Hey followers! So I went to my first day of high school and well... it was interesting. I got lost a lot in the hallways. :( Now who's ready for some SVU fanfiction? I would also like to point out that the scene with Amanda and Carisi in chapter four is based off the love scene between Michonne and Rick from season 6 episode 10 of The Walking dead. I have no idea if any of you have seen TWD, but it's my all time favorite show (next to SVU, of course) and I love Richonne so freaking much! Side note, this chapter is going to get pretty intense so I just wanted to warn you all. Alrighty then, let's go!

"Daddy, please don't hurt me! I'll be good I promise!" A six year old Delaney Rosenberry begged her much younger looking father. Tears streamed down her face as her father dragged her by the arm into his bedroom. Delaney had tried to make herself a bowl of Apple Jacks cereal, and when she went to get the milk, she dropped the heavy gallon, sending the dairy spilling all over the floor.

Richard plopped Delaney onto his bed. He tightly grabbed both the tiny child's hand into his left hand. He sent the backed off his right hand flying across the cheek of the child. Delaney whalled out as he sent his hand flying against her cheek again. She pulled her tiny hands out of her fathers grip and squirmed her body off the bed. She ran to the door to try and open it, but found it locked. She squealed when she felt her father's barbaric and rough hands grip around her small waist.

Her father flung her onto the bed, and fell on top of her. He pinned her tiny arms above her head. She tried to escape under her father, but the heavy weight on her tiny body wouldn't let her get very far. She knew exactly what her father was trying to do.

"Daddy, please don't do it!" The little girl cried. "It hurts so much when you do it. I promise to be good!"

"It's too late for that, Delaney." The father bellowed over his daughter. "You shouldn't have tried to run away." He tilted his head and grinned menacingly. "Would you like me to call Uncle Samuel? I'll make sure he brings the camera."

Little Delaney shook her head. "No, please don't call Uncle Samuel!" She knew exactly what would happen if her so-called-Uncle came, and that was an even worse pain that she didn't want to endure.

Richard turned his evil grinned into an angry frown. "Fine, but if you scream at all..." He whispered in his daughter's ear. "I will make sure it's the worst pain you will ever go through." He straightened his head up. "Now, let's get this over with, shall we?" He licked his lips seductively and reach his hand down towards his daughters pants.

"Miss Rosenberry?" Delaney's head sprung up when her ears recongized her last name. She was sitting on the stand in the court room she would appear in the next few days. It had been nearly three weeks since her father had been arrested. Her eyes met with Barba, who was prepping her for trial. He looked mostly concerned with a streak of compassion dancing across his face. Her eyes moved slightly over to see Carisi leaning on the table, staring back at her just like Barba was, a little bit more compassion than the Cuban man.

Delaney's face became red from embarrassment. "Um... I'm sorry, can you repeat that?" she asked.

Barba nodded. "Yes, Miss Rosenberry, how old were you when you were taken into the custody of your father?"

"I was six years old." Delaney said shortly.

"And when did the abuse start?" Barba followed up.

Delaney swallowed hard as she tried to recall her six year old hazzy memories. "I believe about a month or so into living with my father. My... memory is a bit fuzzy." She fiddled with her thumbs nervously. She pushed a piece of hair behind her ear and breathed heavily.

Barba cleared his throat and approached the stand. "Miss Rosenberry, if you are comfortable talking about it..." Delaney knew just what he was talking about. "We really need you to go ahead and tell us about your past abuse."

Delaney felt herself cringe at the thought. "Do I have too?" She asked as she glanced over towards Carisi.

Carisi came a bit closer. "Laney, I know this must be hard, but getting some of this out now, will make it somewhat easier in the actual court."

Delaney sighed and looked down, unable to look at the men in front of her. "Um, in the beginning it was mostly just verbal abuse. Calling me worthless and a waste of space was one of the most common ones. Then..." She shut her eyes to keep her tears inside. "it became physically violent." Her voice cracked a tiny bit. "He'd slap me in the face a lot and that caused a bunch of nosebleeds. He'd sometimes pick me up and throw me onto the floor when I got on his nerves for whatever reason. A couple of times before he kicked me in chest, and my ribs broke. When the doctors asked, I just told them I ran into a corner or something." She opened her eyes back up, but refrianed from looking at the men. "Bumps and bruises were just a part of my body. I can't remember the last time I didn't have a bruise on my body." Once she had finished, she looked up at the detective and lawyer.

Carisi bit down on his lip in anger as the DA swallowed hard, and uncomforably continued. "Miss Rosenberry, has your father ever used a knife on you before now?"

Delaney shook her head sideways. "No, last time was the only time he ever used a knife to me." She body shook as she remebered her horrid memory.

Barba shook his head. "Okay, I think we can be done for now. Thank you for your time, Miss Rosenberry."

Delaney stood up and walked off the stand. She stood feeling awkward after pouring her heart out about her past abuse. She felt terrified about having to go against her father. She just prayed that he wouldn't get away with it. If he didn't... she was too terrified to think about what would happen.

"Hey Laney-bug," Carisi piped up. Laney-bug had become her newest of nicknames Carisi had come up with. "You feeling okay?"

"Uh, I mean I guess so." Delaney replied uncomfortable. She looked over and noticed Barba was leaving the courtroom. "I guess I'm just nervous."

"Hey, I understand that." Carisi said and looked at the time on his phone. "Well I don't have to take you back for a little while. Do you want to go get something to eat?"

Delaney nodded. "Yes, I am starving! I feel like I could eat a whole pizza!"

Carisi smiled. "Is that your way of saying you want to go get some pizza?"

Delaney pursed her lips. "Maybe...?" she said as her eyes wondered the room, ending in a chuckle.

Carisi chuckled as well. "Okay sure, we can grab a slice or two of pizza." He wrapped his arm around Delaney's shoulder as they walked out of the courtroom.

Carisi had taken Delaney to a pizza place that wasn't far from the courthouse. He knew that the girl needed a break from all the commotion going on in her life. The poor girl went from living in an abusive home for the past eight years to living in a safe home and having to go to trial. Giving her mental illnesses with it, she could only handle so much.

As the two always did, they found themselves laughing over some silly story either about Carisi and his family or Delaney's dysfunctional school days.

"So yeah, that's pretty much the story of how I help my friends get our sixth grade English teacher fired." Delaney explained as Carisi tried not to burst out into a fit of laughter.

Carisi whipped a tear from his eye and breathed heavily. "Oh man, Delaney that's a real good story." He took a drink of his coffee and set it down and whispered. "If only I could do that with the people who work at 1PP."

Delaney laughed as she bit into a slice of her pizza. "So Sonny, do you have a girlfriend?" She asked after she swallowed her pizza.

Carisi eyes widened. Him and Amanda hadn't really made anything 'offical' yet. "No, I mean not really, I mean I have friends who are girls but-"

"Whoa Sonny!" Delaney interupted, overwhelmed by his sudden stammering. "I was just kidding around, no need to get frantic."

Carisi's face turned red from embarassment as Delaney laughed. "Oh," He replied shortly. "Well Amanda, Detective Rollins, and I are really good friends. Great friends even, but we're not 'together' I guess you would say." He really didn't know how to respond to that, and he wasn't really sure if him and Amanda were a thing yet. They didn't give it much talk, it was more action so far than it was talking.

"Oh, okay." Delaney replied perky. She played with the straw in her drink. "So what do you guys do together out of work?" She suddenly stopped playing with the straw and looked at Carisi. "I'm sorry, I'm usually not so nosy."

"Oh, it's fine, Laney-bug." Carisi replied cheerfully as Delaney took a sip of her Sprite. "Well, Amanda and I don't do a whole lot together out of work." 'Well, that I can tell you about, anyway.' He thought to himself. "I help her take care of her daughter a lot. I come and help her as much as I can. She's a single mom, ya know."

Delaney took her lips off the straw. "I didn't know Detective Rollins had a daughter."

Carisi shook his head. "She does," He took out his phone and swipped to a picture of her. "Her name is Jesse. She's almost nine months old. You can scroll through a couple of them if you want."

Delaney took the phone into her hands and smiled at the picture of the infant laying on her tummy. "She's adorable. She looks just like Detective Rollins." She scrolled through a couple photo's until she stopped at one. She tilted her head in confusion and turned the phone back to Carisi. "Who's that with Jesse?"

Carisi looked at the picture. "Oh, that's Noah. He's Lieutenant Benson's son. He's two now." The picture was of Noah holding Jesse at the bottom of a slide at the park.

Delaney turned the phone back to herself and stared at the photo for a moment more. "Noah must look like his dad. He doesn't really look like Lieutenant Benson."

"Well," Carisi said slowly as Delaney gave him his phone back. "Noah isn't biologically Lieutenant Benson's son. She was his foster mother and then she adopted him."

"Oh wow, that's amazing." Delaney said in awe. "What happened to his parents?"

Carisi squirmed in his set a bit. "Well, to put it mildly, his parents died."

Delaney creased her eyebrows. "How did they die?"

Carisi sighed heavily. "Maybe that's not the best story to tell now," He said as he remembered how Ellie Porter burned to death and how Johnny Drake shot up the court room. "But I will tell you one thing." He looked into Delaney's eyes as she looked back at into his. "She saved that little boy from what could have been a tragic life."

Delaney gave a crooked smile. "Kind of like how you saved me, from what could have been a tragic life."

Carisi tucked his lips under. He caressed her hand with his thumb. They both interlocked fingers as the propped their elbows on the table. "I guess you could say that." he said as he smiled bright, wetness in the corners of his bright blue eyes.

"Thank you, Sonny Carisi, for giving me a new life." Delaney said full of heart. "Thank you for making me feel safe again. Most of all, thank you for saving me from my dad."

Carisi sniffed back a tear. "You welcome, Delaney Rosenberry."

The both just smiled and looked at each other for a moment. Delaney blinked her eyes for a second, and suddenly Carisi wasn't there. In his place sat Richard, his eyes screaming with anger. He gripped his hand that was interlocked with Delaney's unitl both their hands were purple.

"You shouldn't have said that, Delaney." Richard said gritting his teeth. Delaney felt her body jumped when she felt a hand on her shoulder. She looked up and saw Samuel standing over her. He had a disposable camera in his other hand. He had a mischievously evil grin on his face.

Delaney turned her head back to Richard, hoping to see Sonny instead. To her bad luck, Richard was still there. Delaney tried to pull her hand away, but her father's grip was to tight. She suddenly began to panic. Her mind was telling her to run, but she couldn't move.

"Where do you think you're going?" Samuel said as he caressed her hair before slamming her face onto the table. He handing the camera to Richard as he used to free hand to pin Delaney's other arm down.

Delaney cried to herself softly as her body tensed up. "Please don't," She muffled softly. "No please don't! No, no, no, I don't want to."

"It's too late for that, Delaney." Richard mocked as he placed more pressure on her arm he was holding down. He bent over the table and got close in Delaney's face. "Now why don't you dry up them tears, and give Uncle Samuel what he wants."

Delaney began to have a panic attack. She squirmed under the heavy weight of her 'Uncle' who was about to abuse her. She propped her chin onto the table as a flash suddenly hit her eyes. Richard had already started to take pictures of her humiliation. She felt like she was six years old again, helpless and so innocent. That same innocence that was destroyed by the men in her life. They ruined her, both of them had. They were both the reason she had trouble sleeping at night. They were both the reason she was depressed and insecure. They were the reason she was in the mess she was right now. The only one who could fix it was her.

She closed her eyes shut and gritted her teeth togther. Her body tensed even more, but not with fear, with anger. She wasn't going to let them destroy her. "I said..."

Richard stopped taking pictures and looked down at his daughter. "What was that, you said?" He asked as he once again got closer to her face.

Delaney felt tears streaming down her face, but she was too heated to acknowledge them. She opened her eyes and looked into the eyes of her insane father. "I...said..."

"NO!" Delaney pushed herself into a standing position. The chair she was sitting in had fallen onto the floor. She looked behind her and noticed that Samuel wasn't there and he wasn't trying to assult her. She looked back in front of her and didn't find Richard standing there with a camera. Instead she found a startled and worriedsome Carisi, who was as well as her, standing up from his chair. His arms were out just in case she got out of control, he was able to get her and calm her down. Both of their breathes were heavy and forced from the fright.

"Delaney," Carisi said in between breathes. Everything had happened so fast he didn't have time to even think. "Honey what happened, are you okay?" He continued with caution. "You can tell me, okay. Everything's going to be just fine."

Delaney looked around and noticed that people had begun staring at her and Carisi. Some even began to lean over and whisper to other people around them. People with big eyes looking back and continuing to eat or talk to those at the same table, most likely talking about her. She looked back at Carisi, who's sad and concerned eyes made her realize what a fool she had made of herself. She had never had an outburst in public before, to her own suprise. She felt the tears well up in eyes as they quickly began pouring out. Her sudden boost of confidence seemed to have washed away. All the power she felt just a short moment ago was nothing else but humiliation.

Carisi slowly walked closer to her and continued talking. "Okay Delaney, and I think it would be best if I took you back home. Is that alright with you?"

Delaney didn't say anything in return. Instead she walked right passed Carisi and stormed out of the resturant. She was so disturbed and upset from her sudden hallucination she didn't even realize what she was doing. All she knew what to just get out of there.

"Delaney, wait!" Carisi exclaimed as he watched Delaney storm off. He quickly set a twenty dollar bill on the table and followed after her.

Delaney was walking down the sidewalk with her arms crossed and tears flowing like a river down her eyes. She had finally calmed down a bit but was still too distraught to focus on anything. Carisi however, was running like a mad-man trying to catch up with her. He wasn't sure what had gotten into her, but whatever it was wasn't a good thing.

"Delaney!" Carisi called out. Delaney whipped her head around at the sound of her name. She stopped walking so that Carisi could catched up with her. Carisi let the girl fall into his arms when he finally reached her. He rocked them back and forth to try and calm both themselves down.

"I'm sorry, Sonny." Delaney muffled. "I just didn't know what to do. That was the only way I knew how to stop it."

Carisi stopped rocking and bent down the face her. "It's okay, Laney. Everything's going to be fine." He ruffled her hair to try and comfort her. "But what did you mean by that was the only way to stop it? What happened to you, Honey?"

She took a moment to gather her thoughts before saying, "I saw him."

Carisi looked confused. "You saw who, Delaney?"

She whipped away the tears that were sticking to her cheeks. "My dad, I saw him!" She exclaimed, purposely leaving out Samuel's name. "He was right there; my dad was right in front of me. He was gonna... gonna," She suddenly stopped herself.

Carisi gentally grabbed her shoulders. "Laney, it's okay. You just had a hallucination; it happens to victims a lot." He felt bad for saying that she was victim right in front of her face, but he was just trying to make her feel better. He sighed. "Why don't I take you home, let you rest some?"

Delaney shook her head. "No please, I want to stay with you." she begged as she wrapped her arms around Carisi. "I'm too scared to be alone right now."

Carisi rubbed the back of Delaney's head. He didn't want to leave her alone either. If she had another outburst, he wanted to be there to help her out and to calm her down. He was too scared of what would happen if he wasn't there for her. "Okay Laney-bug," He said to keep her calm and make her feel safe. "Why don't you come down to the precinct with me for a while? You can relax in the break room and you can go and say hi to Lieutenant Benson and Detectives Rollins and Tutuola." He knew that his Lieutenant would not be very happy about letting her come in just to hang out, but he was just going to have to chance it this time. It was for Delaney's sake, so he prayed the Lieutenant would go easy on him.

Delaney nodded. "Okay, that sounds fine." she said and slightly smiled. Carisi smiled back at her as they walked back to the courthouse to retrieve the car.

The two step off the elevator into the 16th precinct. Delaney moved her head around, looking at the new scenery in front of her. To her own suprise, she had actually never been inside a police station before. It wasn't as busy as she thought police stations really were, but she just figured it must have been a slow day. Her eyes were suddenly fixed towards a poster. 'Congradulations, Sergeant Dodds.' She read in her head. 'Who's Sergeant Dodds?'

Olivia walked out of her office and noticed Carisi and Delaney walking towards his desk. She stood for a moment, confused. Why was Delaney here? She was suppose to have already been back at her safe home. It made her feel unsure, so she met with them as soon as they reached his desk.

"Carisi," Olivia spoke. Both Carisi and Delaney looked at her. "Is there some sort of problem?"

For a moment, Carisi was confused until Olivia glanced over at Delaney, who had turn her head to look back at the poster. Carisi's eyes widened, understanding now what his Lieutenant was talking about. He started to feel nervous when Olivia had crossed her arms and raised one of her eyebrows. He swallowed and put his hand and Delaney's shoulder to get her attention. She suddenly turned her attention back to the adults.

"Hey Laney, do you mind going into the break-room for a moment?" He asked her. He pointed off towards the break-room. "It's right over there, okay?"

Delaney nodded. "Of course, I understand." She looked back at Olivia. "It's nice to see you again, Lieutenant Benson."

Olivia smiled as the girl walked past her. Her smile then turned into a frown. She looked back at Delaney until she was gone, and turned back to Carisi and began her questioning. "Would you like to explain to me why Delaney is up here?" She asked sternly.

Carisi let out a heavy breath. "I'm sorry, Lieutenant; Barba ended her prepping early. I could tell she was uneasy, so I took her to lunch with me since it was my lunch break. Everything was going fine until she had some type of hallucination and had a panic attack." He explained. "She said she saw her father."

Olivia nodded, understanding the situation a bit more. "Okay, but why didn't you take her back to her home, Carisi?"

He continued to explain. "I told her I was going to take her back home, and she freaked out even more. She said she wanted to stay with me, and I was really worried about her, so I told her she could come with me here for a while." Olivia's eyes widened at what her young detective informed her. "I called the safe home and explained that she was with me and that I'd bring her back in a couple of hours."

"That's not what I was concerned about." Olivia shook her head. "I just wish you would have informed me ahead of time." She noticed the guilt her young detective felt when he looked down at the floor. She sighed, feeling a bit guilty herself. "Okay," Carisi looked back up at her. "I don't mind this one time if she stay's for a while, but as long as she stays in the break-room. You can keep an eye on her from your desk."

Carisi nodded. "Yes ma'am." He replied and looked over towards Delaney, who was sitting at one of the tables, scribbling something down on some scratch paper. Olivia nodded back at her detective and walked off to do what she was going to do before. Carisi walked into the break-room to deliver the news to Delaney.

"Laney-bug," Carisi spoke once he opened up the door. Delaney looked up from her entertainment. "Lieutenant Benson said you could stay for a couple of hours, but she wants you to stay in here. Is that okay?"

Delaney nodded and smiled. "That's perfectly fine." She replied bubbly.

Carisi chuckled. "Alright, come and get me if you need me or if you're ready to go back home." He reached in his wallet and handed her a five dollar bill. "If you want a snack or a drink, you can get one from the vending machine."

"Thank you," Delaney replied and put the bill in her pocket. Carisi began to shut the door, but Delaney stopped him. "Wait Sonny!" Carisi opened the door back more to her the girl.

"Yeah?" He replied back.

Delaney squirmed a bit in her seat. "Who is Sergeant Dodds?"

Carisi's face became long at her question. "Oh, Sergeant Dodds." He said slowly. Delaney noticed the sadness in his body. "He was our Sergeant for a couple of months, and a fine one he was. He was very dedicated to his work."

"He must have done something good to get a congrates poster?" Delaney pondered.

"Yeah," Carisi replied shortly. "He was moving units. He was going to join the terrorism unit."

Delaney cringed. "That sounds really scary."

Carisi half-heartly chuckled. "Yeah, it does, doesn't it; but he never got to know."

"Why?" Delaney asked. "Did he end up going somewhere else?"

Carisi looked Delaney in the eye. "He was shot." Delaney's face became long as well. "On his last day at SVU. He died after he had a massive stroke." He didn't feel like giving her the details behind the tragedy.

"Oh my goodness." Delaney said shocked. "So... he's really gone? He doesn't have to suffer anymore?"

Carisi was a bit confused at first, but understood what she was trying to say. "No, he's not here anymore. But he's in a better place, now." Delaney nodded, but didn't say anything back. "Okay, well I'm getting back to some of my paperwork. If you need anything, come and get me, okay?"

Delaney nodded again as Carisi shut the glass door. She leaned back in her chair and pushed her hair back from out of her face. All she could think about was the death of Sergeant Dodds.

Carisi spent the next hour and a half checking paperwork and checking up on Delaney in the break-room, but mostly checking up on her. He really didn't want to have to take her home soon. He wished he could take her back home with him, so he would know that she was safe. He knew for obvious reasons he couldn't do that, but that still didn't hold up his thoughts.

Fin and Amanda walked off the elevator. Carisi had been so focused on Delaney he had forgotten that they weren't even there. "Hey, where have you guys been?"

"Out in the streets, asking about our Jane Doe we found in the dumpster." Amanda replied as she came behind Carisi. She looked up into the break-room and noticed Delaney in there. She had stopped her doodling on paper and was just sitting there, staring into space. "What's Delaney doing in the break-room?"

"Oh, she had a panic attack and I took her here to keep an eye on her for a while." Carisi explained to his co-worker.

"Oh, poor girl." Amanda replied. "She can't ever get a break can she?"

"It's a shame." Fin replied shortly.

Abruptly, a shriek was blurred out and entered to eardrums out of Detectives. Carisi's mind automatically sent him running into the break-room. Fin and Amanda were behind him, Olivia running out of her office to follow them.

Carisi burst open the door with all his strength. It took him half a second to find Delaney in the corner behind the vending machine, screaming her lungs out. He quickly got to her on his knees and put her in his arms. "It's okay, it's okay, calm down Laney." He says soothingly. His co-workers and boss stood just a few feet away from him at the door, watching him with the teenager.

"I saw him again. He tried to hurt me!" Delaney began to calm herself down now that Carisi was with her.

Amanda came next to Carisi and Delaney to help her as well. "Delaney, he can't hurt you anymore. He's never going to be able to hurt you again."

Delaney's screams had quickly turned into heavy, forced breathes. After a few minutes, she finally spoke. "I'm okay now. I'm okay, I was just really scared. I am so sorry."

"Delaney, that is a completely normal." Olivia explained. "You don't have to apologize for anything." she cleared her throat before she continued. "But I do think it would be best to take you back to your home."

"Okay, I'll take her back." Carisi piped up as he got off his knees.

"Actually I want Amanda to take her back home." Olivia stated sternly.

Carisi and Amanda looked at each other, almost shocked at Olivia's sudden orders. Delaney was a bit confused, and a bit saddened at the Lieutenant's orders. She would have preferred Carisi to take her back home, but was still very comfortable with Amanda taking her home.

"Okay," Amanda said a bit uneasy. "Let's go, Laney." She put her hand gentally on the back of Delaney to walk her out of the break-room.

Delaney looked up at Carisi. "Bye Sonny." She said as she gave him one last hug.

Carisi sighed. "Bye Delaney." He replied back.

Delaney let go as Amanda walked her out of the break-room and to the elevator. Olivia watched them get on the elevator. Once the doors closed, she turned back to Carisi.

"My office, now!" She said sternly towards Carisi as she turned her back and walked into her office. Carisi bit his lip in guilt as he slowly followed behind. Fin patted the man on his shoulder, giving him some support before he faced his superior officer.

Olivia walked behind her desk as Carisi closed the office door. Carisi felt anxious to hear what his boss was going to say. Olivia placed her hands on her desk and looked up at her detective.

Carisi started talking first. "Look Lieutenant, I'm sorry for what happened with Delaney. I should have took her home and..."

Olivia raised her hand and stopped him. "Carisi that's not what I wanted to talk to you about." Carisi looked back at her confused. "I wanted to talk about your relationship with Delaney."

Carisi was still confused. "What do you mean?" He asked concerned.

"I mean that you and Delaney have been getting close." Olivia stated.

Carisi raised his eyebrows. "I care for her. I make sure she's okay and that I'm there for her if she needs me."

Olivia tilted her head and sighed. "Carisi, I know that you care for her, but you don't have to be responsible for her."

"I don't consider myself to be responsible for her. I just want to be there for her." Carisi disagreed respectively.

Olivia sighed again in frustration. "Carisi, I don't want you to get attached to her. If they find any of her family members she'll go to them. If not, she'll go into foster care. I hate to say this to you but once this case is closed you might never see her again."

Carisi felt miserable at the thought of never seeing Delaney again. It made his stomach feel sick and his body go weak. He felt tiny beads of sweat on the back of his neck. If anything were to happen to Delaney and he wasn't able to reach her or save her... he couldn't live with himself.

Olivia noticed the sudden change in Carisi's body, and felt sympathy for him. She walked out from behind her desk and put a hand on her younger detective's shoulder. "Carisi, this doesn't mean you can't care for her. I just don't want you to get too attached to her. Because when you get too attached, and then suddenly they're taken away from you, it can hurt. I don't want that to happen to you."

Carisi nodded at his Lieutenant. "Yes ma'am," He said shortly.

Olivia nodded back to him. "You're dismissed."

Carisi turned his back and walked out of the office. He went over to his desk and sat down. He looked through the clear glass door of the break-room where Delaney had her panic attack only a few long moments ago. He thought back to when Delaney was in the hospital after her wrists were slit, and how happy and bubbly she was when she felt safe. He had never seen a child so thrilled before, and that happened because he saved her. He saved her from her father who made her feel scared and insecure. He could save her once, but could he save her again?

Amanda pulled in next to 'Safe Haven' and put the car in park. She turned her head towards Delaney, who hadn't said a word the whole ride. She stared out the window with her knees to her chest the whole time. Amanda reached her hand out and put it on the young girls shoulder. Delaney tensed slightly at the sudden touch, but relaxed when she saw Amanda's face.

Amanda smiled at her. "Do you want me to take you up to your room?" She asked, almost slipping into her 'mom voice'.

"Um sure, that'll be fine." Delaney replied back, unbuckling her seatbelt.

Amanda unbuckled her seatbelt as well and opened the door. She and Delaney walked up the steps to the door. Delaney knocked and a few moments later Tessa Sims opened up the door.

"Hi Miss Tessa," Delaney said. "Can I bring Detective Rollins into my room for a couple minutes?"

"I don't see why not." Tessa replied. She looked at Amanda. "I guess I haven't met you." She stuck her hand out. "I'm Tessa Sims."

Amanda shook her hand. "Detective Amanda Rollins, nice to met you." She followed Delaney up the stairs after meeting with Tessa. They walked down a hallway and stopped when Delaney found her room. She opened the door and walked over to her bed and sat down. Amanda stood next to her desk.

"I hope you get some rest. I know what a long day you've had." Amanda said, not really knowing what else to say to her. Delaney shrugged in response. Amanda could tell something was wrong with the girl. She bent down to face her. "Do you need to talk about something? Cause if you do you know I'll stay and listen."

Delaney looked down for a moment. "I'm just tired. I'm tired of living with these bad memories." She looked back up at Amanda. "Everytime I close my eyes to sleep I see him trying to abuse me. I can't even get through one good night of sleep." She closed her eyes and sighed. "They haven't found anyone else in my family yet; not even my brother." She paused for a moment. "I just don't want to be alone anymore."

Amanda rubbed the back of the girls head and pulled her into her arms. "I'm sorry you feel this way. If you ever need a girl to talk to, you can talk to me, okay?"

Delaney nodded. "Thanks Amanda." She quickly pulled away awkwardly. Amanda felt it was strange, but didn't give it much thought. "I'm gonna get some rest now."

"Okay," Amanda said and got onto her feet. "I'll see you later, Delaney."

"Bye Amanda." Delaney said emotionless and looked back to the other wall.

Amanda was suprised at her sudden change in mood, but realized that her sudden mood change was apart of her being bipolar. Amanda bit the inside of her cheek to find the right thing to say. When she couldn't think of anything, she walked over to the door and put her hand on the doorknob. "Bye Laney," She said and closed the door, and made her way back to her car.

Richard looked at the clock that was hanging up in the meeting room of Rikers. It was nearly 5:30 p.m., and his visitor was almost running late. That aggravated him to the core. One of his exes used to be late to everything. After roughing her up a bit, she was never late again.

He heard the jail doors opened up, and Samuel walk into the meeting room. He smirked at his long term friend in orange. "Well look who we have here. Richard Rosenberry in orange; this is a sight I thought I'd never see."

"Can it, Sam!" Richard exclaimed back. He rubbed his face. "If it weren't for my screaming daughter I wouldn't be in this mess." He shook his head.

Samuel took a seat in front of Richard. "I heard they haven't found of family to take in Delaney yet."

Richard scoffed. "And they aren't. Vicki didn't have anyone and neither do, and Stevie? God know's where he is. Haven't seen him in two years."

Samuel got closer to Richard's face and whispered. "What are we going to do with her if they can't find anyone."

Richard shrugged. "I guess we'll figure that out when we get there."

Samuel pulled his cheeks up into a sinister grin. "Are you ready for the fun to start?"

Richard pulled the same smile in response. "You know I'm always ready. Have you pick anyone out yet?"

Samuel chuckled. "Oh man, I picked out some great one's." He leaned in closer and whispered something into Richard's ear.

Richard moaned at his response. "Oh Sam! That's great, that's so great!"

"Isn't it great?" Samuel gloated with pride.

"But how are we going to pull it off?" Richard whispered.

"Oh, I have a great plan!" Samuel gloated again. He got even closer to Richard and began to explain the plan to him.

Carisi had been sitting at his desk, trying hard to finish up some paperwork. All he could think about for the past two hours was Delaney. He desperately wanted to call her and make sure she was okay. After a while he finally gave into his thought, and called her from his cell phone.

After a couple rings, Delaney finally answered. "Hello?"

"Hey Delaney, it's Sonny. Are you okay?" He asked her impatiently.

"I'm fine." Delaney replied emotionless.

Carisi thought the tone in her voice was strange. "Are you sure? Is anything bothering you that you want to talk about?"

"No, I'm fine." Delaney replied in the same dull tone.

Carisi nodded, figuring that she was just tired from a long day. "Alright, I was just checking in on you. Are you absolutely sure you are okay?"

"Yes, I'm fine!" Delaney replied, and Carisi could tell she was getting annoyed.

"Okay, I'll let you get some rest. Goodnight Laney-bug." Carisi said in a brotherly tone.

"Goodbye Dominick." Delaney said, now having some sadness behind her voice, and hung up the phone.

Carisi raised his eyebrows Delaney has never called him by his first name before. He set his phone down on his desk, and thought about his reccent conversation.

It had been a long while since Amanda took Delaney home. Olivia looked at her clocked and noticed it was almost nine. She decided to pack up and head home for the night. Once she got her laptop shut down, she grabbed her purse and headed out the door. When she opened the door, she heard her phone go off. She grabbed it out of her purse and look at the number. It looked like a number from the hospital.

"Benson," She answered skeptical. As she listened, her eyes widened. "When?" She answered frantically. She kept listening for a moment. "Okay, I'll be on my way!" She quickly ended the call and shoved her phone back in her purse, storming out of her office.

Amanda and Carisi, who were working on some paperwork, both were startled when they heard their boss frantically storming out of her office. Carisi quickly stood up. "Lieutenant, is everything alright?" He asked worried.

"No, I need you and Amanda to come with me." She said rapidly. "Delaney just tried to kill herself."

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