The seats filled inside the building, causing Benzi to clench his fists. He hated the crowded feeling he was getting, it brought him back to darker memories from his past. His vision clouded, and he grew very dizzy, but out of luck, he found an empty seat and sat down immediately. The funeral proceeded as people filtered in, random people who Benzi wasn't even aware of that apparently knew his Master spoke on his behalf. He had been asked if he would like to make a speech, but he decided that it probably wouldn't be the best thing for him to do, since the chances of him breaking down were very high. After the speeches and blessings, people were permitted to say their final goodbyes before the burning of Tayno's shroud. Benzi was led to the front of the line of people, and he kneeled by the wreath of flowers and vines. "I'm sorry, Master. I promise I will make you proud, and I will avenge your death." Benzi muttered, tears streaming down his cheeks.
"Benzi?" He heard someone ask behind him. He slowly turned his head to see Anakin Skywalker, patiently standing behind him.
"Jedi Skywalker…I apologize for holding up the line." He said softly, weakly getting off his knees.
"It's okay, you need your time. I would just like to speak to you. When you're ready, of course." Anakin informed him, stepping back a little to give the boy some space.
"Okay, thank you. I will meet with you when I am more composed." Benzi suggested, giving him a bow before rushing out of the crowd. His heart was racing, his skin tingling. He felt energy pulsing through him, and a wave of nausea hit him like a wave. Benzi keeled over, clutching his stomach. He had to get out of the room, fast. Running out into the hallway, he found a door leading to an empty room, and he entered. His head burned, the energy inside him pulsing faster and faster. Everything was happening so quickly. His Master was gone, forever, and he had no way to fix it. To make matters worse, he didn't know where his parents could be, and everyone feared him. Anger, confusion, worry, all of the emotions bubbled inside him, and he fell to his knees, more tears streaming out. "What is wrong with me…" He sobbed, covering his face.
It was as if his body was falling apart, his emotions taking over. For a split second, he felt a seething rage, a desire to…kill whoever brought his Master to his death. "Stop, Benzi. Now." He hissed to himself, now terrified of his own thoughts. Tayno hadn't really worked with him on controlling his emotions too much, just briefly whenever he was on the brink of a meltdown. He tried to recall his Master's words, and just the thought brought a whole vision of his past to his eyes.
*flashback*
"Why can't I do anything right?" Benzi screeched, hitting his fist into the wall. Tayno came rushing in, eyes widened.
"Benzi, what are you doing?"
"More like what I'm not doing, Master. All you did was ask me to practice moving my lightsaber with the Force, and I can't even do that! What kind of Padawan am I?" He shouted, his fury causing tiles on the floor to be ripped out of the floor. Tayno rushed to Benzi, grabbing his shoulders.
"Benzi, you need to stop. Just calm down."
"How?"
"You need to focus on moving the lightsaber. Envision it coming to you. Anger will only cap your abilities. If you can manage to remain calm, you leave open many pathways to stronger opportunities. Do you understand, my Padawan?" Tayno questioned, releasing his tight grip on the child. Benzi gave him a quick nod, and took in a deep breath. Eyes closed, arm outstretched, he began to think about the lightsaber coming to him. Soon enough, that vision became reality, and he stared in awe at what he had just done.
"Thank you, Master."
*end of flashback*
Now that Master Tayno was gone, how was he to remain calm? How was he to control his feelings? The door creaked open, and he whipped his lightsaber out, flashing its blue light. In the doorway, stood Haveera.
"I noticed you were missing." She noted quietly, her big eyes glowing in the blue light. It shrank back into its holster and Benzi nodded shyly.
"It was very crowded and overwhelming."
"Indeed." The two maintained eye contact for a long time, silence being the only barrier in between them. Finally, Benzi decided to speak.
"Why did you come find me?"
"I was worried."
"Why?"
"You're not exactly in the most stable of conditions."
"Thank you for reminding me."
"You asked."
The bluntness of their conversation began to annoy him, but he felt now was as good as any time to apologize to the girl.
"Haveera, I'm really sorry about what I said. I didn't mean it, I was just really hurt and in a really dark place for the time being." Benzi sighed, walking over to her.
"I know, thank you for your apology. I sense sincerity. But, do not be offended when I say that I think it is best we stay distant from each other." Haveera stated quickly. Benzi raised an eyebrow.
"Wait, why?"
"In all honesty, I do not trust you and your decisions, so until I don't see you as a threat, I believe interaction should be kept to a minimum. For the time being."
"You don't trust me?"
"I-I'm not sure. I would rather be safe than sorry, so I'm being cautious to avoid getting hurt myself. I'm really sorry, Benzi." Haveera's eyes grew glassy and to avoid another sentence being uttered from the dumbfounded boy, the Hapan departed the room.
I'M SO SORRY GUYSSSS. This chapter took literally forever to get out. It's pretty short, but I needed a transition chapter so we can move on from Tayno's death and really start some more adventure stuff. Also, if any of you are reading or have read my other story, a Harry Potter fanfic called "Ignition", just know I'll be posting a chapter for that in the next couple days.
Andddd, I'm going to start a new story (X-Men/X-Factor themed) so if you're into that stuff, be on the lookout. Don't forget to review, inbox, share or follow, anything helps! You guys rock! And don't forgetttt, stay awesome, Gotham. -April
