So I know when people say sorry for taking so long to update, but I need to apologize. It is a very crazy month and it will get crazier. Im already working on the next chapter so hopefully I wont take so long, but during the summer I will post more often, I hope. I cant be for sure. but I will contunte this story till the end, if you guys can bare with me.
Okayy, well here goes nothing.
PREVIOSULY: As I start to unpack my things, the day starts replaying in my head. Cam in class, Lunch with my new friends, The greenhouse with Jace, The kiss with Airy, Missing my mom and dad. Everything is just too much. I decide I just need to draw.
I listen to Airy's ipod and start to draw.
"Nice picture Clary." She says, putting a hand on my shoulder. Making me jump. "Someone catch your eye today?" She says laughing.
I look down and see an picture of a boy with bright green eyes looking back at me.
"Night Clary." Airy says as she turns out the light. And leaves me to look at the green eyes of Cam in the light glow from the ipod.
I am flying, flying high up in the air. But I don't have this power. I feel them then, big hands around me, holding me to a large wall of flesh. I struggle to turn around only to find myself face to face with big green eyes. I wake with a start. I am sitting in my bed, sweating and hyperventilating. I take in my new room, and notice Airy is gone. I look at the alarm clock and see its only three in the morning.
After a hour of trying to get back to sleep, I decide it's useless and go for a walk. I find myself walking back up to the greenhouse. It's just so beautiful up there, I want to draw it. I sit on the bench by the fountain, spread all my pencils out, take out Airy's borrowed ipod and start to draw. Listening to music and drawing, I get completely lost in my own world, I don't notice the figure approaching me, until he is right in front of me. I look up only to see golden eyes staring at me.
Jace. I remove one headphone as he cocks his head to the side and just continues to stare.
"Hey Red. Good job. You really do have talent." He says with a smirk.
"Umm, thanks." I say and look at the picture I was drawing. It's a guy leaning against a tree, looking down at the ground. But what is weird about it is, the boy has golden wings, a golden body, and golden hair, he's completely golden. I look at the ipod, and see its seven in the morning. I have been up here for hours. "What are you doing here Jace?" I ask kinda annoyed.
"Watching an artist at work." He replies while looking at my drawing. I look down too and notice it looks more than a lot like him. I slam my book shut. And look back up to see him staring at me again. It's a very intense stare. I look down and notice I'm still in my pajamas; rainbow polka dot short shorts, pink lacey tank top, and knee high rainbow striped toe socks. All of a sudden I feel very exposed.
"How long were you watching me?" I ask because I honestly don't know and feel like he invaded my privacy, but this is the place he showed me, maybe he was already up here and I'm the invader. But no, I checked before I sat down, I didn't hear any thoughts.
"Long enough." he says with another smirk. And that looks distracts my thoughts. He has that effect on me. He scrambles my thoughts, and I don't know why.
"Long enough for what?" I snap at him and start to gather up my pencils.
"Don't go." He says and puts his hand on mine to stop me. I look up and see he looks sad. Does he really not want me to go? This is very confusing.
"Why not?" I snap and yank my hand back. He looks wounded. I stand up and cross my hands over my chest and lay out all the anger I am feeling, from everything. I know he doesn't deserve it, but I can't help it. "You only talk to me when it suits you. You don't answer my questions. You listen in on my thoughts but get made when I answer simple questions with my friends. You say we can't talk or be friends or anything but then you spy on me and won't even tell me why. I try to leave and you don't want me to. That doesn't make any sense Jace. Either you want to be friends and talk or you don't, you can't do both." I say in practically one breath and when I'm done I put my hands on my hips and watch his eyes harden.
"Feel better now? I know you're not really mad at me, I'm just the easiest target for you right now. I talk to you when its best for you, Clary, not me. I don't have to answer anything anyone asks me, not just you. I was listening just to make sure you didn't tell your new friends that you talked to me. It would be better if we weren't friends, but that doesn't mean that's what I want. I wasn't spying on you, I come up here every morning before class, but at least I put on clothes in case someone would come in. I am glad I was here though, I told you earlier, your father has people here. If any of them would have found you up here alone, who knows what would have happened. And I want to be friends, but it would be better for you if we weren't." He says calmly, although I can tell he is pissed. He comes closer, and takes my hands off my hips and tips my head up so we are staring at each other.
"Jace." I whisper. He leans in, but only to look in my eyes.
"Clary, what did you do?" He asks, angrily. Then drops my face, steps back and grabs my notebook.
"Hey! Stop it. Don't look in that. Its private!" I scream. But he ignores me, and flips through it, until he finds that picture of Cam.
"When did you draw this Clary?" He's still angry, but asks me in a calmer voice.
"Why?" I snap.
"Just answer me, damnit." He tries not to scream.
"I did it tonight. After the girls and I played truth or dare. They went to get dinner, but I stayed and drew. Honestly, I don't remember drawing it, but when Airy came back, she teased me that someone must have caught my eye." I reply looking away. I don't know why I'm telling him any of this.
"What did you guys do, during the game?" His voice filled with concern.
"I can't tell you that." I say confused.
"Damnit Clary. Just answer me! Please for once just do what you are asked." He screams and sinks on to the bench where I was sitting.
"But, that wouldn't be fair to the other girls, Jace. It's not fair for you to ask me to do this." I say while staring at him. I move in front of him and tilt his face up so I can see his face. I don't know why I did it, I just felt the need to see his eyes. His eyes are filled with concern, sadness, and rage.
"Clary. Please. I need to know why you drew this." He holds up the picture of Cam. It's a really good one, it's how he looked in class when he first talked to me. His arm is down and you can see all the muscles in his chest, you can see the flirtation in his bright green eyes, even his eyebrow is raised.
"Umm well, I went first. They asked who was cuter, you or Cam. And I said Cam." I reply and look away. "Yeah, I remember that part. But since it was truth, why did you lie?" He says and smiles. I smile back. I gather up my pencils and sit down next to him to finish my story about truth or dare. "To be honest, I lied to make you mad. I was mad that you wouldn't talk to me. Anyways, I dared Airy to run up and down the boys hallway in her underwear, and she literally ran into Cam. They ended up laying on the ground and she kissed his nose and got up. I think she flirting. It was so funny. Izzy said that she and Simon hadn't had sex, Mia sent a topless picture to Jordan, Luce explained she and Daniel, also hadn't done it. At that point we all had a turn so Izzy said we had to do the opposite one. So I had to kiss Airy while Luce took a picture. The first time Airy kissed me, Luce didn't get the picture so we had to kiss again, and for some reason I kissed her back." At admitting that I was embarrassed and looked away.
"That explains it." He said, but didn't sound happy. "Clary." He said and turned my head to look back at him. "Arianna is part fairy. Some of her powers, are compulsion and love. She kissed Cam, even if it was just his nose, then she kissed you. She put a love spell on you, for you to love Cam." He explained, but still wasn't happy.
"Then why did I kiss her back the second time?" I ask with a small voice, slightly embarrassed still.
"That is the compulsion. She touched you, didn't she? beside the kiss. She held your hands or something?" His voice filled with concern.
"She held my face still." He nods. "So when she touched me she compelled me to kiss her?" I ask confused. "Only because that's what you guys were doing. For example, if you were hugging,, you would want to hug her forever. When she stopped kissing you, you wanted to do it again, right? You felt confused when she broke apart." He explains, staring at me.
"Yeah. Exactly. I thought I was going crazy. That's why I didn't go to dinner with her. But why did I draw Cam, if I wanted to kiss her?" I ask, still confused.
"Her compulsion, only last a few minutes after she breaks contact. But the love spell, will last until you break it." He says, with a sad look in those now melted golden eyes.
"How do I break it? And why would she do it in the first place? I thought we were friends." I say kind of annoyed now. Why on earth would Airy do this?
"I don't know why she would do it? Maybe she doesn't know she has this power. Or maybe she is doing it for someone else, although her soul is kind. This is weird." He now has a concentrating face, and staring at the fountain.
"Jace, you didn't tell me how to break it." I say moving his head to look at me again. I search his eyes and see pain and sadness and again, rage.
"Maybe you shouldn't break it. At least not yet. If she did this for someone, it's better for them to think she did. I can keep an eye on you and maybe we can figure it out." He says. Rage is clearly taking over.
"But I don't want to love Cam. I don't want to love anyone right now." I cross my arms and pout. He pulls my chin down, and my lips part. With his other hand, he uncrosses my arms.
"Why don't you want to love anyone right now, Red?" he asks with a smirk and there is something I haven't seen in his eyes. And that look once again scatters my thoughts.
"Umm, well." His hands are still on me. "I just started here. Its only my second day. People don't fall in love that fast." He just continues to stare. "And besides, everyone I love leaves me at some point."
"That would never happen here." He smiles and moves closer. "We are all stuck here, at least for a year." and there's his smirk again.
"If you want to see who Airy is working for, I can pretend to still be under the spell. But I want to know how to break it." I say and he drops both hands and just looks in my eyes.
"You really think you can play the part of a young girl in love? Until I tell you it's safe?" He's all serious now.
"Yes." It barely comes out as a whisper. He moves closer again. "You must do everything I say, no matter what, no matter when I say it. No arguing. And no trusting anyone with the truth, but me. Understand?" I nod. "Say it Clary. I won't break the spell unless you actually say it." He moves even closer and grabs my face in both hands.
"I understand. You are in charge. I will do what you say and trust no one but you. But how are you…" I start to ask but his lips are crushing against mine.