears but she didn't let them fall "Thank you" the words were spoken so low they were barely heard but Chuck heard them.

"I was only returning the favour. You didn't give up on me. I couldn't let go on us so easy" Chuck said his voice starting to crack.

"I understand. If it's any consolation I didn't want us to keep fighting either" Blair said. Chuck smiled sadly and started to walk away.

Blair went inside the house and cried the tears fell and her chest felt tight as if it was being crushed. She slid down against the door and cried.

Blair woke up realising she had dreamed the time Chuck gives in on the fight. She had been sad for a while after that. Of course she was. Chuck had still been in her heart after she got married. It had been there for a long time. But that was when she knew she would have to let go and let the past be the past.

It took a while before she noticed the tears rolling down her cheeks. She put it down to remembering that day. She heard the knock at the door and checked the time. It was going to be Serena and Molly. She dried her eyes and went to get the door. The memory of that day forever in her mind and heart. She'd be haunted of dreams of the past.

A/N: Will admit my eyes teared up writing Chuck and Blair's talk. Please tell me what you think. All your comments are appreciated and they encourage me to write. Please leave thoughts on Drew and Chuck's conversation because again I loved it. Just seeing Chuck parenting in my head is adorable. Love Ya. XOXO.

-Emma