First Kiss

It had been a couple of weeks since that night that all of them were together at the Java Lava Hut. Phil and Tommy were till hanging out regularly but Chuckie didn't hang around them that often claiming he wanted to spend more time with Lil. Phil couldn't for the life of him figure out why Tommy didn't want the old gang to hang out like they used too, he really missed hanging out with all his friends.

But each and every time he would try to get the old gang together, Tommy would come up with an excuse. So they were currently hanging out in Phil's room listening to some mix tapes of bands Phil had, when Phil decided to approach the subject once more. Hoping he had a little more luck with it this time.

"Hey Tommy" he said laid out on his bed with his hands behind his head nodding to the music every now and then with his eyes closed. Tommy was sitting at Phil's computer desk looking at the back of the CD cover that Phil had made when he heard him call him.

"Yeah man, what's up" he asked

"How is it that you're always busy when everyone wants to hang out" he asked opening one of his eyes to see Tommy's reaction. Tommy's demeanor fell a little when he answered.

"I don't know, coincidence maybe, but I just have a lot of things going on right now, you know, I mean it is senior year"

"I know man, but the rest of us still manage to find some time to spare" Tommy shrugged to this and continued to read the back of the CD.

"What is it man" asked Phil

"What do you mean" countered Tommy turning to look at Phil

"Who, or what is keeping you away from us?" asked Phil sitting up on the bed to look at him waiting for his answer. Tommy sighed

"Nothing, no one" he answered, he sounded a little unsure and Phil looked at him curiously for a moment, then he laid back down on his bed and Tommy rotated the chair back around to the computer. Tommy picked up a photo of Phil and Lil that was taken last year before he went off to football camp, when he thought that he and Lil actually had a chance.

"No one" he repeated, as he ran his fingers along the picture on the side Lil was on.

"What" said Phil lifting his head to look at him

"Nothing, I didn't say anything" answered Tommy quickly shuffling to put the picture down.

Phil didn't say anything but noticed that Tommy was holding the picture, however he couldn't dwell on his thoughts for too much longer because he and Tommy suddenly heard a car door slam, and two people were arguing.

When Phil recognized the voices he rolled his eyes, put the pillow over his head and groaned. Tommy glanced back at Phil before getting up and going over to the window. Outside the window Chuckie and Lil were in a heated confrontation, about what, he didn't know. He did know that he had never seen them argue before and wondered where all of this had come from.

"Do they do this often" he asked Phil gazing out the window at their argument.

"More so lately, I'm getting sick of it man, but I've learned to just ignore it for now" said Phil as he turned his music up louder. Tommy glared at him, because he wanted to hear it but Phil gave him an innocent look and continued to turn the volume up. Tommy continued to stare at them out the window a little defeated wondering just what they were arguing about.

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Lil was getting more and more frustrated, every since that day at the Java Lava hut, Chuckie had been sticking close to her like Glue. She couldn't even look at another guy with out him getting upset or jealous. Which was the object of their current argument. They were coming out of the movies when a guy she knew from one of her classes at school smiled and said hi to her.

She greeted him back being polite, when the guy asked her some questions about the class. Chuckie was obviously irritated, but Lil being a nice person wanted to help this guy out. After answering his questions, he thanked her profusely said goodbye to both of them and went on about his way. Lil thought that was the end of that, but as soon as she and Chuckie got into his car he gave her the third degree, claiming that the guy was flirting with her and she was just as bad flirting back in front of his face as if he wasn't even there.

They were standing in her drive way yelling at the top of their lungs.

"I told you Chuckie I was not flirting with him"

"Oh come on Lil I wasn't fuckin born yesterday you know, I saw the way the two of you looked at each other"

"What the hell are you talking about, he asked me a question"

"Oh and you were quick to give him an answer huh?" he countered

"You know what I don't want to talk about this anymore" Lil said glaring at him "You acting really immature right now"

"Well I wouldn't have to act like this if you didn't flirt with every damn boy you see"

"Chuckie you're acting like such a baby"

"And you're acting like such a slut" he said the words before he had time to think about it, and he regretted it immediately. His eyes soften as he saw her on the verge of tears. When he took a step towards her, she took one back and her sadness quickly turned to anger.

"Lil…" he started but she cut him off.

"Don't, Chuckie you've said enough, it's nice to know how you really feel" he took another step towards her and she took another one back.

"I think you should leave," she said calmly but he could tell she was pissed.

"No…Lil we need to talk about this" he said hoping she would allow him to apologize, but Lil had her mind made up already.

"I said leave Chuckie, I don't want to talk to you right now" she answered

"Lil…"she cut him off once more

"LEAVE" she yelled and finally Chuckie took his cue and got in his car. She turned away from him and ran inside the house and up the stairs before he even had time to put on his seat belt. He decided he would call her when he got home and try to apologize, he would let her cool off today and try and come by tomorrow. He just got her and he was not about to loose her over his stupid insecurities. Too bad he didn't realize this sooner though. He pulled out his cell and started to text apologies while driving off needless to say there was no response.

He decided to leave it alone for now when he got home he laid down on his bed and closed his eyes. He willed himself not to cry. He knew he was being a jackass, but he just didn't want to loose her. He wondered what she was doing now as he let sleep over take him. He called her one more time and left a voice message, before he let sleep overtake him.

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Lil ran in the house and Tommy heard her bedroom door slam, seeing as Phil's was opened and his room was located next to hers. Tommy glanced at Phil whom was listening to his Ipod and texting someone, Kimi probably. He continued to stare at him until Phil felt his gaze penetrating him, Phil looked up at Tommy. Tommy motioned to Lil's room and Phil shook his head.

"Aren't you gonna go talk to her" he asked

"No man, trust me, she doesn't want to talk right now, it's better if you just leave her alone man" said Phil changing the song on his Ipod. Tommy didn't believe that one bit, the worse thing you could do to someone was leave them alone when they were in obvious pain.

Tommy started for Phil's door and muttered a goodbye before he closed it and knocked softly on Lil's. Either she ignored him or she didn't hear him because he didn't get an answer from her. He could hear her crying softly through the door. He opened it and was immediately met with a pillow hitting him in the face courtesy of Lil.

"Go away Philip" she said when the pillow fell down and she saw who it was she went over to him and immediately began apologizing. Tommy picked up her pillow and handed it to her, she went over to her be and placed the pillow back in its rightful place.

"I'm so sorry Tommy" she repeated with tear stained eyes for the 15th time. Tommy waved it off as he continued to stand in front of her.

"No need to apologize, I should've left you alone like your brother said" he answered staring at her. It pained him to see her like this and he was silently cursing Chuckie wherever the hell he was right now he had better been glad that Tommy wasn't there to smash his face in.

"No I'm actually glad you're here, I haven't spoken to you in so long, things have been so crazy" she said wiping her eyes with her sleeve, she hated letting him see her like this. Tommy took a step towards her and handed her an old handkerchief he kept with him. She took it gladly and smiled at him.

"Thank you, you must think I'm such a baby crying like this" she said

"No Lil, I could never think that of you" he said sincerely still gazing at her with his icy blue eyes. She felt insecure under his gaze, but when their eyes met she couldn't tear herself away. He took another step towards her and she had yet to move away. He wiped away a stray tear that was falling down her face, it took all of the self control he had not to just pull her in his arms and hold her like he had wanted to for so long.

As he wiped away her tear she leaned into his hand which was now resting on her face and she closed her eyes taking in how hard and calloused his hand was, still she loved the feeling. She needed him to leave quickly before something happened that they would both regret. He must have read her mind because he quickly withdrew his hand and immediately she felt the lost of the warm sensation that he brought. She opened her eyes and stared at him.

"I should go" he voiced but he didn't really sound like he wanted to leave. And if she was being completely honest with herself, she didn't really want him to leave either. All she could do was nod and watch him turn and began to walk away. He got to the door and turned the knob, she started to walk back towards her dresser to get something. When he stopped and shut the door. She turned to him.

"What is it?" she asked

"I forgot something" he said walking towards her and staring at her.

"What did you forget" she asked her voice light, as he stepped forward invading her personal space.

"This" he said as he stepped forward once more and pulled her to him claiming her lips with his own in a heated kiss. She was surprised and shocked at first, and he was beginning to take it as a bad sign, but then she let her guard down and began to kiss him back. Neither of them noticed her phone vibrating with text messages and calls from her boyfriend.