I own nothing and all mistakes are mine. This was meant to be a longer chapter but I cut it in half but don't worry, the second half is already written so you won't have to wait another two moths for an update like last time
Hanna POV
"Hanna what the hell!" She yelled as she pushed me away
"I-I. I-I." I stutter no knowing what to say
I just found out my boyfriend is dead and respond by kissing my best friend. Now everybody is staring at me wondering what the hell has gotten into me and I'm literally, for the first time in my entire life, at a loss for words.
"Hanna!" Spencer shouts waiting for a response
"I-I'm sorry Spencer I don't know what came over me. I'm uh I'm gonna go for a walk." I stand up knowing my checks are bright red and I grab my coat and head for the door
"Hanna wait! Let me come with you." Spencer offers
"I don't think thats such a good idea and I really just wanna be alone." I say without turning around to face her
"Hanna its dark out. You shouldn't be out walking alone especially with Caleb's killer on the loose. At least let me go with you and we drive." Alison says
"No thanks. I'd rather go alone."
"Hanna don't be ridiculous. Someone just killed my son, your boyfriend, and you wanna go walking around town, alone, at night. Let someone go with you." Billy tells me. I can tell by his voice that he's trying to hold back his tears
"Fine. Lets go Ali, but on one condition. We only talk about you if we're gonna talk."
"Deal. Ari can you pass me my keys over on the coffee table?" Ali asks
"Sure." Aria says tossing the keys to Ali
I turn around when I hear her voice. I can hear pain in her voice and I have to know if I caused it. I stare into her eyes but she quickly turns away and to make contact with Spencer.
"Guess you we're right." I wisper to myself "She really does love Spencer more then you."
"Hanna lets go." Alison tugs on my arm gently causing to snap back into reality
In the car
"So how long did you know?" She asks "About the baby."
"What makes you think I knew?" I ask
"I saw your reaction. You weren't at all surprised. I guess I shoulda known you'd find out with us being roommates and all. And how come you never told Em."
"I knew you slept together but I wasn't certain you were pregnant. I thought you were but I wasn't certain. And even though Emily is one of my best friends I had no right to tell her anything. She deserved to know but she deserved to find out from you and you'd have to tell her eventually. She might hate me now too but it was for the best that I didn't tell her."
"Thank you Hanna."
"Don't thank me. You shouldn't have. So have you decided what you wanna to about the baby?"
"I wanna keep it and I want Noel to be involved but I wanna stay with Emily."
"Well you can't always have it all Alison."
"I know."
"And if she says no then what?"
"Me and Noel are gonna raise our baby. If we end up together one day it will be because we still love each other not because we have a baby together. Too many people get married for the wrong reasons."
"Your telling me. My parents got married because my mom was pregnant but then my dad started screwing that Isabel slut. They never divorced because they wanted to stay to together for me but now that I hate them both their divorced, my dad married Isabel, and my mom is dating a Pastor."
"Do you think I'm making the right decison? Keeping my baby."
"If you really want this baby and can care for it and love it then yes but if not you need to consider adoption."
"To be completely honest I don't how much I could really love baby that I had with Noel instead of Emily. Emily says she could never love Noel Kahn's baby but Noel actually wants to be a father and I can already tell he loves our baby. I don't wanna take away Noel's chances of being a father to his child but I also don't wanna keep a baby that I don't really want. I would let Noel raise the baby but then they'd know all about me and they'd hate me for chosing my high school girlfriend over them. If Noel takes the baby I'll still be tied to him or her. What should I do?"
"Give the baby up for adoption. If you don't want to raise the baby then don't do it. People are always getting pregnant and then raising babies they don't want and don't really love and its the child who get hurt. Let your child have a family that will love them."
"I already know I love my baby but I just feel like I would love it more if it was mine and Emily's and Noel wasn't involved."
"I'm in love with Aria." Hanna says changing the subject
"Ok." I say allowing her to continue
"But even though she's in love with me too she still loves Spencer."
"All true."
"I kissed Spencer but not Aria. It doesn't make sense."
"Maybe you did it because you miss Caleb and want him back but at the same time you want Aria. You thought that by kissing someone else, her girlfriend, she want Spencer more and you less and you wouldn't have to feel bad about moving on so quickily."
"But thats what Caleb would want. He'd want me to be happy and if Aria would make me happy why would I want to push her away and closer to someone else?"
"Because even though you know he'd want you to be happy you don't want to be happy right now. You wanna be sad and thats ok. You don't have to move on right away but when you do, you should move on to someone you actually love."
"But I can't let the first person I date after Caleb be Aria. It would never work."
"Then how about finding yourself a rebound when your ready and then move on to the girl you love."
"Hmm. Thats not a bad idea. Maybe you should take your own advice."
"What do you mean?"
"Have your baby, if you don't think you'll love them enough, give them up for adoption, then find a rebound befroe she start a serious relationship, then get your girl back."
"And just who is gonna be my rebound?"
"I'm thinking since we're both bisexual we find some smoking hot twins, guy and girl. You get the guy because you dated a girl last and I get the girl becuase I dated the guy last."
"Hanna as awesome as that sounds it would be pretty hard to find those twins your talking about but two guys now thats a different story." Alison laughs
For the first time since Caleb's death, even though it was just a couple hours ago, we both start laughing, uncontrolably in fact. We're laughing so hard Ali loses control of the car.
"Ali look out!" I shout but its too late. We slam into the side of a semi and before I know it everything goes black. Then I start to see his face. Caleb.
Emily POV
''I can't believe it. My best friend and my girlfriend get into a wreck the same night Caleb dies. You don't think its a coincidence do you?"
"No way Em. They slamed into a semi. They most likely weren't paying attention and it was too late." Spencer says
"Yeah and this hospital has amazing doctors. They'll be ok. They have to be. I already lost Caleb. I can't lose them now too." Aria says trying to hide the tears in her eyes
"They've been in surgery for hours now and still no update. What's going on in there?" Spencer wonders
"Thats actually not a bad thing. It means there still alive and there's still hope for each of them. I know this is incredibly difficult for you girls but we have to stay postive. At least they're still alive." Billy says trying to keep us hopeful, I think its just the doctor in him thats really talking
"Yeah. For now." Aria says
"Aria don't say that. They're gonna be fine." Spencer says
"Well you weren't dating or in love with either of them it would make things so much easier for you if Hanna died. And you always liked Ali the least. You wouldn't care if she died either." I argue
"I love them both and I'd be lost without them. If Hanna wants to die she'll do it so she can be with Caleb again but I hope to God she doesn't because she the most like a sister to me. Caleb was my brother and Hanna was my sister while you and Ali were my best friends and Aria was the one I was in love with. I don't know what I'm gonna do if Hanna dies and Ali. She knows how to keep me strong. With us it may seem like a competetion of who's the strongest but it was really just one trying to keep the other strong. Don't you dare say anything like that to me again!" Spencer shoots back
"Can please not aruge right now! The fact is Caleb is dead and now Ali and Hanna might die to and the three of us don't know how to be strong for them all we can to is fight like a bunch of kids. Think about poor James and Clay. They just found out their big brother is dead, and now Hanna, who is like thier sister, might die too. We need to get over ourselves and be strong for Hanna, Alison, James, and Clay." Aria intervenes
"Excuse me, I'm looking for Dr. and Mrs. Dawson." A man a navy blue scrubs and a white lab coat walks in to the waiting room.
"Thats us." Claudia says
"Hi, Mrs. Dawson. I'm Dr. Price. I operated on Hanna, but Alison's doctor should be out soon as well."
"How is she?" Spencer asks
"Hanna suffered a pretty bad brain injury. She made it through the operation, but she'll like suffer brain damage. There's no way of knowing until she wakes up. There's a 50% that she'll slip into a coma because she suffered from so much damage so the next 24 hours are critical. Right now we just have to hope for the best because until she wakes up we can't know how extensive the damage is. I wish I could give better news but right now we should just be glad she's still alive." Dr. Price explains
"Thank you Doctor." Billy says shaking his hand
"Oh and I see Dr. Burton now. She's Alison's doctor."
"Hi, I'm Dr. Pamela Burton, I operated on Alison."
"Nice to meet you Dr. Burton. How is she?" Claudia asks
"Well even though Ms. DiLaurentis was reported as the one driving, she still went through the windshield on the passenger side so that just shows how bad the accident was. Unfortunetly she did lose the baby but she was so early in her pregnancy we figured that would happen. She suffered a lot of injuries to her adomen. We had to remove her spleen and and a kindey and she lost a lot of blood. She's lucky to be alive. We believe the surgery went well but we won't know more until she wakes up." The doctor explains
"So when will be able to see her?" Billy asks
"Once she's out of recovery. Dr. Bradley will be overseeing both her's and Ms. Marin's recoveries from here on out and he'll let you know when you can see them both. It'll probably be one to three hours before they leave recovery so you should try and get some rest." Dr. Burton suggests
"Thank you Dr. Burton." Both the Dawson's say
"Well they made it this far, and they can make it the rest of the way." Billy tell us
"Dad you can stop now. We all heard the Docs, they're both lucky to be alive. And a person can only handle so much tragedy in one day so will you just shut up with all the positivity crap! I'm sick of it!" James yells
"Your a doctor Dad! Its your job to try and fix people who have no hope and then try and give thier families hope! Its annoying ok! Were not your patients!" Clay adds
"Hey guys thats not very nice." I say
"Yeah he's you father and you need to apologize." Spencer adds
"We get it, your hurting. We all are. But don't take it out on your dad because its not fair and its not his fault." Aria says
"Guys when three pretty girls who you know you can trust give you advice, you should take it." Their mom advises them
"Sorry Dad." Both boys say and hang their heads in shame
"Docs are always hiding something from you. I should know because I am one. I gonna go see what else I can find out."
Billy gets up and heads to the elevator
"Where's he going?" I ask
"Who knows." Spencer answers
10 mintues later Dr. Dawson steps out of the elevator in his navy blue scrubs with his tablet in hand. Each doctor has their own tablet which has patient information, and other stuff like that. He tells one of the nurses something about a patient in a nearby room and offers to man the nurses station while she takes care of the patient, telling her he's not supposed to be adminstering any medcial care due to the loss of his son. He couldn't access Ali or Hanna's files on his tablet quick enough so he uses the computer at the nurses station. He notices the nurse leaving the patient's room and quickily exits out of the files he was looking at.
"If you'll excuse me, I need to talk to a patient's family." He says and walks over to us
"Well what did you find out Dad?" Clay asks
"Hanna flatlined in surgery. Thats actually something they normally will tell you but Dr. Price probably left that part out because some of things written in his file suggests that he's alomst certain she's never gonna wake up but he wants us to think that we should still have hope right now even though he doesn't. Dr. Burton said that Alison lost a lot of blood but she didn't tell us why. We don't tell our patients half the things that go wrong in surgery for several reasons. Saying Ali lost a lot of blood could mean she lost a lot of blood in the field which would be pretty likely but she lost a lot of blood in surgery. One of the younger doctors that hasn't been practicing as long as some of the others made a mistake. He knicked an atery. She lost of lot of blood, almost enough to kill her. I didn't get to read the charts as well as I would have liked to but its obvious they both will have to fight like hell to survive. My tablet isn't working correctly so I'm gonna put in a work order and ask for another one so I can follow up on my patients and so I can know everything about the girls recoveries." Billy explains
"Dad why are you telling us all this if keep things from your patients and their familes too?" James asks
"We do it to protect them. We don't tell them something thats just gonna cause them to worry even more unless its absolutely necessary. Thats what Dr. Price and Burton were doing but when its your family, you wanna know. Luckily I can get us that information." Billy explains to his son
"Yeah well I'd rather not have known Hanna's doctor thinks she's gonna die and someone made mistake in surgery that nearly killed Alison! I'm glad doctors keep thinks from us! Its a hell of a lot less painful that way! Don't tell me anything else!" Spencer shouts angrily and storms off. Aria quickily gets up and tries to follow her
"Aria let her go. I know she's your girlfriend, and you love her, and you want to comfort her but right now she just needs space. I wish Billy never would have told us that either and a part of me wants to run off and cry myself but if start crying I won't be able to stop. Just let her go. She'll be fine." I tell her
"She's not fine Emily. None of us are and Ali, and Han might not ever be. Ali lost her girlfriend then she lost her baby. She'll be in hell. And poor Hanna lost her boyfriend, and now she thinks she's lost me all because I looked away." Aria argues
"Aria what are you talking you about?" I ask
"Before she left she could tell I was hurt because she kissed Spencer then she asked Alison to be with her when she said she wanted to be alone so she turned around and looked me in the eye to see if it was true. I turned away after about two seconds to find Spencer's gaze instead. She thinks I don't love her anymore and she knows Caleb loves her." Aria sighs
"Aria, trust me, everyone know how much you love Hanna and how much she loves you. Even Hanna could never forget that. Its easy to think the person who you love doesn't love you back but you and Hanna were both dating other people who you were in love with yet you both knew how they other felt about you. But I don't think that's what this is about so what is it about?"
"How do you choose between the best friend that your in love with and the girlfriend your in love with? How do you choose who's heart to break?"
"Ok c'mon." I stand up and drag Aria to where we can have a private conversation
"First of all don't think of it as choosing who's heart to break. Why did you choose Spencer over Hanna the first time?" I ask
"Spencer was the easier choice."
"Easier how?" I ask with a chuckle
"Ok thats not what I meant. Me and Hanna both were afraid to risk our friendship over a relationship."
"If you were both so afraid to risk it, it sounds like we both thought it wouldn't work."
"But I was worried about the same thing with Spencer but I knew I just wanted to be with her no matter the odds."
"Aria you keep implying that you love Hanna more, but its sounds like you love Spencer more. You were afraid of the risk with both but you chose Spencer because you loved her so much you were willing to risk everything. Sometimes thats what you gotta do for love."
"But you don't get it Emily. Me and Hanna both decided to just be friends, but now I'm considering breaking Spencer's heart for Hanna. I thought I loved Spencer more but it doesn't make sense anymore."
"You and Spencer broke up. Your afraid she'll doing something to break your heart so your considering breaking hers first."
"Ok now I'm confused. You made it clear that you didn't want Ali back then you started talking me into getting Spencer back so I thought you wanted Hanna but now you did a complete 180 and you thought about it for a second so tell me, are you after Hanna or Spencer?"
"Look Aria, I may have said I didn't want Ali back but I didn't mean it."
"Thats why you make sure the people who you love know you love them becuase you never know when you're gonna lose them. That's why I feel so bad about looking away from Hanna. Even if l don't want to be with her, I still want her to know I love her."
"Ok you know we're not helping each other so how about this. We just bawl our eyes out so maybe we won't have in tears left to cry when they wake up and we won't have to listen to them telling us not to cry." I suggest with a weak laugh
"Trust me Em. We'll still be bawling. What we need is to be strong."
"How?"
"To hell if I know!"
"Do you thing they'll make it?" I ask
"I don't know. I guess we just have to wait and find out."
Ok so when I was writing this it was a lot longer but I decided to make it into a two part chapter even though both parts are short. I didn't make sense to tell the fate of the girls in the same chapter as the accident happens but don't worry, you don't have to wait two months for an update. I'm gonna update tomorrow because the second half is already written. Well actually its 3 in the morning where I live so I might up later tonight like after I actually slept and its night again or I'll actually update the next day. I haven't decided yet but in the mean time don't forget to ~Stay Weird.