Oh thankyou, thankyou, thankyou for the reviews! as my first three reviewers, i would like to thank WhisperLuna, RagamuffinSundrop and Scout Girl personally and openly. Luv ya. :)
Thankyou for saying I shouldn't throw it off the falls, coz I'll probably never go there anyway, and that would be a depressing thing to do on a holiday!
And yes, I know my summary included a line that would have been great in this story, but i wrote the summary after the chapter. That's usually when the best stuff comes out. I was planning to use it later. Kind of as the running line throughout.
Anyway, enough with the ranting, on with the story.
A year had passed. It was the anniversary of Bad Wolf Bay. Rose had fleetingly thought that it would be a good idea to revisit the last place she saw her Doctor, but she had countered her own thought, wondering why she would need to go to Norway when he was still with her anyway. The Doctor had touched her life in a way she never thought possible. It was like he was still with her. He had been on her mind since that day and he never left. The rational part of her mind had accepted the fact that she would never see him again, that she should live her life without him and without looking into her past. But her heart would never let her forget all the times they shared.
She felt that their parting had been wrong and was forced to live with that heart-wrenching feeling every day of her life. If they were ever going to part, then she should have died. One of them should have died saving the other. It was impossibe... unimaginable that she had been forced into an alternate universe.
So her memories haunted her.
The TARDIS haunted her.
HE haunted her.
Over the next year Rose's family had done their best to support her. There was something strange about the way she acted, an edgy little feeling that something with the girl who used to be so social and so full of life. It started small. At first it was quite easy to ignore her little outbursts. Saying something rude without meaning to or blurting out some kind of random thought when everything was silent - then she wouldn't even realise she had said anything at all.
They all saw it as an inevitable side-effect of too much space and time travelling with The Doctor. Reality and life were now the strange things, and she lived in her mind with her memories. As the family got used to her quirks and learned to ignore them, they began to get more extreme. For a time, they thought that it was a way of getting attention, and tried to ignore that, too. But there was only so much they could ignore before it became a problem. The little comments in the silence were less and less coherent, and in the middle of a conversation, she would start to make senseless, off-topic remarks.
The thing that distressed her mother the most was that Rose had no idea that she was doing it, and wouldn't believe that she was saying anything strange at all until the day they recorded her having a conversation. As Rose had listened, she stared into space as if it made some kind of sense to her, but she wouldn't explain it.
The day that her worried mother had suggested she see a shrink, Rose had obliged to one visit, and when it was suggested that she admit herself to an institution, Rose took this to mean that she was too crazy and having a bad influence on her little sister. She promptly moved out and this decision had a worse effect on her mental health. She became gradually more insane as she spent more time on her own. Mickey would come to see her every so often, but his visits became less frequent as she started to make him nervous with her insane rants.
Rose was completely aware of the declining state of her mental health. She could see the sympathetic look Mickey's eyes whenever he visited. She was only ever aware of her outbursts when she saw someone react strangely to a comment she made, then she would cover her mouth and apologise. She often wondered why her mouth moved without her brain's permission.
With the absence of a family or any friends, Rose began to feel that The Doctor was with her, watching her sleep or standing somewhere and watching her so she couldn't see him. She became concerned for herself the day she did see her insanity manifesting itself. The first time Rose saw him, she knew that she had gone insane. She went to the hospital and had an MRI, making sure there was no tumor, but her brain seemed to be working perfectly - except for the fact that she was insane.
Rose would never commit herself to an institution. She didn't want to pump herself full of any kind of medication, and even if she did, she knew that The Doctor would never leave her. She knew that she wasn't hurting anyone with her insanity and some days she would be perfectly normal. Her job at Torchwood didn't involve a whole lot of human interaction, so she lived her life alone, always remembering her Doctor and the times they shared.
Rose had also taken to recording herself talking with other people or just sitting in silence watching TV or reading a book and she spent long hours at home, playing back the tapes of her in silence, having a conversation with no one. Usually they were conversations that she could remember. The Doctor had been talking in the silence between her words, and some were just crazy talk or babble. The more insane her conversation with herself, the more Rose enjoyed listening to them and sometimes The Doctor would be sitting in her second armchair, listening along with her and smiling at the memories.
I forgot to mention that i was sorry for making the prologue so short. It was, what? 450 words? Including my author's note?
Anyway, this chapter is still setting the scene - well, the... uh... the whatever. But some kind of story will emerge some time, and you'll get the point of what I'm trying to say if you havn't got it already.
I know this isn't that much longer than my last chapter, but I said all I needed to say (unless you all thought there was something else?)
I also realise that I still didn't use that line. I have a variation of the line. But I don't know if i have a specific place to use that line, it's too good for my story. :p
Thank you for reading, but reviews would be magnificent as well.
Mikkifavo
