Bond

No, no, help her, she needs help! Why is she screaming? I try to reach. Someone is holding me back. Let me go. Mom, mom.

'What are you doing here?' I know that voice. It is my father. He was so angry. Why is mommy screaming?

What is happening? I struggle in the hold. Now father is screaming. Growling. A strange crack. I still. The one holding me is crooning. Whispering softly to me. Mommy is still screaming. Make it stop. Where is my father?

I scream. It burns, everything is burning. Mommy is burning. I can feel it. I can feel her pain. It hurts. She wants someone to make it stop. My screams are echoing hers. Make it stop. Make it stop. She is begging. She can't see any pictures. No pictures of me or father. I do what she asks. I make it stop.

Smoke. I smell smoke. His eyes are red. He is talking to the crooning woman. She is holding me. Mommy stopped crying. I made her forget the pain. She will never remember the pain.

I gasp and sit upright. Someone is softly rubbing my back. I launch myself away from the person onto the floor, spinning around, alarmed. I did not hear anyone come in. He found me. My stalker found me! Alice is sitting on the bed looking at me with wide surprised eyes. I blink rapidly standing up out of my crouch. Jasper is here too I can feel him calm me.

'It wasn't a dream.' I whisper, my joy - though suppressed by Jasper clouding everything in calm - springs out of me and I launch myself again. This time I go straight for her. Jasper is there before me, but I do not let his protectiveness dampen my spirits. 'You're alive.' I whisper hugging her as tightly as I can. Jasper is hovering close by, I can feel his hand on my arm. 'I didn't kill you.' Tears are streaming down my face. Then I let go of her with a gasp. 'It was me!' I shout. There is 'n part of my brain feeling sorry for Jasper he seems incapable of keeping up with my mood swings. He is frowning at me, torn between concern for Alice and worry for me. I am angry and upset now. I see a disturbing memory of an out of control newborn coming off him. He is really worried.

'I took your memory away. When you were undergoing the change, you screamed. I wanted to make it stop; the pain and the only way I could was by taking the memory of it away.' I frown deeply. 'I didn't know I can do that.' I whisper. I start pacing the floor like Alana use to, I stop on the second turn when thinking of her makes the feeling of betrayal jump to the surface. If she had just let me go to my mother like I wanted. If she didn't arrange my father's death. 'I am the key.' I look at her guilt flooding me like a tidal wave. 'I did sort of kill you.' I whisper.

'No, you didn't.' Jasper says immediately stepping closer, I feel calm again and smile at him thankful.

Alice gets up and seemingly dances towards me before taking my face in her hands.

'You are here, that is all that matters.' She steps on tip-toe and softly kisses my nose. 'Come downstairs everyone is very worried about you. You were screaming in your sleep.' My eyes widen.

'I was?' I sound horrified. She gently pats my shoulder, it feels natural as though she has been comforting me like this all my life.

'Bella talked in hers, nothing to be ashamed of.' She says beaming happily at me and Jasper.

'I missed you.' I say without thinking. I was never good at expressing my feelings to anyone, why now all of a sudden? She tilts her head to the side before a small frown forms between her eyes. I have darkened her mood.

'It is my own fault you can't remember.' I try to set things right, frowning deeply, I think I failed miserably at cheering us up. 'Look, all I care about is that all my dreams was true.'

'What dreams?' she asks.

'The visions you had of Jasper. I dreamt as a child.'

'You can see the future?'

'No.' I shake my head. 'I think me taking your memory bonded us somehow.'

'That is why you nearly ran right thru Edward to get away from me?' Jasper asks.

'Yes.' I scrunch up my face. 'And...technically you should hate me.'

'O for goodness sake!' someone hollers very loudly downstairs. I don't recognize the voice. 'Stop being so deep and heavy, and bring her down here.' The voice keeps bellowing. 'I would very much like to meet Alice junior. Is she any bigger than the first?'

When we reach the bottom of the stairs there is a booming laugh echoing thru the living room that makes the house shake. I look at the truly huge burly dark haired vampire who is laughing heartily while hugging the most beautiful female I have ever seen.

'I didn't believe them.' He says and walk towards me smiling. 'What are the odds? First Bella and now you.' He winks at Alice. 'Nice work little one she is a beauty.' He picks me up in a bear hug. 'Nice to meet you.' My feet touch the floor again and I stare at him in disbelief. The most enthusiastic, happy and bubbly vampires I have ever met live under the same roof, that must make for some fun living. I smile broadly, liking him immediately.

'Jas, you have some trouble ahead.' He clicks his tongue. 'Soon you'll be getting gray hair like Edward.' He laughs loudly again as the red haired male who just walked in with his mate Bella shakes his head laughing. Their daughter Nessie walks in with the big werewolf I met on the beach the other day, he nods in greeting while I try to not gape. The memory that has shaped him most of all is his discovery of his true soul mate Nessie, it's a strong bond.

The blond female that is with the big loud one approaches me carefully.

'My name is Rosalie.' She introduces herself.

'M.A.' I say and take hold of the hand she is cautiously holding out to me. I feel sorry for her when a thousand moments of longing for children replays in her soul, filling her with sadness. I have this effect on female vampires and I smile kindly. Her pain is jealousy also, Bella chose immortality and got a chance at having a child when she didn't want one. And now Alice who didn't ever long for a human live has a child as well.

'So aside from missing the wonderful discovery of a missing daughter who no one knew was missing, what else happened while we were out hunting?' the big booming vampire asks smiling broadly. 'We need some excitement here since Alice got rid of the Volturi. Bella was just getting things nice and interesting, when Alice decided to intervene with Nahuel. Sure a lot of you guys going around these days.' He says gently hitting my shoulder.

'It is our destiny to surprise.' I say with mock seriousness. 'Like you said, live sometimes get boring.'

He laughs loudly again. 'This one has a mouth like her mother. A bit of a change from that one with her pictures.' He mocks and winks at Nessie who smiles happily. She is fortunate to be growing up in such a family.

I frown deeply as Nessie looks up at me beaming. I am not sure I like chess anymore. I squint and look at her accusingly. 'Can you read minds like you dad.'

She shakes her head and Jacob who has been watching us play a very short and poorly executed – on my part – chess game caresses her hair. 'No, she is just brilliant.'

I frown at the werewolf who is so clearly part of this family. How can Jacob say something so cheesy without it being a mockery, insult or sarcasm? He has pure love for her, an unbreakable bond. I also am coming to understand the distinction Carlisle made earlier, they are a family. I have never met a coven that behaves like this. I look around the room.

Edward is playing a soft sweet melody on the piano, Bella leaning against his shoulder. I try to concentrate on her with a frown before giving up, everything about her sings memory but I can't see a thing. She has a truly nifty gift. Esme is humming upstairs busy with papers since Carlisle went to the hospital. Emmett is watching some game that has him accusing innocent athletes of bad playing. Rose is somewhere in the garage behaving like a mechanic. Jasper is reading a really thick book while Alice is staring at me intently.

I smile uncomfortably and Jasper looks up before he gently rubs my mother back. 'It's alright Alice, she is safe and we will all keep her safe.'

'But I can't see him which means he has decided to be on her path.' She rubs her fingers against her temples. They are talking about my stalker, I realize my heart accelerating. Jasper's eyes now shift to me and a comforting calm folds over me. I start helping Nessie to put the chess pieces at starting point again.

'M.A?' Jasper talks softly. I look up expectant and sudden realization that I love him almost as much as my mother, all the years of seeing her visions about him has made him not only endearing but sort of my hero. 'Think of your stalker.' He instructs. I feel alarmed but do it none the less. 'Edward, do you know him?'

My head whips around to look at the red haired vampire. Both he and Bella are already looking my way. I close my eyes and concentrate on projecting the memory, like the people around me do theirs so unwittingly.

'I am not sure.' He frowns. 'He reminds me of Felix.'

His face tighten and vivid memories mingle. Nessie touching Aro's face. Felix flirting with Bella.

'Felix? Of the Volturi?' Bella asks alarmed.

'Yes. M.A. does he look familiar to you?'

'I am not sure, it could be him. Why would he follow me though?'

Jasper growls softly and everybody including my mother looks at him surprised. 'Remember Aro suggested they find all the hybrids when they saw Nessie?' Everyone's in the room nods tightly. 'Perhaps that is what he is doing. Tracking the hybrids.'

'Why then not send Demetri?' Bella asks looking at me with a worried expression.

'Demetri has never been in contact with her so his tracking skills will be of no use.' Jasper says.

Edward look at him with raised eyebrows. 'Yes that is true, but Bella has a point. Demetri will be the one they send.'

'But would they send only one?' Jasper asks getting up. His face is different from the one he usually wears, now he is the strategist, the warrior his memories show him to be.

'Perhaps they are only curious.' Esme says where she appears at the top of the staircase. 'They want to make sure she does not expose us. Aro would not hurt someone so precious.'

Everyone is looking at her as though she is a loving mother who doesn't see the realistic picture. In a split second she rushes down the stairs and softly embraces me. I am startled by this action and her words. I am in absolute denial. None of this can really be happening. I'll wake up somewhere in a motel all alone. I cannot become dependent upon this love. It will be easy, so easy to bond with them all.

'I think we should call Carlisle.' Emse suggests pulling me tighter.

'No, no I don't think it is necessary.' I immediately say. 'I haven't seen him since, the day I signed the statement at the police station.'

'That was yesterday morning.' Edward gives my true thoughts away. I stick my tongue out at him angrily. It is my troubles, not yours. I say loudly in my mind.

'Not it isn't.' He says to me looking like a scolding father. I can't help but smile inwardly, it suits him even with that young face of his.

'What are you thinking dear?' Esme asks.

'That is what we would all like to know.' Emmett rumbles. Everyone is here surrounding me, I realize surprised. They have all stopped with what they were busy and are now anxiously looking at me.

'This is not you troubles. It is mine.' I state simply, looking them each in the eye.

'Absolutely not!' Alice explodes, her eyes angry. 'You are my daughter and I will protect you with my live.' She comes and stands in front of me, taking my hands in hers. 'You are no longer alone Mary-Alice, your home with your family.'

They all nod in agreement making my eyes fog up. 'But I am not...'

A warm feeling of love floods my heart and body when a strong hand touches my shoulder. 'You are worth everything.' Jasper says softly. I look into his golden eyes and can no longer fight the tears. He does not hate me as I expected him to. Esme lets go of me as my mother wraps her skinny arms around my body, I cannot stop the tears or trembles that ripple thru me.

'I know how to help you remember.' I manage thru the tears. My mind had somehow come to understand how I am the key to her memories. I formed a bond with her when I was a newborn, a bond strong enough to receive some of her most important visions. We are connected in much the same way as this family who claims to want me.

I am no longer alone.