CHAPTER 13: TREMBLING

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Passion was the only thing keeping Misaki's thoughts at bay. It was as if Rin's lips were her sanctuary and if she parted from them she'd be devoured by the dark abyss that had formed in her mind. An abyss filled with guilt ridden thoughts that all revolved around a single idea. This is wrong. The thought was pushed to the back of her mind by Rin's hands that clutched onto her thighs as he carried her upstairs. His hands were warm and slightly moist from nervousness that was welling up inside of him. He had to be nervous, Misaki thought, because as he kicked the door to her room shut and laid her down on the bed Misaki began to realize just how nervous she was.

Her body felt as if it were being pricked by needles. Needles which caused her muscles to quiver and her skin to crawl. Rough hands tried to smooth away the sensation. They stroked over her bare legs, over her hips before delving beneath her shirt. There they felt the contours of her waist, moving up and up until with a hitched breath they stopped.

"I-it's o-okay." Her voice sounded scared and distant. It rang in her ears and made her flinch. Hesitant eyes looked up at Rin to see him staring down at her. His eyes were filled with desire and concern as he slowly ran his hands down her stomach before removing contact completely.

Darkness shadowed Rin's face as he placed his hands by Misaki's arms, pushing them into the comforter in order to keep his weight from falling onto the girl beneath him. "Are you sure about this?"

Eyes rolled in Misaki's head as she let out a long exhale, "Y-yeah." The stutter couldn't be contained and Misaki mentally scorned herself for it. The abyss was moving closer, its dark breath whispering uncertainty in her ear.

"We don't have to-" Words came to a halt as Rin felt Misaki's palm pressing into his wrist. His weight shifted to the arm that was still pushing into the comforter as he watched her place his open hand onto her breast.

"It's fine." Her voice was stronger though the needle sensation had begun to intensify. Her stomach buzzed at the feeling of Rin's hand which slowly began to move.

His thumb caressed her breast, eliciting a moan of pleasure from Misaki who bit down on her bottom lip in an attempt to keep the noise muffled. Rin had less inhibition as a loud growl erupted from his chest before he pressed his lips to Misaki's jugular.

There he made small circles with his tongue, tasting the salty skin and nipping at it lightly. Lips moved downward, attaching to her collar bone where he gently sucked the sensitive skin. His hand mimicked the movement of his tongue, circling around Misaki's breast in a way that made her squirm with pleasure. His work on her collar bone came to stop as Rin felt his hair being tugged. The action caused him to release an annoyed grunt which was quickly muted my Misaki's lips.

Her kisses were hungry and frantic. Breathy moans racked her body at the feeling of Rin's touch. Quivering fingers found their way under Rin's shirt. Nails scraped up his chest, palms feeling the goose bumps that began forming. Misaki traced over his muscles before tugging the shirt over his head. Awkwardly Misaki tried to remove Rin's shirt, though it ended up getting stuck around his elbows.

"You're hopeless," Rin grunted as he sat up and tore his shirt off, tossing it to the side of the bed.

Misaki was about to respond but Rin's lips on hers made that impossible. As his tongue licked her bottom lip she felt his hands make their way under her shirt. One arm snaked around her waist, his upper body pressing into hers as his other hand resumed its work on her breast. As he fell into her Misaki also felt something resting up against her thigh.

Soon Rin became tired of having to work around Misaki's shirt and with a quick movement pulled the camisole off. "Rin," Misaki's voice was small and embarrassed as Rin's eyes stared down at the black lacy bra.

Without warning his lips were soon on the exposed skin which the bra didn't cover. Cheeks flushed as Misaki dug her nails into Rin's back. Slowly her hands moved his back before hooking her thumbs into Rin's sweatpants. Her stomach buzzed and hands shook as she began pushing the sweatpants down from Rin's hips.

Rin's mouth moved away from Misaki's breast, his eyes widening slightly as he looked down at the noirette. Her face was flushed and black strands of hair clung to her forehead. Her chest was heaving and her lips were wet with saliva. The sight made Rin's stomach churn as he twitched with excitement. He leaned down and placed a single kiss on the purple bruise he had left on her collar bone before rolling off of her.

Misaki let out a slight whine as she looked to see Rin standing near the side of her bed. There he slid off his sweatpants and once stepping out of those he began to pull down his boxers. Misaki's heart rate quickened as she turned her gaze up towards her ceiling. Her stomach was aching with nerves as she flicked her gaze back towards Rin.

Her cheeks reddened at the sight of him naked and her eyes widened at she took a quick glance at his erection. She had never seen a naked man before, the sight was enough to make her feel dizzy and a little queasy. This is really happening, she thought as she inhaled sharply. Body jumped as she felt Rin's warm hands graze over her stomach. She watched as he unbuttoned her shorts and slowly began to slide them off. Once she was only in her underwear the male paused, placing his hands on her thighs.

"You're shaking," he noted softly, feeling the flesh quiver beneath his touch, "You know if you don't want to-"

Misaki quickly sat up and captured Rin's lips. She couldn't stand to hear him express doubt, because she wanted this. She wanted him. One hand cupped his cheek while the other tentatively ran down his chest. The kiss broke as she wrapped her hands around the pulsating member and a mixture of moans and ragged breaths sputtered from Rin's lips.

Slowly she began moving her thumb up and down, realizing how smooth the skin was. Her hand was shaky from nerves as she ran her thumb over the tip. The action made Rin thrust forward and throw his head back in pleasure. Before Misaki could continue she found herself lying on her back with Rin towering over her. The shock of being pushed backwards caused her to release Rin's now throbbing erection.

"R-Rin," the girl nearly screamed as she felt Rin's fingers lightly graze over her covered entrance. His name left her lips once more as he tugged the fabric down, leaving Misaki in just her bra.

She could feel it. The tip of Rin's member dancing around her entrance and it was enough to make her scream. Her whole body was shaking, sweat exiting her pores as she tried to steady her breathing. "Rin," she muttered, pushing her body downwards in an attempt to bring him closer to her.

Misaki screamed his name then bit down on her bottom lip as she felt him begin to push into her warmth. Eyes shut tightly as he continued. The feeling of being expanded made her squirm. Her breathing was loud, her chest heaving up and down as she clung onto Rin's biceps. Her nails dug into the skin as what was once pure pleasure began to take an uncomfortable turn.

Her lower abdomen began to burn with the feeling of being filled. Misaki gasped at the feeling of Rin sliding out of her before slamming back in. It made her back arch and her nails dig so deep into his arm that she drew blood. Rin's pants and grunts of pleasure filled the air as he continued the motion. What was once uncomfortable began to build into pleasure as Misaki yanked down on Rin's neck causing their lips to sloppily meet.

She felt his hot breath against her lips as he began to move faster and faster, the pace making Misaki's pants become louder. The sound caused Rin to become even more aroused as he leaned into her and bit down on her earlobe. There he whispered her name, thoughts of how damn sexy and beautiful she was filling his head. There those thoughts accompanied the ones that were screaming about how fucking perfect this felt. How warm Misaki was, how perfectly he fit inside her, and how every time she said his name he nearly lost it. A pressure began building inside of his abdomen, causing him to thrust into Misaki harder as her ragged breathing urged him to continue.

A strangled moan caused Rin's lips to part as he felt Misaki thrust forward, causing him to fill her completely. She did it again, her hands scratching at Rin's back as she moaned out his name. Moans and grunts filled the area as their bodies collided over and over again. The warmth inside Rin's abdomen was building more and more and with a loud grunt followed by a murmur of Misaki's name he released inside of her. Any strength the male had was gone as he collapsed onto the female.

Misaki gasped as she felt Rin sliding out of her. Her legs were trembling from the residual feeling of Rin sliding in and out of her, and she shamelessly wished that he would do it again. Soon the trembling moved up from her legs and racked her whole body. Pants left her mouth as she tried to calm down, but it wasn't working.

"Are you okay?" Rin asked as he placed a gentle kiss on Misaki's lips. As he separated their lips he let out a growl, "God you're so fucking sexy."

Misaki giggled as she ran her fingers through Rin's hair which was wet and matted with sweat. "I'm fine," her voice was shaky as she tried to find her breath.

With a grunt Rin rolled off her and onto his back, his gaze set up at the ceiling as he rested on his hands on his stomach. The high was hard to come down from. His whole body felt like it was tingling and every now and then an involuntary twitch would cause his muscles to spasm. As he began to calm down a thought rushed through his mind and made him nearly choke. "We didn't use a condom," he spat, sitting up and looking down at Misaki who didn't seem fazed by his comment.

"I'm on birth control," she breathed.

Rin's eyebrows shot up as he began to wonder why she would be on birth control. Unless. "Have you…." He paused to swallow the lump in his throat, "Done this before?"

The thought of Misaki having sex with Makoto nearly made Rin sick. The euphoria had faded and Rin was left with an uneasy feeling coursing through his veins as he stared down at the noirette.

"You're my first," Misaki whispered and noticed how relief seemed to wash over Rin.

Rin nodded his head once as he swung his legs over the side of the bed, "I should probably get going."

Misaki instantly felt nauseous as she sat up and latched onto one of Rin's arms, "Wait, no just stay for a little while."

"I have school tomorrow."

"Please," Misaki begged, an odd feeling forming in the pit of her stomach. Here just moments before Rin had been inside of her, he had been closer to her than she could have ever imagined and now the thought of him leaving made her feel sick.

Rin raised an eyebrow at Misaki's pitiful expression. She really did have the most annoying sad face because Rin would never say no to it. "Fine, but at least let me put some clothes on."

Misaki released Rin's arm, watching as he scoured the room for his clothes. "Don't put your shirt on," Misaki ordered, causing a confused expression to come to Rin's face though he didn't argue.

As Rin was sliding on his boxers and sweatpants Misaki swung her legs over the side of the bed. A small gasp left her mouth as she stood up to put her underwear back on. Her whole lower body felt sore. It was uncomfortable to walk and Misaki said a silent prayer that this aching would be gone by tomorrow.

"You should sleep over," Misaki said as she returned to the bed now dressed in pajama shorts and a t-shirt.

"I wish," Rin said as he lied down and pulled Misaki into his chest. He really did like how it felt to just lay here with Misaki in his arms. Plus he felt completely exhausted and had no real desire to have to trek back to Samezuka .

"You could go to school from here," Misaki suggested as she nuzzled into Rin's bare chest, a shiver running up her spine as the sweat began to evaporate from her body.

Rin's jaw crackled as he let out a yawn and sunk into the bed a little more, "Oi, was this your plan from the beginning?"

"Huh?"

Rin placed one finger under Misaki's chin to cause her to look up at him, "Was it your plan for us to have sex tonight?"

Misaki wasn't entirely sure how to answer that. Yes, she had wanted to do something with Rin though she hadn't expected it to go so far. "Kind of," she shrugged, "Are you mad?"

Mad was probably the last emotion Rin was feeling. Instead he was impressed at Misaki's tenacity yet a little disappointed in her decision making. "We just had sex, how could I possibly be mad?"

Rin had a point because if he felt even slightly as elated as Misaki then there really was no way he could be mad. Misaki felt like she was on cloud nine, like she had abandoned all of her problems at the surface and the only thing that mattered was Rin. "Stay the night," she whispered, propping herself up on her elbow in order to look down at Rin, "Please?"

"You're aggravating," Rin huffed, "And it's fucking hot in here so turn on a fan."

"Does that mean you're staying?"

Rin narrowed his gaze before leaning up and capturing Misaki's lips. "Yes," he said gruffly, his breath hitting her lips, "I'll stay."

Author's Note: Apparently I need to ask for your guy's opinion more often. Last chapter got the most reviews of any chapter in this story, and that alone really motivated me to get this chapter out because hearing your guy's feedback really makes me want to get updates out quickly for you guys.

Thanks to Ember, Guest, Tolazytologon, and Rina7745 for letting me know that you wanted a lemon. This is my very first time writing any kind of smut so I'm not sure how good it is. Please let me know how it was and please let me know if you'd like to see more smut in this story.

xMiss Shizaya Michaelisx: I know :( Sometimes I feel like a complete jerk for writing Makoto into a situation like this cause he's so sweet and really doesn't deserve it.

HellOnTheEngine: I tried to make the lemon not too vulgar, if you ended up reading it what did you think? And yeah it's good for Misaki to have her first time with someone she really cares about but the whole thing is really unfair for Makoto.

Rina7745: Did you like the lemon!? I hope it turned out okay since I've never written one before. And thank you so much! I also think my writing has improved and I'm hoping it will just keep getting better.

miss a:Thanks so much for the review and I hope you liked the update!