Chapter 4

Green, green and more green, I didn't know where Rose Alice and Emmet were taking me but I did know that it took about six hours to get there and it was surrounded by trees, but if I was being honest with myself it did look familiar and I just couldn't put the memory to the place.

After Mike had visited the day before and I broke down I gave into Rose's request of getting me out of the city to get my mind off of the whole wedding thing and to help me get over Mike. I knew it was wrong to run away from my problems but maybe right now running was the best thing. I needed time to get over Mike and to find out who I was without him and I couldn't be doing that if he could pop up at Rose's house at any hour or even at the apartment after he moved out, which I hoped he was currently doing after Rose and Emmet went over there to get my clothes and told him that I wanted him out of there in a month, which was how long this little vacation was.

I was also happy to find out that Rose Emmet and Alice had taken time off work to come with me, their main reason was that they didn't want me to be alone but I knew they also didn't want me to just sit around in my room all day and do nothing at all because that's what I would have done.

"So where exactly are we going" I asked when the seventh hour went by and we were still surrounded by trees on all sides. I was so sick of being in this car and my ass was starting to loose feelings.

"You really don't know do you" Rose asked and I glared at her head rest.

"You didn't exactly give any clues. I mean, you'll see is hardly something to go by" I complained and Emmet laughed from the driver's seat and Rose shock her head, Alice was sitting with me in that back but she was sound asleep with her head on a pillow and her feet tucked up under her. She was lucky that she could sleep so soundlessly in cars, I normally closed my eyes and tried to sleep but the most I could get was half an hour.

"I know it was a while ago but really Bella" just as she said that there was a sign that come up saying 'welcome forks lake' and I suddenly knew where we were. I had come here once with Rose and her family at the end of senior year, before we went off to college. Her family owned a lake house here and she thought it would be a good idea if we came here to relax and she was right. It was one of the best times of my life. I smiled at the sign and then turned to look at Rose who had turned in her set to look at me.

"You are brilliant" I told her, the smile on my face genuine as I looked at her. She laughed and flicked her hair over her shoulder dramatically like the drama queen I know she is

"I know" I laughed at her and pushed my knee into the back of her seat and she gave me the finger in return. It took another ten minutes to get to the house after we drove through the town, the streets were busy and there was a sign up saying that there was some kind of food and music festival that would be going for the rest of the week.

We drove into the large property and Emmet come to a stop in front of the house; it was just like I remembered it. I shoved Alice gently to wake her up, she mumbled something I couldn't catch and when I shoved her again she snapped her head up quickly and I couldn't help but laugh as her pillow hair.

"Are we there" she asked in a hoarse voice and I laughed again. She looked so cute with her barely open eyes and short spiky hair sticking out everywhere.

"Yip" Rose said as she got out of the car and Emmet followed behind her, they walked to the back and opened the boot. I looked at Alice and smiled before getting out of the car myself and going to help with the bags.

"Uh guys I need to pee" Alice spoke up suddenly and we all looked up to see her standing at the open car door looking a little uncomfortable. She was asleep on the last stop we made and we didn't want to wake her up, so it didn't surprise me that she needed to use the bathroom.

"I'll show her" I said and put the bag I was holding down on the floor and grabbed her hand. We walked towards the front of the house and I bent down and looked under a loose stone where I knew a spare key was hidden. I unlocked the front door and took a step inside. The house was huge and the whole back side of it was made of glass so that it over looked the lake, and there were no walls dividing the whole first floor so that there was light everywhere.

"This place is huge" Alice said a little wide eyed and I smiled, she wasn't wrong. Rose's family came from old and new money and in short her family was loaded but that wasn't something she liked to tell people and she hadn't mentioned it to Alice when we had meet her in collage. She didn't like to use the money her parents gave her and they gave her a lot but she liked to make her own money and pay her own bill's but every now and then she spoiled herself with a new wardrobe.

"You should see their beach house" I said and she looked at me with wide eyes. I laughed at her again and then pointed at the stairs "there's a bathroom upstairs, first door to the right; I'll be in the kitchen".

"Thanks" she smiled and rushed up the stairs while I walked towards the kitchen. It was huge which was to be expected and had every gadget a home cook could think up and with any luck there would be some kind of cold drink in the fridge. I stopped in my tracks when I saw a can of beer open on the counter and picked it up. It was still cold and half full which means someone was here in the house and I don't remember Rose saying that anyone else was going to be with us so that meant that someone was staying here... and without permission. Alice started screaming a second later and I dropped the can so that it fell to the floor, the left over contents spilling out and splashing on to my legs but I didn't even notice as I ran up the stairs towards the bathroom and stopped when I saw a tall man with blonde hair that reached past his ears with his bare back to me, while Alice was on the floor looking up at him with fear in her eyes. I searched around quickly for something I could use to attack him with and the only thing I saw was a vase sitting at a table next to the bathroom door. I took a step forward and hit the unknown man over the head with the vase, he took a sudden surprised step back and I put my leg out so that he would trip over it and fall back, he did he landed outside of the bathroom, his hands over his face clutching the back of his head. I jumped over him and pulled Alice up from the ground running out of the bathroom, not caring that I stood on the guy as I left. We ran down the stairs hand in hand and right into Emmet who dropped the bags he was carrying. His easy smile dropped from his face when he saw us and I tried to catch my breath to tell him what was going on.

"What's wrong" he asked first and when I pointed up the stairs and towards the bathroom his eyes followed to a spot where you could still see a little bit of the guy lying on the floor but he was trying to sit up now. "Get out side and call the cops" Emmet said and ran up the stairs before I had a chance to argue. I didn't get a chance to see what he would do when Alice pulled me out of the house, tears running down her face. I could see she was still scared and so was I. I didn't like the idea of Emmet being alone in there with that man, for all I knew he could have a gun or a knife and while Emmet was a good fighter this guy could out smart him and hurt Emmet. I was about to rush back in when Rose stopped me her own face filled with worry. I looked at her and then back at the house.

"Someone was in the house and he attacked Alice and now Emmets in there with him" and to prove what I was saying I heard glass breaking and a loud shout before there was silence. We stood there for a second just staring and then I took my phone from my pocket and handed it to Rose. It was probably a bad idea to go back in there but the idea of Emmet being hurt pushed me on, Rose would have gone in with me but she wouldn't know what to do, unlike me who was forced to take self-defence classes on a regular basis, and I knew how to fire a gun, thanks to my dad.

"Call the cops" I said before rushing into the house and stopped short. I needed to hear what was going on, where they were but I heard nothing and I became worried. What if Em was hurt and the guy had run. I walked to the kitchen first and grabbed a broom that was lying around and walked slowly up the stairs being careful not to make any sound's but when I made it to the top I froze, when I saw what the scene in front of me, Emmet was sitting on the floor leaning on one of the doors that led into a room and the other guy was sitting in the same position on the opposite wall facing Emmet. They both looked at me when I dropped the broom and it made a loud noise. Emmet sighed and put his hands on his face while the other guy looked at me with blue eyes that looked exactly like his sisters.

"Jasper?"

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We all stood around in the kitchen and just stared at Jasper who was sitting on the counter. He still wasn't wearing a shirt and his face was bruised, there was dried blood on his lips and nose and he looked like absolute shit. Emmet was standing next to Rose who was glaring at Jasper and Alice stood the furthest away from him still a little freaked with what happened earlier and I was at the fridge getting ice. I put some on the middle of a tea towel and wrapped it up so that it looked like a parcel and walked over to Jasper and handed it to him. He smiled when I placed it in his hands but I didn't return it.

"Thanks" he said and I moved away from him and leaned on the island in front of him. He had changed so much but he still looked like the same old Jasper. His normally short hair now reached past his ears and his skin wasn't so pale, he had also lost some weight around the face and put on a little muscle mass but even though his physical appearance had changed his eyes were still the same, deep blue and mesmerising. Seeing him brought back to many unwanted memories and while most of them were good it still hurt to think about them. Thankfully we hadn't been able to reach the cops because my service here sucked so we didn't have to deal with the drama of that but it didn't make the situation any less difficult to deal with.

We stood there for another few minutes until Jasper put the ice down and looked at Alice.

"Sorry about scaring you, I thought you were trying to break in or something" he said smiling at her with his normal boyish smile that made almost every girl in high school crazy for him. But Alice just glared at him and it feel away, she wasn't the one to fall for a smile and it didn't help that he had scared her half to death.

"Sure" she said and looked away from him and at me instead. "I still need to use the bathroom" she said and I nodded my head, she left us there in the kitchen and I turned back to Jasper who was just sitting there looking at me with sad eyes. We had explained to her that Jasper was Rose's brother and that they weren't really close anymore hence why Rose was so pissed off but what we didn't know was why Jasper was back in the first place.

"So..." he started and Rose glared at him again and I knew she was ready to burst. All her pent up anger finally coming out and she was going to release it all on him.

"What are you doing back here" she demanded and he looked away from her, unable to meet her eyes. He didn't answer for a while before sighing loudly.

"I didn't have anywhere else to go" he said and started ringing his hands together, something a nerves person would do and while Jasper was a lot of things he wasn't nerves. He still didn't look up when he said that and I could see the fire in Rose's eyes trying to burn their way through Jaspers skull if that was even possible.

"What about your precious band" she asked and he flinched at that "you did after all leave your family behind for them so why aren't you with them now" I looked at Emmet and found he was looking at me to. He looked kind of tired and angry, he didn't like to see Rose upset and he was also pissed off at Jasper but that wasn't something new. Jasper left everything behind when he packed up and left without telling anyone where he was going, all he left was a note saying he would see us when he was famous and that was the last we heard from him for six years. Rose was crushed and she cried for days, her mother was so upset she landed up in the hospital and her father was so pissed off that he cut Jasper out of his will and cut him off completely from the family, if Jasper didn't have some money stashed away I'm pretty sure he wouldn't have survived so long on his own, and maybe that's what his father was trying to do when he cut him off, trying to make him come back home but he never did until now.

"The band didn't work out and I've run into some money problems" he said softly but Rose could still hear every word he said.

"Then why the fuck don't you get a job and get the fuck out of here" she screamed at him and shoved Emmet off when he tried to hold her. He looked hurt that she did that but he had to understand that she was angry "you have no right to be here anymore, you left your family... your friends... and the girl you loved" she pointed at me when she said that and he finally looked up to stare at me and I frowned at Rose. "You left her here alone and broken, after she gave you everything. Did you ever care, about any of us about me about mom and dad about Bella!" she was screaming now and I was trying very hard not to cry.

"Of course I cared" he spat back jumping off the counter that he was sitting on and standing tall looking down at her. "You know I cared"

"Then why did you leave!" she was crying at this point "you almost killed mom you stupid mother..."

"Rose!" I screamed at her before she could finish her sentence. Jasper looked taken back by what she had said and I'm not surprised, Mrs hales visit to the hospital was kept on the down low and not many people knew and it was never posted on any kind of social media asking her how she was or that she must get better soon, not that I even think he kept tabs on us.

Rose allowed Emmet to hold her this time and she cried into his chest. He glared at Jasper and I sighed. "Take her to her room"

"You going to be ok" he asked gesturing at a depressed looking Jasper and I nodded my head. When we were alone I looked at Jasper again, who was still looking sad.

"Why are you back here Jasper" I asked and he looked up at me. He took a second to answer me but he did.

"I told you I'm having money problems" he said again and I laughed at him. I knew him well enough to know when his lying even after all these years.

"That's bullshit and we both know it" I said and leaned back against the counter, looking down at the floor so I didn't have to look at him and his blue eyes that used to make my knees weak and my heart fly. The two of us had always been close but not like how I was with emmet or even rose, with us it was more than friendship and for a while all we would do was flirt and the occasional make out session at a random party, but when senior year rolled around we decided to just start dating, I had already fallen in love with him at that point but I didn't tell him. We kept it a secret at first even from Rose and Emmet, just so we could see were this would take us but our little secret didn't last long when Em found us in my room making out the one day. Rose was upset but she got over it and was even excited that if me and Jasper stayed together we would be sister in laws and while that thought scared me, I liked the idea of me and Jasper together for that long. He was my first love and my first time and then he left. I was broken and upset and on the verge of going into a serious depression but Rose got me through it and then I meet Mike and forgot about Jasper but a small piece of me still loved him.

"You always did know me better than anyone" he said and I could hear the smile in his voice. "I'm sorry for hurting you I never wanted to do that"

"But you did it anyway" I looked at him then with fresh tears in my eyes. I was so sick and tired of crying over assholes that hurt me and I just wanted it to stop. I had only ever loved two men in my life, one of which cheated on me and the other left me without so much as a word and was now standing in front of me like nothing has changed. "Did you even love me or was that a lie"

"Bella" he said and took a step closer to me putting his hands on my arms and holding my gaze. "I did love you and I think I still love you" his words were like a hammer to my already fragile heart "the second I saw you standing in that hallway I knew I still loved you" he looked into my eyes and I looked in his and he wasn't lying. "But I don't deserve you, I never did. You're meant to be with another guy and you found him" I looked at him confused when he said those last words.

"Who are you talking about" I asked him and he looked sadly at me like I was the one who was missing something.

"Your fiancée, I can see that you love him and that you moved on and I'm happy for you" he was talking about Mike; he knew that I was engaged but I don't know how.

"How do you know that?"

"There's a thing called Facebook Bella" he joked but I didn't find it funny, all it did was piss me off.

"You had the time to look for me on Facebook and look at how my life was going but you didn't have the time to send a message to say that you were at least ok!" I yelled at him and shoved him away. His hands fell back to his sides and he took a step backward. "You had no right to do that. You who left me when I gave you everything and you threw it away. You don't get to see how my life is going, how I'm moving on. I loved you and a small piece of me still might love you but you left!"

"Bella calm down" he said calmly raising his hands in defence but I didn't care, I was just so angry and I needed to let it all out, was it fare that most of this anger was because of Nike. Not really but he was there and he had hurt me as well.

"No! I won't calm down" I yelled again. I could feel my whole body shacking and my nails bug into the soft flesh of my palm as I squeezed my fists together.

"What's the big deal you moved on" it was his turn to yell

"You know you and mike are the same" I said at a normal volume as I looked at him, his blue eyes blazing as he looked at me.

"How's that?"

"Your both complete assholes that broke my heart" I said and walked away from him, done with this conversation. I didn't want to hear what else he had to say and I needed to be alone for a while.