Chapter 12
I get up the next morning and Happy is gone. I get ready for work and head out the door. Walking into the studio, Lyla follows me to my office and asked if she can talk to me a minute. "What's up?" I ask her. "I need to ask you something and I completely understand if you say no but I wanted to come to you before anything happened." she tells me and I look at her confused. "What's going on?" she asked. "Opie asked me out." she says and I look at her for a second, stunned. "If you aren't okay with this, I will say no." she says. Lyla is a sweet girl and we have always gotten along. After a few seconds I speak. "Lyla, he needs someone that can give his what I can't. I would rather it be someone who will take care of him. I am fine with it. I have been thinking about things and getting into a relationship with him and Jax was a bad idea from the start. They were my best friends. It should never have gone as far as it did. Take him up on it. I want him and Jax to be happy." I tell her. "Are you sure?" she asked. I get up and hug her and say "I'm sure. You have my blessing." She hugs me back and leaves my office smiling. I think about it for a minute and I am actually relieved.
Talking to the girls, and getting the promo shots done, I am looking over the shots with Leah when I feel a tap on my shoulder. Looking up I see Jax. "Can we talk?" he asked. I nod my head and ask Leah to keep checking the shots. We walk into my office and close the door. "How are you?" he asked. "I'm getting better Jax. Really, I am." I tell him and it feels like it's the truth. "Good. I need to ask you something." he says. "Okay. What?" I ask. "Is there a chance we will get back together?" he asked. I look at him for a second and say "No. I love you and Opie both but getting into a relationship with you guys was a mistake. I miss the friendship that we had but I can't go back to that. You guys were amazing to me and I am so grateful for that but we all need to move on. Opie is moving on with Lyla." I tell him. "You okay with that?" he asked. "Yeah. She came to me and asked me about it first to make sure that I am okay." I tell him. "What about you?" he asked. "I still have a lot of healing to do, but, Jax, I am getting there. I have someone helping through shit that I can trust. You don't have to worry about me." I tell him. "Okay. I ran into Tara today." he tells me. "Wait. T's back?" I asked. "Yeah, and we are talking." he tells me and looks as if he's gauging my reaction. "That's great. Honestly, it makes me feel a little better knowing that you both are moving on. It means that I can concentrate on getting myself back together." I tell him. "And how are you getting yourself back together?" he asked. "I have a good friend keeping me company and helping me work through shit. I promise, I'm good." I tell him. We hug and he walks out and I head back to getting the shots checked.
A couple of hours later, it's just me and Lana working on getting a few extra shots in when someone walks into the studio. There's no one else here but me and Lana. After taking the next shot, I look over and see Happy standing there. "Hey Lana. I think that's it for today." I tell her and she smiles and as she passes me she says "Is he the one?" I just nod my head and she says "Good job." I start laughing as she walks off and shaking my head. "Hey Hap." I say and after Lana is out of sight, he leans down and kisses me softly. "Hey." he says simply. "Ready to head home?" he asked. "Home?" I asked. "Yeah, I need a place to stay since I am helping you out, I thought you'd help me out." he says and that's when I see his hand holding his new patches. "Holy shit! You patched?" I asked. He nods his head and I say "Let's go home and celebrate. I'll cook whatever you want." He just laughs and we walk out the door together. Walking into the house, he brings his duffle bag in and I tell him "Take it to our room." He looks at me and I say "It would be a little stupid to tell you to put it in the guest room when you've slept in my bed." He smirks and heads to my bedroom and yells, "I'm getting in the shower." I head to the kitchen and start dinner. I decide to make something simple. Steaks and baked potatoes. His favorite. As the food is cooking, I get his kutte from the front hook and get the new patches out of his pocket and start taking off the old ones and putting his Redwood Original patches on there. Dinner's almost ready and I am putting the last stitch in his patches as he walks into the kitchen. "You didn't have to do that." he tells me. "I know. Not the first time I've done this. Mom couldn't sew for shit so I always did Dad's." I tell him.
We sit down and start to eat and he says "I went to see your Old Man today." I stiffen. "How's he doing?" I asked since he won't let me come see him anymore. "He's good. Told him about our arrangement and that I was going to talk to you about staying here since I patched in." he says. "What did my dad say?" I asked, almost scared of the answer. "He said that until we want people to know what's going on, that if anyone asks, he asked me to stay with you as a favor to him." That's my dad. Always trying to protect me. "You good with that?" I asked. "Yeah. I'm good." he tells me.
We finish dinner and I head to the shower after cleaning up the kitchen. Once I'm done, I look at myself in the mirror. I'm not the same person that I was. Hell, I don't even recognize myself anymore. I feel a tear run down my face and I feel Hap's arms pull me into him. "It's okay little girl. I got you." he says as he rubs his hands up and down my back. I pull away from him and say "I'm sorry." He tilts my head up and kisses me softly. "Don't. You don't have to hide shit from me. That's what I am here for." he tells me.
We walk over to the bed and lay down and he turns the TV on. We lay there for a few minutes, him on one side and me on the other. "I talked to Jax today." I say. "What'd you talk about?" he asked, looking over at me. "Tara's back in town. Looks like they are talking." I say. "You okay with that?" he asked. "Yeah, getting into a relationship with them was a mistake. They need to move on. I'll miss my best friends but I want them to be happy. I thought about it for a while and I'm okay with it. Lyla came to me and said Opie asked her out but she wanted to make sure I would be okay with it before she answered him. I told her to go for it." I explain. "You really okay with it?" He asked. I look up at him and say "Yeah. I am. I didn't think I would be but I feel more relief than sadness." I tell him. "That's good. Means you're healing." he says.
He holds his arm out and says "Come here." I move over and lay next to him. He faces me and starts kissing me. His kisses are rough and passionate. It's like he's telling a story with each movement of his lips against mine. A story that I seem to be telling right along with him. I roll over so that I can straddle him, him letting me take control and the deeper the kisses get, the more I find myself grinding my center against his hardening member. I feel him growl in my mouth as he kisses me and he turns us over so that he's hovering over me. He starts kissing down my neck and slowly slides my shirt over my head. I don't stop him. I am not thinking about what I am doing. I am just going with what feels right. He starts kissing down to my breasts where he pays complete attention to both my nipples, causing me to arch my back, giving in to him. He kisses his way down my stomach, to the top of my shorts and starts to pull them down. Looking at me as if to ask for permission. I nod and he slowly takes them down. Getting undressed himself, he gets between my legs and slides his member up and down my folds. He looks at me and I nod again. "Are you sure little girl?" I smile softly and say "I'm sure, Hap. Please." he kisses me softly and says "If at any point you need to stop, you tell me. I don't care if I get off or not. This is about you." he tells me. "Understood?" he asked. "Understood." I tell him and she slowly enters me. He gives me a minute to adjust to his size and then he starts slowing thrusting in and out. The entire time, he's either kissing me or whispering in my ear, telling me how beautiful I am and how good I feel, or asking me if I am okay. Once I reach my release, he reaches his right after. He hovers over me for a minute, just looking at me. I feel a tear fall down my face and he asks "Are you okay baby?" I just lean up and kiss him and say "I have never been better. Thank you Happy?" He pulls out of me and lays next to me. Pulling me into his side, he jokes, "I guess you don't need me now?" I just laugh and say "Nah, I still need ya."
The next morning, I wake up to him nudging me. "Wake up little girl. Get dressed. We leave in twenty." I wipe the sleep from my eyes and ask, "Where are we going?" He smiles and says "Bakersfield." I smile and get dressed and ready to walk out the door in twenty minutes. Getting on his bike we make the ride to his mom's and as we get off the bike in front of her house, she walks outside and sees us standing there. "Mija?" she asked. "Hey Ma." I say and run to her, hugging her. This woman was always like a mom to me and I could talk to her about everything. Walking into the house behind her, she asked, "What are you two doing here?" Happy looks at her and says "Cami needed someone to talk to and thought you could help. I'm gonna go fix that shit in the back yard you said you needed done." he says. He kisses his mother and then kisses my cheek before walking off. She looks at me confused and I say "No, we aren't together." She smirks just like he does. "So, what is going on that he thinks you need someone to talk to?" She asked me. "About a month ago, I was raped. By multiple men. They have been taken care of but I was having trouble dealing with it. I, uh, was seeing two of the guys from the club and broke things off because I didn't think that they would want me. I realized after the fact that the relationships wouldn't have worked out anyway. But one of the girls that works for me told me she was raped and that she had a friend become a 'friend' to help her get past the physical part of it to be more comfortable with herself." I tell her. "And seeing that you came in with my son, I take it he is doing that for you?" she asked. "Yeah but it's more than that. He's been my best friend through this whole thing. Making sure that I am okay and that I am not being pushed too far." I tell her. "That's good Mija. But why do I feel that there's more to it?" she asked. "I don't know what you mean?" I ask, confused. "Sweetheart, he doesn't show affection to many people but he has always had a weak spot for you." she says and my eyes go wide. "Why do you think your dad would bring you around? Me and your mother used to joke that we were going to arrange a marriage with you and him." she said. "Please tell me you were all joking right?" I asked. "Of course but, Mija, if something happens and it turns into something else, promise me you won't fight it." she says. I sit there for a minute before grabbing her hand and saying "I promise."