Hey guys its horrorgirl here! I can't apologize enough for the delay in this story! My computer broke around the last time I published a chapter and I also moved five hours away from my home town. I know this isn't a very good excuse but I appreciate you guys so much I just wanted to let you know what was going on.

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Chapter 9: Recovery

I woke up and snuggled into the heat coming from behind me. This was nice, I felt safe and content being held like this. I am so used to being alone, this was definitely new territory for me. I remember being mad at this man last night but I found I was still a little woozy from the pills so fuck it. I opened my eyes and remembered why I was so upset with my funny man last night. The colors accosted my vision in this new place, and I found myself accepting that this was my new home. So little has gone right with my life for as long as I can remember. I have come to follow a rule of my own creating over the years in order to deal with this. Accept everything that comes your way if you can't change it, there's nothing you can do about it so why fuckin bother. I'm a ray of sunshine huh?

I wriggled a little further back into the Joker's body and realized this was the first time I have slept in the same bed with this man let alone any man really. For the first time I felt fully accepted and a little girly, well that's a hell of a change if there ever was one for me. I am so used to feeling inferior to every woman around me, I mean they're all so beautiful and I'm just so…average. It warmed my heart to the point of pain that it was me he wanted to hold. Does it matter that he's a god damn psycho? I guess not, he's my god damn psycho!

I wriggled around a little more trying to get closer to my jokester when I noticed his breathing had picked up a little. I was about to turn around to see if he had woken up for the day when I swear to holy hell I froze in my tracks. I felt a considerable bulge in the middle of my butt and heard Joker groan a little. He started moving against me and I found I highly enjoyed this motion and started huffing and puffing awfully fast.

He sped up a little and then he grabbed my wrist and pulled me around to give me a kiss so hot I thought I was falling straight into Mordor. Yea I know, Geek alert right? Well fuck you, I'll let my fan girl flag fly high. Something was flying high right now but it certainly wasn't anything I'm used to feeling fly. I found that I liked the feeling of him rubbing against me, it gave me a warm feeling deep in my belly.

He pulled away when I started grinding back and I got slightly pissed, and I think he saw that. The first time I offer myself up to someone like a fucking Thanksgiving dinner and he pulls away when it starts getting good. He sees the look I give him and shoots a warning look right back. He licks his lips and says,

"Now Doll, I am happier than a loon that you are finally, uh, opening up to me like a good girl. At the same time I like it rough, very rough. In your current condition, I'm not sure if ya could take it. HA!"

That made me blush, in turn making me bury my face into the pillows. He corrected me right away, grabbing my face and turning it towards him. "You will show me this face, and every other face you make. You have nothing to be ashamed of and you will hide nothing from me. Your fear, your happiness, and your shame will not be hidden from me. I want to see it ALL." He looked at me intensely while he said all this and made me blush further.

I looked at the time and all the lovely color that had just accumulated in my face drained away. "Shit I'm so fucking late!" I turned to rush out of bed and felt a vicelike grip rip me back down. I felt cold metal on my wrists and they clicked too fast for me to comprehend. I was handcuffed to the bed posts within two seconds after freaking out.

I started to writhe like a wild cat, I was hissing and screaming at the Joker, I needed this God damn job and he had no right to keep me here. His only reply was to look at me and give me a sarcastic eye wiggle that made his scar turn up at the edges. "Oh my little Rainbow, I don't know if you've noticed but you are a literal fuckin WRECK right now. You will stay right here until you have had time to heal yourself up a bit, and then the real fun can begin." His voice got very low on that last part so I decided to just turn my head away and ignore him, bad idea.

"WHAT DID I JUST TELL YOU? You will not turn your face from me whether you are laughing or crying. You WILL submit to me my elusive Rainbow and you will learn this soon enough." He gave me a light tap on the cheek and turned on his heel to leave the room. Wonderful. Now I'm going to lose my job, I've already lost my apartment, and I want some god damn Ben and Jerry's red velvet right now!

Learning to roll with the punches here is going to be harder than that time I had to dump half a bottle of whiskey into the sink so my mom wouldn't guzzle it down instead. At least maybe this time I'll only have to worry about myself.