First Loss of Control

Lil tried to distance herself from Tommy every since the kiss. But she couldn't get it out of her mind, she wished that they could've talked afterwards but her mom had called upstairs and they both broke apart blushing madly, he said goodbye and she had managed to avoid him every since. Even in science class they rarely spoke to each other unless it was about school work. All their friends even Chuckie noticed the change in attitude with both friends.

Kimi and Lil were having a girls night out sleep over at Lil's house because she and Chuckie weren't on speaking terms yet. Even though he tried to contact her she wasn't ready to talk to him, part of it was because of what he said, but then part of it was because of what she and Tommy had done. She knew Kimi had only called this girls night out because she was trying to play peace maker but Lil didn't really wanna talk about the situation, she really wanted to forget about the whole fight with Chuckie but she couldn't.

Kimi was really sick of the fighting between her brother and her best friend. When Chuckie told her what happened she smacked him upside the head with his pillow and told him that he was being an ass. Which he agreed to almost immediately. She knew her brother was in love with Lil, but she wasn't so sure about the way Lil felt. Which was her reason for calling this girls night in the first place. She'd hope Lil would be able to open up to her and talk about her problems since they hadn't hung out by themselves in a while. Kimi grabbed the red toe nail polish from Lil's dresser plopped down on the bed and began to apply it to her toenails. She looked over at Lil who was staring out her window looking hopeless. Kimi sighed, might as well get the conversation started now, she thought.

"What are you thinking about Lil?" she asked. Lil turned to Kimi and shook her head and then turned her gaze back to her window and continued to stare.

"I know you're thinking about something you're so focused on that window it looks like you wanna go through it or something" said Kimi laughing at her own joke. Lil was barely paying attention she was staring out into the night sky it looked as if a huge thunder storm was coming. She hated the rain, but when she thought about it the cloudy night sky very much resembled her messed up life.

"Come on Lil, I know we haven't been as close as we used to be but you can still tell me anything, you know that right"

"I know" Lil whispered softly. But she didn't know if Kimi could handle this type of information.

"Then take a load off, and tell me what's on your mind" said Kimi patting the bed next to her for Lil to come and sit down.

Lil sat, but she didn't say anything. Kimi took that as a sign to start talking. "Well if you won't talk than I will, I've got something to tell you" said Kimi

"Ok, shoot" said Lil happy for the change of conversation.

"I'm not a virgin anymore" said Kimi with a smug smile on her face. All thoughts of Tommy and Chuckie escaped Lil's mind for the moment as she let this new information sink in. A million questions were running through her mind for Kimi as she struggled with the one she wanted to ask first.

"OMG, you and my brother" she exclaimed shocked.

"Yea silly who else would there be"

"You could do better trust me" joked Lil smiling for the first time that night. Kimi laughed and hit her with a pillow playfully.

"I happen to like him just fine thank you" said Kimi smiling

"When, where, how, why?" asked Lil all at once as Kimi tried to catch onto the questions.

"When, not too long after Halloween, where in his room" Lil made a gagging noise and Kimi laughed but continued. "How, well I think you know how, and why because I love him" said Kimi.

"Wow" Lil voiced out loud, it was the first time she'd heard Kimi actually say it, she knew the way her best friend felt about her brother but to actually hear her say it was something completely different.

"Yep and he loves me, that's all I needed to know"

"Well how'd you know it was the right time" asked Lil getting serious.

"I don't know it just felt right, and when it feels right you'll know" said Kimi. Lil took a moment to let this sink in before Kimi said.

"Are you and my brother ever gonna stop fighting" Lil sighed she knew this was coming and she felt so guilty.

"I want to but," Kimi never let her finish

"No buts Lil, just stop fighting, life's to short and if I have to listen to the scientist by Coldplay one more time I swear I'm gonna put him out of his misery, myself"

Lil laughed at that and agreed to call him, besides Tommy hadn't tried to talk to her maybe he just wanted to forget the whole thing happened maybe it was a mistake never to be repeated again. Lil took out her phone and dialed Chuckie's cell. He answered on the first ring.

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Tommy was laying in his bed on his back staring at the ceiling with his Ipod blaring loudly in his ears, he honestly didn't know what to do about his situation. He told himself not to do it, he willed himself not to do it, yet he'd kissed her anyway. Now that he knew what it was like to feel her lips on his own he couldn't get the feeling out of his mind or the taste of her off of his lips.

They hadn't spoken a full sentence to each other since, and it was tearing him up inside he didn't know what to do but he wanted to see her talk to her, maybe try and explain himself. He felt like such a idiot and a coward for not trying to speak to her sooner. But this was wrong, he was wrong to want to be with his best friends girlfriend. But he couldn't help the sinking feeling in his stomach every time he saw her and Chuckie together. Or the flutter in his heart every time he thought of what it would feel like to be with her.

He sat up on his bed and stared out his window towards her bedroom window at the house next door. Wondering what she was doing, he figured she was sleep since the lights were out and it was about 3 in the morning. Still he had hoped that somehow she was still up. He continued to stare at her window for a couple of moments. Then he got out of his bed through his Ipod down on his covers grabbed a t-shirt a jacket and some sweatpants. He slipped on some sneakers and walked out of his back door towards her house.

As he closed his backdoor he was grateful that his parents were out of town visiting Grandpa because they surely would've heard the back door opening and closing. He walked across the grass silently thinking of what he was going to say to her. He opened the back gate that led to her yard and went inside. He tried to find some rocks to throw at her window after calling her and not receiving an answer.

Just as he found a small enough rock to do the job the heavens opened up and it started to poor on him. He pulled his hood over his head and continued to throw small rocks until he saw a sliver of light. It had to be her cell phone light. He sent her a txt, hoping to get an answer.

"Lil" a few moments later he received one back

"Tommy, what do you want it's 3 in the morning"

"Look out your window" he txt her back ignoring her last question. A few moments later he noticed a shadowy figure come to the window. Then he received another txt.

"R u crazy what r u doing outside it's raining hard you're gonna catch a cold"

"Jus come down stairs please" he sent

"No Tommy go in the house"

"I need to talk to you" he sent

"I'm sure that whatever it is can wait till morning"

"No I need to talk to u now, please Lil come downstairs" he waited for her to txt back, and waited and waited until finally she said.

"I'll meet u downstairs in 15 min"

"Ok"

He waited and in about 10 min she was downstairs in some baggy sweatpants and a light jacket with a hood. She walked over to him and said.

"what are you doing here"

"I needed to talk to you"

"About what?"

"About what happened"

"Tommy I can barely hear you let alone see you through this rain" she said. Tommy nodded

"Follow me" he said, and she did against her better judgment, she followed him all the way inside his house and up to his room. He closed the door behind them.

"What is it Tommy"

"I've been thinking a lot since that kiss" her breath caught in her throat she hadn't expected him to be so forward.

"Look Tommy it was a mistake, I was vulnerable and it shouldn't have happened" said Lil reciting what she had practiced

"Is that what you think?" He asked taking a step closer to her. "That it was a mistake, because it wasn't a mistake to me"

Lil shook her head this could not be happening now, she'd just made up with Chuckie she just came over here to put an end to things, forget about the whole thing but here he was saying things that she not so long ago had dreamed to hear from him.

"Lil, it wasn't a mistake, it was the best thing that has happened to me this year, I know you felt the same way" he said forgetting about everything else for a moment.

"You don't know how I felt" she answered sounding timid.

"Then enlighten me"

"It doesn't matter"

"Yes it does Lil, it matters to me"

"It's too late Tommy, I'm dating your best friend whom I happen to like very much" said Lil trying to sound as convincing as she could but Tommy could see right through her.

"Oh really" Lil nodded "But does he make you feel the same way I do" he asked taking a step closer to her, she backed up a bit not liking the closeness. But she could smell the fresh rain mixed with his musky scent.

"I.."

"I thought so, look I know you're with Chuckie but you can't deny that we have something here"

"No we don't" said Lil

"So you're telling me that you felt nothing in that kiss" he asked stepping closer to her. She backed up once more and noticed that her back hit the wall.

"Nothing" she said staring into his icy blue eyes wishing that she had stayed home instead of coming over here. Tommy turned away and she thought she had won and this whole thing would be over.

"Ok then, let me kiss you again"

"What no, Tommy I'm with Chuckie you know that"

"Right I do, but you said you felt nothing the first time we kissed so what's the big deal if we kiss once more. It'll put my mind at ease and we can both move on with our lives" he said

Lil was fighting a losing battle.

"Fine, but………." before she could get a word out of her mouth his lips were on hers in a bruising kiss. He was pressing her into the wall. She froze in place determined not to let him get to her, but then she felt his tongue probing her lips for entrance and she felt as if she would crack. When he felt her resist he stopped kissing her and pulled away only to have her grab his head placing her lips back on his, he smiled against her lips before the kiss grew more passionate, he forced his tongue into her mouth which she did not protest. His hands were everywhere and they felt damn good. She ran her hands through his slick smooth hair trying not to let him go for a fear that she might wake up and this will all be a dream.

His lips left hers and moved down towards her collar bone where he sucked on her pulse point she moaned aloud and tilted her neck to allow him better access. While his hands had snuck their way underneath her shirt and was now feeling on the naked flesh of her stomach itching to move up. But he stopped himself from going too much further out of fear of scaring her away. She moved her hands under his shirt and felt the strong muscles in his back possibly due to all that football practice. Then before she could dwell on the feeling too much longer, her phone vibrated, they broke apart as she took her phone out.

"It's from Chuckie" she whispered but he already knew who it was from before she even said it. He stared at her while she read whatever Chuckie had sent. He took in her disheveled appearance her hair was wild, with her long brown curly hair, her cheeks were red and her lips were swollen from all the kissing they had just done. Lil looked from the text message to Tommy and took in his appearance as well. His hair was messy he was breathing rapidly, his clothes were wet and sticking to him, you could see the imprint of muscle he had through the flimsy t-shirt he'd thrown on earlier. To Lil he was the most sexiest thing she'd ever seen.

"I gotta go" she said. Before things go to far. Her mind added for her.

She made her way to the door. When he said "This isn't over" she stopped in place for a moment before continuing. He heard the back door close and watched her walk to her house and back up to her room before peeling off his wet clothing and lying down on his bed. He tried to go to sleep but every time he closed his eyes he saw the Lil that was just standing before him breathless and beautiful. It was certainly going to be a long night.

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Lil got to her room and quietly closed the door hoping not to wake Kimi then she leaned up against the door breathing heavily. She sat her phone down on her bed before going to the bathroom to freshen up missing another txt as she did. When she came back into her room she noticed her phone wasn't where she placed it. She looked around until her eyes fell upon it.

Kimi was standing up holding Lil's phone in her hand with a txt message opened on it. "What's going on with you and Tommy?"

(A/N: Cliffy, hope you like this chapter, things get a bit more steamy from now on, just a warning, this is where the rating starts to come in and take place.)