A/N: Mentions of suicide.
"Do you still think about him?" Angelina asks softly, one late night after they've put the kids to sleep.
"Yeah," George sighs as he stroke her bare back. He's not sure why she has to bring this up now. They've just had sex for the first time in months and he's not sure why she wants to talk about it. Way to ruin a moment, Ange, he thinks.
"Is it as bad?" she questions, resting her chin on his chest.
"No," he answers simply. "I'll never be whole or anything like that, but it's not as bad."
"It's just. . ." she trails off, tracing her finger over his chest. "Well, I just heard someone talking the other day about her friend who committed suicide because she lost someone in the war. Did you. . .did you ever feel that way?"
George sighs. "A few times."
"Would you have done it?" her voice quivers as she asks.
"Left to my own devices, I probably would have," he answers honestly.
"Why didn't you tell me?" she says, desperation in her voice.
"Because you can't carry every burden, love," he tells her. "Besides, my family was there for me during that time and you were still mourning yourself. I wasn't going to load you with that."
"Why?" she snaps. "I would have helped. I would have been here."
"Angelina," George replies, tersely. "What brought this up?"
Her lower lip trembles. "I just. . . .I don't want to loose you."
Then she's full on sobbing and George is wishing he hadn't been so harsh with her.
"Oh, Angie, here now," he mutters, pulling her close and rocking her. "It's alright. I'm not going anywhere and I mostly had those thoughts in the beginning. It's not like that anymore. Calm down, love."
"I don't want to loose you, George," Angelina sobs.
"I know, I know and I'm not going anywhere," he tries to comfort her. "Angelina, I promise. I'll stay right here."
Finally, she seems to calm down. Gently, George lays back down with her in the crook of his arm. They don't speak again for the rest of the night, which relieves George, though he keeps a strong hold on his wife, just to make sure she knows he's here. He knows that sometimes, even the strongest get scared.