Hi guys, I know it's been quite a while and I'm really sorry for not posting for so long. Long story short, I broke my wrist back in September and once I got the cast removed I couldn't get into writing again… but since I hate to leave something unfinished, here is the last chapter of The Beginning in the End. I will post the Epilog tomorrow.
For those of you who are waiting for updates on Seduction and Broken, please give me a few more weeks to write the remaining chapters for both stories. Once I have them all written, you'll get daily updates on both stories.
Thank you all for your messages, I haven't really been on FanFiction in the last couple of months, so if I haven't replied, I'm sorry and I will try to get through all my PM's as soon as possible.
Sunny xxx
Ana
Today is the day, all of our family and friends will be here to witness Christian and I getting married outside in the meadow. It took us seven weeks to get everything in order. My mom, Grace, Mia and Kate all helped to make this our dream wedding. We still have two weeks until I'm due to give birth to Liam and today is a beautiful warm April morning. I just hope the weather remains as good as it is now. We have a tent ready to set up in case it starts to rain, but I hope we won't need it.
"Breakfast for the bride!" I hear Kate call out before she and Mia come into bedroom. Mia, Kate, Claire, Autumn, my Mom and Grace all stayed here at the house with me last night, while Christian and all the guys stayed at his parents' home in Bellevue.
"Morning." I reply with a smile and manage to pull myself up in bed so I'm in a sitting position. The only thing I don't like about being pregnant is that now, that my belly has gotten enormous, I can barely get up on my own. Most of the time Christian has to help me out of bed and I even had to ask Sawyer and Gail to help me up, when I couldn't manage to get up from the sofa downstairs on a number of occasions. Still, I love being pregnant and I know I will miss this feeling once Liam is born, but Christian and I already agreed that we want to have another baby once he has turned two, so our kids will be close in age.
"How are you feeling, are you nervous?" Kate asks.
"I'm feeling great… and no, I'm not nervous, I'm going to marry the man of my dreams today, if anything I'm really excited. Have you heard from Christian?"
"Yes, all the guys will be here in about an hour to work out and then get ready, don't worry I have told Christian I would kick him in the balls if he dared to sneak in here to see you before the wedding." Kate says making me giggle. Christian was pouting all day yesterday because he was told he couldn't stay here the day before our wedding, but I wanted to keep this tradition, so begrudgingly he agreed to stay at his parents' house.
After breakfast Kate and Mia help me out of bed and I get into the bathroom and take a shower. Once I'm done I wrap myself into a towel and head to the sink to brush my teeth. I have just finished rinsing when two things happen at the same time. First I feel the most crucial pain shoot through my body, so I have to hold on to the sink, so I won't fall and at the same I feel a gush of water running down my legs, forming a puddle at my feet. But what is even worse is that I can feel Liam drop inside me, so much so, that I can feel his head coming.
"KATE!" I scream and suddenly all the women burst into the bathroom.
"What? What is happening?" Kate asks and I have to hold on to the sink again.
"He's coming." I get out between gritted teeth and suddenly all the women jump into motion.
Mia yells that she is going to get Christian, Autumn is running around getting towels, Kate is on her phone calling an ambulance and my mom and Grace have somehow managed to put me back into bed without my feet even touching the ground.
"Grace, what is happening… oh my god it hurts." I cry out while Grace is pushing the towel up and checks on me.
"Oh dear, looks like little Liam wants to be here for the wedding too, he is almost crowning." She says just when I have another contraction and Christian bursts into the room.
"What is happening… Mom… talk to me." He says and pulls at his hair with both hands, while I'm trying to somehow breathe through the pain.
"The baby is coming now… Ana with the next contraction I need you to give me a good hard push, I'll count to ten then you stop, ok sweetheart?" She says and I just nod too overwhelmed to say anything. Christian is by my side holding my left hand while my mother is holding my right and I squeeze both their hands hard when Grace gives me the go to push.
Oh my god, this hurts even more, but I continue for three more rounds and suddenly Grace places Liam on my chest, he is covered in blood and white mush, but he is the most beautiful sight I have ever seen. When our eyes meet, he stops to cry and just looks at me with curious, huge blue eyes. He is so beautiful that I can't help but cry happy tears. He is really here, after everything that happened when I was pregnant with him, he is really here with us.
"Thank you, baby… oh my god, he is perfect, right?" Christian whispers in awe as he gently strokes our son's cheeks with his pinky finger.
"He is." I whisper and look around. Grace has covered me with a blanket and I see all of our family in the room with us. Elliot and Kate are holding each other smiling at Liam, Mia is standing with her parents crying happy tears and my Dad has my Mother in his arms and they are both also crying happy tears. This is the perfect moment. We are one big family now and all because of this beautiful little baby in my arms.
6 weeks later
"You are not going to crash mommy's and daddy's wedding again aren't you, sweet boy?" I ask my baby boy when I put him in his adorable little tux that matches Christian's, who had it made by his tailor so he and Liam would match today.
Right after giving birth to my little darling I thought we could still get married in the afternoon. Sadly, while Liam came out quick and without any issues, the placenta was a different story. Dr. Greene already told me that if the third try wasn't working, I would need surgery, which freaked both Christian and me out. Thankfully I managed to push it out in the end, but lost a little too much blood and needed a transfusion. To my surprise Christian insisted that he would donate the blood for me instead of me getting a random blood bag. I didn't even know that we had the same blood type, but it didn't surprise me that he knows stuff like that.
In the end I had to stay two nights at the hospital and Christian and I decided to post pone our wedding for six weeks. This way we can have our wedding night and take Liam with us on our honeymoon. We are going to the Caribbean and Grace told us that it would be okay to take Liam on a plane ride. Of course everyone offered to take him so we could go on our honeymoon just the two of us, but Liam is just six weeks old and both Christian and I are not ready to leave him overnight with someone else… let alone two weeks.
Three days ago Grace insisted to take him for the evening, so Christian and I could spend some time alone and go on a date. To say by the time, the evening came around we were both already exhausted would have been an understatement. Liam is the cutest baby during the day, but once it gets dark he turns into a little demon and is up all night. We both try to nap during the day, but even after six weeks, I haven't gotten used to the lack of sleep. So, when Grace came to pick him up for a few hours Christian and I both got upstairs to get ready for our date and we both rummaged around our closet like zombies until I had enough and asked if we could just stay home, order a pizza and take a nap. Christian gave me a huge relieved smile, we both threw on sweatpants and a t-shirt and before the pizza even arrived we were both sleeping cuddled up on the couch. I don't know if other new parents would agree, but to us it was the best post-baby date ever.
"Ana can I come in?" I hear my Mom call out from outside the bedroom.
"Come in." I call out trying to be not too loud so I want startle my little sweetheart.
"Aw… he is as cute as a button." My mom says and takes him from me.
"He is, right? Sometimes when I look at him I still can't believe that he is really my son… that Christian and I have created something as perfect as him." I muse and softly stroke his mop of copper colored hair.
"You have always given yourself way too little credit, Ana. You are a very beautiful girl, so of course your son is adorable." My mom says and I just smile, I guess I'm not ugly or anything, but for some reason, even if everyone keeps telling me how gorgeous I am, it just feels weird and a bit conceived to say that I am beautiful if I say it myself.
"So, do you want me to take Liam downstairs with me? Mia and Kate will be up any minute to help you get ready." My mom says and I nod. I have to say, I'm a bit nervous about putting my dress on. Since the dress I originally had picked was made to fit me while I was nine months pregnant, I couldn't wear it now that I had Liam. So, I had to get a new dress and picked it even though I didn't fit into it at the time. Now, four weeks after I got it, I have dropped some more of the baby weight, but I'm still not back to my pre-pregnancy weight. If the dress doesn't fit, I think I'm going to have a full blown panic attack.
I'm not fat by any means, but my belly is still really soft and I have a visible pouch, which I want to get rid of and Christian loves… did I mention that I'm going to marry a weirdo?
He has been pouting when I started to work out to get back into shape, because apparently, he likes me with a little bit more meat on my bones. It's not like I want to be super skinny again and I don't even want to drop all the baby weight, but I just want my belly to be a bit firmer than it is right now. What I really love are my boobs, because for the first time ever, I have some really nice boobs and I hope they won't go back to the way they were before, but if they do I guess I can at least look forward to having them bigger again once Christian and I have another child.
A little later my Mom has taken Liam downstairs and Mia and Kate are there to help me put my dress on.
"Please tell me you can get it to close in the back?" I murmur, horrified by the thought that stupid me might have bought a dress thinking that I would fit in today only to find out that I don't.
"Yes, but damn Steele, you are sweating, want to take another shower first?" Kate laughs and I give her the stink eye over my shoulder.
"Just saying and you could have avoided that little panic attack had you just tried it on a few days ago." She says and I pout.
"I was afraid it wouldn't fit."
"And you think Christian would allow for you to be without the most stunning dress today?" She says and I frown.
"He called the designer and had him sent two more versions of your dress. One in case this one is too small and one in case your 'I need to lose the baby weight' obsession would have gotten out of hand and this one is too big." She explains and I smile… I really do get the perfect husband… who would have thought that the same guy who once upon time told me he doesn't do love would turn out like this.
"You are grinning like a loon." Mia giggles.
"I'm happy, I mean life doesn't get any more perfect than it already is right now. I have amazing parents, great friends, an adorable son and today I'm going to marry the love of my life… I guess I'm just blissfully happy." I reply and it is true, I have never been happier in my life and when I think about the future I know that it is going to just as happy as this day will be.
Christian
"What do you think, bro? Will you make it to the altar this time?" Elliot says with a smirk and I flip him off. He thinks he is hilarious, but I don't see anything even remotely funny in the fact that something could happen that would prevent my wedding.
I have to say though, Liam's birth literally crashing the wedding will be one of the best memories ever. Damn, I can't believe the little guy has been with us for six weeks now. Honestly, I can't even imagine how life would be without him now, but maybe that's just my sleep deluded mind fucking with me.
Ana thinks he might be scared of the dark, but I believe he is just bored at night because he naps all through the day. Still, I'm not pissed when he wakes us for the fifth or even tenth time during the night, because holding my son has become one of my favorite things to do. If I'm not holding him, I'm watching him and it's fascinating. He makes the funniest faces and I swear he has smiled at me a number of times.
The one thing I hate is changing him. Not that I'm a pussy, but my son is on a mission to piss in my face at any given chance. I had pee in my eyes, nose and mouth… I'm pretty sure it's his favorite thing to do, but Ana says it's just bad luck. Sure, she can say that because he hasn't peed in her face so far. No, he saves all his pee for when it's my turn to change him, just so he can create an arch that will easily hit my face.
One time Ana even managed to film it happen with her phone and watching it later on made me laugh too… still, I hope I can master a diaper changing technique that will make it impossible for him to pee in my face soon.
"Look who came to say hi to his Daddy." Carla says as she steps into the room with Liam in her arms and I walk over to her to take him from her. Damn, he looks cute as hell in his little tux and it thrills me to see how much he already looks like me. I'm sure when he is grown up, he will look just like me but with Ana's eyes.
"Hey buddy, did you miss me… I hope you let mommy sleep at least a few hours last night." I say as I kiss his chubby face.
"Is everything ok with Ana?" I ask Carla next and she gives me a warm smile.
"She is getting ready, everything is fine… no interruptions this time." She says with a small laugh.
"I would hope so, though I'm sure Seattle's soup kitchens would be delighted to receive such a feast again." I murmur, remembering how Taylor and the rest of the security had to drive the entire wedding food and the cake to different soup kitchens, because I couldn't stand the thought of all the food going to waste.
"That was very thoughtful of you." Carla says.
"I guess… are you going to look after him until the ceremony is over?"
"Yes… well, Grace will help of course, we are both a little sad that we won't see the little guy for six weeks."
She is right, my mother offered to take him while Ana and I are on honeymoon at least twice a day since we told her we would take him with us… but there is no way I'm going to leave my son anywhere for six weeks, when I even hate the thought of leaving him for a few hours to work. Eventually, we will let him stay with his grandparents or other family members, but that time isn't now.
An hour later I find myself at the altar waiting for Ana. It's so alien for me to think about the guy I was before she left me. I was miserable always thinking that I don't deserve happiness, desperately trying to fill the void in my life with expensive cars, boats… subs who allowed me to exercise control over them and working until I couldn't keep my eyes open. And even when Ana emerged in my life, I was too afraid to confess to myself that she was the what I had been looking for my entire life, so I tried to mold her into something she was not and nearly lost her because of it. Losing her was what finally opened my eyes and now I can honestly say that the day she walked out of life wasn't the end of our relationship, it was the beginning.
As the music starts I look up and see Ana with Ray at the end of the isle and the moment our eyes meet she gives me the most beautiful smile. This is what I have been looking for all of my life… this woman who loves me despite all my flaws and whom I love with all of the heart I never thought I had… and today is just the beginning of our life together and so many more memorable moments to come…
THE END