A/N: so I had planned to make this longer but my tendonitis in my wrist is acting up. Enjoy this though because I feel I did pretty good. Let me know too, what you want to see. I could use some ideas.

It was the day before winter break for Sidney and Kate could feel his excitement. It had been snowing pretty badly this last week but not enough to warrant any snow days. Plus it was just a few days before break so they figured they could hold on till then anyways. Feeling the bed shift, Kate turns over and moves her hands around to tell if Castle is next to her.

"You awake?" Kate asks, trying to pull herself closer to her husband so she can snuggle.

"S'yes." Castle groans as he rolls over and kisses his wife on the head.

"Cant sleep." Kate sighs nuzzling into the back of Castle's neck.

"Me either." He responds as he sits up more and pulls his wife into him.

"Its not that early, should I go get your meds?" He asks moving hair from his wife's eyes.

She shakes her head.

The couple has been struggling with Kate's eye drops lately and Kate is just done. She does not mind taking the pills but its the drops that get her. With what little Kate can see, she knows it's just the drops but because it's so blurry her brain tells her its something bad and she has to move around and flinch.

"Not ready." She tells him shifting uncomfortably in the bed.

"Hey, I promise I won't hut you." Castle sighs giving his wife a small kiss.

"I know, but it looks weird from my end, it confuses my brain and I can't handle it." She sighs softly trying to hold in the tears that were welling up in her eyes.

"I wish I could see things from your side."

"I wan't to know what its like, I mean I know you can see some things, right?" He asks her.

"Yeah, I mean, you're just a blob to me, a big blurry blob with black around the edges, Its kinda like looking through a toilet paper tube but with the edges blurry." She tells him.

"Ive stopped using my glasses because they just don't work anymore, nothing seems to help."

"I feel though that it's not getting worse, so thats a bonus." She chuckles softly staring into the distance.

"Why don't we shower, the kids will be up in an hour and I'd rather have that done before they do." Castle mentions, as he lets go of his wife.

"Good idea." Kate smiles feeling him let go of her. She pulls slightly not ready to let him go, but she has to, if they want to shower before the kids get up.

Walking into the bathroom, Castle turns the shower on and flips the light in the bedroom and bathroom. This will help the couple so Castle can safely get his wife to the shower without any accidents.

Heading back to the bed, Castle walks over to Kate's side.

"Ok, I'm coming towards you, I'm going to stick my hands out and grab yours, I need you to put your feet over the edge of the bed." Castle starts, as Kate does as she's told.

"Ok, now I'm going to grab your hands and lift you up, let me know if things feel weird, I can stop." He sighs as he carefully lifts his wife up and off the bed. She's a little wobbly this morning so he's careful to not shake her to much. Helping his wife to the bathroom he tells her he's going to strip and then help her change. Once the two are naked, Castle helps Kate into the warm running water and directs her to the hand rail they had installed in the shower.

"Do you want me to help you wash your hair?" Castle asks as the water hits them and quickly warms them up.

"I want to do it today." Kate tells him waiting for him to put the shampoo in her hands. Lately it's been back and forth with Kate as she wants to do most everything herself. Grabbing her shampoo, Castle takes one of his wife's hands and squirts the liquid into it. lifting her hand up, Kate starts rubbing it into her hair. She feels like she's doing a good job until she can feel the sting. She's gotten shampoo into her eyes and she's freaking out at what to do.

She screams.

The sting has hit her eyes.

The pain is almost unbearable.

"Kate! Whats wrong?" Castle worries as Kate is trying to get her hands clean but can't seem to find the water.

"Did you get soap in your eyes?"

"I did, help please!" She cries out as she finally finds the water and lets it rinse her hands off.

"Ok, let me tilt your head back, I'll let the water wash it out." He explains as he carefully moves Kate so he can tilt her head back and let the water clean the soap. She's flinching, the weirdness of the water hitting her eyes is to much for her.

"Baby please, hold still, I'm trying to get the soap out." He pleads as he feels her jerk more. He knows it hurts and wants to make it go away but can't if she won't calm down.

"I can't keep my eyes open, it feels weird." Kate cries as she shuts her eyes closed.

"Just trust me on this one Kate, a few more times and I'll have the soap out." He's trying to help her but its so hard to see her like this. struggling to get by and do just the simplest of task and wash her hair. He knows she likes being as independent as her eyes will let her but sometimes Castle feels like he has to take over and help her. With Kate jerking back and forth it takes them longer than they wanted but finally Kate has clean eyes.

Finishing another ten minutes later, Castle helps Kate out of the shower and hands her a towel so she can dry off. once she's dry he helps her over to the bed and lets her sit on the edge of it.

"Let me get some boxers on and a shirt and then I will help you get dressed." He smile softly as he dresses quickly and then comes back to help Kate. He starts with her bra and then moves on to her underwear before helping her pick out a nice shirt and a pair of jeans. Helping her into those clothes he then goes for a pair of socks and helps her put on her tennis shoes before going back into the bathroom to get her meds. He comes back and helps her take the pills and with just a little bit of a struggle he puts the drops in her eyes.

"I'm going to go start breakfast, do you want to come downstairs with me?" Castle asks as he throws on a pair of jeans and some socks.

"Yes please, I'm sure the kids will be up soon." She chuckles softly as Castle puts on his shoes and walks over to Kate. He helps her up and the two head out of the bedroom and to the kitchen. Since they have been eating a lot of eggs lately, Castle decides to make some emergency pancakes to hopefully help Kate feel better. Its been a struggle this morning and anything to brighten the situation will do them good. Finishing the first batch of pancakes he gives some to Kate and downs one so he can go get Sidney up for school.

"I'm going to go get Sidney up, will you be ok for a few minutes?" He asks as he comes around the island and gives his wife a kiss.

"Yes, I promise I wont move." She chuckles softly taking a bite of her pancake.

"HaHa, very funny." Castle says rolling his eyes as he heads for the stairs.

"I saw that!" She chuckles hearing his footsteps as he walks away. Castle is confused, how could his wife see his eye roll? She's a mom, mom's can sense these things.

Helping Sidney down the stairs as he holds onto Victoria, he leads the child to the kitchen and puts Victoria into her high chair before helping Sidney onto a barstool.

"Goodmorning Sid!" Kate smiles leaning over and trying to kiss her son. She misses and Sidney laughs as she does.

"Give mommy a kiss, I missed." She smiles waiting for her son to kiss her. He does and she smiles again feeling is wet kiss on her cheek.

"When is Santa coming?" He asks knowing it was pretty soon that he would be on christmas break.

"Next week buddy, so soon, you better be good or he won't come." She explains taking the last bite of her pancake.

"Are you being good at school?" She asks.

"Yes! Ive gotten green cards all week!" He beams hoping his mother will be happy with him.

"Thats great buddy, mommy and daddy are so happy!" She smiles back at him reaching for a napkin. She can feel syrup on her face.

Finishing up breakfast, the couple gets Sidney to school and heads off to the store. They need to get a few more gifts for Sidney for christmas and because of the big present they got him they ran out of wrapping paper. Picking up the last few things Kate's phone goes off and Castle helps her answer it. It's Lanie and she wants to help Kate pick out a few small gifts for Castle for christmas. The two decide that She would just meet hem there at the mall and Castle would go home with Victoria. She needed a nap anyways.

when Lanie finally does arrive, Castle leave so things are not spoiled for him. Kate's so indecisive because, what do you get a guy who has everything. She wants to get him a few ties but it's hard because she cant see them. She tries to get Lanie to describe them for her, but even thats not helping. When its all said and done. Kate has picked out two new ties, a nice shirt to match the two and a new otter box case for his iPhone. He'd been complaining that with all the wear and tear on his case from the kids playing with it and all the times he's dropped it to help Kate that he needs a new one. That one was easy. She was glad he at least had hinted at one thing. She always found it so hard to buy for him when he did not say what he wanted.

Checking out of the store, Lanie tells Kate that she's going to treat the woman to lunch before heading home. Kate likes the idea but s scared because its been a while since she;d been out to eat with someone thats not Castle. Not that she does not want to eat, its just hard for her sometimes and she would feel guilty if she had to ask for help from Lanie.

The two finish lunch pretty quickly but decide to sit and talk for a little more. it's been a while since the pair have gone out, now that Kate no longer works for the NYPD. Thats one thing kate for sure misses. She misses having something she had to get up and do everyday. Something that gave her meaning in her life, and just plain something to keep her busy.

After the time together, Lanie makes sure Kate gets home safe and heads home herself. The two had been worn out and by the time Kate got home she went right to the bed and took a nap.