Chapter 11
I walk into the studio and Leah is right there. "Are you okay?" she asked. "Yeah. Just needed a minute." I say. "Okay, well, I started getting the scenes together and I was looking, and the only ones left are the girl on girl scenes." She tells me. "That's good. Maybe I can handle those." I tell her. "Well, I'm here if you need me." She says, and I smile at her. "Thanks again for stepping up. You don't know how much I appreciate all the hard work you are putting in. I was thinking, when we get the credits together, I want to put you down as assistant producer. Are you good with that?" I asked. She hugs me and says "Yeah."
Back at the clubhouse, Opie and Jax are sitting around. "You get the text from Cami?" Opie asked. "Yeah. Looks like she's made her decision." Jax says. He gets up from the bar and grabs the nearest croweater and heads to the back. Another croweater sits next to Opie and starts rubbing her hand up and down his arm. "I can make you feel real good baby." She says, and he decides, fuck it, and takes her back to his dorm to get his dick wet.
At the studio, I am sitting there directing the scene, "Alright ladies, this scene shouldn't take long, and we will call it a day. This is the last scene so let's get it done." I say. Once the scene is done, the girls walk over and one of then walks over and says, "Can I talk to you a minute?" I nod, and we walk to my office. I close the door and ask, "What's up Lana?" She looks at me and says "Not that I'm not glad to see you back at work but, how are you really doing? I know you say you are okay, but are you?" I look down and then back at her and say, "I don't know." She is silent for a minute and says "I was raped. About five years ago. I was at a party and the guy that I was seeing, raped me. Him and three of his friends." I look at her, shocked. "How did you handle it?" I asked. "I found someone that I was comfortable with and started hooking up. I know it sounds crazy, but I needed to take that power back. So, I found a good friend of mine, that knew what happened, that I knew wouldn't say anything or judge me and we started fooling around a little. Moving things slowly forward a step at a time to help me feel more comfortable with myself. After a little while, we were having sex. It wasn't something where we were falling in love. But it was just an arrangement. Something to help me get that power back and heal." She explained. "That really worked for you?" I asked. "Yeah it did. Having someone pay attention to you and give you that power, letting you control the situation, it heals you and helps you move on. I'm not saying it works for everyone, but it couldn't hurt, right? Think about it. If it seems like something that will help you, do it. If not, I am here if you ever need to talk to someone that's been there." She says as she stands to leave. "Thanks Lana. I appreciate it." I tell her. She smiles and leaves the room.
I go home and think about what she says. Who would I trust enough to help me with this? I think about it and I pick up my phone. Calling someone that I have known for years, but would he help me? The phone rings a couple of times and then he answers. "Hello?" he says in that gruff voice that I know so well. "Hey Happy. Got a minute?" I asked. "Cami? Yeah, what's up?" he asked. He used to come around all the time with my dad even though he was several years younger. "Are you coming to Charming anytime soon?" I asked. "Yeah, why?" he asked. "I was wondering if you could stop by my house. I need your help with something." I tell him. "Yeah, I'll be there in the morning. Will you be home?" he asked. "Yeah, I'll be here. Not working tomorrow." I say. "Okay. See you then." He says. "Ride safe, Hap." I say before he ends the call.
The next day, I am sitting in the kitchen, getting my thoughts together when there's a knock on the door. I open the door and let him in. "What? No hug?" he says, and I walk over and he pulls me into a hug. He's not an affectionate person but he was always different with me. "What did you need to talk to me about little girl?" he asked. I lead him to the couch and I ask him, "Did they tell you what happened to me?" He looks at me and says "Yeah. How are you holding up?" I look down at my hands and say "That's what I need to talk to you about. I'm not doing too good. I try to let everyone think I am okay but I'm not." I tell him. "What do you need?" he asked. "I need to ask a favor, but I don't know how you will feel about it." I say. "You know I was seeing Jax and Opie?" I asked. "Yeah. Why?" he asked. "I broke things off with them. I can't be with them if I can't even look at them. I feel like no one is going to want me now because of this shit." I tell him. "How is it you think I can help?" he asked. "Uh, one of the girls that works for me, suggested that I find someone I trust and have them help me get back into the physical aspect of things." I say, not knowing how to word it. He looks at me and says, "You want me to have sex with you?" He asked, his tone flat. "I know it's a lot to ask but I'm not asking you to be my Old Man or anything, just someone I trust to help me get comfortable with myself again. Someone that can help me get back to the old me. Someone that I know will be patient with me. I need to get that power back Happy and there's no one I trust more than you." I ramble out. He takes my face in his hands and kisses my lips softly and says "Okay." I look at him and say, "You'll help me?" He pulls me to him and says "Yeah, little girl. I will. But don't go getting any ideas. You might get addicted to the things I can do to you." He says, and I laugh. "Thanks Hap."
Happy leans over and kisses me again. He doesn't try to push me farther. He pulls me into his lap and we just kiss. And it feels good. I feel his thumb rubbing circles on my hip while the other is rubbing my back, holding me close. He pulls back and asks, "This okay?" I nod and start to kiss him again. It really does feel good. He lets me take the lead, and I get up to straddle him. Feeling his hard member underneath me, tells me I am doing something right. We come up for air and I look at him. He says "I didn't know you could kiss like that. Damn little girl." I lay my head on his shoulder and start laughing as he rubs my back. "At least I got some kind of reaction." I say. "Yeah you did." He tilts my head to look at him and kisses me again. "Are you okay?" he asked. "I will be. Thank you." I say. He kisses me again and I say, "Looks like a croweater's gonna get lucky when you get to the clubhouse." I say. "Nah, while we're doing this, I ain't hooking up with nobody. You need to know you're worth it." He says softly before kissing me again. His phone goes off and he answers it, his eyes never leaving mine. I go to get up so that he can talk, and he holds me there. Once off the phone, he kisses me and says "Gotta head to the clubhouse. Got church." He says. "Hap, it won't hurt my feelings if you do hook up with a croweater. I know I can't do anything right now but that doesn't mean you can't." I say. "I told you. No one but you until you get past this shit. I got you." He says and kisses me again before walking out the door.
I get up the next morning to a text from Happy. Looks like I'm gonna be around a while. Clay asked me to patch Redwood. I smile and text back That's great. Dinner, my house, tonight? He texts back that he will be there. I head into the office and I am smiling for once. Lana sees me and comes over and sees me smiling. "Lana, can I see you in my office a minute?" She nods and follows me. "Does it have anything to do with that smile on your face?" she asked, and I nod. "I, uh, took your advice. There is this guy that I have known forever, and I explained what I needed and he said he would help me out." I tell her. "He know what happened?" she asked. "Yeah. He does." I say. "Good. So, spill. How far did you get?" She asked, and it feels like I have a girlfriend again. "We just kissed. Like heavy kissing but he didn't push me, and it felt good. I told him that he could still hook up with other chicks because it's not fair to get all riled up with me and then not get that release, but he told me no. He said as long as we were doing this, he wouldn't be with anyone else." I told her. "Well, just remember, this is about you. Take your time and don't push yourself any farther than you are comfortable, and I am here if you need to talk." She tells me. I hug her and thank her again before we head back out the do some editing.
That evening, I am in the kitchen cooking when there's a knock on the door. I look out the peephole and see Happy standing there. "Hey Hap." I say, letting him in. "Hey Cami." He says. He takes off his boots at the door and hangs his kutte on the hook before meeting me in the kitchen. "What's for dinner?" he asked. "I thought meatloaf, mashed potatoes and corn on the cob would be good." I say. "He kisses my cheek and says, "Sounds good babe." He sits down at the table and I plate the food and bring our plates over before getting both of us beers. We talk a little about our day and he tells me that they are having a vote in a couple of days to vote him in. "You think they will vote you in?" I asked. "Yeah. They said they needed bodies." He says. "You okay with that?" he asked. "Yeah. I am. It will be good having you here full time. How's your mom doing?" I asked. "She's better. The meds seem to be helping her and her doctor seems to think she can beat it." He says. "That's great news Hap. It really is." I say. "You should go see her." He says, and I look at him. "I'm going down this weekend if you wanna ride." He says. "Yeah, sure." I say. My dad used to take me to Hap's mom's when he first patched and I loved that woman.
After dinner, he jumps in the shower while I get the kitchen cleaned up. After it's cleaned up, I head to the couch where he meets me in just a pair of sweat pants and no shirt. I look at him and he says "I thought we could take it a step up. Me sleeping in your bed. Nothing has to happen just taking it a step farther. If you don't want to, I'll sleep on the couch." He says. "No, that's fine." I say. He pulls me to him and we just sit there watching TV. After a little while, I decide to kiss him. I lean up and kiss him softly and he kisses me back. He deepens the kiss and pulls me back to his lap. After a small make out session, he turns the TV off and we head to bed. Getting into bed, he lays on his back and I lay my head on his chest. It just seems so easy with him. Easier than with Jax or Opie. He tilts my head up and kisses me softly and I pull him to me to deepen it. He kisses me rough and hard as his hands start to rub up and down my side. I feel him getting hard next to me and I push his hand up to my breast. I reach my hand down to his crotch and rub him over his sweat pants. I hear him groan into my mouth as I feel him get even harder under my touch. He breaks from the kiss and I pull away and say, "I'm sorry." He pulls me to him and says "Don't be. Are you okay?" he asked. "I think so. That was…encouraging." I say, laughing a little. "Yeah it was." He says. "I'm gonna hit the shower." He says and starts to get up. "Uh, will you let me take care of it? Please?" I say. "Not this time. You've pushed yourself far enough for the night." He says. "But I feel bad." I tell him. "And that's why you ain't ready to take that step. It's fine little girl. I'll be back." He says. After his shower, he walks into the room, and climbs into bed. Pulling me to him he says, "Good night little girl." I snuggle in closer and say, "Thank you Hap." He kisses the top of my head and I fall asleep with his arm around me.