Okay, I think my point wasn't actually received correctly last author's note. I have nothing against innocence. Ruby's canon personality seems just so innocent that it is almost fake to me. It seems fishy. And I'm always reminded that 'the saddest people smile the brightest' when Ruby dons that very innocent guise.
Guest: I have nothing against other Ruby ships, but I personally believe Ladybug is the best. But this story isn't going to have a Ruby pairing, if any.
Chapter 6: Day Two part two
Ruby was enraged slightly. She normally never had to do the group exercises, but Weiss had asked her politely to attend the one right before her meeting with Blake. But she did enjoy the one Weiss had set up. It was one where they were meant to just draw.
They didn't need to talk. And she enjoyed that. She had already started to snap at a select few people after she was done her morning routine. But they were already on Ruby's short list of people she couldn't stand.
"Huh... we did you go for the dark colours Ruby? There is such a vast selection you could have gone for but you chose only three." Weiss asked as she stared at Ruby's canvas, it may have been Ruby's single favourite activity, but the doctor always why she picked the three specific.
"They are the only ones I can remember from before heading into here." Ruby spoke, that may have also been the reason the doctors enjoyed Ruby in it as well. She was able to speak to them without her stutter. It was something that they hadn't thought about, if her mind was focused on something that was purely creative. When it was something like chess she already had figured out how the game would play out in almost every conceivable way. So she couldn't have occupied her mind.
"Hmm, the red and black often symbolise death or anger. But the yellow, even though you are using so little it often means there is hope, like how the sun always rises every morning. Even when you can't see it, you know it will happen." Weiss spoke trying to figure out the colour choice rather than what Ruby was drawing with them.
"I thought it always reminded me of my sister's hair." Ruby just spoke with a slight melancholy to her voice. She enjoyed the drawings, and something that she found so difficult like speaking to the staff about anything, just came so easy. "But it could also be what you said. But I didn't mean it to." Ruby continued. She knew Weiss was going to do what she always did.
"Well, I hope you don't mind me saying you always make something rather impressive. I never realised that you used such a restricted colour palette." Weiss commented as Ruby finished her stroke.
As Ruby took a step back to observe her work, it may have only been some buildings in a view you would have from a street but the destroyed buildings in a dystopian world, and the cars piled into a primitive barricade blocking off one of the possible paths.
"Ruby, I'm just reminding you, you have your meeting with Blake in five minutes, and it looks like you are done here." Weiss spoke as she moved onto the next person. Ruby looked at the clock up on the wall. 'Doctor Weiss isn't wrong. I should probably go and wait outside, once I return these pastels.'
"Ruby, you almost never have this happen this frequently. Do you know what is causing it?" Blake asked as Ruby stared at the chess board. Blake had posed Ruby to play a game against herself playing both sides with the same intent to win.
And it was doing it's job, making Ruby distracted, just like doing something creative. Both sides of the board where taking five times longer compared to Ruby's normal turns, but even Blake could barely follow Ruby's turns normally they went past so fast. It was remarkable if anyone could slow her down enough it was considered a true feat.
"No." Ruby stated as she began the queen exchange, loathing how much she was able to damage her game strategy simply by playing herself. She knew she was giving rather short answers, but she was loathing how she could only muster a draw against herself. And she never liked settling for a draw.
Not that draws were bad, she just needed the victory. If she couldn't win at a simple game against herself, how was she suppose to get to grips with her crimes against her sister if she failed to beat herself in a game.
"Well, do you have any theories? Normally you have some relatively accurate ones. You never know, you may be right." Blake commented as Ruby finally captured the black bishop pair for the cost of half of her rook pair. Blake was getting rather interested in how the game was turning out. Most of the time when Ruby exchanged the queens, she already had won, she would just toy with her opponent.
"I w-w-w-would s-s-say I-i-i'm b-b-being r-reminded of my sister," Ruby stuttered as Blake frowned. It was working so well, until Ruby stopped being as forceful, to free up her mind. And Ruby knew Blake knew just that.
"You were doing so well. Why did you stop?" Blake asked as Ruby pushed the chessboard away as she brought her knees up to her chest. She quickly hugged them. She was regretting answering Blake's question. At least when she didn't, Blake would assume her theory would be correct and therefore she would at the very least do it a few more times. And she enjoyed chess at least.
"I... n-n-need to w-w-win ag-against myself." Ruby stuttered hugging her knees intent on trying to ignore Blake. Blake was just writing something down as Ruby attempted to figure out what she was writing. All she could make out was Blake using short hand. Intentionally to try and stump Ruby's attempt at reading it. All she could make out was her name every once in awhile.
"You know you don't need to win Ruby. It was to make talking to other staff and myself easier outside of painting. It was nothing but an experiment. And it was going so well until you thought you needed to win." Blake again spoke with slight disappointment in her voice, not unlike a mother would if she caught her child with its hand in the cookie jar just as dinner was being placed on the table.
"C-c-can I l-l-leave?" Ruby asked as Blake just nodded, Ruby caught just a slight glimpse at the writing before Blake closed her notepad. Blake loathed it when Ruby read her notes. The notes were meant to be for Blake and some other doctors.
"Ruby, before you leave, can you and Nora be here for nine, it is so Weiss and I can look over our notes and let you both know where we are going from." Blake asked as Ruby nodded. She quickly walked out and as fast as she could to the phones in the visitor area. She needed to talk to Velvet. She knew that there was no need to rush, the visitor area was still going to be open for another four hours. But she could almost feel a panic attack coming on, and Velvet was one of the few people that seemed to cause her to calm down.
Nora wasn't sure what was compelling her to stay in the room, but for some reason there she was. Just staring at the ceiling, thinking about what Blake had said. It didn't make sense to her. Ren would never stick his neck out that far for her. Hell the furthest Ren ever got to sticking his neck out would be that if it was true.
Unless she just didn't notice anything else. But that would have been what Ren wanted in the first place. But it just begged even more questions, she just didn't know if Ren would actually give her a response. He would probably just pretend that it never happened that way.
"Nora... are you alright?" Ruby asked as she walked into the room. She just came by to apologise for her snapping at her earlier. This was just the first chance she had all day to apologise.
"Yeah. Just thinking about something Blake said to me earlier." Nora spoke maintaining eye contact with the ceiling. She had no idea why but the ceiling was interesting. But she found it to be interesting.
"I... just wanted to say I was sorry about earlier. I just may not to get a chance to apologise. And I've hurt a lot of people. And it lead me here. Doctor Weiss keeps telling me when something outside of my control I shouldn't apologise, but me yelling at you was within my control." Ruby spoke softly. It was somewhat difficult for her, admitting when she was wrong.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you earlier. I just need all my pills to really function throughout the day." Ruby stated as she sat down on her bed pulling her knees up to her chest. She figured it would be best to actually talk to Nora. Even Velvet thought so. So she decided that she would do just that.
"I'm sure they are important but when I brought it up with Blake she said that was probably the most important one. And I've never even heard of Citaloproom." Nora stated sitting up, she figured that Ruby was going to stay so she might as well learn the reason as to why the pills were so important.
"Citalopram. The common name for it is celexa. It is an antidepressant that also helps for panic disorders. Which is another reason why I take it. That is one of the very few that haven't changed since I came here." Ruby spoke seeing Nora seem to mull her thoughts over. Almost like she is trying to compose her thoughts easier.
"How many of those are you on? Because I lost track. All I know is I'm on four and once I take them I feel a lot better about everything really. Makes it easier to think as well. Well focus but still, that doesn't change my point too much." Nora stated as she fell back onto her bed. Not that she was trying to be distant, but she was trying to focus on the ceiling.
"Fifteen. They all do something different to help me function normally throughout the day. When some in a story says they are broken they have no idea. I need a cocktail of drugs so I'm not debating the pros and cons of going on a murder spree that inevitably has me saving a single bullet for myself. But even the doctors here don't think of any of us as broken." Ruby spoke as she began to count the number of bricks in the wall behind Nora.
"Dear sweet baby Buddha, that is a lot. I thought I was taking a lot." Nora stated as she began to look away from the ceiling and at Ruby giving her the same look she had in the morning. Almost as if she was looking through her and at the bare wall behind.
"Ignoring that... what landed you in here? Like you know what got me in here was wanting to free some animals from the zoo." Nora asked knowing the answer already. She just wondered what pushed her there after Yang.
"My mother committed suicide by cutting her femoral artery just as I opened the door when I was four, my father was a drunk driver that died when I was in the car when I was fifteen. And to top it off my sister died in a multiple car pile up which I was the only survivor of. And that was only a few years ago." Ruby spoke softly. All of those memories that never left, being long since burned into her. But the final one, was the one that truly landed her where she was. It was the final act of god that made her all alone.
"Wow. That would mess anyone up." Nora stated. She knew about Yang. But not so much about the rest. 'Now that I think about it, Yang would never talk about her parents. She would just claim it as a very sensitive subject. I can see why though. How the hell is she even able to get out of bed in the morning. She saw everyone in her family die.'
"Ruby, Nora. Blake and Weiss asked me to come and get you. It is about what we plan to do with Nora." Ren spoke as he walked in waiting for either of the duo to respond. Nora jumped up and began to walk out giving Ruby room to do her normal routine. Ren stepped just outside as Ruby stood up and began to do her routine.
As she finished the final door close she began to follow the old friend duo down the familiar hallway. The only thought about what was going to happen was something she feared. That Nora was going to take up a permanent residence to her room. Ruby needed her room. It was hers and something she could control in her chaotic life.
As they entered Blake's office Ruby could sense something was exactly what she feared. Instead of jumping the gun Ruby took the seat that was waiting for her across from Blake's desk hugging her legs as she buried her face into her knees.
Blake had tied her hair back with the black bow and Weiss had a scowl like she didn't agree with Blake's idea. As Nora took a seat she could hear Ruby breathing deeply, but shallowly.
"Uhhh. Am I missing something because it sounds like Ruby is having a panic attack." Nora spoke up before the monochrome duo could start. Blake began to curse under her breath as Weiss' scowl grew more, not out of anger at Ruby but at herself and Blake. They both knew how perceptive Ruby was, and still somehow managed to broadcast what they intended.
"Ruby. It isn't that bad. Just remember your breathing." Weiss stated as Ruby nodded into her knees. But Ruby wasn't sure how long she could hold out for the actual information.
"Nora, we have spoken with the judge, you are here by staying until the end of the week." Blake stated as Ruby began to hyperventilate loud enough for everyone in the room to hear. Ruby knew that was how most people started getting stuck there. Just like how Nora clearly was going to be as well.
Author's Note:
Hope you like dat. Now let's see how Ruby is going to deal. Next chapter. Maybe. It all depends on my mood really. But it is late so I'm just going to play Dragon Ball Xenoverse. Teehee.
