Logan's P.O.V.
My neck was being licked. All over. It was distracting, but it wasn't unwanted. I just wish we could work, and he could fuck me senseless on my work bench at the same time. But right now it had to be one or the other. And right now, it could only be one of the two options. "Stop…" My voice came out as a soft whisper as I gently pushed him away closing my eyes, trusty number two in my hand. I didn't want him to stop but I also didn't want two people to walk in and see us. I think that's why he was doing it. The touching and kissing…he wanted them to see us like this. I didn't blame him, but I did have this little thing called class. "Are you going to help me at all?"
"I am. I'm keeping your stress down." I laughed quietly sitting back into him putting my pencil down. "How about some coffee?"
"You're the baker." I saw his eyes roll as he got up and turned.
"That's gonna get old quick." I bit my bottom lip as I reached out and slapped his ass hard. He jumped and looked back at me, brow furrowed. I giggled sitting back up and went back to my sketch, ready to make the little changes I always did. "Cream and sugar?"
"No sugar. Just milk." He had no response so I looked back down at my frayed pad of paper. "Hey Kendall?" He hummed a response and I looked back up at the huge empty space around me. "You never told me what you wanted for that back office?" I turned my paper fast and glanced down at my shopping list. I put a 2 next to the primer and frowned hearing Kendall softly singing. "Kendall…"
"I haven't decided yet." I nodded slowly looking back out at the very open space. Since we took a few walls down, his little bakery opened up about 80%. He could either throw in a couple booths along the back wall, and more tables. Or, his idea was putting in another counter and having more of a diner type feel. He still wasn't 100% sure. "How does your knee feel? Need another pain med?" I laughed shading in an empty spot and took the cup of coffee from my small table, as soon as he set it down. As I sipped it I watched him walk to the wall opposite me and touch the bare wall. I swallowed the hot liquid Gold and put my cup back down. I carefully pushed myself up and grabbed my crutches slowly walking towards him. He heard me and looked back shaking his head sipping from a white mug. I glared at him as I walked towards the dark corner in his bakery and leaned against the door frame breathing out a little hard. I flipped on the light and illuminated the fairly large, empty space. Right now it was holding all my tools and everything else I brought in for my work but I could totally imagine it as an office for Kendall…maybe even a second bathroom. "What do you think?" I didn't even feel him behind me but he was there. There was a soft rub from the back of my neck, all the way down to my lower back, making me shiver. He traced back up my spine with two fingers, making me melt in my shoes. In the distance I could hear the music he put on as soon as we got here, but blocked it mostly out. "We could turn it into a sex room." I laughed putting my head down and closed my eyes letting him gently message my neck with one hand.
"Not big enough." He laughed loudly behind me, making me raise my head, and look back at him. "I don't think they're going to show." He glanced over his shoulder slowly and swallowed hard. "Maybe they're on a plane going to Mexico." He laughed turning back to me. I smiled and looked back into the room.
"I said some pretty fucked up shit to them. I wouldn't doubt it." I felt a sting of pain in my knee but ignored it momentarily. "You know…not once when James and I were dating did we ever bang in my bakery." A very warm hand rested on my hip and I frowned. "In fact James was never really the experimental type. Probably because he was with someone else but…" Kendall laughed behind me and I suddenly felt weird. Yeah. This was fucking weird. I was having sex with a man who not two months ago, I cared nothing about because I was screwing his boyfriend. This wasn't me. I really needed to get a grip on my life. Was I suddenly that guy who fell for the good looks, and the sweet lines? Cause that's exactly what happened with Kendall. And now that I think of it…same with James. "Feelin' okay?" I looked up into Kendall's green eyes and smiled small. I felt my heart thumping. My palms were sweaty. I was about to do and say something I knew I would regret. But it had to be done.
"I…" I paused and saw him frown as he put his cup of coffee on the ground by our feet. When he stood back up I shook my head and bit my bottom lip. "I don't think this is gonna work." Any contact he had with me was lost. He took a step back and turned his head to the side in confusion. "Us. I don't think we're gonna work Kendall." He raised his eyebrows and glanced around the empty room he was now standing in. "Our history…it's messed up. I broke you and your very serious boyfriend up. I'm a bad guy. I fucked around with a guy already taken. Who's to say what I'll do next? And that's not fair to you. And I think if you and James really tried…you guys could work things out." He laughed loudly and turned away shoving his hands into his pockets. His entire body was in a tense hold of his muscles. "I know…deep down in your soul and your heart, you resent me. There is a part of you that doesn't like me. And to get in a relationship with someone like that…it's not healthy." I swallowed hard feeling a lump in my throat and continued to stare at him. He kept his back to me. I glanced over my shoulder at the sun trying to poke out form the clouds, and the little bit of blue sky also trying to be seen. There were a few feet of snow outside but it was trying so hard to be sunny and bright. Unlike me. "I'm sorry Kendall. For everything I've done to you…said to you. And I'm sorry I can't make this work. I just know we'll be better off and…"
"Are you done?" I turned back quick to Kendall who was now turned to me. His face was twisted into anger. He was upset at me. "The more you talk the more ammo I get but let me get something off my chest." I stood up a little straight on my crutches and followed him with my eyes as he started to pace. "You didn't break up James and me. I did. I ended it with him because he was shown to me in a very different light. You helped me see that."
"Kendall…"
"I'm not done." I closed my mouth fast and felt my stomach turn. I wasn't expecting him to react this way. I honestly thought he would agree with me and say we had fun fucking but that was it. "How long have you been this egotistical, self-centered, self-hating asshole who thinks he can just say things to people…say ground breaking, heart breaking things to people and get away with it?" My mouth dropped open in offense and he stopped pacing and turned to me shaking his head. "Do you know how James talks about you? Do you know how much he cared about you, and why he cared about you?" I looked down hating hearing James name from Kendall's mouth. "He told me how sweet you are. How sheltered and timid you are. He said you're funny and you're generous and you make a mean beef stew." I glanced back up to Kendall and felt my anger rising. "He knew…just like I know right now how very, very special you are. You aren't just some good looking guy with a nice ass and cute smile. You are a guy that I can seriously see a life with. I can only imagine you'll be a fantastic dad someday. And one day you're going to be a great husband." I swallowed hard feeling tears form in my eyes. No one has ever said that to me. I've never been with a guy who thought I'd be a good husband or dad. Because most guys I was with, were too focused on their looks, or their jobs, or anything other than me. "Do you know what I see right now, in front of me? DO you know what I heard when you took my heart out and stepped on it?" I quickly wiped my cheek on my shoulder and looked back at the ground. "I see someone who has a billion thoughts running through his head, and all of them are telling him he's not worth it. He's not good enough. But let me tell you something." He took a few steps forward until I saw his Nike's in my line of vision. "You are worth it. And hearing you don't want to make it work with me, hurts. Because I fell for you. In the span of a few hours…I've become attached. And don't for once think I resent you. Or hate you. I know it sounds crazy…and it scares me because I just got out of a shit relationship but I love…"
"Don't say it Kendall." I looked up fast and backed away, just one step. "Don't you dare say you love me. You don't know me. And I don't know you. And between you and me, this was just sex to you. And to me. We can't have a relationship Kendall. It's too weird!"
"Stop making it weird!" His voice was a hell of a lot louder than mine, making me jump. "Jesus Christ Logan! Can you just stop thinking for one minute and do what the fuck your heart is telling you?!" I huffed out in annoyance and turned walking out slowly towards my work bench. "You're unbelievable Logan! Maybe we shouldn't date. We defiantly shouldn't even fucking see each other again!" I roughly tossed my crutches to my wall and picked up my jacket on my bench. I slipped it on and saw in the corner of my eye Kendall walk in front of me. "Were are you going?" I ignored him as I slipped on a beanie and picked up my phone and wallet. "Logan there is 4 feet of snow out there."
"So? You just said it yourself. We shouldn't date, and we shouldn't see each other again. I'll leave and let you go on with your life. You never have to see or hear from me again." I went to reach for my crutches but just as I did, they were knocked on to the floor. I looked up at Kendall and saw him smirk standing in front of my crutches arms over his chest. "You're an asshole! Give me those!"
"No! Not until you just stop talking and listen." I shut my mouth and shifted on my hurt leg, closing my eyes, groaning quietly. I waited, to hear him yell at me some more, but when a minute passed of silence. I opened my eyes and saw him giving me a sad look. He reached out gently and held my arms. I gratefully grasped onto his arms and looked directly at his chest. "See what happens when you don't talk?" I continued to look at his chest as he moved his hands up to my neck. "You say you don't want to make it work. But I just think you're afraid you might actually catch feelings for a douche bag like me." I looked up shaking my head and he smirked. "I'm over James. I'm over what he did to me. I never hated you for what you did. Everything I said to you that horrible day…I was upset with myself. I want to feel okay again and I can see myself feeling okay, with you." I clutched onto his shirt sleeves and looked back down to his chest. "I wanna wine and dine you. I want to go on stupid cheesy dates with you and most importantly I want to try to feel better. If you can see it in your heart to give me that opportunity, I'd love it. But if you honestly think you won't be happy with me…"
"That wasn't what I was saying." I glanced back up to see him giving me a very soft, warm…loving look. I sighed out and carefully stepped forward putting my arms behind his back. "I could see myself with you. But I don't…" I stopped and looked up. He looked pained. I weighed my options.
I could walk away from him and move on. I could find someone completely new, not having any connection to James or Kendall or this entire situation. Or…and I convinced myself to do this rather than the first…I could pull him in and kiss him hard. And I did. I think I took him back by my action, but I didn't care. As he stumbled back, I fell with him, until he hit the wall. I bit at his bottom lip and tore off my jacket while he put one hand in the back of my pants, while the other went in the front and rubbed me. I pulled away from his mouth pulling up on his shirt. He raised his arms and I tore the long sleeved shirt off him and immediately attached my lips to his chest. One hand ran through my hair while the other started tugging on my shirt. I stepped back a little and let him pull my shirt off. Before I could go back to kissing his skin, I was picked up. He grabbed behind my thighs and turned us so I was against the wall. I raised my good leg and wrapped it around his waist, while my hurt one just dangled. I set my hands on his shoulders and stretched my back turning my head to the side as he kissed my neck. I moved my hands up to his neck and all the way up through his hair. As I turned my head back to him he raised his own and looked me in the eyes. He smiled and I melted. "You really should have your knee elevated." I laughed putting my head on the wall and blinked lazily. "But I also kind of want to have sex in the bakery." I nodded slowly and gripped onto him tight as he turned us and walked me to the back office. I kissed along his mouth up until he set me down on a spare table. He shoved off some of my tools, and I jumped at the noise looking down at it, but hearing a zipper get pulled down made me look back to Kendall. I licked my lips slowly as he kicked out of his shoes and pushed his jeans and boxers down just a little to get his dick out. I pushed myself back further on the table and sighed out pushing a hand in my own jeans. "You do know how cute you are right?" I laughed lying back on the table closing my eyes.
"Yeah you told me." My hand was pulled out of my jeans and they were unbuttoned and unzipped. I opened my eyes, and put my hands behind my head looking up at him. I didn't have to ask what he was going to do. When his mouth went around my still flaccid dick, I groaned out loudly and put my hands outside my body scratching at the wood below me. "When you gonna start wining and dinning me?" His mouth left my body and I looked up. He put his hands outside my ribs and bent down putting his mouth in front of mine.
"Tonight? I'll be super romantic." I smirked rising up slightly and pecked at his lips. "And when I say romantic I mean…" He kissed me back before standing up in front of me, raising me with him. "I have to go grocery shopping tonight. I should have been doing it today but…I really thought we would have gotten more work done." I smiled and looked at his naked torso in front of me. I set my hands on his sides and leaned in kissing on his chest. "If you want…you can come with me. I have to get grocery's for Thanksgiving. It was just going to be me and Carlos…but if you don't have any plans I was thinking you could join me for Thanksgiving. I can cook, ya know." I pulled away from him and glanced up smiling.
"That sounds great. I was going to be eating alone Thanksgiving." He shook his head fast and leaned in kissing me hard. I moved my hands up to his face and held him as he shoved his tongue in my mouth. His hands, both of them wrapped around my dick and stroked me. I moaned and pulled him closer to me. I was very willing to lay back and let him take me. But the throat getting cleared behind Kendall made us both stop. Before he turned around, he put himself back in his jeans, and helped me do the same. I swallowed hard wiping at my mouth with the back of my hand and glanced around Kendall as he turned. My cheeks went hot as I saw Carlos looking in at us, looking anywhere but actually at us.
"Los…" Carlos looked up and smiled small before looking back down, clearing his throat again.
"Hey guys…umm…sorry. We would have been here sooner but…we were talking. Umm if you want…we can come back…or just do this another time. Umm…."
"No…just give us a minute." Carlos turned fast and walked out embarrassed. I couldn't help my laugh as Kendall turned back to me, also smiling. I pulled him down fast and kissed him hard as I slipped off the table. I winced at the pain, but waved Kendall off as he wrapped an arm around my waist and led me out of the room. I tensed up seeing James and Carlos sitting at the bakery bar both close together, quietly talking. I poked Kendall's stomach and pointed down to my shirt. He let me go and threw my shirt back to me as he slipped his on as well. I quickly pulled the garment over my head and before it was on, my crutches were being put under my arms. I sighed out and before we walked anywhere, Kendall grabbed my face and kissed me softly. When he pulled away we locked eyes. I couldn't help the smile spread across my face as he put one hand in the back pocket of my pants and gently pushed me to James and Carlos.