Holding Back by Daikeru Insanity
Here comes Chapter 7(8)!
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Chapter 7
'Wish You Were Here'
(Takeru's POV)
"Oh come on, kiss me again, you know you want to!" The tanned teen leans in towards the adjacent male, who hesitates for a moment.
"Yeah but, what about him, Dai?" 'Oh crap, they're both looking at me now...'
"Oh, he's nobody. We had a bit of fun, but that's all it was! Now why don't we go inside...and have some fun of our own?"
Daisuke links hands with the taller male as he proceeds to pull him into his apartment, eyes filled with lust. The door starts to slowly shut, leaving me to be isolated, emotions flowing like crazy.
"No! Dai, please come back! I lo-"
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I find myself in a cold sweat, breathing uneven, pulse racing and sheets entangled in my arms. I wipe away a loose tear and then fully grasp the fact that I'm not at Dai's, I'm in my bed at home.
'Thank god, it was just a dream! Scratch that actually...a nightmare. It may have only been a nightmare, but it did happen in a sense.' Looking at my bedside clock, I see that it's the next day now and that my restless night is finally over. I had woken up several times throughout the night, each time because of the same dream, the betrayal new and more powerful each time, but there nonetheless.
Groaning in exasperation, I drop my head into my hands, wishing that everything could just be normal once again. Unfortunately I'm a teenager, and thus my life is destined to be saturated with misery and angst...
*Ring* *Ring*
I'm pulled out of my depressing thoughts by the shrill sound of my cell phone, which I notice was left discarded on the floor along with my jeans. I don't even have to get up to see the picture of the burgundy haired soccer player appear on the screen, for about the 8th time in the past sixteen hours. Not in anyway inclined to treat this particular call any differently, I ignore the ringing until an awkward silence fills my bedroom once more. 'I'm having awkward silences with myself...This is not good.'
'I'm not interested in whatever he has to say anyway, since whatever he could tell me would just break my heart.' My emotions have been completely frayed the past night, with a crippling mixture of rage and sorrow felt towards Daisuke. 'I even know deep down that I could probably sort all this crap out by just talking to him. But that's deep down. On the surface, I choke. Everything just becomes so real when I talk to him! Anyway, he's made it pretty clear that he's not interested in me anyway so what's the point? I'm obviously just some horrible, drunken mistake to him.'
I try to get back to wallowing in my own self-pity but my ever wise brother knocks on the open bedroom door.
"Takeru...? You awake, yeah? I saw you get home yesterday but I didn't want to bother you then cause you seemed pretty upset. I'll go and assume that things didn't go well at Daisuke's yesterday, did they?"
'Oh you don't say? How could he ask such a stupid question? But still, he's your brother so just remain calm...'
"Oh no Matt, everything's perfect! He told me that he loves me and wants nothing more than to be my boyfriend! In fact I'm getting ready for our first date as we speak!"
'Ok fine, I snapped.' The comment seems to make Matt wince slightly. Probably half from my volatile reaction and half from the knowledge that he was the one that pushed me into going over there and essentially piloted my self-esteem tailspin...I'm quite edgy just now, which might be obvious but the events of the past week are starting to really stack up, causing a serious head and heart ache.
"Ok I get it, that was a stupid question, sorry... wanna tell me what happened over there?"
Matt moves over to the bed and sits down next to where I've propped myself into an upright position. He then throws one of his arms round my side and pulls me into his embrace, my head resting on his shoulder.
"Well...once you had convinced me to go out and confront him – thanks by the way – I stopped off at the florists and picked up a small bouquet for him. That's not important though. Anyway, I was steeling myself for the conversation to follow, but when I got out of the elevator I saw..." I clench my fists at the memory but Matt soothingly rubs my arm and I soon relax and continue; "...I saw Dai kissing this random dude in the hall! I dropped the bouquet in shock and then just got the hell out of there! You should have seen it Matt, it killed me to watch him make out with this guy so soon after what happened between us. "
At that point, any emotion I had been holding back decided that captivity wasn't suitable and all the pent up sorrow mercilessly ran out of me, taking the form of an onslaught of tears. I threw myself fully into my brother's arms, with mine closing around his waist, as if he could make all the problems in the world suddenly vanish.
I couldn't help but notice my brother glaring absently through the window opposite him, his mind probably fixated on Daisuke and how I've become so depressed. 'No one, and I mean absolutely no one hurts my little brother and gets away with it...I'll get to the bottom of this.' With myself semi-oblivious, my brother continues to stir his anger as he holds me gently. A couple of minutes pass as I calm myself down, getting my tears under control. Eventually, Matt holds me at arms length and establishes eye contact;
"Look Takeru, I'm really sorry that I pushed you into that. I should have just let you deal with it in your own time, in your own way. It's my fault that you had to see that." 'That baka...always bearing the world's problems on his shoulders. He doesn't even realize how much he helps me. Granted I did kinda blame him but I was just pissed off...'
"N-no, Matt. I wasn't seriously blaming you. You're a great brother! I wasn't getting anywhere by sitting around moping...At least now I know that there's nothing there, I guess." The drop of my face and tone was enough to break my brother's heart. He hates more than anything to see me upset, and he'd do absolutely anything for me.
"Ok look, I know this sucks right now and that you'd rather do nothing more than forget about him but this isn't over just yet! Now I gotta go take care of something right now but you stay here and lie down, maybe listen to some music and just try and get into a happy place." Before disappearing out the bedroom door, Matt kisses me on my forehead and gives me a final, reassuring smile.
'Happy place? Ok, how do I go from 'Burning Orphanage' to 'Puppy-Infested-Rainbow-Field' before Matt gets back...?
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(Yamato's POV)
'Grr! Pick up, pick up, pick up!' I'm currently pacing back and forth in the family kitchen, visibly impatient. Before I can move on to making death threats into my cell phone, I finally hear the sound of my call being accepted and the consistently cheery voice greets;
"Hello, Kamiya residence! How may I enhance your morning?"
Normally I would be calmed down in an instead upon hearing that angelic, fun voice. Today however, I am beyond calming. Given the calm and normal response I give, this fact is hard to accept;
"Damn it! What the hell have you done, Tai?" 'Alright, I lied. Sue me.'
"Huh? Yama? Calm down man, what are you talking about?" My boyfriend's confusion is apparent in his tone, but then again, what's new? I'd have to give him a few moments to catch up...
"Have you spoken to Daisuke lately?" 'Still angry, Yamato...'
"Erm, not since Saturday really. I've been trying to call him since last night actually but he won't answer his phone...What happened, Yama?"
'Oh boy, the many colourful ways I could answer THAT question...'
"Allow me to fill you in. I'll try and keep it concise to accommodate for your attention span." I couldn't help but smirk to myself, that ought to provoke a reac-
"Sorry, what?" 'Bastard. I can practically hear him grinning into the phone...'
"Mess with the bull, you get the horns! Now get on with it, this sounds serious!" 'Tai trying to get me on task? I'll be damned...pigs apparently do fly.'
"Right. Well, Takeru went over to Daisuke's yesterday to confess his feelings for him, as I had suggested...rather erroneously it would seem. He built himself up for it and everything. He even bought flowers, and what does he find when he reaches Daisuke's apartment? He was making out with some other guy!" Silence over the phone connection as I regain composure and attempt to collect my thoughts. Tai is obviously thrown by this new knowledge too, but he's not getting any mercy yet. "Tai, you told me that Daisuke was crazy about Takeru! I sent him over there after you assured me that it would all be fine!"
Apparently these accusations were enough to finally snap Tai out of his silent suspension;
"He does! Dai has it bad for Takeru, seriously! I'm pretty sure he's all that Dai can think about. But...making out? Who would he even be...oh no."
'I swear to god, I might actually strangle him this time.'
"'Oh no' what? Don't you 'oh no' me, Kamiya! Spit it out, right now!"
I could hear Tai stammering and hesitating on the other end but I'll give him a minute. Even he knows that not answering me right now is a certified death wish. Finally he manages to speak clearly and calmly;
"I think I know who Dai was kissing."
'Seriously Tai, if soccer doesn't work out, become the host of one of these talent shows. You don't half build suspense...'
"I'm waiting..." 'I can just imagine him saying something like "Find out after this short break!"...I would have to break up with him.'
"It was most likely his ex-boyfriend, Archie." 'The fuck..?' "Last week, 'Kari and I found out that a load of stuff happened between them before Dai moved here, and it's been constantly haunting him. That was what was stopping him for going after Takeru, much as he desperately wanted to. Hehe, this is where things get a bit awkward for me..."
My voice is deathly calm and cold as I respond; "Tai...I'm going to repeat my very first question, one last time. What the hell have you done?"
"Erm, I might have contacted Archie and had him...come to Odaiba. It's also possible that he might have arrived...Round about the time that Takeru went over to see him?" I remain silent for what – to Tai – must seem like an eternity. Calm before the storm doesn't even describe it...I can't help but literally facepalm at my boyfriend's stupidity before releasing my unholy rage upon him.
"Tai, you idiot! Takeru is absolutely heart-broken! I cannot believe...Are those two going to get back together?"
"No!" Tai responds immediately and loudly. "I don't think so anyway...Look, all that Archie was meant to do was go over and give Dai some closure about their relationship so that he could stop beating himself up over it and move on. This was meant to lead Dai right to Takeru!"
"How'd that work out for us...?" Sighing at my dark comment, I settle on a choice of course, desperate to help fix the proverbial train wreck which is my brother's love life. "Right. Well with some luck, I'll hopefully be able to convince Takeru to go over and speak to Daisuke...again." 'It's not like the second trip could go any worse...Actually, scratch that thought cause Lady Luck hasn't exactly been doing us any favours.'
"If it can be helped, I would rather that Takeru hear the truth about everything from Daisuke, rather than us."
Tai makes a few low noises in the phone as I speak, which I take as his acknowledgement and agreement concerning my thoughts. "Alright then, make sure to keep me updated, and good luck. I love you, Yama."
'That guy...I scream bloody murder at him and not only does he just sit there and take it, but then he's all sweet and lovey-dovey to me. I don't deserve someone so amazing...I'm not gonna complain, however.'
"Will do, Tai. I love you too." We both hang up and I'm left to figure out how to approach Takeru about going back to Daisuke's place. 'Humour is always a favourite. But this is no joke, so maybe I should just tackle it directly. He'll think I'm crazy but he's just gonna need to get over it. God, what a mess...When did my little brother suddenly turn his life into a soap opera plot? Let's just hope it can all be sorted out before it's too late.'
I make my way back upstairs and head into my little brother's room.
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(Takeru's POV)
'Ok...it's been about 10 minutes now, where's Matt gone...Oh that must be him now. I can hear his footsteps coming up the stairs. Ok Takeru, happy place!'
Matt opens my bedroom door and slowly, almost carefully enters, not looking at all cheery, which doesn't fill me with enthusiasm about the conversation which I just know is to come...
"You feeling any better, little bro'?" He sits back on the bed next to where I lie as he speaks, concern filling his deep blue eyes, practically identical to my own.
"A bit, I guess. I feel a bit more emotionally stable now, on the bright side." I manage a weak smile as I respond, which for some reason only makes Matt's face drop. He sighs, and then looks right at me, before stating;
"Good, cause you'll need to be. You need to go back to Daisuke's..."
Matt's face twitches a bit as he unsuccessfully tries to hide his tensing. I shoot into an upright position in bed at his little suggestion, not entirely convinced that I heard him correctly. 'Go back there? The hell I am! Let's remember what happened last time, shall we?'
I'm unsure whether he's serious or trying to be funny. Either way, I am not amused. I find myself beginning to get rather angry at my brother, as if he wants my heart to be broken again!
"WHAT? Are you out of your freaking mind?" 'Ok, I appreciate that my tone and vocabulary were rather vulgar there, and Matt's expression clearly shows that my outburst isn't sitting well with him. God bless him though, I think he's gonna let it go for the mean time.'
Once more my brother takes a deep sigh, as he clearly has some explaining to do. 'Of all the idiotic ideas...'
"Alright, look. I appreciate that things weren't all 'sunshine and lollipops' the last time I sent you over there, but you really need to see the bigger picture, Takeru!"
A future job prospect for Matt in amateur theatrics aside, I quizzically raise an eyebrow at the response, whilst also folding my arms across my chest, forming the most sceptical look I can muster. "Oh do tell."
After receiving a rather surly roll of the eyes, Matt proceeds;
"Well you two are best friends, or at least you're supposed to be! Sure, we're on holiday from school just now, so you can ignore him all you like but soon we'll be back and you're gonna be forced to see him every day. I know that you want to know who this mystery kisser was and what he means to Daisuke, right? Then go over there, get the answers out of him and mend this damn rift while you still can!"
One of the things that makes Matt a rather amazing, yet annoying brother is that he has such an incredible way with words, that I can never argue with him on the most serious of matters in life, like this. He manages to mix in the perfect combination of guilt, drama and irritation into his speeches in order to set me straight. Accepting defeat, I take my turn to sigh at the god-forsaken situation I've landed myself in.
"You're right, Matt. I wish more than anything else that you weren't, but you are. You always are. I need to thank you, for everything. You constantly put up with my moaning and help me deal with any crap that comes my way. I don't know what I'd do without you. Guess I'll go talk to the jerk, then." I attempt to get myself out of bed, as I'm still to get properly dressed but Matt lays a hand on my shoulder and gently pushes me back down into a lying position.
"Tomorrow. Just rest for now, you'll need your strength, emotionally that is." My weak smile manages to transform into a grin in order to match the one now worn by my brother. He gets up to leave for the second time today and at the doorway, turns back to me;
"I'm proud of you little bro' but be warned...if you ever snap at me like that again, I'll knock you on your ass!" The idle threat is accompanied by a wink and I simply stick my tongue out in response as Matt heads back downstairs.
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After having my first good night's sleep in about a week, it's Friday morning now and I'm currently walking through the streets of Odaiba. I'm making the journey to Daisuke's apartment building...again and I can't believe I'm doing this considering how things ended last time.
'Still, you know Matt's right, Takeru...unfortunately. I'll just face up to this like a man, instead of crying at home like a baby! Oh crap, I forgot how quickly I would get here, what the hell am I gonna say without sounding pathetic?'
By this point, any confidence I had managed to build up before arriving in the soccer player's apartment building was well and truly squashed. Being totally unprepared for the confrontation to follow and practically on auto-pilot, I push the elevator button to take me to Dai's floor. Millions of scenarios were playing through my head, none with a happy ending. Before I know it, I arrive at the front door to the apartment of shattered hopes...'Well, here goes nothing...Please let this go smoothly!'
Heart pounding and sweat starting, I knock clearly three times on the apartment door, and wait...
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(Daisuke's POV)
I feel much groggier than usual upon waking up, but then again I wasn't in the most comfortable position in the world. After yawning and making sure I can actually open my eyes, I gaze out of the adjacent window.
The surroundings are simply beautiful. Mother nature presents a masterpiece of forestry in every direction. Colours are vibrant, in several shades of green, brown, yellow and the blue of the crystal clear sky. Young animals can be seen frolicking amongst the shrubbery, showing not a care of the world. However, despite the intense peace and wonder of the simple scene presented, none of it manages to make me feel any better about my situation.
Truth be told, the whole thing makes me feel worse. Call me pathetic, lovesick or whatever...but all this beauty just forces me to think about Takeru even more. 'He'd love it here...' I can't help but think. In such a short time I've fallen for him so hard, and now to avoid hurting him even further I'm going to have to ignore and hide these feelings. 'Ugh, even though everything's all awkward now and he probably hates me, I just want more than anything to see him right now...'
"You do realize that you owe me an explanation later, right?" 'Huh? What the...oh.'
I'm startled by the sudden noise and only when I jerk my head to the right do I realize that my sister is still right next to me, eyes and body focused on the road ahead, while her mind works on a completely different project.
Not at all comprehending what she means, I must be shooting her a blank, puzzled look because she sighs to herself and continues;
"Oh, come on Dai! I'm not an idiot, you know. You hate when we get forced to go to our grandparent's house each year. So when you suddenly beg me to drive you there for Easter break all of a sudden, of course I'm going to be suspicious!"
'Shit. She has a good point actually, but of course I'm still gonna deny everything! This is not a conversation I want to have.'
"Please! That doesn't mean anything..." Instead of a sigh, I've been upgraded to a scoff as Jun clearly isn't buying it.
"Oh yeah? Well then how about this: At home, if you're not eating, sleeping or playing soccer, you'll have either your cell phone or laptop screen glued to your face. Why then, would you leave both of them under your bed, essentially isolating yourself from any external contact for a week?"
'Great...I'm screwed. Ignoring her obvious snooping, I have no logical explanation now, because I know she's right.'
I open my mouth to try and concoct some bullshit excuse to deter her from further interrogating me, but Jun raises a hand to inform me that she isn't done yet (to be honest, 'I forgot' is probably the best reason I could come up with right now anyway...).
"I didn't pester you about it at the time because you seemed really desperate to get away, and I'm playing along since I'm your sister. I don't want to annoy you, I just want you to be able to talk to me, cause I am here for you, Dai."
Jun's words actually really sink in, to my surprise, and I begin to realize that no matter what stupid things we fight about or say to one another, she'll always protect me when needed and that she would never judge me. I give Jun a warm smile upon finding this strong, new appreciation for her. 'Maybe I could talk to her about all this, after all!'
"But when we get to the cottage, you willbe telling me everything!"
"Deal."
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(Takeru's POV)
"Damn it! Answer Dai, please!" As is probably obvious, I'm back home now, having not found Daisuke in his apartment. I've been trying to call him for the past ten minutes and my temper is worsening with each additional minute.
'Damn it Motomiya, how more mad could you possibly want to make me? You break my heart, then you call me non-stop afterwards when I want nothing more to do with you and when I finally do decide to talk, you're not even home! You could at least have the decency to pick up the damn phone and let me scream my head off at you...'
I quickly realize that my efforts are in vain and flop down on my bed in exasperation, carelessly tossing my phone in the process. As if practiced, Matt then appears in the doorway to my bedroom once more. 'He must pick up my hopelessness on radar or something...'
Studying my aggravated look for a moment, Matt then proceeds to speak;
"You don't exactly bear the expression of a man with recently resolved issues..." I simply raise my head slightly from the bed to stare at my brother, his observation clearly more a question than a statement.
"Ugh...Dai isn't answering his phone, it keeps putting me through to the machine and this isn't really a conversation to have over voicemail. I'm only calling because there was no one at the apartment and one of his neighbours said they saw him and Jun heading away on a trip. Suitcases and everything. So yeah, I'm a bit panicky and annoyed right now." 'A lot annoyed, but never mind.'
It doesn't take a behavioural analyst to see that Matt is pretty pissed off right now.
'Having a nice holiday, Daisuke? How the hell can you just run away from all these problems, given everything else you've already put Takeru through! I mean, I know he was trying to run away from the problem too...but not literally! Great, now he's made me do the one thing I was hoping could be avoided.When I get my hands on him...'
I was once again oblivious to the thoughts circulating my brother's mind but they probably weren't particularly flattering towards Dai...I do however notice Matt sigh and bury his face in his hands for a moment, donning a rather defeated expression.
"Come with me, Takeru. You have to hear the truth, one way or another."
That's all that's said before Matt heads out of the room, leaving me to follow him downstairs, which I do rather quickly, anxious to find out what 'truth' he is referring to. As we descend and finally reach the living room, I notice very quickly that Tai is sitting on the couch, which only serves to confuse the crap out of me...
'What has Tai got to do with any of this?' Matt takes a seat next to his boyfriend while I sit on the armchair across from them. The two exchange brief glances and then look back at me.
"Alright Matt, what's going on?"
"The thing is, we're pretty sure we know who Daisuke was kissing." It took me a few seconds to realize the significance of the fact that this conversation had just started with Tai in the room and I swear I turned pale in an instant...well, paler. The look of horror that has stricken my face does not go unnoticed by either older teen present, but Matt jumps in before Tai can;
"Yes, Tai knows, but he won't utter a word about this to anyone. Besides, without his help you wouldn't know what we're about to tell you." Tai shoots my brother a glare that screams 'I could have said that!', which is barely even registered, much to Tai's annoyance.
'Admittedly I'm a bit resentful of the fact that Matt would spill all my secrets to his boyfriend without even telling me, but I figure I'll hold off on the rage-attack until he tells me this 'truth'.That would be the case, except now Tai takes over the conversation;
"Well you see Takeru, I've been talking to Dai a lot recently and if I've learned anything, it's that he's completely crazy about you! I know what with him running away and kissing this guy that it doesn't seem like it, but it's not his fault." 'Oh this one I can't wait to hear...'
Tai picks up on the questioning looks I'm sending him as he quickly raises his hands in front of him to emphasise his defence;
"Let me explain! Here's the story: Dai had a boyfriend a few years ago, before he moved to Odaiba. His name was Archie and things went seriously bad for them, leaving Dai heavily scarred from then on. I'll explain in detail later what happened, but the point is that those emotional scars are what caused him to run out on you." The guilty look that has washed over Tai's features fills me with nerves about what he has to say next. "And well...I called Archie a few days ago, telling him to come across..."
'Oh crap...think it just clicked. That's obviously what I saw...'
"...and that's probably who you saw Dai kissing."
'I...I don't really know what to feel right now. I know that I'm not made any angrier, but this doesn't exactly fulfil all my greatest wishes either. Is he getting back together with Archie? Why was he so scarred? So many questions, and I can't make heads nor tails of any of them...'
"Takeru?" Matt's voice pulls me from my mini panic attack and I turn to face him once more, expression totally neutral.
"I can't really explain that kiss, but we do know that Daisuke is in love with you – as much as you are with him. It's important that you remember that. That was most likely some kind of goodbye kiss or something."
'Yeah right, goodbye kisses aren't all steamy like...Wait.' My stomach ties itself in knots of guilt as my mind flashes back to my final few weeks in Tokushima.
Once we had found out about the move, Sophie and I had agreed to see other people. How could I forget about our final kiss? She had asked for us to share one final embrace so that we would have a good memory to leave our relationship on and so that we remembered one another. Granted I never felt for her anything like what I do for Dai but that final kiss was one of passion. Unmistakable.
'Shit! How could I have been such a fool? I'm condemning Dai for doing exactly what I've done...I never even gave him a chance to explain himself either.'
"Oh god, I'm such an idiot! He probably hates me now, as well...I've ruined everything!" I don't start crying, but that's probably because I've done enough in the past week to cover a lifetime...
Matt looks thoughtful, as if trying to clutch onto any straws that will brighten my mood.
"Did the neighbour happen to know how long Daisuke and Jun would be away for?"
"Erm yeah, Jun told him they'd be back a week today."
Tai is the next to offer conversation, even if only an obvious suggestion; "We're gonna need a plan."
All three of us now put our brains hard at work, trying to find some brilliant solution to the disaster in front of us. Soon enough, my eye is caught by a sight on the table. I pick up one of the dozens of identical flyers that are lying around the apartment. Glossing quickly over the text presented to me, I feel another internal 'click' and my face brightens up almost immediately. As per usual, the plan is crazy, potentially disastrous and has no guarantee to work. It's perfect.
"For once...I have an idea." I then whip my head round to face Matt, determination set in my eyes, as well as – for once – hope.
"And I'm going to need your help."
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TBC:
A/N:
Yeah, y'all can probably predict the plan, don't be mad at me when it turns out lame :P Sorry if this chapter's pretty terribly done, it's like half one in the morning and I want this chapter online already so there could be a few mistakes! :S
I hope that was actually a good chapter, cause it felt like ~5k words of drivel :P So sorry for the long wait, this chapter was just hard for me to get into and write, I will not let you wait that long for the next one!
R&R as usual please, hope you enjoyed!