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"All human beings are born with natural selection. We are born with morals; we are born with a sense of right and wrong. So what it's to say it matters if we never existed in this world? What if we are invisible to the public? Do we still have this form of judgment of right and wrong?

This question still haunts me to this day.

I never questioned this ability I possess. It's as if my hands and body contradict what my mind tells them to do. I pick up the gun and bam my target is hit.

And I never miss.

I remember the day Guildarts and I told Natsu the truth of what we are; what we do. It was sickening. He was never the same again. Even if you tell us that what we do is still for the benefit of the public, that we kill murderers, thieves, monsters, that these people deserved it; it still doesn't clean the sin from my hands. It still doesn't purify the blood that I have shed.

" Will all great Neptune's ocean wash this blood Clean from my hand? No, this my hand will rather the multitudinous seas incarnadine,
Making the green one red."

William Shakespeare—Macbeth

But I do owe Natsu one; if it weren't for him I would be a cold-hearted killer, I'm not like you who is reading this now. I didn't have a home, I was always in danger, and no one knew I existed. No one knew the bad things that I have done but no one knew the good deeds that I have accomplished. Natsu on the other hand did and he still chose to stay, to be my partner.

And that's all I ever needed.

I decided to write my side of the story, why I gone rogue, why I couldn't stay, but I can detail you in on my adventures, the organization that I work for, my partner Natsu who fell in love with the girl with mysterious fake brown eyes and I with the girl whose face I can never recall but still adored.

"Do you still trust me?"

-Gray James Fullbuster.

Further will be known as G.

Gray doesn't know I know of this little journal that he has. That ass. Well let me tell you he is not the only one who can write and tell you what's going on. Mind you we're probably dead once you find this. But that's it, when you really have nothing to lose the decisions you make won't matter. That's why we were chosen. We have nothing to lose.

Gray and I have known each other since our ninth year. But we were very much different. His personality and magic Ice, while mine was Fire and my personality at the time was warm, a match made in hell. That's why we were perfect together to make a team.

I was brought into Fairy Tail, the mansion held name for the place that I call home for young lost boys with traits that no other human being can possess.

Magic.

Illusion.

Warped reality.

Whether it was light magic, heaven's star magic, fire, earth, and ice and water it didn't matter. You were welcomed. The organization was first constructed in 1606, the first master who discovered others with energy familiar to hers. So she created this place where they can all come and work to control it. They were good.

Until some became influenced under with greed, lust, and forbidden power that is too controlling. They wanted it so they secluded themselves or were banned from the organization. That's when more crimes were being committed, devious plots played through, murder going around. It continued to grow and that's where Fairy Tail: a school for the young mages became a school of Ancient defense. In order to stay alive you do what you have to do.

It went into fierce rehabilitation when the second master stepped up. The members became cold blooded but isn't that against our first master's wishes? She wanted us to be united to be a family not a group of stonehearted killers. So after much war between members who preferred the Second Master's way and the old ways the third Master came into power.

He is neither perfect nor demanding. He had a warm heart like the first Master but had a good iron fist like the second. Compromise they say but we are better off this way.

But it still doesn't change the fact that what we do is still bad. You can tell me 'you got rid another wretched scum off the earth' but it doesn't change that he was a person. He was a friend, an ally, a brother, a father, a son and somebody lost him because of me.

I will never get rid of that burden.

But there's a reason why I stayed. I stayed because I still wanted answers. And though they gave me the same ones, somebody knows and I'm going to find them.

And only Gray can help me.

But on this journey I didn't think I would fall in love with murky brown eyes or see Gray wag his tail like a dog for a woman. Believe me I wasn't the type.

Even now I still can't say the true nature on how I fell or why Gray or I seemed to lost our main motive.

But with magic how can you really tell what's reality and what's not?

Though I fell for her light smile and warm brown eyes I will always adore her when I caught sight of her majestic being; her porcelain skin and mysterious deep ocean blue irises. To have such beauty be disguised as plain commonly is an insult to my nature but then I did the same.

"Do you trust me?"

Natsu Gybon Dragneel

Further will be known as N.

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The Light and the Dark

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Sunderland, England 1902

It was cold and my breath hitched as more dirt skidded around my boot. Fuck. Waiting in ditches wasn't entirely my forte.

It was another routine exercise and Macao has been getting on my back that my precisions for the hit haven't been hitting the mark lately.

How does he know if he hasn't been on a mission for two months? He is just mad that Master thought I should finally have my trial mission now then later.

I closed my eyes, forgetting about that smug twenty something year old. I can hear them.

The crunching of the grass, the patting of the rain, the rifles clicking, the breathing of my opponent that was two meters away. I can hear them.

I smiled a bit to myself, just waiting and killing time.

'Ariska type 38,' I hummed to myself. 'Not bad' though it was a good model it's way too large and heavy to carry. I myself prefer last year's Browning model. Its small and lightweight and I can easily conceal it in my coat pocket.

I grinned despite of myself; this recruit really needs to shape up in order to bear the brand of Fairy Tail on his chest.

'Wait for it…wait for it'

Click!

'Gotcha'

"UGH!"

A spur of fire ignited from my hand as it warped into a bullet hitting my opponent in the left shoulder, I dodged his front kick before kicking his weapon to the floor. Then elbowed him in the abdomen, the guy's sweet spot, and finally pinning him down to the floor with a roundhouse kick.

I stared at the guy's face amusedly before pointing my gun at his chest 'Sorry' I mouthed before I clicked the trigger sending a yellow light directly at him.

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"Ugh dammit Natsu!" despite causing physical damage Elfman still gave me a grin "That is why they say you're one of the best"

I snorted picking up his rifle off the dirt "One of the best" I couldn't help with the bitter tone. "So what was James count?"

Elfman gave me a sympathetic glance "Twenty-two" damn two more than I.

"No big deal" I muttered, "Just wanted to know" James as I call him to irk the guy is known as the 'Ice Prince' but like the weather here he is Gray. No literally Gray which is a strange name. But then who am I to say when my name is Summer?

I call him James since it's his other name as he calls me Gybon. YUCK. But despite the cruel personality he is a good guy. A prodigy and born from two legends. Not that I care, I actually feel bad for the guy, with all these expectations he has to work twice as hard, if he disappoints then he is a failure. Unlike me who just try's his best and its good enough.

So him beating me at almost everything is really a good thing. Though you can hear the resentment in my tone.

I sighed, I really hated rainy days since it takes the energy out of me but I loved the feeling of home. Fairy Tail so it was all right for now.

I saw a silhouette at a distance. I could only make out a shaggy head of blue hair smirking at someone with blonde.

'Figures' I thought. They both were watching my performance. I wonder if I met their expectations?

"Natsu let's get inside before we catch colds"

My lips pursed "Catch a cold? That's a least of our worries"

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I looked at my left then my right. I saw Jellel giving me a smile before passing by, with Laxus giving me a court nod.

Tch.

I wanted to get this routine over with, having it done many times I all ready have the map of the field memorized. I pretty much know it like the back of my hand.

I see Natsu's ears perk up, my eyes landed on head of white hair that was two meters away.

'Elfman?' I wondered. If the guy knows any better he shouldn't be targeting Natsu so early in his training.

I only shook my head as I watched the scene play out, if I know Elfman he will inch closer before setting Ariska model in to mode.

'Click'

Bad move.

Every time I watch 'Gybon' do his routine I make it a game to predict each move he makes. The guy is good I'll give you that. But he is very impulsive and predictable.

"He will hit him with 'Fire Heart' and it will hit his left shoulder. " I muttered the name of his soft flame bullet power.

'Boom'

"He will dodge the next move once Elfman get's hit"

'Thwack'

"He will have an opening and will remove of Elfmans' weapon during the rush"

'Thud'

I smiled mostly to myself, he is too easy to read, why couldn't he make it a challenge and spice things up?

"Elbow to the abdomen"

"Ugh!"

"Finishing move: roundhouse kick"

"Ack! Dammit Natsu!"

I sighed, that will be his twentieth mark today. Not bad. He beat Lyon's record.

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But then so did I.

"Gray" I heard a gruff voice come behind me, I didn't have to turn around to know who it was "Ah Jii-chan you missed a good fight"

He spluttered shaking his head approvingly "Do you think he is ready?"

"For the field?" I looked around as Natsu helped Elfman off the floor "He has good instincts and knows how to take care of himself" was my answer. I don't have the right judgment for this decision. If Natsu is ready then he is ready.

"That's good to hear. We will be discussing his new cover before we send him off. Work on yours while he is gone. This needs to be perfect."

I nodded "Yes Sir."

I noticed Natsu's eyes go past me, even though we worked and trained together for five years now he still can't notice me. Which is a good thing because my thing is not being seen.

I looked behind me and noticed Jellel and Laxus nodding and discussing something.

'So they came to watch huh?' my lips itching to make my trademark smirk. If the two Ellites came to see Natsu, Master isn't kidding about sending him to the field. Which means that the fun has only begun.

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