A/N: Thank you guys for all this amazing support on the first chapter. Hopefully this chapter will meet your expectations. Well here goes haha... BTW this letter was written before the last one.
Heartbreak is the easiest way to describe it. She was my everything or at least that's what I wanted to believe. It all ended so fast, yet so slow at the same time. Looking back I can see how I slowly lost her, the small signs I wish I had seen way back when. I think I needed that though. It's part of my story. Sure it's not the happiest chapter by far, but its an important part. Because of her I know I'm getting closer to knowing who I truly am. The story doesn't have the happy ending I had wished for, but maybe it's the ending I needed. Could I have truly been happy with her, I'll ever know. But I do know when things ended with her, I still wasn't sure who I was. Yeah sure I was Beca Effin' Mitchell, but who was she really? I thought I knew who I was but I really didn't and I think I needed to go through all the hurt to come out the better on the other side. But despite all that I've learned I sometimes want to go back. I want her and I want that future. I know I need to move on, but I can't because I'm still hoping on that 0.00000001% chance that she'll change her mind. I had really thought that she was it for me. I thought I would grow old and have a family with her. I guess she wasn't and I need to let go, but she was my first love and I really can't help it. Sometimes, I wish that I never met her, that I didn't fall love, that I still don't remember all her favorite things to this day, that she didn't ruin some of my favorites by making them her own. Maybe we were never meant to be, or maybe we just met at the wrong time, when we weren't right or ready each other. Funny how fate works isn't it? As much as I want to forget our time together, I know I never can because it was something and while I will never know what it could've become, I will always know what it was, love.
A/N: Hey guys! Hope you enjoyed the chapter. I'm thinking of starting another series but I'm not quite sure what I want to write about. Leave a review if you guys have any ideas for me. The next chapter for this story should be up within the week but with school and work I'm not sure when I'll be able to write again. Welp until then, see ya!