First Love
Lil decided to try and talk to Kimi to maybe explain how she was feeling. She didn't know how it would go or what would happen. But it would definitely help to have her best friend be able to maybe give her some advice about the situation.
She went over to the Finster residence after asking Kimi if it was ok to come over. Chuckie Tommy and Phil were having a boy's night. Playing video games and eating pizza so she knew Chuckie wouldn't be home until later and Mr. and Mrs. Finster were working later, so there would be no distractions.
She sighed heavily before she knocked on the door and it opened up. Kimi stood there glaring at her a bit before saying.
"Well come on it" Lil nodded and walked pass Kimi into the living room where she took off her coat and sat down on the couch. Kimi came in after she closed the door. "Do you want a soda or something?" she asked politely. Lil nodded and Kimi went into the kitchen. Lil was trying to think of how she could possibly bring this up. Kimi came back into the living room and sat down on the couch after handing Lil her soda.
Lil popped it open and drank it quickly trying to ease her mind. Kimi put her un-open soda on the coffee table and sat back. Once Lil put her soda can on the coffee table she turned to Kimi but was unsure of what to say.
"So Lil what's going on?" she asked breaking the silence. Lil sighed.
"It's hard to explain," said Lil trying to think of the words to say.
"Try me"
"Well…" said Lil pausing for dramatic effect. "The thing is, I'm torn, ok, I'm torn between…I'm just torn Kimi" she said.
"Phil told me about the talk that the two of you had" she said after a while. Lil looked at Kimi with a confused expression on her face.
"What talk?" she asked
"The one where you told him how you were in love with someone else, he didn't know who and called to ask me if I knew anything," she said.
"Dammit Phil, he promised he would keep that to himself." Said Lil angrily.
"Don't be mad at Phillip Lillian he's just worried about you" she said Lil still couldn't help being angry. Kimi shifted on the couch. "I told him I didn't know anything, but after everything that has happened I just put two and two together, you're in love with Tommy right and it looks like he's in love with you too"
Lil sighed and nodded there was no point in trying to hide it anymore from her best friend at least. Kimi looked at her.
"So what are you gonna do?" she asked. Lil shifted
"I don't know I was hoping you could give me some insight." Said Lil
"Lil Chuckie's my brother"
"I know"
"But speaking as just a best friend, you have to follow your heart, even if it's not with Chuckie and let's face it, the two of you have been on a rocky path for a while now"
"I know but he was there for me remember" she said
"Yeah I know but you still have to make this decision, and no matter who you choose Tommy or Chuckie will forgive you eventually, because if someone truly loves you then all they want is for you to be happy regardless of who its with" said Kimi
"Wow when did you become so wise" asked Lil
"I have my moments" was Kimi's response. Lil got up ready to leave.
"Hey Kimi thanks for this talk" she said.
"Hey what are friends for?" was Kimi's response as she opened the front door.
"Do you…do you forgive me"
"I will" Lil nodded and gave Kimi a small hug. Once Lil got out the door and into Phil's jeep and drove off Kimi took out her cell and text Phil.
"Phil what the hell are we gonna do" she text/asked
"I don't know," he said he knew that Kimi was meeting up with Lil today he was just happy that Kimi agreed to it. "Especially after I thought that he didn't have feelings for her anymore" Kimi nodded but then thought to herself.
"Wait what do you mean anymore?" she asked.
"Lil didn't tell you, this is what's so confusing" he sent back.
"What" she asked.
"Tommy wrote Lil a letter at the end of last school year you know explaining how he felt about her, I thought Lil liked him too but apparently we were all wrong cus when Chuckie gave it to her she didn't respond" he said
Kimi thought back and couldn't remember Lil ever talking about receiving a note from Tommy. Lil was head over heals in love with the guy back then. She talked about him everyday up until that point so she sure as hell would've mentioned a letter.
"Oh right" was all Kimi text she went upstairs to Chuckie's room and opened the door. She had some snooping to do.
Tommy asked Lil to meet him around nine o'clock in his backyard. She text Chuckie that she wasn't feeling well and didn't want to receive any calls. He said that he would respect her wishes and hoped that she'd feel better tomorrow.
Lil opened the gate to Tommy's backyard and gasped at the set up. Outside underneath an old oak tree, Tommy set up a table for two, with a candle placed in the center. He had pitched his old tent, which was facing the stars and soft music was playing on his CD player.
He was lighting the candle when she walked in.
"Good evening" he said smiling at her. He wore a white dress shirt and some black slacks. Suddenly she felt under dressed. All she had on were some jeans and an old Hoodie of Phil's.
"Tommy this is incredible."
"Thank you, I try," he said coming over to her and placing a kiss on her cheek. He grabbed her hand and led her over to the table. He pulled out her chair and she sat down. He went over and sat down as well and opened to trays to show her their dinner.
She smiled.
"Pepperoni pizza" she asked.
"You're favorite" she smiled at that, Tommy knew everything about her where as Chuckie couldn't even remember what she said half of the time. They ate and sat under the stars. When she remembered something that Kimi said.
"Tommy you're so good to me, but this whole situation isn't fair to you," she said as she finished her dinner.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"I mean me being with Chuckie, I don't want you to feel like you have to share me, but I don't want to hurt him either."
"Lil I know where your heart is" he said grabbing her hands from across the table "So take all the time you need to deal with your other obligations" he said referring to Chuckie. "I'm not going anywhere"
"Even if I choose to be with Chuckie"
Tommy sighed. "If you choose him it would hurt like hell but I'd still be in your life in some way or another" he said firmly. She leaned across the table blew the candle out and kissed him on the lips.
"I love you," she said sincerely
"I love you too," he said smiling.
He cleaned up their area and changed into something more comfortable as they got into the tent. They cuddled up together as he turned up the radio and they stared out at the stars.
"Why are you turning up the radio so loud," she asked.
"I want you to hear something," he said smiling.
The DJ came on the radio and said "Alright all you lovers out there special dedication going out from T to L tonight, hope that wherever you two lovebirds are you're together and happy." He said before playing to song. Lil blushed she couldn't believe Tommy actually called the radio station for her, that was the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for her. She listened to the words as the song came on and was overcome with emotion.
I smile, you laugh, I look away
I sigh, you ask me why, I say
It's okay and I am just feeling down
Your hand on mine I hear the words
If only love had found us first
Our lives, they would be different, oh
So I stand and wait
I am just a man
Where would we be now, baby
If we found each other first?
Where would we be now, baby?
And now I must confess
That I am a sinking ship
I'm anchored by the weight of my heart
'Cause it's filled with these feelings
But I keep my true thoughts locked
Beside my hearts black box
And it won't be found, it won't survive
Through the smoke or the wreckage
So I crash and burn
I got a lot of things to learn
Where would we be now, baby
If we found each other first?
What would you do now, darling
If I said these simple words?
I'll wait, I'll wait
As long as you want
Where would we be now, baby?
I'll wait
I'll wait
Where would we be now, baby
If we found each other first?
What would you do now, darling
If I said these simple words?
I'll wait, I'll wait
As long as you want
Where would we be now baby?
I'll wait, I'll wait, I'll wait, I'll wait
As the song ended Lil turned to Tommy teary eyed. "I love you so much" she said meaning it completely.
"I love you too Lillian Always have, always will. He said kissing her on her forehead.
(The song is Where Would We Be Now by Good Charlotte just in case you were wondering, till next time TTL...xoxo)