Chapter two
You use to be happy, really happy. You had a lot of friends in middle school and was beginning to enjoy your newfound maturity knowing that you were going to a new school, complete with a group of steady friends. It was so thrilling.
You were always the type of person who does the right thing. For instance, keeping your grades up and earning honor roll, worked part-time job and even volunteered at a pet store. You were never in trouble and always careful and aware, remembering everything your parents taught always knew bad things could happen but you knew that this stuff would never happen to you. You were too careful and too smart. But you soon found out that these things can happen.
There is a common saying that time is a great healer. Sometimes it is hard to believe that there will come a day when you won't re-live that night. You look forward to the time when You won't shudder and cringe as something happens to trigger off yet another painful memory.
After that night you changed. Everything changed, the friends you had lost interest in you becuase you continously made excuses to not come out of your home and started becoming more introverted. You cared less and less about how you looked and started wearing clothes that didn't make you hate yourself. Grades dropped poorly, you stopped volenteering. You stopped living.
A group of girls walked pass you in the halls and luagh. You didn't mind people not talking to you much. By now you were use to being alone in your own thoughts, for now you wished for nothing more then to live a simple high school life in solitude. Unfortunatly life wasn't always that simple...
You walk into the host club.
It's been two weeks and youve spent every afternoon in the third music room with the host's listening and learning. All of them are very abrupt, blunt and stuck up.
Kyoya, Tamaki and the twins Hikaru and Kaoru stare. You turn to them and they all look away doing there own things again. they have been wacthing your every move trying endlessly to give you a talent so you can practice and present yourself; but you don't know what to do; You don't have any special talents due to the fact that you were not special anymore.
The twins pop up at you side. " Are you ready for your new life as a...!" they both pause in unison. You understood what they meant without adding a label on it.
" I suppose."
Hikaru and kaoru roll their eyes, they don't talk often with you and usually call you boring, they notice you more at the host club then any other time in school, usually Harhui, Hikaru and Koaru sit together in the middle of the classroom as you sit silently at the back.
The twins shove paints and blank papers on a table. " Are you good at art?" Kaoru asks
" Can you make something?" Hikaru gestures you to sit down.
You shudder at them, you hated when they, when anyone aknowlged you.
Do they really not notice how every core of you is disgusting? How can they not see how Disturbed you look.
" Hikaru! Kaoru, move a few inches away from her, she's getting uncomfortable again." Harhui pipes up from the other side of the couch.
" We only asked if you wanted to sit next to us." one twin said
They had a conversation?
The other twin talked " Yeah, Emi here is small enough to fit all three of us."
" That's not the point." Harhui said tired of talking down to them. " Just give her some space."
The entire hosts have been doing there best to keep their distence with you. It has been easy since it was difficult to properly know you becuase of how little you conversed with everyone. If you did it was not more then one sentence.
You stare at the blank peice of paper and try to draw the two twin boys infront of you. One of them actually, You drew the angle of his face slowly making sure everything was in order, you look up at his eyes, the peculiar golden color was although attra- you shake your head.
you know better then to touch on that subject
" em chan?" honey said in the most innocent voice youve ever heard from an adult The other host's walk behind Hikaru and Koaru who still stood there puased. " what is that?"
The picture you thought looked like one of the twins ended up looking like a dark scrible. you blinked at your own picture confused at how ugly your picture looked, wondering where you went wrong?
" clearly art isn't your skill." Kyoya sighed.
A knock came from the large doors. He opens up the doors and welcoming guest's in. Girls poured into the room. Some of the girls you can reconize a few girls who came by almost everyday.
You walk around timidly at all the pretty woman filling the once empty room.
At least your no longer alone...
They stared at you and whispered things to their friends, some pointed and snickered. you snap out of your trance and near the host's, you got observed them from a distence wacthing them use their communication skills.
Hunny see's you and waves happily " Em chan! Em chan!" he waves you over and you near the two boys. Hunny introduces you " This Is Em chan! Isn't she the preetyist?" The ladies including you blink at Hunny. " Did you guys know she will be a part of the host club from now on! Oh! And she will be doing a special talent for us too!"
" So she is like an entertainer?" one of the girls ask confused.
One of them smiles " When do you start I would love to see you."
A hint of blush forms on your face " I-"
I have no talents.
you hear a whistle call you, Tamaki waves you over with his hand, you turn to the lady guests and you bow " Bye."
Tamaki smiles up at you while brushing another girls hair on the loveseat " My Beutiful ladies, this is Emi Yu. She will be hosting at our club."
A girl looked confused " Like, what you do? She will be another host?"
Tamaki luaghs " Oh no princess, nothing like that. Emi will only be playing a quick role but she needs to find her special talent before she can start, any suggestions ladies?"
" She could teach us how to live life in poverty?" one says " Isn't Emi from a diffrent country? maybe she can teach us linguistic skills?" the seconds girl tells Tamaki, a happy girl waves her hands up " Oh! is she good at any sports?"
" she could cook or bake?"
" magic tricks?"
You stood there listening to what they all listed for you. There was one girl you noticed who didn't say anyhting, she looked upset she clenches her teeth together and then chuckles " Why would any of you want Yu san in your club. haven't any of you heard? Yu sans type of fun isn't fun to be around, plus she sticks to herself all the time, why would anyone want to spend there time trying to get to know her...she's a waste of time becuase she will not open up to anyone."
The host's eyes bore into the scene displayed not knowing wheather to get up and defend you or not, you didn't look appaled. You wore the same stotic facial exprecian you had on everyday. What she said was right..you push people away unintentionally, your a solitude person and people don't like solitude.
" Miss Hozono I think it is time you take your leave." Kyoya expressed " If you are feeling better tomorrow then you may enter our room but until then you can keep your -."
" no."
Kyoya and the other host's furrow their brows.
" It would be best if I left..." Your shoes tapped loudly in the silent room as you traveld the distence to grab your duffle bag and dress it on your shoulders. Everyones eyes stayed on your figure as you left the host collectivly closing the door politely behind you.
" Do you think she will survive the host club?" Harhui asks in a whisper to no one in particular. Mori smiles down at her with a reasuring smile and nod.
Kyoya rubs the brigde of his nose " Miss Hozono. Leave now, please."
" WAH!" the girl gasp " what do you mean!?"
Harhui thinks " should we be honest with her?"
Koaru and Hikaru recite " Behaving like a Princess is about more than just learning better manners."
" Princesses are strong women who use their courage and brains to make life better for others. " Honey and Mori say
"Princesses boldly face the responsibility of being a princess all while letting their inner beauty bring light to everyone around them." Tamaki points at the girl before him " and the way you behaved today was nothing of the sort."
" You may leave now." Kyoya smiles coldly. the girl reaces for the doors in tears and silience perices the room again. He looks around the room at a few of the clients still left after the scene.
You found a tiny door, a closet.
This closet is abandoned-it has no purpose, no name. It is the perfect place for you.
You enter the tight door closing it with you inside, you stare at the dark emptiness and your trigger hits you. emmediatly you reach for a light switch and brighten up the room but there is none. You need to think of something fast.
distraction, distraction. ...
You weren't good at it, but you did love it, so much you even sucked up enough courage to try it this year..until the host informed you the curiculum has retired. You hum the song to yourself at first before taking a breath of air and you sing to yourself.
Your mother sang this lulliby to you as a child at night before you went to bed. You were afraid of the dark, still am apparently so she would sing this to you to calm your nerves of the dark and after a while it worked, at least for a little while. You keep singing the sad melody inside the cramped and dark closet. It's been so long since you've sung out loud.
when did your heart decide it was no longer alright for you to sing? Oh yes...The night you-
a soft knock disrupted you. " Yu san." a soft feminine voice says your name. You wait a moment before you step out from the tight spot. Your pupils grow wide when it's one of hunny's clients. She is also in one of your classes too, up close you notice she has the prettiest green eye's you have ever seen with very soft chestnut hair that bounced above her shoulders. She looked like a china doll. " Yu san...are you okay?"
you stare at her for anoher moment but shake your head "... I'm alright." you guessed
Hahrui stared at you not knowing to beilive you or not. " Host club is done early today. After what had happened everyone searched for you. people are worried."
You tense up not realizing He was in the room too. "... sorry."
The other girl smiles "My name is Ana, Emi...would you like to be friends?"
when you heard her you wondered if you didn't just pretend to hear her say that.
Why does she want to be friends with a person like you?
you nod in complient
" if we don't go back soon Kyoya might get the entire police station to come looking after you." Harhui said looking around
Ana luaghed gently and held out her hand " lets go, kay Emi chan?" you took her hand cuatiously and the two of you ran together. Was this a dream? was there really someone who wants to be your friend, someone who is willing to put up with your bad social skills and be your friend. You stare at the bubbly girl leading you; her hands are warm. Eventually the two of you stood infront of the large doors again and Ana opens just the one for your bodies to slip through." I found Emi chan!" she beamed
" Where were you!?" Tamaki scolded. You were taken back at how concerned he seemed, you were maybe gone only thirty minutes. He gave in a deep sigh knowing you wouldn't give much of an answer back. " Don't do that again."
" ok..."
Kyoya asked " Where did you find her Ana?"
Ana thought deeply " I found her in one of the empty rooms. I was going to leave but then..." she smiled warmly at you with her eyes" Oh yes...then I heard a lovely sound. She was singing inside a closet, I was going to listen to her sing more but I rememberd that I needed to bring her back...Emi chan is very talented you know! I was in a trance!"
" you think... i'm talented?" you ask almost in dilbelif, she smiles and nods right at you.
Are you infatuated?
Kyoya searched for something in his jacket pocket. He flips the paper open and read it. There it was in bold printed letters, his lips curled into a smirk and he starts chuckling. All of you stare wide eyed at him " It was right under our noses the entire time."
He reveils the paper out for the other host's, Tamaki greedily takes it with the other member reading behind him. " Choir" They all stare up at you... " She...can sing."